xy

? ..." Before Chen Xi could react, Lin Yi stretched out his hands and pulled off his pants, revealing a large bruise on his calf, it seemed that it had been some time.

There was a sudden chill in the lower body, and when he looked down, he found that the outer pants had already been held in Lin Yi's hands. Even though he was a playmate since childhood, this situation was still a bit embarrassing. "A Yi..."

"Sit down." Seeing his injury, Lin Yi's first feeling was anger, and a wave of anger rushed to his heart like a bursting flood. Half of the cells in his brain were burned to death by the anger. He almost wanted to yell out. .

Know he is really angry. "Oh..." Surprisingly obedient.

Seeing his rare obedience, Lin Yi couldn't get angry.Hey, forget it...

……

There is a passage in "Garfield" that Garfield and Odie accidentally got lost and were sold to a pet shop. Garfield was in great pain and worried that his owner, Jon, would miss him and hurt him, but one morning, Jon walked into the pet store. In a pet store, the boss came forward and asked, do you need to buy a pet?When he saw Garfield, he was overjoyed and immediately bought Garfield back. The family was reunited and everyone was happy. At the end of the story, the world-famous fat cat said this under the sunset: I will never ask Joe. Well, why did he walk into the pet shop that day.

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☆, how can you bear

--Don't let the person who likes you cry for you so much

Because you only get one chance to hurt him like that

After that one time you go from indispensable to dispensable

Even if he still loves you something real has changed

-- Anthony

……

Lin Yi sat halfway on the bed, her face a little pale, staring intently at her empty hands through the moonlight coming through the gauze curtains.

Happiness came too suddenly, so suddenly that he couldn't believe it, so suddenly that he was caught off guard, so suddenly that he was uneasy.

It's really mediocre, happiness is already in his hands, so what else to think about.He smiled, lay down, and continued to sleep.Everything is going according to the original track, what else does he have to think about.

This year's New Year happens to be Valentine's Day, and happiness is added to joy, which spoiled a group of couples and worried a group of single dogs.

As usual, Lin Yi went to Chen Xi's house to set off fireworks on New Year's Eve, but he brought an extra person - his cousin who was celebrating the New Year at his house this year - Lin Yuan, and then unexpectedly saw an acquaintance coming to Chen Xi's house - sitting proudly On the sofa, with arms folded, like a delicate ice sculpture - Chen Ling.

Chen Xi looked very excited. This brother who went abroad to study finally knew he was back!

Lin Yi didn't have a deep impression of him. After all, he hadn't seen him for many years. He only vaguely remembered that there was once such a tall boy who stood quietly not far away and smiled slightly at him. The scented embrace was as clean as a stream and as warm as sunshine, which made him nostalgic.

Chen Ling's eyes fell on Lin Yi's body faintly, and he moved, like a slight wave of water rippling on the surface of newly melting ice and snow. Then, his cool and thin lips curved and smiled, like fireworks blooming in the dark night sky, shining A small dark world on the bright side.

"Brother, it's not fair! Why do you laugh when you see A Yi, and treat me coldly," Chen Xi complained dissatisfied, and when he saw his brother's cold slanting eyes, he turned to a soft voice, "Who the hell? Is that your brother?"

Complaints are complaints, the atmosphere of the Chinese New Year still makes a group of half-grown teenagers have fun.Fireworks, firecrackers, games, snacks, games that are not easy to do together are fun at one time, and people who are not easy to be together face separation.At that time, they didn't expect what was about to happen, how much pain and shadow it would cause in the future.

In the evening Lin Yi got a little drunk, his head was tilted on the side of the sofa, and he was drowsy. In a daze, he felt something moist and soft pressed against his lips, rolling and sucking. "Don't make trouble." He flicked his hands, turned his head a little, and continued to sleep.

When he woke up, he was already on the bed he was familiar with, and he couldn’t remember how he came back. The only memory he had of drinking halfway through last night was Chen Ling’s unclear question: “A Yi, when you grow up, would you like You don’t want to go to Holland with me?” Looking at his puzzled expression, he explained: “The scenery in Holland is beautiful, the people are very warm, and the food is delicious.”

The half-drunk Lin Yi replied with a smile, "Okay." I remember Chen Ling's expression at that time, like a smile but not like a smile, and his eyes were radiant.

