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Once Yu Changan softened his heart, he softened completely. He found a new babysitter to help Lu Ming share the burden of raising children.The babysitter is Qingqing, a girl, not a few years older than Lu Ming.

Lu Ming told Yu Changan several times that he would definitely take care of the children and not cause trouble for Mr. Yu. He said that his younger brothers and sisters would all be brought up by him.Lu Ming was worried that if he didn't work, he would be driven away by Yu Changan.He remembered the instructions of his cousin in the same village very firmly.The cousin told him that he had to please his employer well. Only when the employer was happy would he be able to give him more money, so that he could go for surgery earlier to transform this deformed body to normal.At that time, no one knew that he went to Yu Beilian's house not as a servant but as a concubine.

Even after giving birth to a child, Lu Ming's goal in life is still to have surgery after earning enough money.

Before Qingqing arrived at her post, this villa, which could not be called luxurious, suddenly became empty and silent.It is often as quiet as the home that Luming kept alone when he was a child.Sometimes when Lu Ming wakes up from his nap, he will be in a trance for a second or two, thinking that he has returned to his hometown, the small earthen house where he lived as a child.After waking up, Lu Ming would hurriedly tidy up his appearance, and then go to prepare a glass of juice and a plate of snacks for Mr. Yu, including fruits and nuts.Send it to Yu Changan's study at around 02:30 in the afternoon.

This ritual-filled afternoon tea is Yu Beilian's habit, Lu Ming copied it to Yu Changan, and Yu Changan did not refuse.

The study was officially opened a week after it was remodeled, and Yu Changan locked himself in it all day long.Now his study has a big desk, a small round table, two small sofas, a comfortable foldable sofa bed and two chairs.This is Yu Changan's plan for writing in the future.At that time, the study will be his bedroom, and the sofa bed will be his bed.

Later, Lu Ming added several pots of green plants for him, and came to water the little flowers and grass every few days.

However, no matter how comfortable the study room is, not being able to write anything makes him feel painful.

He wanted to write something interesting, even if it was just an outline, he would not be reduced to writing erotic novels.Sometimes his mind is as blank as paper, and sometimes it is as rich as the scenery outside the floor-to-ceiling windows, making him unable to grasp the key points.As for the laptop, tablet, paper and pen on the desk, which one is not a writing tool, but no matter which tool is used, the words still cannot be stored.There are tens of thousands of words stored in the electronic recycling bin and the physical wastebasket around, but they are all waste words and cannot be counted.

On a still uninspired afternoon, the painful Yu Changan finally gave up torturing himself. When he stood up and was about to find something else to do, he saw two cardboard boxes piled up in the corner of the study.This is a sketch left by Yu Beilian, and Yu Changan hasn't had time to deal with it yet.He figured that he should find a place to burn or sell them all, maybe his father's drawings were also valuable.

Inside the box were notebooks and papers, large and small.The content of the paintings is equally messy.One of the notebooks was bound by dozens of sheets of paper, and it had a unique temperament. Yu Changan couldn't describe what kind of temperament it had, but he was attracted by it, so he picked it out.

The content of the picture album is Luming, and each picture is Luming.Most are naked Luming, some pregnant Luming, and even Luming in women's clothing.

From Yu Beilian's sketches, Yu Chang'an saw another Luming, a naked Luming whose soul was naked.

In addition to full-length portraits, there are busts and partials.The part is the part of the genitals.Yu Beilian wrote "The Way Back" in the lower right corner of these paintings.He described the journey to Luming Honeyland as going home.

Yu Changan felt nauseous for a while, but his lower body felt swollen again.He couldn't help but recall the sound of Yu Beilian and Lu Ming making love.It turns out that Luming's most private place is like this.

Yu Changan closed the book and locked it in the bottom drawer of the desk.All the remaining drawings in the carton were carefully checked by him, and Luming was not found again.He sealed the boxes, intending to destroy them tomorrow.

