Focus on the scene

◎Why does it take so long to become a year◎

Just like homeless people understand the suffering of homeless people better, people who can't see the future can always better understand the confusion of people who can't see the future.

Ji Huai is not a roundworm in Jingjie's stomach, Jingjie doesn't say anything, he can't think of the point that triggers Jingjie's emotions for a while, but this is not a problem, before Jingjie calms down, he just needs to be able to understand Jingjie's emotions .

It's really important to have someone who understands when you're sad.At least Ji Huai thinks so.

When Jing Jie heard Ji Huai's words, his freshly frozen tear glands almost collapsed on the spot. Fortunately, he had become a habit of suppressing and restraining for so many years, and he only needed a few deep breaths to adjust.

"I'm fine." Jing Jie patted Ji Huai on the back.

"You have." Ji Huai let go of him, but put his hands on Jingjie's shoulders, for fear that he would run away if he didn't pay attention, "Is it difficult to admit this?"

Jingjie was silent, and finally couldn't stand Ji Huai's gaze, turned his head slightly, and said "difficult" in a low voice.

"Then switch to simple mode." Ji Huai said, "at least in my place, can you switch to simple mode?"

"It's not playing games, what tune should I tune?" Despite Jing Jie's words, he felt much better because of Ji Huai's rare words.

"It doesn't matter." Ji Huai put on the tone of a primary school student, "I can adjust it if I say it can be adjusted."

Jing Jie admitted defeat, "Okay, I have something to do."

"Can you tell me?"

"Give me a reason."

"I thought I was your boyfriend enough for you to have nothing to hide from me." Ji Huai wanted to pretend to be angry, but facing such a scene, he couldn't get angry, even if he pretended, so this sentence said It's kind of like a joke.

"Of course." Jing Jie looked into Ji Huai's eyes again and smiled, "But it will be a bit sad, are you sure you want to listen?"

"As long as it's about you, I'm willing to listen." Ji Huai whispered.

Jing Jie's goosebumps rose from being teased, and he didn't want to talk about it immediately.

Toilets are not places for conversation.No matter how curious Ji Huai was, he could only hold back his curiosity, and he could only clear up his doubts when he returned to the dormitory after the evening sketch.

Jing Jie spent an afternoon and half a night to express his words, trying to speak concisely and not so sadly when he confessed, but after all, the uncomfortable level of the topic is there, even if he speaks calmly, Ji Huai can still speak. Tap into the painful undercurrents beneath this calm.

What you are, what you like, what you want.In the eyes of some people, these questions are very common and simple, but in the eyes of others, they have become unanswerable mysteries.

"Actually, it's nothing. Some things that I can't understand now, I can always figure out later." Jing Jie didn't know why the person who needed to be comforted became Ji Huai, and felt quite helpless.

"But you are going to be admitted to the Academy of Fine Arts. You won't be able to learn anything other than fine arts if you enter the Academy of Fine Arts." Ji Huai was worried that he would not be able to make changes after Jingjie figured out what he really likes. Whenever he is the one who faces that kind of situation, he will definitely regret it, regretting that he didn't figure out what he wanted earlier.

"It's okay, drawing is good." Jingjie said, "Just to see what to draw. I'm very happy when I draw your diary."

"Stop teasing me at this time, okay?" Ji Huai was serious at first, but he couldn't help but relax when he heard Jing Jie's words.It's as if you are teaching a disobedient cat, but the cat is rolling on the ground and begging to be petted, trying to pass the test with cuteness, which makes people angry and funny.

"No teasing, just the truth." Jing Jie leaned back, resting his back on the head of the bed, his eyes fell on the upper bunk, unfocused, "There is nothing wrong with painting as a job, I just haven't thought about it yet. Know why you draw."

"For money, for love, or for me." Ji Huai sat on the edge of Jingjie's bed, moved to the head of the bed, lowered his head slightly to look at the handsome face stained with melancholy, and murmured softly: "Choose one .”

"Children make choices." Jing Jie smiled and looked at him, "I want them all."

"Greedy." Ji Huai condemned.

Jing Jie shook his head, "Money belongs to you, love belongs to you, and you are also you. I only want you alone, so it's not greedy."

Ji Huai felt like he was in a firecracker now, the kind that catches fire at any point.Maybe it was too late, the night was too dark, or maybe it was because he held back for too long, thought for too long... Fuck it, maybe, maybe, he admitted that he just loves Jingjie too much, so much that he loves Jingjie because of the other party's words. Can lose his mind, love so much that once he is free, there is only one person left in his mind.

Fuck the timing, fuck the future and the past, he only wants the present.

Right now, he wanted to kiss him.

Young people's fires always burn fast.Jing Jie only took a second to express his surprise at Ji Huai's enthusiasm, and after a second, he was assimilated by the enthusiasm.

There is no need for anyone to pry the other's teeth, the two never set up defenses against each other, even if they are attacked, they will only use offense as defense and never surrender.

The light in the bathroom went on and off, and the sound of water splashed.Ji Huai pressed his back against the wall, breathing rapidly, Jing Jie's delicate kisses started from his forehead and went all the way down, making him feel a little overwhelmed by the heat.

"Jing, Jing'er, we... are still underage."

"I know." Jing Jie said, "I won't do it."

The moment his desire was wrapped in warmth, Ji Huai felt his scalp was about to explode, and the unprecedented stimulation almost made him disarm.