For the next two days, Lin Yi obediently stayed at home to entertain guests. Although he didn't like it very much, they were relatives and customs after all.

When I wake up, I will find Chen Ling's MMS: the scenery of the Netherlands in the morning light; the meal is a variety of Dutch delicacies; the night is a dimly lit town in the Netherlands...

Lin Yi couldn't help laughing, it turned out that Brother Chen Ling was so naive, but he seemed to have made up his mind to take him to Holland.That's okay, you can't just stay in China for the rest of your life!

On February 2th, Lin Yuan brought him a piece of news that was enough to be a nightmare - haunted him all his life: Chen Ling had a car accident!Just yesterday.Rescue is invalid.

How can it be?The man who smiled at him coldly and gently is just like this... He doesn't believe it!He wants to take him to Holland!Lin Yi suddenly rushed to Chen Xi's house as if thinking of something.

The originally decorated home was immersed in a kind of depression of death. The two red lanterns seemed to be mocking, and the couplets at the door were like tongues sticking out out of disdain.As soon as I entered the door, I saw a pair of glass coffins. Through the transparent glass, the beautiful face of the man calmly seemed to be asleep, and his brows were stretched, as if he was having a good dream.

"Axi..." He approached him, every step was like pulling out a bone supporting his body, and every breath smelled the smell of despair.

The room was very quiet, as if no one was there.

Finally arrived... He knelt down beside him and stretched out his arms to hug him, only to find that the person in his arms was trembling slightly.

very distressed...

"Axi..." He was clearly beside him, but he felt that he was on the other side, separated by a river against the current.

The person in his arms seemed to have come back to life, but he still just stared blankly at him.

"Ashi..."

"roll!"

Chen Xi pushed him away abruptly, with hatred in his eyes.He knew that he never knew how to hide his feelings, love is love, hate is hate, and the hatred he showed at this moment stuck in Lin Yi's throat like a fishbone, unable to swallow it or spit it out, making him speechless.Injury is a dull pain, like a rusted knife cutting through the heart, not sharp, but it may cause tetanus.He would never have imagined in his life that the first word he said to him was "scroll".

"Axi..." He couldn't say another word.He doesn't know what he did wrong.

"Get out! I don't want to see you again in my life!" His disgusted eyes hurt Lin Yi.

There must be some misunderstanding!He rushed forward and hugged Chen Xi, shaking his head: "Don't do this...don't do this...you tell me what I did wrong...you tell me..."

Chen Xi pushed him away with so much strength that he didn't care that the other party might get hurt: "Misunderstanding? What misunderstanding could there be?" His tone was so cold that it didn't look like a questioning question, but seemed to be disdainful, "If I didn't go to you that night, why did my brother Will there be a car accident?"

Lin Yi didn't understand: "Why did Brother Chen Ling look for me?"

"Why?" He took out a book from under the glass coffin and threw it on Lin Yi's face, shouting, "He likes you!" Chen Xi looked very confused, and said mechanically, "He actually likes you! Why does he like you?" How could he like you!...You are a man! He is also a man!...How can..."

Almost instantly, Lin Yi thought of Chen Ling asking him if he would go to Holland with him, could it be...he didn't want to read the diary left by Chen Ling, he didn't want to know the truth, how could that big brother with a warm embrace...

He rushed forward to hug Chen Xi's trembling body again, deceiving himself and others: "It's not like this, there must be a misunderstanding..." Yes, it must be a misunderstanding!

"Misunderstanding? A joke, I saw him kiss you the day before yesterday..."

? !That day...wasn't it a dream? !That person...is Brother Chen Ling? !He took a few steps back, unable to believe it, the fact was so heavy that he was a little out of breath; the accident happened so quickly that his brain froze a little.Picking up Chen Ling's diary, Lin Yi's hands tightened unconsciously, and the joints turned white.

"Axi...you trust me, I have nothing to do with your brother..."

Before the word "yes" was pronounced, a chair flew over and hit him in the abdomen. Before the pain came, Chen Xi's indifferent voice was heard: "Lin Yi, you are shameless!" Passing Lin Yiqing's beautiful face, there was a bloodstain in an instant, followed by more objects: plastic boxes, pen holders, drink bottles...

He endured, no matter what Chen Xi threw at him, he would not dodge or avoid it.He thought that he would wake up; he believed that he never meant to hurt him.Even though Chen Xi's attack did not stop.

