The school grass fell in love with me at first sight

On the last day of National Day, when Lin Xingyou and Yu Sheng were still sleeping in bed, they suddenly received a call from their roommate Ikehashi.

Lin Xingyou answered the phone in a daze: "What's wrong?"

"Old Lin, are you awake? Come downstairs to the dormitory. We brought you and your brother some specialties when we go home."

"it is good."

After hanging up the phone, Lin Xingyou stared at the ceiling in a daze for a while before getting out of bed.

"Where?"

Yu Sheng, who was still asleep just now, suddenly took Lin Xingyou's hand and asked a sleepy question.

"Chiqiao and the others told me to go to school to get some things, and I'll be back soon." Lin Xingyou leaned over and kissed Yu Sheng's forehead, "Go to sleep first, I'll be back soon."

"Ah."

The National Day has been playing outside for the past few days, and I haven't had a good rest. Last night, I arrived in Chengdu in the early hours of the morning.

When Lin Xingyou rode a small electric donkey to the downstairs of the dormitory, the three roommates were already at the gate of the dormitory, carrying a bunch of things in their hands. When they saw Lin Xingyou appearing, they immediately came down with their things.

"What are you taking?"

"Bacon, and some of our own specialties."

"Thank you." Lin Xingyou took the special product and put it on the small eDonkey, "Come over to have dinner together tonight, and I'll send you the address later."

"Row."

"Old Lin." Seeing Lin Xingyou's dumb hair standing on top of his head, Chi Qiao laughed and said, "Did you come here as soon as you got up?"

Lin Xingyou plucked a handful of hair casually, "When I woke up, I just washed my face and came here, and I didn't even have time to brush my teeth."

The three of them also laughed when they saw this: "Go back to sleep first, and send us the address in the afternoon."

"Ah."

Lin Xingyou put the things in the refrigerator, then went back to the bedroom and changed into pajamas again, got into bed and hugged Yu Sheng into his arms.

Yu Sheng leaned into Lin Xingyou's arms and muttered, "What are you going to get?"

"The special products they sent. I asked them to come over and have a meal together in the afternoon."

"Well, it's fine."

After sleeping until the afternoon, Lin Xingyou got up and ate something casually, before Lin Xingyou sent Chiqiao and the others the location.

When Chihashi and the others arrived, Lin Xingyou was in the kitchen preparing the dishes for the night.

"I can't tell, Lao Lin." Zhuang Yancheng sighed, "I didn't expect your cooking skills to be so good."

Lin Xingyou responded with a smile: "Sit down for a while, I'll be fine soon."

After dinner, the three of Zhuang Yancheng sat down for a while and then left.

After Zhuang Yancheng and the others left, the two also took a shower and went back to the bedroom to rest.

……

After tossing until early in the morning, Lin Xingyou carried someone to the bathroom to clean.

The next day, Yu Sheng got his wish and developed a high fever.

Lin Xingyou asked Yu Sheng for leave, and then sent a message to his counselor, asking for leave to take care of Yu Sheng at home.

Yu Sheng didn't like the hospital, so he had to accompany Yu Sheng in the hospital to fetch water, prescribe the medicine and go back quickly.

"What's the matter? I didn't let you wear it, it's not that you didn't want to wear it, and didn't you wash it for me too? Don't cry."

However, Lin Xingyou still couldn't stop crying.

"Okay." Yu Sheng reached out to wipe his tears, "Come up and hug me, I want to sleep."

"Ah."

Yu Sheng's fever didn't go away in one day like before, but he had a low-grade fever intermittently for several days. In the next few days, the whole person was in a daze, and he didn't have any consciousness at night, and he babbled a lot of nonsense .

Yu Sheng, who was sick, was very delicate. He thought the medicine was bitter, and every day he had a child's tantrum and refused to take the medicine. If it were the same as before, he would just obediently take the medicine with frowns.But when someone loves her, she will have the confidence to let her temperament go unscrupulously, and spread all the coquettish things that she wanted to but couldn't.

Lin Xingyou also followed his temperament. In order to take care of him, he couldn't sleep well all night. When he heard something about Yu Sheng, he woke up instantly.

"Star……"

When Lin Xingyou heard the voice, he immediately held Yu Sheng's hand, and said nervously, "What's wrong? Is there something uncomfortable?"

"I want to drink water..."

"Wait a minute." Lin Xingyou immediately got up and left the bedroom, and came in with a glass of warm water in the living room.

After drinking a glass of warm water, Yu Sheng regained more than half of his consciousness.

"Xing Xing, I want to hug you and sleep."

"Ah."

After lying at home for a few days, Yu Sheng's body fully recovered. However, on the day Yu Sheng recovered, Lin Xingyou had a fever again. The reason was that he had a nightmare the night before.

