growing up porcelain doll

◎Cheng Yu felt that he hadn't slept well all night, as if he had been having different dreams, and his state seemed to be always half-dream and half-awake. This is still in the past ten years...◎

Cheng Yu felt that he hadn't slept well all night, as if he had been having different dreams, and his state seemed to be always half-dream and half-awake. This was the first time in more than ten years that he felt that he could not sleep well. A confession.

17 years old is an age like a flower, children at this age are like flowers with dewdrops, fresh and incomparable.They are in the stage of strong thirst for knowledge and curiosity, and they are ignorant of feelings, but they hope to experience a small and fresh love at this time.Girls look forward to meeting their Prince Charming on campus, and boys also hope to meet their princesses here. If possible, they all hope to meet someone who is like them at their best age.Love from school uniforms to wedding dresses is almost the dream of all throbbing teenagers at this age.

The 17-year-old Cheng Yu has a height of 1.8 meters, a handsome appearance, an unshakable first grade in his grade, a cheerful and lively personality and a lot of popularity. It is really hard not to like such a dazzling boy .But even such a person who is almost perfect in the eyes of everyone, in fact, not many people really dare to chase after him, because they all feel that they are really not worthy, so those who like him just rush to feast their eyes on him when he appears. Or discuss a few words in a low voice, and after the matter is over, I still like him silently in my heart to satisfy my fantasy of first love.

Lu Yangyang is actually the most daring of the girls who like Cheng Yu the most, because she confessed her love openly.

Cheng Yu didn't sleep well last night, so he couldn't sleep at all after he was suddenly awakened by the feeling of weightlessness in his dream in the morning.He looked at his younger brother who was still sleeping with his arms and didn't call him. He said last night that he asked his younger brother to go out to play with him today. I ran out to play ball when I was young, not to mention that there was no basketball court near my grandparents' house, and they didn't have basketball either.

Cheng Yu, who couldn't sleep, had to look at the ceiling in a daze again, and it took him a while to remember that Lu Yangyang had sent him a message when he was sleeping last night, so he reached for the phone on the bedside.

After opening it, I found that there was only one message sent by Lu Yangyang, and the dialog with her was just lying quietly, the same as the last message he sent yesterday - "Good night".Another message was sent by the person lying next to him - "Brother, if you have something on your mind, tell me, we two brothers don't have secrets."

The unhappy mood since last night was suddenly changed by this news. These words surrounded his heart with warmth and happiness like magic, and it seemed to have a little sweet taste.

"What a villain, nothing can escape his eyes!" Cheng Yu sighed secretly, and then sighed helplessly.

Lu Yangyang and him have been in the same class since they were in high school. Although they are both students in the key class, there is still some gap between them, and before they are divided into subjects, everyone will more or less be judged by the subjects they are weaker in. Pulling the hips, few people are as versatile as he is.After being divided into classes, the students bid farewell to the hip-pull subject that they are not good at, and this is the real fair competition.Lu Yangyang is not a particularly talented player, but she worked very hard, so her grades were pretty good.In addition, her humorous and funny words and deeds always make people laugh. The class is very happy because there is such a person. Everyone likes her very much. This is really rare in the special environment where there are many girls and few boys. a phenomenon.

Cheng Yu often thinks of his sister when he sees her.In fact, Cheng Yue and her have many similarities. They both love to laugh and have good personalities. They are not particularly talented students, but the difference is that Lu Yangyang works hard, while Cheng Yue is a little impetuous.What impressed Cheng Yu the most was that he had seen Lu Yangyang read a book. She could look up and understand the background of that era for a relationship described in the book; she could review it specifically for a historical fact recorded in the book. The stories of that era; she can also continue to write a new life for the protagonists in order to prevent the stories of the protagonists from ending too quickly... Lu Yangyang's hobby of literature always has a taste of almost obsession, so being interested Hobbies dominate continuous in-depth study and progress, making him feel like his younger sister Cheng Yue loves painting,

What I have to admit is that this kind of Lu Yangyang is indeed very attractive, because someone who is serious about doing what he likes and has achieved a little success will always make others feel admirable and have a good impression.Cheng Yu was no exception.But Cheng Yu's affection for her is limited to that of his younger sister. The longer he gets along with Lu Yangyang, the more he can see the shadow of his younger sister in her.Based on such feelings, he always took care of Lu Yangyang more or less at school, as long as Lu Yangyang asked him for help, he never said no.Just like that performance on New Year's Day, he actually didn't have much interest in performing, but Lu Yangyang told him that he hoped he could participate and he went, and he also took the initiative to urge everyone to rehearse well.

But now, he began to reflect on whether his usual care for Lu Yangyang had misunderstood her. He never thought about who he would fall in love with in high school. The reason was very simple, because the night before the start of his freshman year , the younger brother said that because he said that he likes to study, he gave him a full set of May [-]rd in high school, and he himself responded that his younger brother would definitely take the gift from his younger brother with him to study hard.This may not be a word of promise at all, but in his heart, he feels that what he said to his brother must count. He said that if he likes to study, he likes to study, even if falling in love and loving to study may not be the same. He didn't want such a thing to take away his time and enthusiasm for learning, so he didn't fulfill the promise of "study hard".

"Brother, how long have you been awake? Why didn't you call me?" Gong Qing stretched herself under the quilt, asking while twisting her arms and legs left and right.

Cheng Yu rolled his eyes at him, slapped his waist that was still twisting, and said, "Tsk, thanks to my love for you during the Chinese New Year, I let you sleep a little longer, and you just use a roll to take you away as soon as you wake up." Will you repay me in the form of a quilt?"

