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Li Li huddled in the darkness where he couldn't see his fingers, his bright pupils sank into the darkness and were gradually swallowed by that layer of blackness.

After Cheng Zhiyuan finished speaking, he even breathed a little lighter.

Brother Zhiyuan is such a smart person.

During this week of getting along, I am afraid that I have already guessed something, or I have seen the fear in his heart.

After outsiders set foot in his heart, the strange thing is that he didn't repel him at all, instead it became a kind of comfort.

The person in the bed behind was breathing so lightly that he seemed to be asleep.

Finally, he let out a breath slowly, accompanied by an inexplicable courage.

"Brother Zhiyuan."

"In the second year of junior high school, I didn't have a mother..."

Cheng Zhiyuan who had closed his eyes on the bed slowly opened them, and the dim light flickered twice in the middle of the night.Even though the boy was restrained enough, he still couldn't resist the choking that spread from his throat.

When he said that, he didn't mean to make the boy tear out his bloody heart.

He said suddenly: "Li Li..."

Li Li knew that Cheng Zhiyuan wanted to interrupt him, but once he mustered up the courage to open his heart, he couldn't stop.

It's like a way to vent, more like a powerless person finally found a little support.

"Brother Zhiyuan, I want to say."

After a while, Cheng Zhiyuan said "Yes" softly.

"It was hot on the day of the funeral."

"My brother and I were the only ones who sent my mother away."

"Looking at my brother's busy schedule, he even humbly asked relatives to borrow money."

"While my mother was alive, there was never a happy day."

"So my brother doesn't want to suffer even when she leaves."

"The moment I saw my brother kneel down and beg for help, I really felt so cold."

Cheng Zhiyuan looked at the ceiling that he couldn't see clearly, and there was a deep gap between his brows.

At that time, the two teenagers who were deeply involved in the world could imagine how confused and desperate they were.However, the older boy carried everything alone.

Tasted the indifference of human nature, and at the same time protected his younger brother from the trials and tribulations of the world.

Li Li covered his face with his hands, took a deep breath and continued.

"You and my brother are classmates in high school. You should know my brother's personality at that time, and he was forced by reality to become what he is now."

"He went to work as a model, all to support me."

"In order to support me as a burden, I gave up college."

"My brother actually likes to eat, but for the sake of modeling career, he pushes what he likes farther and farther."

"My brother actually doesn't like being a model at all."

"Most of the happiness now is to prevent me from being burdened, and I forcefully pretend it."

Cheng Zhiyuan's mouth seemed to contain a pill, and the bitterness on the tip of his tongue went down to the bottom of his heart when he swallowed it.

Bitter throat dry and numb.

His eyes were full of annoyance.

Before or now, he has never really understood Li Zhuo.

Not so long ago, he was smug and happy.

Compared with the gloomy appearance before, I feel that Li Zhuo's changes and brilliance now are gratifying.

Dazzling?

is dazzling.

But before that, Li Zhuo had paid so much pain for this dazzle that he didn't even feel happy about.

When he asked about "didn't go to college", how should Li Zhuo feel.

No matter what it was, Li Zhuo must have felt uncomfortable at that time.

Let the two teenagers encounter the matter of saying goodbye to their closest relatives. Where is their father?

No need to ask, that must be another sad story.

Cheng Zhiyuan had never experienced these things before, but he could know the pain and despair behind it.

He didn't think that at that time, when he encountered such a thing, he could be as calm as Li Zhuo.

Probably impossible.

This made him feel sorry for that young man who was the same age as him but had already tasted despair.

On the hand covering his face, the hot and powerless tears of the young man dripped: "Brother Zhiyuan."

He couldn't help it anymore, and choked up: "I'm very happy that you can accept me."

"And I have no courage."

The reason is self-evident, Cheng Zhiyuan pursed his lips, it was related to a teenager's self-esteem, and the guilt engraved into his life.

Li Li said, "I can't..."

"I can't... trample on the future my brother chose—"

"I live a chic and reckless life."

The young man seemed to laugh out loud while crying, and that laugh conveyed too much pain.

Cheng Zhiyuan knew what he was suffering from.

Because he still trampled on Li Zhuo's future and chose to agree to be with Cheng Xinxin.

"Brother Zhiyuan, I have nothing, even lost my humanity."

"So..." Even if Cheng Xinxin likes him, he is not eligible to enter Cheng Xinxin's future.

The person on the bed sat up, only Cheng Zhiyuan's breathing and Li Li's sobbing could be heard in the room.

Cheng Zhiyuan frowned, his eyes were open with anger.

The words that came out were very cold: "Li Li, you are wrong."

Yes, he was wrong.

Everything is wrong, you shouldn't have thoughts that you shouldn't have.

He is so greedy.

With tears in his eyes, Li Li thought to himself mockingly.

Cheng Zhiyuan was angry: "The one who has nothing is your brother."

"He lost everything and gave you what you deserve."

"And you're here to tell me you have nothing."

"Your brother heard this, how sad and desperate he must be. How he must have failed if he had such thoughts after protecting his brother for so long."

"I don't know what Li Zhuo thinks and I won't say anything for him."

"But if this kind of thing happened to me and Xinxin, I would do the same."

"Because when I have nothing, look back."

"I still have the only family member, and that's all."

What Cheng Zhiyuan was angry with was not the lost humanity that Li Li said, but the thoughts born of the tortured guilt.

