Then he became my boyfriend

Song Yue thought that two glasses of Shen Yi would make him drunk, but in the end he drank more than half of the bottle of Shen Yi, before Shen Yi passed out, and he lay on the table without moving.

Li Ye couldn't bear it long ago and came over to try to persuade him not to drink so much.

But Song Yue kept watching, but he didn't dare to reach out to stop him.

Seeing Shen Yi poured down on the table after drinking, Li Ye couldn't help asking Song Yue: "Is there nothing wrong with this?"

Song Yue didn't care, and waved his hand: "Don't worry, nothing will happen."

After speaking, he told Li Ye: "You carry him, let's go out and take a taxi now."

"..." Li Ye was confused, looked at the drunk Shen Yi, and asked Song Yue in puzzlement: "Didn't you say that the boss is drunk, can you let Jin Yu take him home? What are you doing now?" ?”

Song Yue didn't answer him directly, but said: "If you want to know, just do it, don't ask questions."

After saying that, he went out to pay the bill, urged Li Ye to leave the restaurant with Shen Yi, and the three of them took a taxi.

Halfway through the car, Song Yue suddenly asked the driver to stop.

Li Yezheng was full of dissatisfaction and doubts when he heard Song Yue waving to him: "Get your boss out of the car."

Li Ye obediently got Shen Yi out of the car, and then he looked at the empty roads around him, feeling even more strange in his heart.

He felt that Song Yue was unreliable, but the meeting had reached this point, and he had no choice but to continue listening to Song Yue.

He asked, "What now?"

"Now?" Song Yue took out his ID and mobile phone from Shen Yi's pocket, pulled up the corner of his mouth and gave a smirk, and said, "Now you just put him on the ground."

Li Ye: "..."

Li Ye looked skeptical, but finally heeded the order.

After Jin Yu finished dinner with Yu Miao, it was already past nine o'clock and it was already dark.

After coming out of the cafeteria, the two walked around the corridor to digest food, and from time to time they would meet a few staff members who were also not off work.

In the aisle, the night outside the glass wall was filled with bright lights, and the light came in and hit Jin Yu's body.

"It's pretty good to see the scenery outside the company at night. I haven't seen it carefully before." Yu Miao chatted with him in a low voice, and suddenly saw someone setting off fireworks in the distance, and patted Jin Yu's arm in surprise, like Like a child: "Wow! Er Xi, look at the fireworks over there! I don't know what's going on! I haven't seen fireworks in Beicheng for a long time! It's so beautiful!"

Jin Yu didn't expect to see fireworks, his eyes fell on the fleeting light, and he paused.

Jin Yu pursed his lips and looked at the splendid scene rising not far away, and for some reason suddenly remembered the scene on his birthday.

His heart suddenly sank again.

Thinking that I didn't go to have dinner with them tonight, I don't know what's going on there.

Jin Yu suddenly closed his eyes and sighed.

Yu Miao was watching the fireworks, when she heard such a sigh, she glanced sideways at Jin Yu, he pursed the corners of his mouth, his eyes were quickly stained with a trace of melancholy.

He knew that Jin Yu had always had something on his mind. He hadn't looked at Er Xi so frequently to show such a face and emotion before, but since his birthday, he often has this kind of depression that is inadvertently shown.

He also put away his excitement.

When the fireworks were over, both of them returned to silence, not joking like before.

Just like this, we strolled downstairs from the cafeteria and arrived at the entrance of the company.

The two were about to take a taxi back together when Yu Miao's cell phone rang suddenly.

Yang Ye suddenly called Yu Miao.

After answering the phone, Yu Miao showed surprise, turned her head while holding the phone, and said to Jin Yu with a tangled face, "Second Xi, brother Yang asked me to go with him to the recording venue to record the pre-production materials tonight, I might I won't be going back tonight."

This was beyond Yu Miao's expectation.

Originally, what Yang Ye and Yu Miao said was to take a day off tomorrow to go back and pack their luggage, and the day after tomorrow to enter a fully enclosed place for official program recording.

Yu Miao originally planned to have a good chat with Jin Yu tomorrow to relax, but now all these plans are in vain.

He has to go now, the place where the show is recorded is still a little far away.

Jin Yu saw his tangled face, smiled and said: "Then you go quickly, be careful on the road, and take care of yourself when you get there."

Yu Miao didn't leave immediately, but just stood there pouted and looked at Jin Yu, "If you don't come to eat with me tonight, I won't be able to eat with you for a few months."