Suddenly, a silver light hurt his eyes -- the eyes are the most vulnerable part of a human being, so he had to hide!He turned his head hastily, and a saber barely scratched the corner of his eyes, cutting off a strand of hair beside his ear.

At this moment, Lin Yi's heart really sank to the bottom, the pain was so painful that he didn't want to face it, the pain was so painful that he seemed to be stabbed blind by him like this!Even after many years, he still couldn't forget the heart-wrenching pain! ...

This saber was given to him for self-defense when he accompanied him to "fight the world". The blade is small and easy to carry, but the blade is very sharp and has first-class aggressiveness. He warned him not to use it unless it is absolutely necessary. It will hurt others. It's a hassle.And now, he actually used it to deal with him? !Axi... how can you bear it...

Facts have proved that the furious Chen Xi has lost his mind.

While he was in a trance, Chen Xi went around behind him to take it, and stabbed the knife into his shoulder again.Qi and blood attack the heart, severe pain in the shoulder blade, but it is not as good as the pain in the heart.There seemed to be tears in his eyes, otherwise why would his vision become more and more blurred?

A mouthful of blood rushed to the mouth of the throat, no!He forcefully put the mouthful of blood in his mouth, endured the pain in his shoulder and stomach, turned around and left quickly, and he had no time to care about Chen Xi, only one thought in his mind, he must not let him see him vomit blood!

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☆, because of deep love

The author has something to say: both chapters 6,7 and [-] need some associations, the description is very reluctant...

When he woke up, he was already in the hospital ward, and the white eyes and the pungent smell of disinfectant stimulated his nerves again.

The sensitive sense of touch made him feel a little uncomfortable: his lower abdomen seemed to be wrapped in gauze, he felt a kind of numbness after surgery, his face was slightly painful, and a needle was inserted in the vein on the back of his hand.Turning his head, he saw his cousin's slightly tired eyes and the light blue stubble under his chin.

"...Brother..." Lin Yi heard his voice hoarse like a needle grinding on sandpaper.

Lin Yuan came back to his senses and saw him awake. He was both surprised and happy: "A Yi...you finally woke up..."

He wanted to laugh, but the corners of his mouth couldn't curl up. He wanted to comfort him, but he could only say "water...". When the water slowly flowed down his throat, the feeling of dryness was slightly weakened. "Chen Xi...how is Chen Xi's family?"

"You..." Lin Yuan just wanted to say why he didn't care more about himself, he was still thinking about others when he was hurt so badly.

"elder brother……"

Thinking that he must not give up, he sighed. Lin Yi was also a stubborn person at a certain time, so he patiently explained: "You stayed in the hospital for a total of two days, and I went back once during that period. Chen Ling passed away unfortunately. How can their family get better? But the funeral was done in an orderly manner, and things are going smoothly. I think it will be almost the same in a few days." He turned his head and looked at his cousin carefully, trying to get some hints from his expression What, but the latter didn't have any expression on his face, and the sickly whiteness on his originally fair face made him feel a little distressed. "Are you going to see it?"

"Get out! I don't want to see you again in my life!" Chen Xi's hateful words were still in his ears. What position does he have to meet him now?Lin Yi shook his head and stopped talking.Even though he just woke up, he still feels tired.

Lin Yuan didn't know what happened to him.When Lin Yi opened the door and came in, the blood on his shoulders and lips really scared him, he ran up to ask why he was injured like this, but he fell into his arms with relief.The moment he was pushed into the operating room, his heart was really in his throat. When he calmed down, he thought that he would definitely not want to tell his uncle and aunt, and he was afraid that they would be worried, so he called back and said that Lin Yi had died in the past few days. Living with him, he happened to give him extra lessons.Uncle and aunt's quick promise really made him feel guilty.He rarely left these two days, for fear of missing him waking up.Fortunately, he is safe.However, his injury was not serious... I couldn't help but ask, "How did you get this injury?"

Lin Yi didn't even open her eyes, she didn't know if she was really tired or didn't want to talk.

