Ten thousand people think gloom is reborn

Lin Chongtan saw me turn my head back with a disheveled face, and seemed to guess that the result of my trip was a disastrous failure, "Forget about the flock of sheep, come and try on the clothes."

Everything was too hasty, and there were no decent wedding dresses, only two sets of red clothes.The last time I saw Lin Chongtan wearing a red dress was the day he was named on the gold list.

He didn't change his clothes in front of me, but went around behind the screen.When he came out, even though I had been looking at his face for a long time, I couldn't help but stay for a while.

Lin Chongtan's skin was already fair, and people from the northern kingdom were all darker. Even Song Nan was almost as black as charcoal after staying here for a while.Only Lin Chongtan, as if he couldn't get tanned, put on reddish clothes, which made him look whiter.

He has grown a lot in the past few years. When he came out from behind the screen, he looked around and saw that the flowers were warm and bright, and they were bright and beautiful.He stopped in front of me, "Are you okay?"

I looked at it twice and then turned my head, "Yeah."

Before Lin Chongtan could say another word, I picked up the clothes on the couch and walked towards the screen.The clothes Lin Chongtan prepared for me fit well, and I accidentally caught a glimpse of myself in the diorama, so I couldn't help but stop.

This is the first time I have married someone, and it should be the last time.

I took a deep breath and went out from behind the screen. I didn't expect Lin Chongtan to be standing behind the screen.He stared straight at me, and I almost retreated behind the screen because of his stare, but then I thought about it, I am not naked, why should I be so afraid of his gaze.

"It's beautiful." Lin Chongtan smiled at me gently, "It's even more beautiful than I imagined."

I didn't know what to answer for a while, and finally I could only say awkwardly: "You too."

Now my mood is mixed, it's just a fake wedding, don't take it so seriously.

But I didn't expect that when I said it casually, Lin Chongtan would ask me, "Really?"

His eyes were serious, as if he was really curious about this.I looked at Lin Chongtan's face and had to nod honestly.

Lin Chongtan lowered his eyes and smiled lightly again.

As the sky gradually darkened, I watched Lin Chongtan light the candles. If there were no dragon and phoenix candles, I used ordinary red candles instead.

After he lit the candle, he turned to look at me, "Xiao Di, it's almost auspicious time, come here."

I clearly told myself it was fake, but at this moment, I still couldn't help being nervous.I got up and walked slowly to Lin Chongtan, before he could speak, he said first, "There is no high place to worship tonight, so let's skip this step."

He took my hand and led me out of the yurt.

At this time, the golden crow is gradually disappearing in the horizon, the clouds are red and white one after another, and the sky on the other side has turned into a faint blue, and it seems that night stars can be seen high above.The group of white sheep hadn't returned to the sheepfold yet, and they were still grazing outside. I saw the stupidest sheep at a glance, and the red satin hydrangea on its chest was particularly conspicuous.

It is also the only guest who is interested in us. Seeing Lin Chongtan and me parked outside the felt tent, it ran over in a short breath.But probably because I scared it earlier, it didn't get too close, and stood not far away looking at us.

I looked down at my hand, and it was still held by Lin Zhongtan. He seemed to have forgotten that he was still holding my hand, and only looked into the distance.

In a moment, Lin Chongtan changed from holding my hand to interlocking my fingers.I subconsciously looked down again, Lin Chongtan and I had our palms together, our fingers intertwined, and our ears were inseparable from our cheeks.

The sky became dark again, Lin Chongtan gave me a deep look, and then looked forward.I feel my hand being held tighter, so tight that it hurts a little.

At this time, Lin Chongtan spoke.

He faced the heaven and the earth with a deep voice, "I invite the emperor to testify, and invite the empress to experience it in person. Today, we have a good relationship, and we will make an oath, and we will be happy together, and the moon will be full. , mutual consent, three matchmakers and six certificates, nine deaths without regrets, living with one heart and one mind, and dying together in the same bed."

I was held in place by Lin Chongtan's words, he said that life is of one heart and one mind, and death is of one heart and one mind.