Instead of thinking about how to move forward, the boy chose to escape.

That's all.

These five words are enough to make a young man whose heart is about to fall into the abyss see the end.

After lingering for so many years, I finally felt the breath of life.

There was surprise in the focus of the eyes hidden in the palm of his hand, and Li Li cried more fiercely and depressed.

Just because he is everything to his brother?

Just because of such a simple answer, why be so stupid.

I buried my future and chose him.

Suddenly, Li Li took a breath.

Therefore, his mother chose to take him and his brother to live a painful and difficult life, but she did not let them live a hard life alone.

Probably because he and his brother are everything to the mother.

What about him?

he himself.

His brother is also his everything.

Amidst the crying, Cheng Zhiyuan's voice softened a little: "Li Li, no one can bear all the sorrow for you."

"People have to learn to grow up."

"You may be the last hope supporting your brother."

Li Li understood.

Li Zhuo guarded his future, and Li Zhuo's future was created by him.

That night, the boy seemed to have grown up, but he didn't seem to grow up.

Suddenly, there was the sound of tables colliding at the door.

Li Li's crying stopped suddenly.

Cheng Zhiyuan turned on the desk lamp, threw off the quilt and fell to the ground: "You sit down."

Li Zhuo thought about it, the effect of the diaphragm in his house is good, but if someone listens at the door, he can still hear the sound inside.

He was worried about his brother.

I'm afraid that if his brother knows what's in his heart, it will hurt his brother's heart.

Cheng Zhiyuan gently pushed the door open and opened a crack.The lights were not turned on outside, but I could see a little more clearly through the street lights outside.

A typhoon blows outside the window, like the howling of a beast skirt.

The moment the door of the opposite room closed, Cheng Zhiyuan happened to see it.

Cheng Zhiyuan closed the door: "It's okay."

"It was the typhoon that hit the glass."

Li Li breathed a sigh of relief.

"I'm going to wash my face, brother Zhiyuan, go to sleep."

The boy looked at him solemnly: "Thank you, I won't think about it in the future."

After hearing about Li Li and Li Zhuo, Cheng Zhiyuan couldn't laugh anymore, even if he could laugh, he wouldn't be considered human anymore.

Nodded: "If you are serious about Xinxin, the door of the Cheng family will be open for you at any time."

Li Li didn't say anything, he exchanged a glance with Cheng Zhiyuan, turned and went to the bathroom.

Cheng Xinxin was originally worried that Cheng Zhiyuan and Li Li were living together in the same room, and according to Cheng Zhiyuan's dog nature, he might bully Li Li or say something that should not be said.

She went out uneasy to the door of Li Li's room.

Quiet Mimi put her ear against the door to eavesdrop.

There was no sound at first.

When she was about to give up waiting, a voice finally came from inside.

Cheng Zhiyuan really asked about her being with Li Li.

He listened in horror.

If she could do it all over again, she would choose never to step out of the guest room.

She heard about Li Li.

All along, she unilaterally pursued Li Li and got together.

He didn't think about Li Li's thoughts at all, and he didn't expect that the other party would be with her in such a painful mood.

She didn't want to hear this, and she wanted to hear it.

If she didn't hear it, she could be with him without any pressure, share happiness with him, and share sadness with him.

After hearing this, she really recognized Li Li.

In this way, it will not be her one-sided sharing, she can also worry about him, and only share happiness with him.

It wasn't just Li Li who was crying, Cheng Xinxin was also crying.

The girl huddled under the quilt and cried tremblingly, biting her lips tightly to prevent herself from making a sound.

I finally understood why when she asked about Li Li's parents, her brother stopped her, even saying that it was a crematorium.

Isn't it just a crematorium, it almost ruined Li Li's courage.

Why is she so stupid.

I can't read other people's faces, I only know that I am happy.

Not long after crying, someone knocked lightly on the door, and the knocking sound was regular.

That was the secret code for her and her brother to secretly play games together in the middle of the night behind their parents' backs when she was a child.

Cheng Zhiyuan opened the door and walked in.

Seeing the bulging bag on the bed inside, he walked over slowly: "Crying?"

Sure enough, the next second.

The person inside cried out, lifted the quilt abruptly, saw Cheng Zhiyuan, and hugged his waist.

"I'm so stupid." Cheng Xinxin buried her face and cried fiercely.

Cheng Zhiyuan didn't care about his clothes that were wet with tears, and touched her head: "Yes."

It's pretty stupid.

Fortunately, I still know how to cry, and I didn't let myself suffocate to death.

"I haven't cried for too long. Tomorrow my eyes are red and Li Li sees me and I should ask you."

"I can't stay too long, I told Li Li that I came out to pour water."

Cheng Xinxin let go of him, wiping away tears: "You go back quickly."

Cheng Zhiyuan was not at ease with her: "Really?"

Cheng Xinxin nodded.

Cheng Zhiyuan was sure that she could sort out her emotions by herself and was ready to go back.

Just as he grasped the doorknob, Cheng Xinxin's hoarse voice sounded behind him: "Li Li, he..."

"Does he still want me?"

Cheng Zhiyuan: "..."

After tonight, I really don't know.

This is a bit embarrassing, it is rare for Cheng Zhiyuan to encounter a problem.

I am afraid that if I say too much, the girl behind me will shed more tears.

Finally, I left a sentence: "If you can't give up, you will share the joys and sorrows."

9. lost soul

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