growing up porcelain doll

◎"Recently, there has been a sudden rainstorm in Nanshi, and the water level in the city's inland river has risen sharply. Armed police officers and soldiers have begun to deploy to prevent and control flood disasters. Citizens are invited to... ◎

"Recently, there has been a sudden torrential rain in Nanshi, and the water level in the city's inland river has risen sharply. Armed police officers and soldiers have begun to deploy to prevent and control flood disasters. Citizens are asked to prepare for flood control at any time and pay attention to personal safety..."

"A large-scale landslide occurred in Jiayang County, Nanshi City due to consecutive days of heavy rain, and many houses collapsed. The casualties are still unknown. Our reporter will continue to follow up and report for you..."

"Give way! This patient has just been rescued from the collapsed wall. He has a brain hemorrhage and needs emergency treatment..."

"Hello, please inform the operating room that a patient here has been pierced through the lung by a wooden stick and needs immediate surgery. We still have 5 minutes to arrive at the hospital..."

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The sound of news reports, the sound of doctors calling for help, the sound of crowds panicking for help, the sound of wind, the sound of rain... form a noisy and messy world, and the noisy people have endless headaches.It looks like a huge and ferocious monster, clamoring to devour people.

Gong Qing saw the man whose lungs were punctured again. His face was pale and his lips were bloodless, which was in stark contrast to the blood red under his chest.The man's lips trembled slightly, and his brows were tightened with each shallow breath. The wet marks on his face made it difficult to tell whether it was the rain from just now or the sweat oozing out of pain.

"Dad, don't you cry. Uncles will save you."

Hearing the childish voice beside him, the man finally opened his eyes slightly, forced a smile and nodded, he seemed to want to raise his hand to touch the little boy's head, but because of the severe pain in his body, he didn't have the strength to complete this simple action .

The little boy gently grabbed the man's hand, as if a little force would hurt the fragile man on the stretcher.

The man's fingers gently stroked the back of the little boy's hand.Slippery, warm, soft, is the feeling of life.

He breathed a little tired and said to the little boy: "Gong Qing, Dad...failed to take...take care of you well, your mother...said...you have to do everything yourself...to be successful, to be long-term," he said with great effort. After taking a few breaths, he continued: "Now, you can only do everything yourself. Forgive...forgive Dad for not being able to do more for you, but...Dad loves you."

After saying this, before the little boy answered, the man seemed to be about to fall into a deep sleep and never opened his eyes again.

The little boy didn't have time to react, and even before he could cry, the man was carried out of the ambulance by the medical staff, and the man was sent to the operating room without stopping.The little boy waited outside the door for a long time, only to find a corpse covered in a white cloth. His father, the man who said he wanted to do more for him, finally disappeared.

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Gong Qing curled up in the quilt and sobbed softly. Tears continued to flow slowly from the corners of his tightly closed eyes, across the bridge of his nose and then to his ears, soaking a small piece of pillow towel.This is already unknown how many times he has dreamed of such a collapsed scene in the past two years.

He was born in a relatively poor mountain village, and his mother died of dystocia when he was born.People in my hometown are superstitious. Seeing that his mother died as soon as he was born, some people gossip behind his back and say that he is the reincarnation of a disaster star.This word gradually reached the ears of the old man in the family. Even though he was a beautiful boy, the old man in the family insisted that his father throw him away, otherwise he would be stabbed in the back by the villagers for a lifetime.

How could his father be willing to throw him away?This is the treasure that his late wife bought at the risk of her life. The blood of him and his lover flows on the soft little dumpling. It is the crystallization of their husband and wife's love and the continuation of their lives.In the backcountry, this couple is a rare pair of understanding people.So in desperation, he took his son away from home, left this small mountain village where he had lived for decades, and settled in Jiayang County in Nanshi.

He has lived with his father since he was a child, and his father told him that his mother gave him his name, and hoped that he would do everything by himself in the future, and be a hardworking person who united his words and deeds.

When he was a child, he was ignorant and didn't know what "bow yourself" was, and why he had to "do it yourself". It wasn't until the moment his father left that he realized that there was no one in this world that he could rely on without any scruples. His life depends on people's faces, and he has to depend on others. No one can give him the love of his life.

