Then he became my boyfriend

After Jin Yu finished speaking, he braved the storm and rushed into the bus station without looking back.

There was no one on the platform, so he stood there, staring blankly at the road, his eyes completely unfocused.

The rainwater all over his body flowed down the trousers to the ground, converging into a small puddle.

Taxis kept passing by, but he didn't use his cell phone to hail a taxi.

A few minutes later, there happened to be a bus that could take him to his residence and arrived at the platform.

He just woke up and got into the car in a hurry.

He knew that his image at the moment must be very embarrassing, because after he got into the car, everyone in the car looked at him with pity in surprise.

As if he was a poor rebellious teenager who ran away from home.

Jin Yu quietly fumbled with his mobile phone for a while, swiped the payment code, and then found a place by the window to stand.

Although there was a seat next to him, he didn't sit down - he was covered in water, which would get wet and dirty the seat.

The air conditioner was turned on in the bus compartment, and the cold wind hit him, and the water vapor evaporated from his drenched clothes, making him suddenly feel chilly all over, icy cold to the bone.

Jin Yu shrank his shoulders slightly, leaned his head on the handrail, and stared out of the car window.

The rainwater hit the window glass, forming small water paths intertwined into a network, and the surface of the glass was even covered with a thick layer of water mist.

He couldn't see the scenery outside the window clearly, he could only see clusters of colorful fuzzy shapes.

Such weather, such a scene, and such a situation are so similar to that day seven years ago.

After Jin Yu went to Jin's house, he was always picked on by Jin Xuan, and if something was wrong, he would be punished by Jin Boyang.

Life is particularly bad. He has never been a good baby, and the rebelliousness in his bones is suddenly stimulated.

Facing the sudden encounter of patriarchal power, he was very dissatisfied and unhappy.

He wanted to find a way to resist the opponent.

But he is too young to beat a grown man like Jin Boyang.

He had no choice but to use Jin Xuan, who was younger than him, as a means of resistance. Besides, who made Jin Xuan always punish him.

When Jin Xuan came to punish him again and caused him to fall and hurt his knee, he beat Jin Xuan hard without hesitation, and only stopped after hearing Jin Xuan's screams.

Compared with the previous ones, the beating was a bit heavier. Even the family doctor was called, and he said nervously that Jin Xuan might have broken his arm.

At that time, Jin Xuan was lying there with his arms swollen and his face wailing, although it was later found out that Jin Xuan was only sprained, but Xu Yan was so distressed at the time, she scolded him for a while, blaming him for being so hard on her younger brother .

Said that he really didn't grow up at home, and he just has no affection for his family.

Although he was reprimanded, Jin Yu didn't regret it at all.

Although he purposely used Jin Xuan to fight against Jin Boyang, but he also knew that if he didn't teach Jin Xuan a lesson and made him afraid of himself, Jin Xuan would always find fault with him.

He has tolerated it time and time again, and he has suffered so much before, but he didn't hit hard.

But Jin Xuan didn't hold back at all, it was really annoying, he didn't want to keep dragging Jin Xuan.

So, he took Jin Xuan's beating up as his plan to kill two birds with one stone.

But the facts proved that he was right. Since then, Jin Xuan really didn't play any dirty tricks behind his back, at most he shouted at him verbally.

But none of that mattered, he didn't care.

It's just that he is also stupid and not well thought out.

It was only later that I figured it out, since I knew I couldn't beat Jin Boyang at this time, and I still wanted to resist like this, wouldn't that be sent to my door to be bullied and beaten?

For this resistance, for such a beating, and for the short-term peace in the future, Jin Yu really paid a heavy price, which can be called painful.

That night, when Jin Boyang came back, he beat him severely, much harder than he had beaten Jin Xuan. After the beating, he was dragged to a confinement room and locked up.

Only then did Jin Yu realize that being beaten was really painful.

The feeling that the bamboo strips brushed against the skin was an indescribable and indescribable pain, which he had never experienced before.

He grew up so big that he had never been beaten before he came to Beicheng.

For a moment, he lost all stubborn thoughts.

When he was dragged to the small dark room, he looked at the black space without windows. At that moment, he really felt very fragile in his heart.

He really wanted to go back to the Shen family, really wanted to stay by Shen Yi's side, really wanted to be his younger brother.

