Jinghua old dream

Gu Ruyu is already 46 years old this year. Although he looks like he is in his early thirties, he is actually approaching the age of knowing his destiny.

At the age of 20, he left the woman he loved, and he never saw her again.

When he came back after becoming famous at the age of 36, his beloved woman had already turned into bones and had been buried under the loess for 15 years.

It was also at this time that he knew that he had a son.This son was the only connection he had with his beloved woman in this world, but when he saw his son, his mood was a little delicate.

His beloved woman died because of dystocia, and to some extent, it was his son who killed his beloved woman.

Therefore, he avoided getting along with his son, and it happened that his son didn't like to see him much.When the two met, they either choked each other as if they had been shot, or they seemed to be buried in the thousand-year-old ice, neither of them said anything, and they just gave each other a cold face.

Su Jing is sitting across from Gu Ruyu now, with no distinction between sorrow and joy on his face. He stared at Gu Ruyu for a long time before saying, "I'm waiting to see you now."

Gu Ruyu: "What?"

"This face, paired with this dog-like military uniform," Su Jing narrowed his eyes, "It's quite interesting."

Gu Ruyu glanced at him, "You're not like me."

Su Jing: "It's enough for me to be like my mother."

As soon as Su Qing was mentioned, the topic froze again.

Just as Gu Ruyu felt that Su Jing killed Su Qing, Su Jing also felt that Gu Ruyu killed Su Qing.

As a mother for the first time, the person who should be cared for, but her lover left her. If it wasn't for the depression in her heart, how could Su Qing have a difficult childbirth?If Gu Ruyu had been waiting by Su Qing's side at that time, he would not be without a mother now—a father and son, one of whom thought the other was his wife who killed him, and the other thought that the other killed his mother—if such a father and son could be at peace , is strange.

Gu Ruyu was probably entangled in many things, and didn't want to continue arguing with Su Jing because of this topic. He first gave in, "Cheng An (Su Jing is of the generation of Cheng in the family tree of the Gu family, and Gu Rumeng gave him the word "An"). No see, okay?"

"I'm so ashamed, I'm still alive and kicking," Su Jing seemed to be in a good mood after mocking his father for a while, and finally returned to his normal tone. Looking at Gu Ruyu's unhappy face, he said lazily again, "This time the war , I will help you."

"Let me tell you, little ancestor," Gu Ruyu frowned, "You are good at reciting poems and composing fu, but this is military affairs, so why are you messing with it?"

"I don't understand military affairs, but Xiaoqi understands." Su Jing slightly bent his eyes, unexpectedly showing a bit of madness, and said, "I, Su Jing, have money and supplies. My character, why can't I help you—”

Su Jing didn't mention Zhong Lifei, but when he mentioned Zhong Lifei, Gu Ruyu frowned even tighter, and he spoke a series of words in a row: "Do you know his origin? Do you know that he has something to do with us?" What origin? Do you know how forbearing he is? Let me tell you, Gu Chengan, if you let yourself trust him, you will regret it sooner or later!"

"Who is 'we' with you?" Su Jing sneered slowly and leisurely, he stood up abruptly, a pair of dark eyes shone with a cold light, "My regret is my business and has nothing to do with you. "

Er, he raised his voice again, as if taking an oath, said word by word: "I trust him, he will never harm me!"

The person in front of him seemed to coincide with the person from more than 20 years ago suddenly. Gu Ruyu still clearly remembered that the woman he loved, the peerless beauty who made him dream, was also like this, with a serious face, loud and firm in front of him Openly said: "I believe in Daddy, he will never harm me!"

That's right, "he" didn't harm Su Qing, but forced him to wander for half his life, and he is still dying.

——And at this moment, the person who is similar to her uttered the same sentence as her.These words kept repeating in his ears, which made him feel cold all over, and his eyes couldn't help but turn sore.It seemed that after another chronological cycle, he suppressed this feeling and found his own voice. He said: "Yes. I won't force you. You can do whatever you want. Your third uncle has already gone to Yeyang , if you want to practice, go to Yeyang to find him."

"If you unfortunately die there," Gu Ruyu's voice sank, "I will collect your body before I die."

The corners of Su Jing's eyes were raised, and he looked rather smug. He didn't want to know why Gu Ruyu looked tired now, since he had achieved his goal, he just had to retreat safely.So he threw a specious "thank you" and strode out of the Beijing warlord's garrison.

Gu Ruyu was left alone in the command room.

The style of the command room is extremely simple, almost barren.Since that period of time passed away from Gu Ruyu's life, it seems that he has never tried anything bright and beautiful.

The so-called touching the scene to create emotion, if there is no scene, it is probably deceiving oneself and others.

A cup of tea is hanging on the table, it is still warm at the moment, but it will be cold after a while.

Life is like this cup of tea, whether it is hot or cold is just a state.It's really just a cup of tea.

Gu Ruyu rubbed her forehead and sighed.He remembered that in order to gain Liu Jun's trust, he led troops in Jingchuan and wiped out all the Zhongli clan.

He didn't believe it, he didn't believe that Zhong Lifei, who slipped through the net, was sincerely following Su Jing's side, he didn't believe it, he didn't believe that Zhong Lifei was free from hatred.

But how can that be?

Seven years ago, Su Jing and Du Ke were in love with each other, the beauty of the day, the beauty of flowers, the dew of the spring night—he was not reconciled, not reconciled, why he and Su Qing did not end well, but Su Jing was so happy.He was jealous, maddened with jealousy.So he did everything he could, and finally forced Su Jing to kill Du Ke with his own hands.Such a gentle young man, a junior who respected him very much, was supposed to be the mainstay of the country in the future, and a person who should show his talents on the political stage-because of his own private thoughts, he just died like that.His life was annihilated in the wind and dust, and there has been no follow-up since then.

These years, he was condemned by his conscience every day and could not sleep peacefully every day. How dare, how dare he force Su Jing to kill this second one again?

In the past seven years, he has seen Su Jing's ups and downs in the world, and he still can't find the meaning of living, and his whole body is overwhelmed by decadence - he has already strangled the innocence of this child with his own hands, how can, how can he strangle this child again Happiness?

Even if Zhong Lifei pretended to flatter her out of hatred, he could only bear with it. At most, he could only stare at Zhong Lifei's traces all the time, and if Zhong Lifei showed any flaws, he would immediately be on guard.

Other than that, nothing more.

He is now troubled both internally and externally.Nothing can be done.

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