Before I could sort out my chaotic brain thoughts, he turned his head and looked at me, "Xiao Di, it's time to pray to heaven and earth."

One worships the heaven and the earth, the heaven and the earth are blue.

The second bows to the high hall, the kindness of the high hall.

The three couples bow to each other, and the husband and wife's boudoir is peaceful and happy.

After the husband and wife worshiped each other, my heart became even more confused. I didn't know how to face Lin Chongtan, it was obvious that all of this was fake.

Lin Chongtan walked to the table and handed me the wine on the table, "Drink this, it's considered a ceremony."

I thought about it, and took the wine.To drink Hexiu wine, you need to share glasses to drink. When I drink glasses, I can smell the familiar medicinal scent from Lin Chongtan's body, but the taste seems to be a little different.

After drinking all the wine, Lin Chongtan didn't put down the glass. He drank several glasses of wine in a row, until I couldn't even look at him.

"Lin Chongtan, stop drinking." I wanted to reach out my hand to stop Lin Chongtan, but I stretched out my hand halfway and then retracted it.I seem to have no position to persuade him.

Lin Chongtan put down the wine cup, and before I could react, I was hugged by him.

He hugged me, but didn't speak, just simply hugged me.I sat blankly for a while, then pushed Lin Chongtan, "Are you drunk?"

"No." Lin Chongtan's voice seemed to be a little different from before, lower and hoarse than before, "Xiaodi, can you not leave? Can you stay for me once?"

I didn't answer his question because I wouldn't say yes.

Lin Chongtan slowly let go of me because of my silence.He sat next to me and looked at me, holding my hand on the table, "This time I know I did something wrong, I shouldn't have drugged you, but I really—"

His hands tightened tightly, "I don't want to end like this. I planned a lot and wanted to take it easy with you, but when I saw your reaction that day, I knew I had no chance to take my time, so I I chose the path I shouldn't have chosen.

These days I wake up every day thinking about what will happen when you wake up, but when I think about it, I dare not think about it anymore. I know I am deceiving myself, but only when I am deceiving myself will you smile at me and call me Tan Health, even tonight I will trick you into marrying me.

We have experienced so much in these years, and now thinking about it, I am afraid that there is not enough to write on a single page.Xiaodi, I apologize for the past, I will change it, can we do it all over again? "

When Lin Chongtan said this, he kept staring at my expression. I don't know what he saw, and his reaction was not very good.

He loosened and tightened my hand, and then he smiled at me, a smile that didn't reach his eyes, "If you don't want to stay here, I don't have to be the witch of the North Kingdom. Go back to Bei Dynasty. You see, we are all married, and heaven and earth have witnessed our wedding."

This is not the first time I have seen such obvious hopes and expectations in Lin Chongtan's eyes. It was the same when he begged me to go to Lingnan with him that year, and even now he is more urgent than then.

In a trance, I felt that Lin Chongtan was like a tight string that could break at any time, and could no longer withstand any ripples.

Faced with his gaze, I finally shook my head, "It's not worth it, Lin Chongtan, you don't have to be like this, you are living a very good life in Beiguo now."

When Lin Chongtan said he would return to Bei Dynasty with me, I noticed his mood change.In his heart he didn't want to go back to Bei Dynasty, after all he encountered so many bad things in Bei Dynasty.

Love shouldn't be something that binds or wrongs people. It may be bearable to be wronged for a while, but who can bear the wronged day and night?

Giving up everything for each other is something a child would do. Lin Chongtan and I are not children anymore.

And just as Lin Chongtan said, too many things really happened between me and him, all these things have become a barrier between us, can he really forget the previous quarrel and stay with me?I let go of all the things that happened before, and love him with all my heart?

The enthusiasm of teenagers will change, but Lin Chongtan is still stuck in it and can't get out for a while.When he came back to his senses, he found that everything was just mediocre.

The smile on Lin Chongtan's face disappeared little by little, "You really don't love me at all? No matter how much I beg you, you will never forgive me and stay with me?"

When he asked, my heart seemed to be pricked by a needle.Behind Lin Chongtan is the glowing red "Hi" character, which should have been pasted on a happy place, not here.