Yu Sheng passed away—in the winter of his 40th year.

The night before in Nanjing, it snowed extraordinarily heavily.

It was already noon when Yu Sheng woke up. Lin Xingyou beside him didn't know when he got up. The place where he slept was no longer warm. At this moment, he should be in the kitchen.

When he opened the curtains, he saw that the outside was covered with a thick layer of white snow. He opened the window a little excitedly, and a gust of cold wind blew in. He rubbed his hands and closed the window quickly, otherwise Lin Xingyou would have to worry if he saw it. up.

"Brother Sheng." Lin Xingyou called him at the bedroom door, "Are you hungry? Do you want to eat?"

"Huh?" Yu Sheng turned around when he heard the voice, looked at the person wearing an apron leaning against the door frame, and asked doubtfully, "Is it time to have lunch so soon?"

"Yeah." Lin Xingyou walked over, took a coat from the closet, put it on Yu Sheng, and pushed Yu Sheng to the bathroom, "After washing and eating."

After being ill for the rest of my life, my appetite has decreased a lot, and I always feel that I have no appetite for anything. I used to have three or four bowls of rice for each meal, but now I feel that one bowl of rice is too much, and I always find various excuses. It is good to eat less. A little, a lot thinner visible to the naked eye.

Lin Xingyou coaxed him like a child every time, and barely finished a bowl of rice.

It took more than half an hour to eat a bowl of rice.

After eating, Yu Sheng insisted on going outside to play in the snow.

Ever since he fell ill, Lin Xingyou rarely let him go outside, and he was extremely nervous even if there was even a little wind.

Occasionally when going out to digest food, Lin Xingyou would wrap people in a pile of super thick clothes, and then scarves, hats, masks, gloves...how to keep warm.

Yu Sheng always couldn't help complaining in a low voice: "It's too heavy, I'm tired when I walk two steps."

"Then I'll carry you on my back, okay?"

"Forget it," Yu Sheng said with some distaste, "I'm an old man and I still have to recite it, so I'm ashamed."

But usually after walking a few steps, Yu Sheng went to hold Lin Xingyou's hand and whispered, "I'm a little tired, I can't walk anymore, please carry me on your back."

So in the end, as soon as Yu Sheng held Lin Xingyou's hand, he consciously squatted in front of Yu Sheng.

Originally, Lin Xingyou refused today without even thinking about it. After all, it just snowed and the wind outside was blowing hard. Yu Sheng's current physical condition may not be able to bear it after going out for a few blows.

But Yu Sheng wanted to go out very much today, and he made a promise to Lin Xingyou: "I'll take a look when I go out, okay, I promise not to touch the snow."

Lin Xingyou had no choice but to nod in agreement, and then found a thicker coat to wrap around Yu Sheng's body.

Yu Sheng couldn't help complaining again: "I can't play in the snow if you wrap me up like this."

Lin Xingyou looked up at him: "Didn't you agree not to touch the snow?"

Yu Sheng stuck out his tongue: "But if you don't touch it now, you may not have a chance in the future."

The hands that put on Yu Sheng's clothes paused, "Just go out and have a look. When you get better, there will be plenty of opportunities."

Yu Sheng suddenly smiled: "Really?"

"Yes." After putting on Yu Sheng's clothes, Lin Xingyou stood up straight and kissed the corners of his eyes, "There are still many decades, Brother Sheng, let's take our time, shall we?"

After going out for a short distance, Yu Sheng felt tired and wanted to find a place to sit down and have a rest, but when he saw the snow all around, he gave up again.

"Xing Xing," Yu Sheng panted slightly, and looked at Lin Xingyou, "I'm so tired, please carry me on your back."

Lin Xingyou carried Yu Sheng on his back in the community for a few minutes, Yu Sheng felt a little bored, and sighed slightly: "Let's go back, it's not interesting, and it's too cold outside."

"it is good."

After returning home, Lin Xingyou took slippers for Yu Sheng to put on, and then took off his mask, hat, and gloves for him, and then held up Yu Sheng's hands—it was cold, and there was no temperature.

Lin Xingyou couldn't help frowning: "Why are your hands so cold when you go out?"

Yu Sheng smiled and said, "Isn't it all so icy? Silly. It will warm up after a while."

Of course Lin Xingyou knew that it had always been this cold, but recently it has been on ice for too long, most of the time it is frozen, and no matter how you cover it, it will not get hot, and it will only get a little warmer when you hug it to sleep at night .

"Xing Xing, this coat is so wrapped up that I want to take it off."

Lin Xingyou took off his coat for Yu Sheng, covered him with a blanket, hugged him into his arms, and the two of them sat on the sofa and watched TV for a while.Not long after watching it, Yu Sheng started to yawn: "I'm a little sleepy, I want to sleep."