When getting up in the morning, the children in the orphanage have to make their own quilts, and the older children have to clean up with the aunts. After eating every day, children over five years old have to wash the dishes with the aunts by the small pool.At other times, everyone is arranged to learn to do handicrafts, or someone teaches these children some school-age knowledge.

These things don't seem to be a big deal, and they learn similar knowledge and live similar lives to ordinary children.But it is not.The orphanage here is not considered formal, and the nurses recruited are actually not responsible. It is natural for children to be fussy, but here they will be punished collectively because of who quarrels with whom, and whoever pushes who is punished collectively. Whoever fails the sanitation inspection is collectively punished, and whoever does not perform well is collectively punished...

It seems that everyone here is a group of machines who are punished. The managers here only want to use the simplest and rude way to unify children of all ages. Not eating, not sleeping, punishing standing, cleaning, and being verbally insulted have almost become Daily compulsory courses are served with sticks from time to time, but real education is very little here.The staff here are earning money from this job, but at the same time they hate this group of unwanted children, and they don't feel sorry for them anyway.Four or five-year-old children can almost understand what is meant by "Fortune is thinner than paper, and life is cheaper than grass."

Gong Qing lives carefully every day, trying hard to learn all kinds of life skills he should learn, but he is still punished every day, the reason is this kind of bullshit management model of "one person is sick, the whole family takes medicine", every child here It was very hard.

At ten o'clock in the morning, all the children in the orphanage were standing under the eaves, only because a four-year-old boy accidentally knocked over the cup on the nurse's small table when he got up, and the water spilled on the nurse's pants.They had stood for an hour without being beaten or scolded. This kind of corporal punishment is already very light.Some young children stood with numb legs and distorted expressions on their faces but clasped their fingers and dared not cry out, because they all knew that it was useless to cry here, and they would not be sympathized with, but would Incur more painful torture.

Gong Qing is used to it. When he was sent here two years ago, he had hoped that someone would sympathize with him, a child who had just lost his father. However, no one would satisfy his little wish. After all, all the children here are Orphans without parents.In the eyes of others, they are just a group of wild children that no one wants, a group of burdens that want to waste other people's time and energy without bringing much profit.

He stood obediently in the corridor, his knee joints were already numb but his face showed no expression. The children around him had already started to shake. He quietly stretched out his hand to support his back, sharing some of the children's weight.The child looked up at him, with pain, grievance, and gratitude in his eyes, and the corners of Gong Qing's mouth slightly raised to show comfort.

A middle-aged couple walked in from outside the gate. They looked about forty years old. The woman looked elegant and generous. The man held the woman's hand and looked very gentle.Gong Qing glanced at them, knowing that they must be the people who came to adopt the child. He also saw the couple smile at him and talk to each other.He has seen this kind of scene many times in the past two years, and everyone will praise him for his good looks, but no one is willing to take him away, because he is a bit old, and people are afraid that there are too many memories from the past, so they are more willing to take him away. For children under the age of three.

What Gong Qing didn't expect was that five minutes later, the director of the orphanage personally brought him in front of the couple.

The woman looked at the child's face for a while, then turned her head and smiled and said to the man beside her, "Do you think his eyebrows and eyes are a bit like Xiao Yu's?"

After he and the man looked at each other for a while, the man nodded and said, "It's a bit similar, especially the eyes, which are quite similar to yours."

After hearing this, the woman's smile deepened, so she asked again: "Little friend, what's your name?"

"Gong Qing."

"Surname Gong?" The woman seemed very excited, she grabbed the man's hand and said, "Look, is this fate!"

The man patted the back of the afraid woman's hand, smiled and nodded.

"Are you willing to let us be your new parents?" The man looked at the beautiful porcelain doll in front of him kindly.

Gong Qing was a little surprised for a moment. It was not that he had never thought of wishing that someone with good intentions could give him a home, but this wish had repeatedly failed in the past two years, and then he only envied others.

He looked at the expectant expression on the woman's face, and for some reason he thought of his mother, whom he had never met. He was thinking, if his mother was still alive, she should be so pretty.

He stared at the woman's smiling face and nodded.