Around 02:30, there was a knock on the door.The knock on the door was small, and it clearly should have attracted the attention of the occupants, but the knocker seemed to wish to be ignored.But Yu Changan noticed it the moment it rang, and he said please come in with a loud voice, for fear that the person outside the door would escape.

Lu Ming walked in with refreshments, as usual.When Yu Changan looked at Lu Ming, there was a change in his eyes. The change was so small that Lu Ming couldn't see it.

Lu Ming put the refreshments on Yu Changan's small tea table, and refilled the glass kettle with cold boiled water.While he was pouring water, a gust of wind blew in from the unclosed floor-to-ceiling windows, making it a little cool.Lu Ming asked softly, "Mr. Yu, do you need to close the window?"

This "Mr. Yu" suddenly made Yu Changan squeeze all the sketches he had just seen into his mind, and his eyes were filled with Lu Ming's nude bodies and sexual organs, which made his ears seldom red.At this moment, Yu Changan thought of Old Wu's proposal. Old Wu's voice full of vicissitudes and Lu Ming's young face occupied Yu Changan's hearing and vision respectively——Old Wu said, it's too bad to write some large-scale novels ; and Lu Ming's face told Yu Chang'an that he could be that protagonist, the protagonist of a large-scale novel.

Yu Changan's thoughts were trapped in those sketches, so Lu Ming couldn't wait for his answer, so he had to ask again.

This time Yu Changan responded, but he seemed to have lost his soul. He didn't understand Lu Ming's question but still nodded in agreement, and then watched Lu Ming walk towards the French window.The beige lamb fleece sweater on Lu Ming turned him into a deer, blending in with the scenery outside the window.

After Lu Ming closed the window, he asked Yu Changan if he needed to close the curtains.Yu Changan said pull it on.

The curtains got stuck halfway.This is the result of Yu Changan buying cheap curtain rods to save money.Lu Ming stretched his arm and pulled it, revealing a small waist.Yu Changan blurted out: "You should wear more."

Lu Ming turned his head to look at Yu Changan, wondering if he heard this sentence.He said to Yu Chang'an with an apologetic face, "Mr. Yu... seems to be stuck."

Yu Changan got up and walked to Lu Ming's side.He was more than ten centimeters taller than Lu Ming, and he felt that he could easily surround Lu Ming firmly.Yu Changan pulled the curtain and shook it upwards to free the stuck part.He bowed his head to Luming and said, "Okay."

Lu Ming was also looking up at him at this time, his pink and tender lips were naturally slightly parted, and his eyes were a little shy.The atmosphere at this time is really charming and ambiguous, which is very suitable for something to happen.But Yu Changan backed away from Lu Ming, taking the initiative to destroy the ambiguous distance. "Thank you." Yu Changan said.

His thanks made Lu Ming blush. Lu Ming seldom received thanks or apologies from others, so he bowed his head and said no thanks, and then said that I am leaving and will not bother you.

After Lu Ming left, Yu Changan accidentally opened the drawer, took out the picture album and looked through it again.

This was a very dangerous action, and Yu Changan obviously didn't realize its danger at that time - curiosity about taboo things could easily turn into fascination, curiosity is not scary, but fascination is scary.

Lu Ming's nakedness brought back Yu Chang'an's memories of him moaning in a low voice.These sketches help Yu Changan build a very concrete scene - Lu Ming is lying on the big bed, he is white and thin, almost swallowed by the dark sheets and Yu Beilian on his body, Yu Beilian's hard penis pushes away Luming's forbidden area little by little Defensively, Lu Ming whimpered and shed tears.Yu Beilian was gentle and considerate enough, Lu Ming did not bleed, but this was indeed his first time.He was afraid that Yu Beilian would drive him away because he didn't see the pool of blood that should have appeared, but Yu Beilian kept him.

