Ten thousand people think gloom is reborn

I seem to have had a dream. In the dream, I was still Lin Chundi, and the time also turned back to my year.

On the night of my birthday, Lin Chongtan and I had our first taste of sex. I was very uncomfortable and felt very uncomfortable. I wanted to have a good sleep, but Lin Chongtan wanted to hold me in his arms.

"You, you let go of me." I said to him.

Lin Chongtan's eyes seem to be very affectionate, but I'm not sure, I just think his eyes are boring.I couldn't help being stared at by him, wondering if I just lost my face.But it can't be my fault, I... I begged him because I had no choice.

My face was also hot, and I simply buried my face in his arms without giving up, and the tip of my nose could not help smelling the scent of medicine on his body.I unconsciously remembered that the first time I saw him take medicine, I mistakenly thought it was a medicine for beauty, and insisted on him giving me one.

Just thinking about it, I heard a sentence in my ear.

"I want to write to tell my parents about us."

I suddenly raised my head, "No, no."

"Why not?" Lin Chongtan asked me back.

I loosened and clenched my hand holding his clothes, and after a while I said, "Anyway, I just can't tell, I don't want my parents to know."

Lin Chongtan seemed to be angry, but he didn't say anything, just continued to hug me.Before I knew it, I fell asleep in his arms, and even I admired myself for being able to fall asleep.

The next day, I felt unwell, and Lin Chongtan asked for leave for me.He came to my residence as soon as get out of class was over, and took out a box of ointment in front of me.

"What's that?" I asked curiously.

Lin Chongtan came close to my ear and said something, I was so angry that I almost bit him, he actually took advantage of my sleep last night to...

"Xiaodi, take this medicine at least three times a day. I took it once in the morning before you woke up. Now it's time for the second time."

"No! I don't want to go!"

Shame, shame to death!

I turned my face away and didn't want to talk to him anymore, it was all Lin Zhongtan's fault, if he hadn't...been so fierce last night, I wouldn't have been...injured there.

Lin Chongtan coaxed me with a good temper, and even joked with me. I had never heard the jokes he said. I didn't want to laugh at first, but I couldn't help it.This smile made me ashamed to continue to be angry, so I could only ask him in a low voice, "Does it hurt to take the medicine?"

He thought for a while before telling me, "I'm not sure, but I'll try to be as gentle as possible. If it hurts, just kick me."

I didn't speak again, and turned my face away again.

He understood what I meant, but before taking the medicine, he came up to my face and kissed me.

Lin Chongtan was really annoying, I couldn't help complaining about him in my heart.

But I didn't expect him to become more annoying, not to attend the prince's banquet, and come to me as soon as the schoolwork is over.We don't do that kind of thing every day when we are together. More often, we sit together, I recite my books, and he draws his paintings.

Time flies, and Lin Chongtan and I took a long vacation back to Gusu.On the way, Lin Chongtan mentioned to me again that he wanted to mention our matter to his family. This time I didn't directly say no, but asked him worriedly: "Will they be angry?"

Lin Chongtan hugged me into his arms, and patted my back lightly, "It should be possible, but I won't be angry for a long time. If my parents firmly object, then I will..."

"Just what?" I looked up at him.

The carriage moved forward slowly, and he opened his mouth to say something to me, but I couldn't hear it clearly.I sat up straight and asked him, "I didn't hear what you just said."

Lin Chongtan said it to me again, but I still couldn't hear clearly, I could only see his mouth opening and closing.

Gradually, his face also began to blur. I wanted to hug him anxiously, but I still watched his figure turn white and finally gray.

I can't find Lin Zhongtan anymore.

I cried and asked the driver to stop. I thought he must be teasing me, maybe he was hiding somewhere.But the carriage continued to move forward, and I could only reach out and lift the curtain, "Stop! Please stop, I'm looking for someone!"

The coachman turned his head and looked amiable, as if he had seen him somewhere before.He asked me kindly, "Who are you looking for?"

I wanted to say Lin Chongtan's name, but the three words seemed to be stuck in my throat, and I couldn't get them out. Finally, I answered——

"do not know."

"Idiot." The coachman sighed, and stretched out his hand to gently stroke the center of my brow, "Wake up, when fate comes, it will go, if fate gathers, it will disperse, if it arises, it will come into being, if it falls, it will perish, and all dharmas will be born by fate. It's all about fate. Don't indulge in the future and the past, get rid of anger and seek purity of heart."

I listened to these words in a daze, but felt extremely painful in my heart.I clutched my chest, tears streaming down my face.

Why am I in so much pain?

"Congxi, Congxi! National Teacher, didn't you say that Congxi would be fine? Why is he still crying in his dream?"

"The noble concubine, please be safe and don't be impatient. The Ninth Prince will be fine. When he wakes up, he will be fine."

……

Later, I found out that when I came back from the palace, I vomited blood as soon as the carriage arrived at the palace.The imperial doctor couldn't tell why. Then, Concubine Zhuang invited the national teacher over.The national teacher said that my soul was restless and I needed to nourish my soul, so I lived in the Tianji Palace where the national teacher was, and practiced with the national teacher day and night.

During the days in Tianji Palace, I always felt that I had forgotten something, but when I thought about it carefully, I didn't forget anything.I remember my mother and concubine, my father, my brothers and sisters, the Lin family of Gusu, the days of Taixue, and Lin Chongtan.

The national teacher said that it is the most difficult for people in the world to see through the two characters. I asked him if I have read it now, but the national teacher did not answer my question. He only asked me not to forget to copy Buddhist scriptures every day.

Although Tianji Palace is big, there are very few palace people. I need to do most of the things here by myself.The national teacher has a disciple, but it is not a human being, but a parrot.

The parrot is intelligent, and it is almost indistinguishable from humans except that it does not look like a human. It wakes me up early in the morning to practice, and wakes me up to sleep at night.

But most of the time, I stayed with it at the highest point of Tianji Palace, looking into the distance.

"What are you looking at?"

Parrots are also very good at speaking human language. I always feel that it is not like a parrot, but more like the soul of a person living in the body of a parrot.

I shook my head, "Just take a look, by the way, tomorrow is my concubine's birthday, I'm going back to the palace. Do you want to go with me?"

The parrot has a name, it is Cai Weng.

"No, I don't like going to crowded places." Cai Weng said while combing his feathers, "Remember to come back early."

I hummed and got on the carriage back to the palace in the afternoon. The person who came to pick me up was Song Nan.Maybe it's because I haven't been back for a long time, he told me all the things he knew inside and outside the palace, one of which was about Prince Yun's Mansion.

Yue Feiguang, the eldest son of Prince Yun's Mansion, has returned from the frontier.