For the rest of my life after being ill, I have severe lethargy. I feel sleepy most of the day, and I always want to sleep.

Lin Xingyou turned off the TV, and carried Yu Sheng into the bedroom.

However, after entering the bedroom, Yu Sheng suddenly didn't feel sleepy anymore. He nestled in Lin Xingyou's arms and kept teasing him. When he felt Lin Xingyou's changes, he raised his eyes and asked him, "What should I do?"

"...don't do it."

Although the temperature in the room was very high, Lin Xingyou was always worried that Yu Sheng would not be able to take it, so every time Yu Sheng made trouble with him, Lin Xingyou went to take a cold shower alone.

Since Yu Sheng fell ill, the two hadn't done much.At the beginning, Yu Sheng only regarded it as a minor illness and didn't pay much attention to it, so he did it a few times.But later on, Yu Sheng felt cold when he came into contact with even a little bit of cold air, and Lin Xingyou didn't dare to act recklessly. He even had to be fully prepared to bathe him before he dared to hug him into the bathtub.

Yu Sheng lowered his eyes in disappointment, and said in a low voice, "Then go and rush."

Lin Xingyou kissed Yu Sheng's side face, and said, "I'll go take a shower first, if you feel sleepy, go to bed first, don't wait for me."

"Ah."

When he came back from the shower, Yu Sheng had already fallen asleep.

Lin Xingyou got into the quilt, carefully brought him into his arms, and kissed his forehead, between the eyebrows, the tip of his nose, and his lips.

He murmured: "Brother Sheng...what to do, I seem to really lose you."

In fact, he and Yu Sheng are very clear that Yu Sheng's body is getting worse day by day. Although he always comforts Yu Sheng by saying that there are still decades left, the fact is that it is hard to say whether Yu Sheng can survive this winter. Said to comfort himself.

Yu Sheng has slowly accepted this fact, so he can live a day is a day, and being able to spend more time with Lin Xingyou, even for a second, he feels that he has earned it.

When he woke up in the afternoon, more than half of the snow outside had melted. Although the sun was out, Yu Sheng still felt a little cold. He couldn't help shivering, and shrank back into Lin Xingyou's arms.

Sensing the movement, Lin Xingyou opened his eyes, hugged him even tighter, and rubbed Yu Sheng's hair with his chin, "Brother Sheng, are you cold?"

Yu Sheng said "hmm": "I want to kiss you, baby."

Lin Xingyou lowered his head and kissed Yu Sheng's lips. A few seconds later, when he was about to part, Yu Sheng held the back of his head and deepened the kiss. He reluctantly let go until Yu Sheng was a little out of breath.

Yu Sheng leaned against Lin Xingyou to pant for a while, and said, "I just dreamed of you, and dreamed that you were crying. If I really am gone, what will you do?"

"No..." Lin Xingyou kept repeating these three words.

what won't?He himself does not know.

He said that Yu Sheng would not be gone, and he would not cry... But these are self-deceptions, because he knows that Yu Sheng will not be around, and he will cry.

"Don't cry." Yu Sheng patted him on the back lightly, comforted him for a while, and said, "I'm a little hungry and want to eat."

Yu Sheng always felt that he was in a good state of mind this afternoon. Since he fell ill, he has never wanted to eat so much like now.

Lin Xingyou probably also noticed that after being ill, he never took the initiative to say the word "hungry" for the rest of his life. Now that he heard it, he couldn't be happy at all, but he still wiped his tears immediately and said, "I'll make it for you." , lie down for a while."

"Ah."

Lin Xingyou cooked a few light dishes, then went back to the bedroom, took a coat and put it on Yu Sheng, and carried him to the sofa in the living room.

Yu Sheng was extremely active in eating this afternoon, and he didn't need Lin Xingyou to coax him. He finished the first bowl of rice quickly, and asked Lin Xingyou to add another meal for him.

But Lin Xingyou couldn't finish a bite, and couldn't stop crying while watching Yu Sheng.

Yu Sheng quickly finished the second bowl, handed the empty bowl to Lin Xingyou, and said, "I'm full, so hurry up and eat."

Lin Xingyou took the bowl, took it back to the kitchen, took a few mouthfuls, and then took all the dishes away.

"What's wrong?" Yu Sheng kissed Lin Xingyou's eyes, "Don't you have an appetite? Just eat a little."

Lin Xingyou pulled the corners of his mouth hard: "I ate too much at noon, and I haven't digested it yet."

"Don't cry, don't cry, what are you crying for? Hug it, okay?"

Yu Sheng nestled in Lin Xingyou's arms and thought:

"Why are you unhappy? Baby, I ate two bowls of rice this afternoon. I didn't need you to coax me. I just ate two bowls of rice obediently. I will eat well every meal in the future, so you should also be happy every day Yes, okay?"

