You are my Chinese class representative

Hayao Miyazaki once said: "Everyone's story has a very gentle beginning, but often the end of the story is not worthy of the whole beginning."

I think the story of me and Su Mosheng is also the same.

I resigned as a Chinese class representative because I am not ready to be a Chinese class representative for anyone other than Su Mosheng.There is a new Chinese teacher, and I seem to have never looked at him directly.After Su Mosheng left, I really fell.He became less talkative, and his eyes gradually became hollow.

Yao Lin was very worried about whether I was depressed.

She always told me: "Don't be depraved, don't skip meals all the time, tell me when you're wronged, and cry when you're sad, at least I'm still here, always here."

But I don't seem to have these feelings anymore, I seem to have lost the emotions that a normal person should have, and I don't even know if I still really exist in this world.

Xu Aizhi also talked to me many times, asked about my mother's situation, and encouraged me to cheer up.

But she only didn't mention Su Mosheng.

Why didn't you mention it, why didn't you scold me, why didn't you punish me.Even if it is recorded in my file, it is also evidence of our love!

I was like a walking dead, as if I had lost my soul.Back and forth between the school and the hospital.

At night, I sat beside Lu Min's bed. Her leukemia was at an advanced stage, and her lips were so pale that I couldn't bear to look at her.It turns out that the heart really hurts, it hurts, it hurts.I haven't shed tears for a long time, probably because the lacrimal glands have been numb.

At first, I would talk to Lu Min when I was in bed with her, telling her not to worry about me.Gradually, I was speechless when facing Lu Min.I haven't told her that Su Mosheng has left, because I'm afraid that if I tell her, the grievances accumulated in my heart will be out of my control.I can't be vulnerable in front of her, can't let her, don't worry.

"I'm afraid of you."

Because of the infusion, her hands were cold.I don't know how hard she used to raise her hand to touch my face.

But the more she touched me, the more scared I became, and the more she talked, the more uncomfortable I became.The haze in my life has accumulated little by little in my heart.The once fresh heart seems to have become dirty and heavy, dragging me all the time.

"I'm afraid, I told you, you will never be happy again."

I didn't reply to her.I wanted to blame her for hiding it from me, but couldn't say it.

She also seemed to be aware of the seriousness of the topic, and tried to find a way to lead it in a happy direction.

"Where is your teacher Su, tell me the story between you and your teacher Su."

I tried to say it, I closed my eyes and took deep breaths again and again.

"We have agreed that she will wear the little suit that I was wearing when proctoring me, and I will wear the whitest wedding dress in the world, and then we will hold a wedding in an unknown church in Europe, mom (I am about to lose Voice), you must come." Tears finally flowed down.

Lu Min patted my hand, the back of her hand was about to be pierced by a pinhole, which shocked me.

"My daughter must look beautiful in a wedding dress, I really want to see it."

"Of course it's beautiful." I wiped my tears with my arm and continued, "After all, my mother was so beautiful when she was young, how can I not be beautiful."

"Su Mosheng said that she will work hard to make money. We want to buy a two-bedroom apartment with a sea view, and we need to raise a cat or a dog with very long hair."

"We still have a pair of daughters, and you must come to help us take care of the children when the time comes, the two of us will definitely be too busy."

"Okay, no problem." Lu Min was very tired.

I covered her with a quilt and she fell asleep peacefully.She was very happy, maybe she was holding Xiao Xiaosu and Xiao Xiao Shen in her dream.

The only person who wished me and Su Mosheng happiness is gone.

On the day of Lu Min's funeral, I went in a wedding dress.All were black, and my white wedding dress stood out.

My dad beat me up for it, saying I was "crazy, what kind of wedding dress to wear to a funeral, it's not a festive thing."

He has never hit me since he was a child, but since my mother's accident, he has become irritable.

When I was beaten by him, I didn't cry, I just said something to him lightly.

"My mom, I want to see me in a wedding dress."

Later, Shen Yaohui hugged me and kept apologizing.I am also like a wooden man, with my hands hanging straight down like that, without the slightest emotion.

Shen Hai hurried back, and finally he yelled the phrase "Mom", but it was too late.

Without Lu Min's house, it's a mess, the cockroaches on the first floor have crawled into the kitchen stove, the sofa is full of clothes thrown everywhere, there are mine, Shen Yaohui's and Lu Min's, Shen Hai still has a life A little bit of reason, he scolded our father and daughter, but it was useless.There is no complete empathy in the world. No one can understand how painful it is for a man over fifty to lose two wives in just half his life.No one can understand how hard it is for me to grow up overnight.

I haven't been to school for many days. Xu Aizhi would call me every day, but I didn't answer. She also came to the house several times, and I opened the door for her.She took a lot of homework and test papers, but they all turned into garbage in the end.Seeing how messy our house was, Xu Aizhi couldn't help cleaning it up, but it didn't last for a few days before it became the same.

I went to school once, only to find that the new Chinese teacher is a male teacher, and the reason I noticed him was because he said: "How did your previous Chinese teacher teach?"

Without saying a word, I rushed up and hit him. I used all my strength and hit him hard. Every punch hit him in the face.In the end I sat on top of him and my fists didn't stop.The lens of his glasses was separated from the frame, the edge of the lens cut the eyelid, and his face was bruised and swollen. It was Xu Aizhi who pulled us away.

This is the second time Xu Aizhi got angry, and it's funny to think about it. A gentle head teacher like Xu Aizhi always gets angry for me many times.

She slapped me: "The first time, I slapped for Teacher Su."

This was the first time she mentioned Su Mosheng, even so, my eyes lit up.

After Su Mosheng left, no one in the school mentioned Su Mosheng in front of me, not Yao Lin, not Sun Yu, not even Qin Shuyao, all the students in the class came to comfort me, but no one Mention Su Mosheng.

"The school has already decided to punish you. Teacher Su called her father to plead with Wang Yong. At that time, her father slapped her like this in front of the school leaders."

"She rescinded your punishment in spite of everything, just to prevent you from standing on the rostrum and being scolded by the whole school, walking in the school and being pointed at by others, so that you can graduate smoothly without stains on your file."

"You punched me today, all her efforts were in vain, do you know that! Shen Tang!"

"I don't need her to do that!"

"Slap!" Another slap fell on my face hard.

"This second time, I hit it for your mother."

"She doesn't tell you about her illness, but she doesn't want you to be as depraved as you are now. Look at your current appearance. Are you still a little human? Are you worthy of your mother!"

"Shen Tang! You are about to become an adult! These things must be experienced in life! You just experienced it a little earlier than others."

"Could it be that your long life will be ruined because of what you've experienced now! You still have a bright future! This is Teacher Su, and your mother fought for you. Are you going to destroy even these? "

"There is always a way, and you will cry while walking."

I lowered my head and tears fell to the ground drop by drop.

Xu Aizhi walked forward and opened her arms to hug me gently. I rested my head on her shoulder, letting my tears flow.Xu Aizhi's embrace is different from that of her mother who is full of tolerance and pampering, and also different from Su Mosheng's full of romance and love. She is just an ordinary person who gives you the motivation to live in the trough of your life.

The appearance of Xu Aizhi warmed my whole youth.

I cried a lot that day.

It was even worse than the day Wang Yong kicked me out of Class [-].

The author has something to say:

May all the people in the world, their parents be healthy, reunite after a broken mirror, and the future can be expected.

In the end, lovers get married.