There has never been a moment in this life like that moment. He missed the past so much, and missed the elder brother who loved and protected him.

but……

After the door of the confinement room was closed, he stayed in the darkness where he couldn't see his fingers. He clearly understood that he had left Shen's house, he had left Shen Yi's side...

On the day he got in the car to Beicheng, he made a decision and never looked back.

So, he blacklisted and deleted everyone's contact information, then turned off his phone and threw it in his backpack, intending to never use it again.

He thought that if he could leave Shen's house without a headache, he would be able to endure the pain of longing.

But he really overestimated himself.

It wasn't until he was in the dark that he realized that he couldn't hold on, that he wasn't that strong, and that he wasn't that determined.

He crouched in the corner of the dark room, thinking loosely, maybe...

Maybe Shen Yi pushed him away for a reason?

Maybe he didn't really want his own?

Maybe Shen Yi will come to see him after a while?

Thinking about countless possibilities, until he was dizzy from hunger, lying on the ground unable to support himself, looking at the dark place, and when his consciousness was blurred, he secretly made the next decision in his heart——

When he goes out, he will leave Jin's house.

He wanted to take a car back to Shen's house to have a look, he...he wanted to ask Shen Yi again.

Ask him if he can take back that sentence, if he can continue to be his brother.

He couldn't stay in Jin's house, he couldn't stay, he still wanted to go back to Shen's house to be Shen Yu.

Jin Yu was imprisoned by Jin Boyang for two days. When Mr. Jin returned home and asked to open the door, he almost passed out from hunger. His whole body was in a daze. When he was carried out by the servant, his mouth was still weak. shouting brother.

But in fact, Jin Yu himself no longer remembers how he got out of the confinement room.

When he regained consciousness, it was already the afternoon of the second day when he woke up. It was dark outside, and it looked like it was going to rain.

He was lying in a strange room with lights on, with glucose hanging from a needle on the back of his hand.

The servant sitting next to him and taking care of him told him that Mr. Jin had arranged for him to live here alone without going to the main house.

In fact, Jin Yu didn't care where he lived at all, anyway, he wasn't going to stay at Jin's house anymore.

Thinking about the decision before he passed out, he pulled out the needle casually, got up and got out of bed.

The servant was startled, but due to his status, he didn't stop him.

Jin Yu came out of the bedroom, thought for a while, and then went back to ask the servant where the things he had brought before were.

The servant pointed to the study room and said, "It's all cleaned up and put in the room over there. I don't know what you want to do with it, but it hasn't been moved."

Jin Yu went to the study.

When he left Shen's house, he only carried a small bag, which contained his personal belongings.

In addition to ID cards, there are mobile phones and some cards.

Ever since he left Shen's house, that cell phone had been turned off and hadn't been used. He originally thought that he would never use it again.

But at this moment, he broke his original decision, and he wanted to try again.

Even if he let go of his self-esteem, he still wanted to try again.

He packed the package and picked up the phone to turn it on.

Jin Xuan suddenly sneaked in from the door.

Jin Xuan's eyebrows that were slapped by him before were all green, and this meeting has not completely disappeared.

He seemed to be here to see the excitement, or to see what his new living environment was like. As soon as he came in, he looked around, pursed his lips, and looked disgusted and unhappy.

"What are you doing here? Do you still want to be beaten?"

Jin Yu hid the small bag in his clothes, afraid that Jin Xuan would find out that he wanted to run away, but if Jin Boyang found out, he would definitely not be able to run away.

He intentionally put on a fierce look, and gave Jin Xuan an annoyed sideways glance.

Jin Xuan, however, had an expression of "you don't know anything", sat on the stool in front of him, shook his head and talked, as if the scar had healed and forgot the pain, and his tone was rather gloating: "Hey, look, Let you hit me, and be imprisoned by your father? Is it uncomfortable?"

"Don't talk nonsense here," Jin Yu said blankly, "Get out of here, or I'll beat you again, you can try to see if I feel uncomfortable."

Jin Xuan didn't know if he was serious about what he said, and he was really a little scared for a while. He hesitated for a while, then remembered that Jin Yu just came out of the confinement room, slept for another day, and didn't eat anything at all. Might still have the strength to hit him.

So, he became bolder again.

"I'm not afraid of you," Jin Xuan said, but he still slipped to the door, looking as if Jin Yu dared to make a move, he would run away, pawing at the door and saying, "If you dare to hit me, Dad will hit you again I'll put you in confinement, but you are so stupid, when my brother was around, he was never punished by my father, and he was never cruel to me, not at all like you."