Yu Miao looked at Jin Yu with reluctance in her eyes.

Seeing him like that, Jin Yu couldn't help raising the corners of his mouth: "Why do you show such an expression? It's not like we won't be together anymore."

But as soon as the words fell, he stopped.

Yu Miao suddenly took a few steps closer and gave Jin Yu a big hug.

The air was very quiet, Yu Miao's tone slowed down, and she whispered in his ear: "Second Xi, I've been too busy these days, I didn't take good care of you, I'm sorry."

After hearing this, Jin Yu suddenly became emotional, his throat choked, and he wanted to say something.

But before she could speak, Yu Miao continued to speak: "I know you have encountered many things during this time, although I would be curious, but if you don't want to talk about it, I won't ask."

"But" Yu Miao asked him again while talking: "Second Xi, do you still remember what you told me when we first met in high school?"

"Life is very difficult. If you have to live against your will, how uncomfortable will it be?"

This is what Jin Yu said to Yu Miao when he and Yu Miao met for the first time.

What Yu Miao said inevitably made Jin Yu's mood fluctuate, recalling the past.

Jin Yu remembered the first time he beat someone in school.

He had just gone to that school not long ago, and because of the difference in accent between the north and the south, he was discriminated against in the class.

Everyone knew that he was a kid who grew up in a small southern city, and he was not popular at home.

His classmates isolated him.

But at that time, Jin Yu didn't care about all this at all, so he kept going alone, either staying in the dormitory or nesting in the corner of the classroom every day, ignoring anyone.

Until one day, when he was returning to the dormitory, he saw several tall and strong boys cornering Yu Miao in the corner of the dormitory building and beating him up.

At that time, Yu Miao shrunk into a small ball, completely unable to resist, her face was black and blue, and she couldn't even tell what she looked like.

At that time, Jin Yu didn't care about other people's affairs at all. He was immersed in the sadness of losing his sense of taste and smell, and in the pain of being abandoned by his brother forever.

Therefore, he ignored everything in the outside world, and he didn't pay much attention to it when he saw it.

However, just as he was walking towards his dormitory, Yu Miao suddenly raised her head and glanced at him, the panic in her eyes even made Jin Yu think of herself instantly.

Then he felt himself stimulated by that look.

Those people beat him up and warned Yu Miao that next time Yu Miao would still beat him if he was still dancing in the dormitory.

Then you kicked Yu Miao and asked him if he heard.

Yu Miao huddled in a corner, blankly without answering.

"Didn't you hear what I said? Are your ears bad? Why don't you ask for it?" Seeing him like that, the leader was very upset. He said, then turned his head and told the people next to him: "Go get a wire Come here, I'll poke his ears to see if he's deaf and will have a longer memory."

Those few people are usually bastards in the school. Although the school rules of this boarding school are very strict, these families are very rich and powerful, and they themselves caused trouble outside. They are very courageous.

When this person said this, someone really went back to the dormitory to find the wire.

Jin Yu didn't want to care about it at first, but he didn't know why, maybe it was stimulated by the "deafness" that person said, maybe it was because he couldn't bear to see Yu Miao's pitiful appearance, or maybe it was something else that he couldn't explain clearly. s reason,

In short, he couldn't hold back and walked over.

"Hey, isn't this the one from the Jin family who was hugged wrong? Why, do you want to stand up for him?" The other party saw him and knew who he was, and immediately laughed: "I don't even look at how many catties I have, Nan Chang Big and weak chicken, also wants to stand out for others, overestimates one's ability, get out."

But as soon as he finished the sentence, Jin Yu punched him.

The man was silenced by his punch, and the whole person fell to the ground.

Jin Yu's strength is still great, and he was a bit self-defeating during that time, so he has no scruples in his actions.

The so-called arrogant ones are afraid of being stunned, and those who are stunned are afraid of dying. Jin Yu was almost the one who was desperate at the time.

Maybe too many things happened that summer vacation, he held back too hard, and he hit hard.

The man felt timid seeing him being so cruel, and the others were jealous that he was a member of the Jin family, so they didn't dare to really do anything about it. In the end, these people had to disperse.

After he drove the group of people away, he planned to go straight back to his dormitory.

Yu Miao got up from the ground tremblingly, followed him pitifully with her arms folded, like a silent tail.

He didn't speak, just followed.

At that time, he couldn't hold back, and asked Yu Miao, "Why are you following me?"

Yu Miao stood beside him nonchalantly, glanced at him carefully, but didn't speak.