The hot water slides down the skin, flows on the floor tiles, condenses into a stream through the drainage holes, and flows for thousands of miles.The heat was transpiring, and the white mist filled the darkness, and was swallowed by the darkness.

"January, February, March...October, my God, why does it take so long to become a year?" Ji Huai lay on his back on his bed and slammed his mouth.

"It won't be long before you clear your mind." Jing Jie brushed his teeth in the bathroom, his voice was a little muffled.

"I'm very sober, very sober." Ji Huai said, "That's right, you know, the first time is always memorable."

"Oh." Jing Jie rinsed the foam out of his mouth, picked up the corner of the face towel to wipe off the water droplets on his lips, walked out of the bathroom, turned to Ji Huai's bed, and asked condescendingly, "Do you want more?"

"No." Ji Huai refused bluntly, "Too much stimulation is not good, besides, I still have something to tell you."

"What's the matter?" Jing Jie sat back on his bed.

"Well, that's right, I seem to know what I want to do in the future." Ji Huai stretched out his hands and sat up cross-legged, "I suddenly thought of it today, but I'm not sure if it's a 3-minute fever."

"Is it a tour guide?" Jing Jie asked.

Ji Huai was surprised, "How did you guess that?"

"Looking at the many place names written on your mind map, I can probably guess it." Jing Jie said, "I thought it would take a while for you to realize what you want."

"I'm not that dull." Ji Huai scratched his dry hair, "I just want to see the scenery around the world, like the eternal flame in Chestnut Ridge Park in New York, the Egyptian pyramids, Antarctica, etc. Bloody Waterfall, Bermuda, Stonehenge in England, Mammoth Cave in Kentucky...or Guizhou Spinning Pine Forest, Yunnan Stone Forest, Changbai Mountain Tianchi, Beijing Forbidden City, Huashan Lunjian...Although some places may not be able to go in this lifetime, but there are always places to go Right. But traveling costs money, so I thought, the job that can make money and travel is probably a tour guide.”

"Other professions are also available, such as being a freelance writer, and the right to travel is to collect materials." Jing Jie said, "By the way, let me add a word, you look very handsome when you talk about so many scenic spots in one breath."

"When will I not be handsome anymore." Ji Huai got cheap and acted like a good boy, and before Jing Jie came to repair himself, he returned to normal, and said, "Let's forget about writing, it's not bad if you go, anyway, I don't have that literary talent. "

"Or the photographer." Jing Jie didn't persuade or comfort him, he just wanted to help Ji Huai broaden his thinking and prevent him from hanging on a tree.

"Can you make money?"

"Of course, as long as you shoot well enough."

"Maybe...well, I don't have talent, maybe I just don't like it." Ji Huai said, "Taking pictures is too much about angles and composition, so it's better to just look at them with your eyes."

"Don't you want to record it? Nowadays, many people take pictures when they travel." Jing Jie said.

"Remembrance is a remembrance, not work." Ji Huai said, "If I really want to record it, it's better than the diary you gave me."

"I won't go with you." Jing Jie smiled.

"Say it again?" Ji Huai narrowed his eyes dangerously, "Don't you need to collect materials everywhere for painting?"

"Need." Jingjie said: "But I can't run out to make waves."

"So it's good for me to be a tour guide." Ji Huai said: "As a tour guide, you have to go to the same place several times. I'll take you there."

"Then did you make this tour guide for yourself, or for me?" Ji Huai's words were touching, but Jing Jie had to ask clearly.

"Of course it's for myself." Ji Huai said, "But it can also be for you at the same time, so that I can reap double the happiness."

"Wow." Jing Jie was expressionless, "Going to the same place repeatedly, and explaining and arranging accommodation for others, don't you think it's troublesome?"

"To be honest, I don't really dislike it." Ji Huai said, "I quite like doing travel guides. It's okay to explain to others, and it happens to be able to meet different people. Last time, Chen Zhi's opinion on the name was quite stimulating. I was thinking at the time, if only I could know other people’s stories, names, experiences, even beloved objects, there are always stories behind these things.”

"It seems that this stimulation is a bit big, and they have turned into young literary and artistic youths." Jing Jie bent the corners of his eyes.

"You know, I've always cared about that pencil case in primary school." Ji Huai said, "Maybe the more I hear the story, the better I can understand what that girl did back then."

"En." Jing Jie responded softly.

"Aren't you going to continue persuading me?" Ji Huai asked.

"I didn't persuade you at first, but I just wanted to help you think clearly." Jing Jie said: "Now it seems that you are quite determined, not like a 3-minute enthusiasm."

"Is that so... Actually, I also have this feeling." Ji Huai said, "It's as if when I realize that I like you, I feel that I will be you in this life."

"Come on, you don't even know if I like you or not. In this life and that life, are you so big-hearted? You don't even dare to confess to your face."

"Who said I dare not!" Ji Huai was not convinced.

"Touch your conscience and say."

Ji Huai hesitated for a moment, but gave up, and murmured in a low voice, "If you refuse, I will definitely chase you..."

"Oh." Jing Jie said: "Then I'm at a loss and shouldn't respond to you."

Ji Huai: "You have no heart."

Jing Jie: "Nonsense, didn't I send you off a long time ago?"

Ji Huai: "..."

Ji Huai jumped out of bed, "I'm going to brush my teeth."

Jing Jie watched Ji Huai rushing into the bathroom as if he was fleeing, and decided not to reveal the fact that Ji Huai had just brushed his teeth 10 minutes ago.