This night, Yu Changan slandered himself by relying on the fantasy about Lu Ming that he had completed in the afternoon.The wall seems to seep from the body temperature of Luming next door and the faint milky smell of breastfeeding.Yu Changan released a cloudy liquid in this fantasy.The moment he ejaculated, he felt as if he was curled up in his mother's womb. The womb was very warm and he was very small.He doesn't know who the "womb" that hugs him tightly belongs to, Yan Ruyu or Lu Ming?

His hands were stained with semen, but Yu Changan closed his eyes and refused to open them.He wanted to stay in the warmth for a while, and he didn't have the courage to open his eyes.The calmness after the climax made Yu Changan feel quite complicated emotions from the fact that he fantasized about Luming: fear, guilt, betrayal, excitement and joy.

A few days later, Qingqing, the babysitter, came to work. She is very capable, can take care of children, cook delicious meals, and clean the house spotlessly.Before Qingqing came, Lu Ming and Yu Changan had been doing these tasks together.It's just that every time Yu Changan started to work, Lu Ming was terrified.Lu Ming's uncomfortable appearance made Yu Changan cautious, so the cooperation between the two always got twice the result with half the effort in the end, and the tacit understanding was not cultivated at all.

A tacit understanding was not cultivated, but a sense of familiarity was cultivated.When Lu Ming looked at Yu Changan, the timidity in his eyes finally disappeared.

Qingqing will clean Yu Changan's study thoroughly every Thursday afternoon.Yu Changan did not allow Qingqing to move any of his belongings, he was afraid that the secrets of Lu Ming and their Yu family father and son would be peeped.Except for the slight harshness shown in this point, Yu Changan is generally a very talkative employer.

During the time of cleaning the study, Yu Changan usually had nothing to do.He sat on the expensive sofa in the living room and wondered whether he should take the initiative to talk to Lao Wu.It's not that he can't write erotic novels, but he really doesn't know how to write them.

At this time, the heart-piercing cry of the baby reached Yu Chang'an's ears. He looked at his watch, it was already past three o'clock, and he was late for the afternoon tea that was scheduled every day.

Even after Qingqing arrived, Lu Ming still brought the afternoon tea to Yu Changan.Lu Ming refuses to let Qing Qing do this, he is persistent and eager to prove his usefulness.Yu Changan knew that Lu Ming was held back by the child this time, so he would not complain at all - he did not have the habit of having afternoon tea, and accepting Lu Ming's labor once a day was just to make Lu Ming feel at ease.

Qingqing came out of the study in a hurry, even she heard the baby's cry.Qingqing wanted to help Luming, but Yu Changan rejected Qingqing for Luming by mistake, and said, "I'll go and see."

Yu Changan went up to the second floor and stood in front of the master bedroom door.Lu Ming moved from the nanny's room back to the master bedroom.Before moving back to the master bedroom, he suggested to Yu Changan that this spacious and bright bedroom should be lived by the current owner of the villa, Yu Changan.Yu Chang'an still persuaded Lu Ming to stay, he said that moving around was really troublesome.

The door was not closed tightly, no wonder the crying of the child could spread to the first floor.The child is much quieter now, but still humming.Yu Chang'an knocked lightly on the door twice, then pushed the door open and walked in. All the etiquette that Yan Ruyuhua had taught him for more than 20 years was left behind by him, because he saw Lu Ming lift up half of his clothes from the crack of the door. breastfeeding.

Lu Ming hurriedly put down his clothes when he heard the sound, and Yu Changan also came back to his senses at this time, realizing that he had done something nasty.They both blushed and didn't dare to look at each other. Yu Changan turned to stare at the wall and apologized to Lu Ming: "I'm sorry... I just heard the voice and wanted to see if I need help... Qingqing is cleaning my study... ..."

In a panic, Yu Changan pulled Qingqing out as an excuse, but Lu Ming didn't care what Yu Changan was saying at all, instead he hurriedly said sorry to Yu Changan. "I'm sorry, Mr. Yu...to bother you..."

He was using honorific speech again, and his voice was trembling.He looked like he was about to cry.