Seeing him like that, Jin Yu didn't say a word, but let him enter his dormitory anyway.

At that time, he was alone in the dormitory, and he had no other roommates.

After Yu Miao came in, she looked at him for a long time, with a miserable look on her face, she whispered a thank you to him.

Jin Yu didn't even look at him, just said: "You don't need to thank me, I just see them upset, it has nothing to do with you."

Yu Miao stood there silent for a while and then said: "You will be troubled by them after you hit them."

Jin Yu just sat on the bed and looked at Yu Miao for a long time, and said coldly, "If you're looking for trouble, just make trouble. I can do whatever I want, and I don't care if they make trouble or not in the future."

"If you're afraid of making trouble, go away."

Seeing his fearless appearance, Yu Miao was quiet for a long time, then asked weakly: "I, can I move in and live with you?"

Jin Yu raised his eyebrows when he heard this, feeling that he had caused trouble for himself.

Yu Miao thought that he hated her mother too, and said, "Don't worry, I won't dance in the dormitory."

Jin Yu frowned even more, and Yu Miao shrank her shoulders and dared not speak.

Jin Yu couldn't stand it anymore, so he grabbed Yu Miao, let him sit down on the bed opposite, and said with a stern face: "Why are you so submissive, you can do whatever you want, dance if you want, those people beat you , you don’t want to dance anymore? You’re too sorry for yourself.”

"Life is so sad, but you have to force yourself to give up the things you like because of these people. Is it against your will? Is it uncomfortable?"

Yu Miao was frightened by him all of a sudden, she sat there in a daze for a long time, her eyes were red.

After a while, he shook his head like a rattle, and explained: "No, I'm still dancing. I don't want to give up dancing."

As if afraid of Jin Yu's anger, Yu Miao added: "You're right, life is already so difficult, if you can't follow yourself, what's the point of living?"

"I don't have any other skills, I just like to dance, and I won't listen to them not to dance against my will."

At that moment, Jin Yu was stabbed in the heart by Yu Miao's words.

Obviously he said it to stimulate Yu Miao, but who knows that Yu Miao turned around and returned the words to him.

Jin Yu fell silent at that time, and he ignored Yu Miao.

Originally, he came to this school in a state of abandonment, but at that moment, what Yu Miao said affected him.

It is already so difficult for people to live, if they can't do what they want and live according to their own ideas, then what's the point?

It was also from that day on that Jin Yu decided to forget about Shen Yi and the others, and decided not to bother with them anymore.

He wants to continue his musical journey, he doesn't want to go back to Jin's house, even to that small villa alone, he doesn't want to go back.

Yu Miao asked him if he could live with him, but Jin Yu didn't make a sound, neither agreed nor refused.

So Yu Miao still boldly went back to the dormitory to move things over.

But Jin Yu didn't throw him out, and he didn't refuse Yu Miao to follow him, so the two became roommates.

Later, there were several times when others wanted to trouble Yu Miao because they saw Jin Yu and did not continue.

For the rest of their high school life, the two of them seemed to be ignored, no one bothered them anymore, and no one took care of them.

……

Back then when he said this to Yu Miao, he was not so chic in his heart, but now he doesn't even have this false chic.

During this period of time, he has had too much reluctance, too much self-deception, too much involuntary...

He has been trying to resist, has been suppressing himself, forcing himself not to think.

But the memory is always out of control, and the heart always jumps out of his reason.

He knew that during this time, he had been living against his will.

From the moment he heard Shen Yi's name in the bar, he never really obeyed his own will.

He always thought that he was hiding well, but he didn't expect Yu Miao to find out.

Jin Yu didn't speak, at this moment he was a little vulnerable.

Yu Miao probably also knew that he must have a lot of emotions and thoughts in his heart at this moment. He stroked Jin Yu's hair and said, "I know you and Shen Yi must have had many intersections that I didn't know before. You have pain and struggles in your heart. There is resistance, but I want to say, don’t put pressure on yourself and don’t forcibly restrain yourself, do what you think in your heart, follow your heart, and don’t make yourself so uncomfortable. I feel sad when you look sad.”

Yu Miao still remembered Shen Yi's performance in the hospital. In addition, he also learned from Yang Ye that he and Er Xi were signed by the company because of Shen Yi's request. It can be said that he and Er Xi can move forward together. It is because of Shen Yi that Bu Bu is working so fast towards the direction of his dream.

He could tell that Shen Yi really cared about Er Xi, he cared about Er Xi very much.