"Then go find your brother, don't bother me." After Jin Yu finished speaking, he got up and made a gesture to drive Jin Xuan away. He didn't want to talk nonsense with Jin Xuan, and was going to drive him away. He was looking for a reason to go out go.

But Jin Xuan said: "I really want to look for him, but he will immigrate abroad with the Shen family tonight, and he will live abroad in the future, so there will not be so many opportunities to meet him."

After he finished speaking, he looked at Jin Yu with a smile and teasing eyes, and sneered: "However, you are so miserable, your parents don't want you, did they not tell you when they went abroad? My brother said that after they immigrated , probably settled abroad.”

After he finished speaking, Jin Yu was already stunned.

He knew that Shen Yi would go abroad to study, but he thought it would take at least a while before he left to go abroad, he didn't expect that they would leave so soon.

Moreover, they actually immigrated to a foreign country with the whole family.

That's right, he was the one who said he couldn't go abroad, but Shen Yu wasn't him, so there was no reason not to go abroad.

But if you live there... then... wouldn't it be possible to never come back after that?

Jin Yu's heart suddenly became flustered. He just decided to go back to Shen's house to take a look. He also wanted to ask Shen Yi why he had to leave before he started doing all of this.

No, he couldn't let them just go.

He didn't care about arguing with Jin Xuan anymore, and he didn't care what Jin Xuan thought, so he hurriedly took his mobile phone and small bag with him, and ran to the door.

Jin Xuan was taken aback by his action, really thought he was going to come over and beat him, so he let go of the door and ran out, covering his face and neck at the same time.

But Jin Yu didn't look at him at all, and ran out of the villa as soon as he went out.

Only then did Jin Xuan feel that something was wrong, and asked him from behind: "What are you doing?"

Then, seeing Jin Yu carrying a small bag, he seemed to react, and said, "Are you going to the airport in Nancheng? Are you crazy? It's going to rain, you know?"

"Dad, he just let you live outside, not let you run away from home!"

"Besides, what's the use of going to Nancheng Airport? They don't want you anymore!"

"Hey! Don't run away!"

But Jin Yu ignored him at all and ran away.

Jin Xuan looked at Jin Yu's back at the door, and obviously couldn't stop him. He regretted it for a while. If he had known it would be so careless, he would not have said this.

He now knew that no matter what he did, Shen Yu would never come back to this family. The reason why he found fault with Jin Yu was purely because Jin Yu beat him, and he hated Jin Yu.

However, if Jin Yu ran away and his father found out that it was him, then he would be miserable.

Jin Xuan's forehead was sweating, and he followed behind trying to chase Jin Yu back: "Don't run away, Dad will come back and know that you have run away, and he will find me to settle the score!"

However, Jin Yu was older than him, and he ran faster than him. There was no one else in the villa except a servant who took care of him, and no one stopped Jin Yu for a while.

Jin Yu rushed out and turned on the phone while running. The phone was useless, and the battery was still the same as before. After turning it on, he flipped through the address book. Looking at the blank address book, he remembered, everyone He deleted them all.

But he still remembered Shen Yi's phone number, so he dialed it regardless.

But the phone was busy and no one answered.

He didn't know if Shen Yi didn't answer his call or if he was busy and didn't hear it.

So he took a taxi to the station, planning to take the car directly to Nancheng Airport to find them.

There was a torrential rain on the way, and when he got outside the station, he didn't even have an umbrella, so he rushed into the train station recklessly, drenched in the torrential rain.

He didn't care about his embarrassment, he ignored his fear, such as thunder and rain, at that moment, he only thought that he must meet Shen Yi before they got on the plane.

He doesn't have a visa, if Shen Yi goes abroad, he won't be able to go out, and he will never see his brother again.

Thinking of this, he felt extremely scared, he was afraid that he would never see Shen Yi again in his life.

Thinking that in the rest of his life, this person will have nothing to do with him, and he will never see him again, so he can't control his emotions.

After all, he had lived together for 15 years, and he didn't dare to think about what he would do if he didn't see this person for the rest of his life.

Sitting on the train, he was so scared that he even cried out. His clothes were soaked and he was in a mess. At one time, he attracted people's attention and comfort, thinking that there was an accident at his home.