"Yes."

I didn't kill Boren, but Boren died because of me. If I stay with Lin Chongtan like this, I really have no face to face his teacher, Mr. Daoqing.All I can do is watch Lin Chongtan live well in a foreign country, and I regularly go to visit Mr. Daoqing's tomb and offer incense cards.

There are too many unavoidable things in the world. When I was young, I didn’t understand why the poets in the books always had all kinds of regrets. Only when I grew up did I understand where the regrets come from.

May the heaven and the earth occupy the joy, year after year, tonight, after all, it is a wish.

Lin Chongtan let go of my hand, he turned sideways and poured wine glass after glass, I didn't stop him this time, he needed time to figure it out.

"Lin Chongtan, let's settle our grievances and let go of our knots, let alone hate each other, let's be happy together." Why did I feel like my heart was being pricked by a needle when I said this, it was caused by Gu insects ?

When Lin Chongtan heard my words, he laughed lowly, "One is different and two are wide, each is happy?" He turned his head to look at me, tears flickered in his eyes, "How do you want me to be happy? Lin Chundi, no, I should I call you Jiang Congxi, have you ever softened my heart a little bit?"

He stood up shaking his body, when he got up, the wine cup on the table was knocked down by his sleeve.The wine flowed out, staining the newly laid red cloth.

"I was exiled, and anyone could come up and step on me. Even so, some people still wanted me to die. I hid in the corpse pile for three days. I was afraid that people would think I was not dead, so I dared not move , I didn’t eat or drink. The foul-smelling corpse water flowed on my body, and I couldn’t wipe it off.

On the fourth day, I waited for a vulture to eat carrion.I caught it with all my strength, drank its blood raw, and drank its blood raw.I want to live, I want to see you.But I didn't expect that the first thing you said when you saw me was to ask why I'm not dead yet, but even so, I still want to see you.I think of a way to form an alliance with Mongolia. Mongolia has long wanted to attack the Bei Dynasty. After forming an alliance, Mongolia can lower its defenses against the northern kingdom.

I know you won't follow my arrangement, so I planted a Gu worm on you, even if I'm not by your side, I can still protect you a little bit, and your injuries will be transferred to me.When I got a cut on my shoulder, I knew something was wrong with you.I rushed to Hanzhong to find a way to see you.Let me put laxatives on the pastry to remind you that I set fire to the palace one step earlier than the people in the court, forcing King Dongxuan to return to the palace. "

My lips trembled, Lin Chongtan never told me these things.I looked up at him, unable to control the stammer of my voice, "I...I don't know about this, why...you didn't tell me before?"

"What about after you say it? You will show this expression now. You feel guilty, and you may still be with me because of guilt, but what I want is not guilt. The love caused by guilt is meaningless.

I originally wanted to be the prime minister and wanted to create a peaceful and prosperous world, so I sought power.After you died, I knew that the prince killed you, and I wanted to seek power even more. Only the powerful and respected can bring down the prince's party, but it's gone, everything is gone.You blame me, hate me, I can accept it, the only thing I don't want to accept is that you have no hatred or love for me. "

Lin Chongtan took off the sachet from his waist and dumped the contents on the table. It was the snowdrops he had picked up from the ground before.

He caressed the snowdrops with his fingers, "This is the only thing I gave you, and you still carry it with you." His long eyelashes fluttered, and his voice became softer, "Prince Bei Chao Jiu, I am a human, not Cao Mu, I will also feel uncomfortable and feel tired, and I don’t want to be mean again in the future.”

Lin Chongtan grabbed the snowdrops on the table and strode out.I saw him go, I couldn't help getting up and following him, I saw Lin Chongtan walking to the lake and throwing the snowdrops in his hand into it.

The stupid sheep hadn't returned to the pen yet, it ran to Lin Chongtan's side.Lin Chongtan should have seen the red satin light hydrangea on its neck, he was fascinated by the stupid sheep, and then took off the two red hydrangeas.

The sheep finally returned to the sheepfold after losing the tie around its neck.