The baby writhed uncomfortably in Lu Ming's arms, and Lu Ming held him gently.Yu Changan approached Lu Ming, like a hunter approaching a young deer that has fallen into a trap.Lu Ming felt Yu Changan approaching step by step, his hands holding the child were trembling, and his whole body was trembling slightly.

Yu Changan squatted down in front of Lu Ming. He slightly looked up at Lu Ming who was sitting by the bed, and apologized to him again.This forced Lu Ming and Yu Changan to look at each other, but Lu Ming didn't understand where Yu Changan's apology came from, and it was clearly him who should be full of apology.Therefore, Lu Ming didn't know how to respond to Yu Changan, so he could only bite his lips tightly to relieve his tension.

Ever since he entered this room and saw the sound of Lu Ming being breastfed, every move Yu Changan took after that seemed to be controlled by his brain.After he squatted down, he felt regretful, and he couldn't find the motivation to do this action at all.Yu Changan's embarrassment was written directly on his face, and he even wanted to rush out.But he was uncontrollable again, reaching out to hold the baby's white and tender tofu-like hand.Yu Changan said, "He has grown up a lot."

"Almost half a year old." Lu Ming replied.

Almost half a year old, Yu Changan thought.The first time he saw the child, the child was only 100 days old. After that, Yu Changan never looked at the child carefully again. He didn't even know the scientific name of the child. He only listened to Qingqing and Luming calling the child "Xiaoguo" all day long.So Yu Changan asked Lu Ming, "What's his name?"

His name is Yu Siguo.

This is Yu Beilian's name.

"Siguo." Yu Changan said the name softly.When the child heard the voice, he stared at Yu Changan.Yu Changan saw Luming's genes in the child's big eyes.

At this time, Qingqing's voice sounded outside the door: "Mr. Yu, the study has been cleaned."

Yu Chang'an hurriedly stood up, his body swayed for a moment due to dizziness.He responded to Qingqing hastily, and said yes, I will come.At this moment, he was full of gratitude to Qingqing.

Yu Changan fled back to his study and wrote the beginning in an afternoon. After writing, he didn't know what he was writing. Anyway, his limbs were disobedient after seeing Lu Ming. His hands were tapping on the keyboard, Don't ask what your mind thinks at all.

After dinner, Yu Changan continued to lock himself in the study.This night he was busy for three chapters, went to bed at four o'clock in the morning, and received a call from Old Wu at eight o'clock in the morning.

When Yu Changan answered the phone, his consciousness was still fuzzy. Old Wu said that he couldn't delay any longer, and Yu Changan was perfunctory.Old Wu said again, how about I go to your place today, Yu Changan regained consciousness a bit, and said, "It's inconvenient..."

Old Wu had already hung up the phone.

Yu Changan left the study, Qingqing was clearing the dining table, Qingqing said that Mr. Xiaolu had already eaten, would Mr. Yu want to eat now?

Yu Changan looked around and didn't see Luming, so he nodded to Qingqing: "Okay." The voice was still tired from not sleeping well.Then he said that he would have a guest at home in a while, and it would be his editor.

Qingqing waited for Yu Changan's order, whether to prepare some drinks and fruit snacks, whether to prepare lunch for the guests, and what kind of lunch should be prepared.But Yu Chang'an didn't have anything to say, Qingqing had no choice but to take the initiative to ask.And Yu Changan always looked like he had lost half of his soul: "No, no, I try not to let him eat at home. We will talk in the study, please help me tidy up the study a little, thank you."

It didn't take long for the guest who couldn't even get lunch to arrive at the house.Yu Changan led Old Wu into the study, and he confirmed again that there was no trace of Luming in the study.

Yu Changan was unwilling to let Old Wu get in touch with Luming——Luming would arouse old Wu's curiosity and questions, and most of Old Wu's curiosity and questions Yu Changan couldn't give or answer.Yu Changan asked Qingqing to go out with Lu Ming for a walk while he was entertaining guests, either for shopping or for a walk.So Qingqing sent a pot of hot water to the study and left with Lu Ming as arranged.