His eyes were dim with tears, and he didn't know what the people around him were talking about, but he called Shen Yi every once in a while, hoping that Shen Yi would answer the phone.

But there has been no one to answer, has been a busy tone.

He was even afraid that he might make a mistake, so he repeatedly checked whether the number he dialed was correct.

During the six or seven hours of driving, he felt like he was sitting on pins and needles, completely restless.

While looking at his phone, he was afraid that he would not be in time.

If he arrived at the airport in Nancheng, he could still use the radio to find someone, but now he could only hope that Shen Yi would hear his call and that he would answer his call.

Unfortunately, he didn't know it at the time. It turned out that when he was crying on the train, his family had already boarded the plane and was already on the way to fly abroad. He was destined not to see anyone.

But he thought he had a chance, that he had time.

When he finally arrived at Nancheng Airport, it was already twelve o'clock at night.

His clothes were still wet, and he couldn't care less about the chills all over his body, so he went to the radio station tremblingly, asking the staff to find someone for him.

The other party helped him broadcast for half an hour, but no one came at all.

Seeing from hope to gradually disappointed, to finally despair.

The moment he left the radio station in a daze, he knew clearly in his heart that Shen Yi had already left.

He went abroad, and he will never come back.

But from the moment he turned on the phone to the present, he never called Shen Yi, and no one called him.

In the past, when Shen Yi took him to fly to other places to play, and turned off the phone before boarding the plane, Shen Yi had seriously told him that he should check his phone before flying to avoid missing important information.

Because the mobile phone has no signal after boarding the plane, it will delay things.

At that time, he also said that he would definitely remember and would not leak news about his brother.

Shen Yi also smiled and pinched his face, saying that he is really good.

Before Shen Yi boarded the plane, he must have checked his phone to check the messages.

So, he saw the phone, but didn't answer it, and didn't call him back.

even……

He thought, maybe the busy signal was because Shen Yi refused to connect, or...he was blocked.

Jin Yu stood lonely in the empty airport hall, the cold air rushed into his whole body, even his blood vessels began to feel cold.

He finally understood that it turned out that Shen Yi really didn't want him anymore.

It turned out that he really had no chance to go back.

Even if he chases after him shamelessly, even if he puts down his self-esteem and face, it is actually just asking for humiliation.

Holding his mobile phone, he walked out of the airport aimlessly, not even knowing where he was for a while.

He no longer plans to go back to the Jin family, and now there is no Shen family either.

He planned not to go anywhere, but to stay in Nancheng. Anyway, he has lived here for more than ten years, so he is still familiar with it.

Besides, he is an orphan, it's the same wherever he wanders.

But he still didn't expect that God didn't even give him a chance for the idea of ​​wandering.

Nancheng also suddenly started to rain in the middle of the night, and his clothes that were not yet dry were drenched again. He was walking on an unknown road, his mind was in a trance, his feet slipped suddenly in the darkness, and he was directly caught by an oncoming taxi. Knocked down and ended up in the hospital.

……

For Jin Yu, that summer was undoubtedly the darkest period of his life.

After being hit by a car, he was seriously injured. The most important thing was that he hit the back of his head and underwent many minor brain surgeries.

After all the operations were over and he woke up, he found that he couldn't taste the food, nor could he smell anything.

He was panicked, and when the doctor checked the bed, he grabbed the doctor's sleeve and asked this question.

The doctor said that this is part of the nerve damage in the brain, which is an irreversible damage. There is no effective treatment method, only some medicines that are beneficial to the nerves can be taken, and we can only see the situation later.

That being said, the doctor had already told him plainly by looking at his expression that there was no cure.

He will no longer be able to smell or eat delicious food.

……

After the doctor left, he lay on the hospital bed in a daze for a long time, his mind went blank, and he suddenly felt like a child hated by heaven.

Otherwise, why would he go through this?

It's okay to be abandoned, after taking back his family affection, now even God will take away his sense of taste and smell, so that he will not be able to eat delicious food or smell good in the future.

For a moment, he even felt as if he shouldn't be alive, and he didn't understand why he was alive.

But he dared not die, nor did he want to die.

Especially, when he heard in the middle of the night that the patient in the next ward couldn't bear the crying of his family members who had passed away, he felt that he couldn't die.

Because, if he died, no one in this world would cry for him.