But afterwards he didn't speak well of Shen Yi, or tell Er Xi about Shen Yi's performance.

Because he felt that it was the second Xi's life, the experience of the second Xi.

In that photo, Er Xi smiled so carefree, but he never saw Er Xi with the same smile again.

Er Xi must have been hurt to become like this later, no matter how good Shen Yi is doing now, it may not be able to make up for Er Xi's suffering and losses.

It's just that he doesn't want to watch Er Xi keep making things difficult for him.

Er Xi obviously cared about Shen Yi very much, several times when he woke up in the middle of the night to go to the toilet, he heard voices in Er Xi's room, so he opened the door and went in to have a look, and heard Er Xi was still talking in his sleep, crying and calling for brother.

He remembered that Er Xi was drunk that day, nestled in Shen Yi's arms, and asked Shen Yi in a pitiful tone: "Why don't you want me anymore?"

He had never seen such a fragile side of Er Xi, Er Xi must be struggling and suffering in his heart.

He knew that Er Xi actually longed to return to his brother's side, but the shadow of his past pain of being abandoned was too deep, so he kept struggling, trying to suppress his longing.

During this period of time, he felt sad seeing Er Xi suppressing himself like this.

Finally, Yu Miao added another sentence: "Second Xi, I don't mean anything by saying these words, just to tell you that I will always be your best friend, and I will not use my status as a friend to influence or interfere with your decision. I will always stand behind you, no matter what decision you make, I will support you. I just hope you are well and happy, that is the best."

After Yu Miao finished speaking, she patted Jin Yu's back lightly, and then let go.

Jin Yu choked with sobs and said "Yes": "I know."

Yu Miao took a step back and looked at him with a slight smile. After a while, the phone rang again.

Yu Miao glanced at the phone, made up her mind and waved at Jin Yu, and finally said, "Second Xi, I'm going to find Brother Yang first, you should go back and rest early. Remember to come and see me some other day."

After Yu Miao finished speaking, she turned and left.

Halfway through, he turned around and added: "By the way, remember to send me a message if you have something to do, and I will find a chance to take a peek."

After finishing speaking this time, he didn't look back.

Jin Yu stood there, watching his figure slowly disappear around the corner of the building.

Because of Yu Miao's words, Jin Yu stood there for a long time.

Yu Miao asked him to go back to rest earlier, but Jin Yu did not go back to rest earlier.

He suddenly didn't want to go back directly, he turned around, looked at the dark sky, then glanced at the road illuminated by the dim yellow lights, and decided to walk back.

Anyway, the residence is not far from the company.

Jin Yu was walking by the side of the road, looking at the tree shadows in the distance, his mind was filled with what Yu Miao said just now.

After an unknown amount of time, Jin Yu suddenly let out a breath.

He knew that he was not in the right state tonight, the reason why he went to eat with Yu Miao was because he didn't want to give himself a chance and an excuse to have dinner with Shen Yi.

He knew that in his heart he had been lowering his defense against Shen Yi, and was always looking for excuses for himself to forgive Shen Yi.

That's why he didn't leave the company, why he listened to Shen Yi's explanation in the restaurant...

He was afraid that he would be moved by Shen Yi's kindness, and that he would soften, so he kept trying to build a psychological defense line for himself, so that he would be indifferent and decisive towards Shen Yi.

But it was still unsuccessful, he kept making excuses for himself, saying that it was his memory, but in the end it was just because he still had a little bit of delusion in his heart.

He still misses his elder brother, and still wants to become Shen Yi's younger brother, but he can't completely let go of the grudge that he was once abandoned, that's why he is so entangled in pain.

It's just that I didn't expect that the words used to persuade Yu Miao many years ago are now used by Yu Miao to persuade herself again.

He suddenly felt a sense of absurdity, how could he not live as well as he did in high school now?

It's really not like him to be so submissive and hesitant.

Just as Jin Yu thought of this, his phone rang suddenly.

The empty sound of the bell woke him up from his thoughts.

I thought it was Yu Miao, but when I took it out, it turned out to be an unfamiliar phone number.

He frowned, but connected anyway.

"Hello?" His voice was too low, startling the other side.

After a while, the person on the other side answered: "... Hey! Hello, are you a little boy?"

Jin Yu didn't expect to hear a girl call him that.

Subconsciously responded: "Well, I am. What's the matter?"

