Ten thousand people think gloom is reborn

I gritted my teeth and propped up my upper body, touching Lin Chongtan's face with trembling fingers.Obviously his face was still hot, how could he die?

"Tansheng, don't, don't go, I beg you...don't go..."

The past flashed through my mind like a revolving lantern. That year, on the Qixi Festival, Lin Chongtan, Liangji, and I were walking on the busiest street in the capital.

The night market is full of fiery trees and silver flowers, and the passers-by are dressed in gorgeous crowns and costumes, which is a sign of peace and prosperity.At that time, many young girls secretly covered themselves with fans to see Lin Chongtan's face, and there were countless sachets in his arms.

And I didn't receive a single sachet, Liangji was the last person to wink at people, which caused me to be laughed at by Bai Chi.

That day, I also walked across the Que Bridge with Lin Chongtan. In order to avoid the house of the bold girl, he embraced me and asked me to block him. At that time, I was helpless and ashamed.

Liangji died, and so did Lin Chongtan.

Tears fell down my cheeks and fell on Lin Chongtan's collar, even though I clenched my teeth again, the sob still leaked out.I wish everything I saw was a dream.As long as I wake up, the dream will disappear, and Lin Chongtan is still alive.

I lowered my head and hugged Lin Chongtan like hugging the most precious treasure in the world.For the first time, I knew that people can cry until their heart hurts. My heart hurts so badly, as if something is grabbing my heart.

Why does my heart hurt so much?

I reached out and tightened the clothes around my heart, trying to relieve the pain, but it was useless, I was so uncomfortable, I couldn't even utter a word, and the smell of blood was rolling between my tongue and teeth.

Just when I was crying until I could hardly breathe, I suddenly felt the person in my arms move slightly.

I stopped immediately, and turned my head stiffly to look at Lin Chongtan's hand.He... His fingers were really moving, and that pale and slender hand slowly lifted up to touch my face.

It was only at this moment that I came back to my senses and looked at the person in my arms. Lin Chongtan actually opened his eyes, and he was looking at me.Those eyes were like a barren land, with no emotions in them, but when they met me, sparks seemed to fall into them.

At this moment, I couldn't care about anything else, I just asked him, "You... woo, you're not dead, right? No, it's not me...my hallucination?"

Lin Chongtan's fingers lightly rubbed my cheek, I reached out to cover his hand, and then clenched it tightly, eager to know if I was dreaming, but he was indeed touching my face.

The sparks in his eyes seemed to ignite the whole wilderness, scorching the sky and the earth.For a moment, he held me down, and swallowed all my words, even my hiccups from crying too much.Everything is like a dream, I dreamed that Lin Chongtan was not dead, he was like a wild beast, firmly trapped me in his arms.

No, it should be said that both of us have become animals.

The grass beside me brushed against my calves, and my arms wrapped in wet sleeves hooked around Lin Chongtan's neck.He bowed his head and kissed my forehead, cheek, and lips... If I had left it alone, I would have closed my eyes in shame.But today, I have not closed my eyes, I am afraid that he will disappear.

I stared at Lin Chongtan, even if he went down a little, I couldn't help but grab his arm, and said in an uneasy tone, "Tan, Tan Sheng."

What responded to me was Yunmeng's idle feeling that was stronger than before.

Whatever he does today, I will let him.

I once accidentally read an unserious article, no matter what I read, but at this moment I remembered——"...the tongue enters the mouth, pierces the heart, wets the tongue, groans, or is evidence, or Squeeze. Either soaked for a long time and submerged, or jerked and slipped..."

Where the eyes fell, he suddenly caught a glimpse of the slave mark on Lin Zhongtan's heart.I couldn't help reaching out to touch it, but before my fingertips touched it, I stopped my trembling hand again.

The slave mark has changed from scorched black to blue. This is what I personally branded on Lin Chongtan, and he refused to show it to me before.It turned out to be so serious. After a few years, the mark has not disappeared at all.

If his clothes were not soaked today, he would probably continue to hide them.

This slave mark has already grown on Lin Chongtan's body, and it follows him like a shadow, and he can't get rid of it anymore.

At this time, Lin Chongtan suddenly held my hand, and he put my hand to his lips and kissed it, and then grabbed my hand and pressed it against the slave mark on his chest, "I don't hurt anymore, don't cry."

He smiled lightly at me.

I bit my lip, my hands still couldn't help trembling, and I could feel the slightly bulging brand scars on my palms and pulps.Lin Chongtan wiped away the tears on my face little by little with his fingers, then bowed his head and kissed me.