"You must be very tired these days. You have lost a lot of weight. You have to eat well and grow back quickly, otherwise I'm afraid you won't be able to carry me on your back."

"But you don't have to be so tired in the future."

"I used to always think, why don't they want me? Am I not obedient enough, or am I not sensible enough? Why did they shirk their responsibilities when they gave birth to me, and they didn't want to raise me. Why are they so unfair to me? I clearly They are also their children. But fortunately, I met Luo Sansheng, I met Tang Xing, and I met you—my star."

"You are the greatest luck in my life. All the unhappiness and unfairness that made me worry about it, after meeting you, I feel nothing, not worth mentioning. I even hope that the things I promised before Birthday wishes don’t count, I hope that I will not only live to be 40 years old, I hope that if I have a next life, I can still be with you.”

"Stars." Yu Sheng sighed suddenly, and said, "But it's a pity that we won't be able to see the 100th anniversary of the founding of New China. I really want to go to Beijing with you on the National Day in 2049 and watch the national flag raising together. It's a pity. Can't see it anymore."

"I can see it, let's go tomorrow, okay. Wait until 2049 and go again."

Yu Sheng responded with a smile: "Okay. If I can survive this winter, you can let me go out to play in the snow, okay?"

Lin Xingyou nodded.

"If possible, can you still be with me in the next life?"

Lin Xingyou shook his head desperately: "I don't want the next life, I want this life, and I want the rest of your life."

"But... I don't have the second half of my life, I don't have any in this life. So, wait for the next life, okay? Wait for the next life, I will love you very much."

After careful calculation for the rest of his life, he was with Lin Xingyou for a total of 23 years—accounting for more than half of his limited and short 40-year-old life, which can be regarded as the second half of his life. Nothing to satisfy.

Yu Sheng looked at Lin Xingyou who was crying uncontrollably, as if he saw that 16-year-old boy who was crying so sad that day.At that time, Yu Sheng thought that he must not let him cry so sad again in the future, but in the end every time he cried was because of himself, and he must not make him sad again in the next life.

Yu Sheng slowly raised his hand, trying to wipe his tears, but in the end, nothing was wiped.

Big drops of tears kept falling on his face, but there was nothing he could do.

Lin Xingyou looked at the slowly drooping hands of the person in his arms, and cried like a helpless child.

It is said that after death, the last thing to lose is hearing.

It should be, otherwise why he only heard Lin Xingyou's cry.

Be happy, my star.I can't coax you anymore.

The rest of my life ended up staying in that 40-year-old winter forever.

"Star."

"Star."

It's Yu Sheng's voice.

Yu Sheng was calling himself, each sound more anxious than the other.

Lin Xingyou, who was awakened, looked at the person in front of him, stretched out his hand to touch it, and after confirming that it was a real person, he hugged him tightly before letting out a long sigh of relief.

Yu Sheng patted Lin Xingyou on the back reassuringly, again and again.

hugged for a long time.

"What's the matter, did you have a nightmare? Tears all over your face." Looking at Lin Xingyou's tear-stained face, Yu Sheng felt both funny and distressed.

"I..." Lin Xingyou, who had just cried, began to cry again, and said intermittently: "I dreamed, dreamed that you didn't want me anymore, dreamed that you were gone, and I was alone. Don't, don't want me, Don’t leave me alone, okay? I’m so lonely living alone. I’m so obedient, why are you still thinking, thinking about not wanting me, thinking about leaving me? You love me so much, you How can you be willing to let me be so sad, how can you be willing?"

"I know it's a dream and you're still crying like this..." Yu Sheng sighed silently, realizing that Lin Xingyou had the nightmare probably because he said something frustrating when he was sick a few days ago.He stretched out his hand to wipe Lin Xingyou's tears, and comforted him softly: "Okay, I'm still here, I won't want you, I love you so much, how could I be willing to let you go, how could I be willing to let you go?" Sad, be good, it’s my fault, don’t cry, Xing Xing.”

Lin Xingyou begged bitterly: "Don't you just live to be 40 years old, okay? You promise me, promise me, for me."

"I promise you, I will live as long as you live. OK?"

After receiving the guarantee, Lin Xingyou obediently stopped crying, "You are not allowed to lie to me. If you lie to me, I will..."

What can I do?Will I never forgive you for the rest of my life?Haven't seen you all my life?But how can I do it?How can I be willing?I can't bear to make you so sad, and I can't bear to let you down either.

If possible, he really wanted to use those two little red books to keep the rest of his life by his side.

"Don't lie, don't lie." Yu Sheng hugged Lin Xingyou into his arms and coaxed him to sleep for a long time. After he fell asleep, he reached out and turned off the desk lamp.

When he woke up the next day, Yu Sheng found that Lin Xingyou beside him was hot all over, so he asked for leave to take care of him at home.