"Oh, you have a friend lying on the main road drunk, unconscious. I can't answer anything, only your number in the phone, can you come and pick him up? I'm just passing by, I have to go home. Hurry up and pick him up here, otherwise accidents will happen in the middle of the night. "

Speaking of which, the girl reported her location to Jin Yu.

The other party seemed to be in a hurry. After reporting the address, he added, "I'll wait for you here for half an hour at most. If it's over, I'll leave."

Then hung up.

Jin Yu looked at the screen of the phone that went dark again, stood by the side of the road, hesitated for a moment, and finally decided to check the situation.

After spending about twenty minutes, Jin Yu finally found the place.

After looking there, he guessed right, the drunk person lying on the ground was indeed Shen Yi.

The girl who called him saw him, her eyes lit up, she leaned over and asked, "Is that you, darling?"

Jin Yu nodded, and the girl said, "I'll leave that person to you. I'll go home first. By the way, this is his cell phone."

With that said, the girl handed Shen Yi's mobile phone to Jin Yu, turned around and left.

Jin Yu pinched his phone, but he hadn't reacted from seeing Shen Yi lying drunk on the road.

He stared down at Shen Yi blankly.

Shen Yi drank too much, his whole face was red, just lying on the side of the road, exuding an indescribable smell, maybe it was alcohol.

Fortunately, Jin Yu couldn't smell it, so he didn't feel anything.

It's just that he looked at Shen Yi like this, which didn't match his usual mature and stable appearance at all, and he suddenly felt a sense of trance that he didn't know who he was looking at.

He had never seen Shen Yi with such a side.

A car drove past on the side of the road, and there was a gust of wind.

Jin Yu woke up after being blown across the face by the wind.

In the middle of the night, people can't be lying on the road like this.

He squatted down, pushed Shen Yi, trying to wake him up.

"Brother... Mr. Shen, wake up?"

Jin Yu pushed it a few more times, but Shen Yi didn't respond, completely unconscious.

Jin Yu had no choice but to look around. There was absolutely no one here, and there was no shop in sight.

He didn't even know how Shen Yi came here alone, and just lying on the side of the road.

They should be a group of people for dinner at night.

He thought for a while, then went to check Shen Yi's pocket, but there was no ID in his pocket, even if he wanted to open a hotel for him.

I used Shen Yi's fingerprint to unlock the phone, but there was no one else's on it except his contact information.

Jin Yu opened Shen Yi's chat software again, planning to find his assistant or Shen Xi and let them pick him up.

He was taken aback when he clicked in.

The chat interface is empty, only the topmost sticky is still there.

The chat avatar is his previous number.

He recognized it immediately.

Because it was a photo of him and his brother, and it was the first photo he took with his brother when he bought a new mobile phone when he was ten years old.

Jin Yu's breathing became lighter unconsciously.

He obviously wanted to check the address book, but for some reason, his fingers accidentally clicked on this top.

Then, his gaze was completely fixed on it.

There were many, many messages in it that he had never received before.

The sending time of those messages can even be traced back to ten years ago.

The intensity of news is basically one a day, or even a few a day, some in the morning, some in the evening, and even in the middle of the night.

Even though those messages never received any reply, he didn't stop.

These thoughts that Shen Yi sent to him in various days in the past have not been seen by the recipients until today.

All the information that has been sent has finally completed the mission entrusted by the writer.

Jin Yu stared blankly, and while flipping his fingers forward, huge waves were stirred up in his heart.

Shen Yi actually still kept these chat records.

He is still sending himself messages every day...

Jin Yu's heart suddenly felt sour, and his breathing became choked up uncontrollably.

It turned out that Shen Yi really didn't really abandon himself.

It turned out that he had really been trying to contact himself.

In every day that he has missed each other, the other party also misses himself.

At this moment, Jin Yu couldn't tell what he was feeling, so his long-standing emotions were on the verge of bursting.

He flipped forward uncontrollably through the chat history.

From birthday wishes every year to good night every time I miss you.

He even saw the message that Shen Yi sent him on the night he left Nancheng.

[Xiaoguai, I'm sorry, my brother was wrong, my brother was wrong.Brother will pick you up tomorrow.Can you forgive my brother and justify my brother? ]

……

Those black and square fonts gradually became blurred, and Jin Yu's eyes were also stained with a layer of red silk and covered with water vapor.

As if he couldn't hold it any longer, he hugged his shoulders and buried his face in his knees.

He squatted there and didn't move for a long time.

Until the ground was stained with a ring of water stains, reflecting the light under the street lamp.