Gong Qing laughed and shrank her waist, then covered Cheng Yu with the warm quilt, leaned on Cheng Yu's chest, rubbed her face, and said coquettishly, "Oh, thank you brother!"

Cheng Yu's chest was itchy from his rubbing, so he rubbed his head twice vigorously, turning Gong Qing, who was already sleeping so hard that his hair exploded, into a chicken coop head, which made him happy to see it.

"Brother, are you still unhappy?" Gong Qing suddenly raised her head and looked into Cheng Yu's eyes and asked.

Cheng Yu looked at the red marks on Gong Qing's face that hadn't disappeared because he just woke up, raised his hand to touch it, sighed helplessly, and said, "I'm not unhappy, I just feel that I don't know what to say. It would be too embarrassing."

"But it's impossible not to be embarrassing about a failed confession, not to mention that she is a girl, so she should save face." Gong Qing analyzed seriously.

Cheng Yu nodded and said nothing.

Gong Qing climbed off Cheng Yu's body, lay down next to him, and continued to ask: "Brother, do you have feelings for her but not to the point where you want to be with her? You don't want to agree to her confession." But you can't bear to break contact with her, right?"

"Tsk, you describe me like a scumbag looking for a spare tire at any time! I'm your own brother, brother!" Cheng Yu almost laughed angrily at his dear brother's words.

After being reminded like this, Gong Qing sighed and said, "Oh, it's really scumbag."

Cheng Yu: "..." Well, this little brother has grown so big for nothing!

"Well, my feeling for Lu Yangyang is different from what you think. I just think she and Cheng Yue are quite similar in some aspects, especially the love for the things I am interested in. Did I tell you before However, although I always like to tease Cheng Yue, I also really admire her love for painting. When she is immersed in the things she loves, she is beautiful like a painting, which makes people feel that she It's glowing. Do you remember these?"

Gong Qing nodded. He felt that what his brother said was right. People who are serious and hardworking will always be attractive to others. Those who can discover and see them will feel that they are really dazzling.

Seeing Gong Qing nodded, Cheng Yu continued: "So do you understand how I feel? Lu Yangyang is also like this. The similarity between her and Cheng Yue actually makes me think she is like a younger sister. Do you think I will be tempted by my sister? Similarly, if it were you, would you be willing to cut off contact with your sister because of such a thing and lose a good friend?"

Gong Qing shook her head thoughtfully, such a choice is really difficult.He said: "But no matter what, the matter of feelings must be clearly stated. People have joys and sorrows, and the moon has its ups and downs. You can't have both fish and bear's paws. There is always a choice for things that are difficult to have both. You just talk to her To be honest, you can speak out your thoughts and attitudes openly, and leave it to her to choose what to do. Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain. She will be a smart girl."

Cheng Yu turned his face to look at Gong Qing, who was speaking wisely, and couldn't help but smiled, hooked his shoulders and put it in his arms, and said with a smile: "Well, it makes sense, I'll reply to her two days later, so as not to mess up the New Year's Eve." Make her feel bad."

Gong Qing said speechlessly: "Do you think that she will be less sad? Brother, you are so naive!"

Cheng Yu propped up half of his body, raised his eyebrows and looked down at Gong Qing, and said, "Yo? You're not childish, come on, tell me the correct solution to this matter, and I'll listen to you!"

Gong Qing rolled her eyes, shut her mouth resentfully, turned over and blocked his brother's sight with her back, pretending she didn't hear, and muttered: "I'll sleep a little longer!"

It’s been a bit boring this year, it’s actually not a big deal, but I always feel like there’s something in my heart that can’t go up and down, I can’t cope, and I feel boring in doing anything. That's five days.

Gong Qing saw that his brother took a look at the phone and put it down again, and said, "Brother, I think you are a very clever person, why do you become so awkward when encountering such a thing?"

Cheng Yu sighed and said, "You and I are both boys. It's okay for me to be shameless, but she is a girl. I need to respect myself. I can't speak too directly."

"Then both of you are still monitors, and you will still have to deal with them whether you succeed or not. Since she chose to tell you at this time, it means that she has also considered the consequences of failure, and just let nature take its course. There's nothing to worry about. If you're so hesitant to reject someone you don't like, then you're really not far from a scumbag!"

"..." Cheng Yu was a little speechless. In the past year, his younger brother had already labeled him a "scumbag" twice, and he was very irritable. He said, "I have already said that this is a cherishment of friends and friendship, not hesitation. Okay? The relationship between two people in this world isn’t either love or hate, you’re still too young.”

Gong Qing pursed her lips and said perfunctorily: "Yes, yes, I am still young, and I am only a junior high school student. Junior high school students need to take good care of their eyes and stay away from mobile phones. Just stare at the screen of the mobile phone in a daze!" He got up and went to his desk to read "A Brief History of Time". Compared with watching his brother deal with his emotional problems that were a headache even thinking about it, he still found distant galaxies and cosmic black holes more interesting. For complicated matters, if his brother is willing to tangle up, he can tangle up on his own.

The room was quiet again, and Cheng Yu sighed softly. He felt that it would be great if people were simple emotional animals, without so many thoughts, and would not care too much about other people's thoughts. Living like this should be easy Very comfortable.

But he also knew that this kind of thing would have to be resolved sooner or later, so he clicked on the dialog box with Lu Yangyang and sent a message: Lu Yangyang, thank you for liking me, and I also appreciate how you treat me like you The love and obsession with this matter is very similar to my sister.I have always treated you like a younger sister, so we are not suitable, I hope you can find that boy who only has you in his heart.