He had no choice but to tell him—he knew it was useless, but he couldn’t help but say a few more words—after all, he was still young: "You were seriously injured this time, two ribs were broken—fortunately, you didn’t hurt me." I hurt my internal organs, my stomach showed signs of bleeding, and my face was scratched in three places. If you don’t want to talk about some things, I won’t ask more questions, but you must always remember to take care of your body and don’t worry your uncles and aunts—they are also old Yes. People are alive, everything is imaginary, only their own health is the most real. Let the past let him go." You still have the present, and you still have the future.His intuition told him that this matter must have something to do with Chen Xi!But just looking at how much his cousin indulged that kid these past few days, he knew that the kid's position in his heart was not the most important, but the second most important.It is not easy for him to settle accounts with the people he cares about; it is not easy for him to say what he does for the people he cares about.Therefore, he can only warn him as an older brother.

Lin Yi recovered quite quickly.He was discharged from the hospital in two days.The doctors and nurses were very kind. Before leaving, Qian reminded him to take good care of his health, and asked Lin Yuan to take good care of him. If he felt unwell, he would come back for a checkup immediately.

Lin Yi felt a strong sense of irony when he heard this: How could someone he doesn't know think of him, how could he have the heart to hurt him so far?He remembered the incident with Gong Zijin last time, Chen Xi hurt him after returning home—even though he was in pain for several days, he didn't care about it, he didn't care about it at the time, but now that he thought about it, he didn't think about it at all. Take it to heart, have you already forgotten it?

wrong!Lin Yi suddenly woke up, how could he miss him so much?He is not such a person.He must have been in a hurry to hurt him by mistake!If he was him, he couldn't tell how he would face him when he encountered such a thing, how could he blame him if he couldn't share the burden for him?But after all, he is not him.I think so, but I still can't help but feel pain in my heart.

"A Yi, you should eat something." Since he was injured, he ate surprisingly little.Lin Yuan was always worried and asked many times.Every time he asked, Lin Yi only smiled lightly at him--whether it was really calm or not, I don't know if he didn't need to think about it, and he said "it's okay" indifferently, but his expression became more and more serious. paler.He didn't want him to worry, but how could this state make him not worry?He sat on the bed all day long, either staring at the window in a daze, or staring at his hands in a daze, not knowing what he was thinking.

Knock on the door, no answer.Knock on the door again, still no answer.

A trace of ominousness came to mind.He found a spare key, opened the door, and saw sea-blue curtains fluttering, and Lin Yi's thinner figure appeared on the balcony. "A Yi, it's dangerous! Be good, come down, please, don't scare me."

"...Brother?" The person on the balcony railing turned around, with a slight smile on his plain face, as weak as a dying evening sun, but still beautiful and bright, "Don't worry. It's not what you want Even if it’s just for my parents, I will live a good life.” He just wanted to try to see if the pain brought by Chen Xi gave him the “courage” to face it with death.

As if to prove what he said was true, Lin Yi immediately jumped off the railing, walked towards Lin Yuan, took the food in his hand and started to eat, he didn't care if it tasted good or not, as long as he ate it, as long as it didn't Just let those who are good for him worry.He didn't figure it out, but he didn't know at all...

In fact, he was very grateful to his cousin and didn't ask anything...

Lin Yuan's heart was still hanging in the air at first, but now seeing him take the initiative to eat, his heart sank back into his chest, but why, looking at his calm face, he was still worried, even more worried than before?He knew that with his temperament, it would be nothing if he said it would be nothing but... Forget it, start watching him closely now and he should be fine.

midnight.He got up, turned on the light, took out Chen Ling's diary that he refused to let go that day, and continued to read.

He couldn't sleep because he didn't finish watching.

He has never known that there is another person in this world who cherishes him so much... In order not to show his affection and delay him, Chen Ling went to the Netherlands alone to study at his age--the reason why he went to the Netherlands There, homosexuals can be treated more tolerantly.He couldn't imagine Chen Ling's feeling in a foreign country, missing someone, but unable to make a phone call.With what kind of loneliness did he write such a thick diary?He originally thought that he was obsessed with Chen Xi, but Chen Ling was obsessed with him.There are only a few sporadic memories in his mind of those childhood years together, but they have become the support for Chen Ling to look back day and night in the Netherlands. Isn't this too cruel?Is it too unfair to him?

It's just that he really doesn't know... Perhaps, if Chen Xi hadn't told him, he would never know for the rest of his life.

Why doesn't he try to love someone else?The world is so big, there is always one person who is destined for him.Maybe let him go, and he will find that he can love others too.

So why is he in pain now?Isn't it because you can't let go of Chen Xi?

After all, what is love?After all, why does it hurt?close