I held back my tears and raised my head slightly to respond to him.

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In the end, I don't know how I fell asleep. When I woke up, I couldn't help sitting up.A large amount of memory rushed into my mind like a flood. I was going back to Beichao, but the cochineal insect flew out of my body suddenly, so I went to find Lin Chongtan.

I found him in the water, he was unconscious, no matter how I called him he didn't respond to me.Then, when he and I were by the lake, on the grassland, or even with a herd of sheep not far away, we just...

Wait, is that all my dream?or reality?

I hurriedly turned my head to look around, and easily saw Lin Chongtan next to me.His eyes were closed just as I had seen them before.I immediately lowered my head and put my ear against his chest.

There is a heartbeat!

It turned out that it was not a dream.

I went to check his breathing again, and he was still breathing, Lin Chongtan was not dead.

While completely relieved, I was also dullly aware of the pain in my body.I looked down at myself, although the clothes were neat, they were not the clothes I wore when I came here. As for my feet that were exposed outside the clothes, there were even ankles...

I put my hand over my ankle, but it was just a cover-up.I didn't even drink, and I couldn't even find a reason to justify my previous bold behavior.

Lin Chongtan and I are now in the felt tent where we used to live, and I was stunned for a while before letting go and preparing to go to bed.It was only when my feet stepped on the soft carpet that I hugged my waist with one hand.

Lin Chongtan didn't know when he woke up, he sat up and circled me from behind, his tone was weak, "Xiaodi, where are you going again? Are you going to leave me and go back to Beichao alone?"

Why does he sound so aggrieved?

I didn't dare to look back at Lin Chongtan for a moment, but he still put his face on my shoulder, as if acting like a spoiled child.I don't know what Lin Chongtan is thinking at this time, but I know what I am thinking.

At this moment, I am finally willing to fully admit my heart.

It is really difficult to want to be together without any grievances, but the name Lin Chongtan grows in my heart like a vine.Even if I find more rational reasons for myself not to be together, I still miss him emotionally.

People cannot always be rational over emotion, even if I don't admit it, some of my behaviors still expose myself.

I have never forgotten the Gu worms in my body, I didn't take the initiative to mention it because I always wanted to have this little connection with Lin Chongtan.

I still love Lin Chongtan, but I don't want to admit it, just like I used to.It seems that if you suppress your emotions tightly, you won't get hurt. Even if you still think about it in your heart, you have to put on a carefree look on your face, wishing the other party and yourself well.

But when I really realized that Lin Chongtan would die and he would leave me forever, I couldn't show that free and easy look anymore.

I have been entangled with Lin Chongtan for so many years, and most of the time has actually been spent in misunderstanding, hatred and separation.But I still have many years with him. Since we both care about each other, those quarrels and embarrassments are not so terrible.

I slowly took Lin Chongtan's hand around my waist, almost at the same time, he leaned over to kiss me, but he didn't seem to be feeling well, so after kissing me twice, his brows furrowed fiercely, and his face became paler. It was even paler before.

Seeing this, I gently pushed Lin Chongtan away, "Why did you jump into the lake?"

He seemed unwilling to answer this topic, and turned his eyes away, but now I can't tolerate his behavior of always being silent, "If you don't tell me, I, I will really ignore you, even if you jump... A hundred lakes, a thousand lakes, I will not save you."

When Lin Chongtan heard what I said, he raised his drooping eyes immediately.In order to convince him of my determination, I moved his hand away, "I'm serious."

"I thought you really didn't want me anymore."

How strange, why did Lin Chongtan say this in such a pitiful tone?As if I abandoned him, I can still see his drooping dog ears.

He paused, his expression became lonely, "I also wanted to try your feelings back then, only to realize that the lake was so cold, you must have been very scared at that time. I didn't protect you well, I was too arrogant. I didn't I can’t save you, even if I die in the water, I’ll be with you.”

I didn't expect this answer, I wanted to call Lin Chongtan a lunatic.If Cai Weng hadn't bitten the cochineal worm, I probably wouldn't have noticed that the Gu worm had left my body, and I wouldn't have known that something happened to him.

He would really die alone in the cold Cuoqu Tata Lake, which is known as the lover's lake.

But I can't scold him for his current state.Lin Chongtan seemed to see my soft heart, and leaned over to hug me again.I pursed my lips and suddenly remembered another big event.

"I... you... who wore the clothes on us?"

Lin Chongtan was so weak, I fell asleep again...

Just as I was squirming about guessing, Niu Xi's voice suddenly sounded outside the felt tent.

"Ninth Prince, are you awake?"

I am done.