In the afternoon, Lu Ming returned home with a new image.After Yu Changan came out of the smoky study room, he saw Qingqing packing the shopping bags. The short-haired boy opposite Qingqing stunned Yu Changan for several seconds, until the boy turned his head and looked at Yu Changan. Recognize Luming. "Why did you cut your hair?" Yu Changan asked.

Qingqing answered for Luming: "Mr. Xiaolu said that his hair was too long and uncomfortable, so he went to a barber shop to trim it."

This is more than just a "cut". Lu Ming's black and smooth hair was cut so short and the layers were messy. Yu Changan thought that Lu Ming's hair must be the workmanship of a barber for ten yuan, or even five yuan.The barber's cheap workmanship transformed Lu Ming from a beautiful fawn in captivity into a wild fawn.Although the wild deer is beautiful and weakened, it has more vitality and aura. Such a wild deer is an elf deep in the forest.Yu Changan would rather Xiaolu be an elf.

So he looked at the elf in a daze.Why can't the great painter Yu Beilian see the pure and natural beauty of Luming?Why did he have to carve Luming into an exquisite ornamental object?At this moment, Yu Changan once again thanked his father for his death—the living Yu Beilian is not worthy of being an artist, he is only called a saboteur.

This kind of Luming always made Yu Changan couldn't help but take a few more glances.He participated in the dinner and sat opposite Lu Ming, but Lu Ming still didn't take the initiative to look at him.

Yu Changan picked out a wing root from Qingqing's roasted chestnut chicken and put it into Luming's bowl, saying, "Eat more." This action made Qingqing look at Yu Changan in surprise.Yu Changan ignored Qingqing, he just smiled a little, waiting for Lu Ming's response.

Lu Ming was as surprised as Qingqing, he thanked Yu Changan, the doubt in his big eyes was caught by Yu Changan immediately.Without the bangs, from now on the eyes will not be able to cover what they say, and Yu Changan can see clearly what he is thinking.

At this time, Lu Ming's eyes were saying that the afternoon tea every afternoon was not enough to make them get close to such a degree, why is Mr. Yu's sudden enthusiasm?Is this a precursor to drive yourself away?

Yu Changan will never drive Luming away, but his inexplicable enthusiasm does have a reason, and it is all related to the conversation with Lao Wu in the morning.Old Wu said that Yu Changan's novels are boring, and although erotic novels are vulgar, Yu Changan's erotic novels are boring and vulgar.Old Wu's words were not polite this time, Yu Changan almost wanted to beg Old Wu to let him go, he really couldn't write.The moment this idea appeared, Yu Changan's gaze passed Old Wu's face and landed on the boxes stacked by the wall, all of which were Luming painted by Yu Beilian.

Yu Changan thought, Lu Ming could be Yu Beilian's muse, why couldn't it be his own?

Afterwards, everything Old Wu said was blocked by Yu Changan, and only the box of sketches and Lu Ming remained in his mind.

There were two voices in Yu Changan's heart tearing him apart. One told him that this idea was disgusting and dirty, and that Lu Ming should not be used by the Yu family father and son like this; OK.In the end, it was obvious that the second voice won, and Yu Changan's enthusiasm for Lu Ming was purposeful, as well as guilty and ingratiating.

Yu Changan told Lu Ming not to be polite, and said that Lu Ming worked hard to take care of the children, so eating more food would be nutritious.His abnormality was too obvious, both Lu Ming and Qing Qing felt it.So Qingqing quickly finished her meal and left the restaurant to Mr. Yu and Mr. Xiaolu.

Yu Changan knew that Lu Ming would feel uncomfortable if he was there.He also got up and said to Lu Ming: "Lu Ming, can you come to the study later?"

Lu Ming nodded immediately and answered yes.