The woman was very happy, and pulled him into her arms very naturally, as if things were supposed to be like this, and they were destined to meet.

In this way, Gong Qing became a little prince with both parents from an older orphan whom no one wanted.

His adoptive father's name is Gong You, and his adoptive mother's name is Liu Xiyue. They are a late-married couple. When they were young, they worked hard for their careers. They were busy with their small company, so they got married at 35-[-].Liu Xiyue wanted to have a baby after marriage, and Gong You also thought so, but during the pregnancy checkup, she found that her body was not suitable for conception at this age due to the excessive wear and tear on her body due to work pressure.Gong You didn't want to cause more damage to her body, so he proposed to adopt a child, which was also acceptable, but Liu Xiyue still wanted to try it by herself.

She was considered an older pregnant woman when she conceived, and it is very dangerous to insist on conceiving in a poor physical condition. Her body was not able to support it, and she still had a miscarriage after five months of pregnancy. After this time, it was really There is no chance of having a baby anymore.

This incident made her depressed for a long time, and when she recuperated, Gong You took her to the orphanage to fulfill her dream of being a mother within her ability.Gong Qing was the child she fell in love with at first sight. From a distance, she thought he was very beautiful and very energetic. From a close look, this child resembled her own nephew, and also had the same surname Gong. This is really a godsend. fate.They really raised him as their own son.

When you come to Xicheng District, everything is new.Gong Qing has never seen such a colorful world. There are all kinds of cars on the street, there are many beautiful clothes in the high-rise buildings, and there are many fruits and snacks in the supermarket that he has never seen before.

Liu Xiyue would wear whatever Liu Xiyue bought him, and after careful tidying up of his already pretty baby face, he really looked like a little prince who had just walked out of a fairy tale.The clerk's sister kept praising the kid for being so good-looking, and he would definitely be a handsome guy when he grew up. Liu Xiyue had a proud smile on his face, and patted his head to ask him to say thank you to the clerk's sister.

The adoptive parents are actually very busy at work, but they will go home to cook for him every day. The food is much better than that in the orphanage. He can't help but eat more every time, which makes him a little afraid that he will not He would be sent back to the orphanage because he ate too much, so he was always a little awkward, wanting to eat but not daring to eat more, always frowning unconsciously and staring blankly at the delicious food on the table.

A child is a child after all, and you can't hide your small expression. Once Gong You saw him holding a bowl and chopsticks and looking at the sweet and sour pork ribs in front of him, drooling and frowning, he asked, "What's wrong? Isn't it?" Comfortable or don't like to eat?"

Gong Qing said: "No, it's delicious, I like it very much."

"Then why do you just look at it but don't move your chopsticks?" Liu Xiyue also asked him softly.

He was suddenly a little nervous, he didn't know what to do to be adopted so that it wouldn't be annoying.He wants to be obedient and sensible to gain some approval from his adoptive parents, but what kind of standard is being obedient and sensible here?He really doesn't know.The life in the orphanage was too impressive, and the time to change from a bad life to a good one was very short, but he walked on thin ice, not daring to be greedy, for fear that he would fall into darkness again if he was not careful, and his survival instinct made him want to behave better, and then Better yet, those who have seen the light can't help longing to stay longer in the bright world.

So he could only ask the owner's request, and he tried to get closer, after all, it was such a straightforward rule during the two years in the orphanage.

He looked at Liu Xiyue awkwardly, and said: "Auntie, you and uncle are good people and treat me very well. I want to behave well in front of you. But...but the food you and uncle cook is so delicious , I'm afraid I can't help but eat too much, and you will send me away."

Liu Xiyue was stunned for a moment, then smiled and picked up his smooth smiling face, and said: "These things are made for you to eat, those clothes, pants, shoes, toys, snacks, books, and that The small schoolbags are also bought for you. These are all yours. And you are already very good, you are already our little baby, and we will not send you away. Don’t you want to live with us? ?”

Xiao Gongqing shook her head like a rattle, and said quickly: "No, no, I like you, I want to be with you!"

Both Gong You and Liu Xiyue were amused by the child. Gong You stroked his soft hair and said with a smile, "Then eat, eat more."

The author says:

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