growing up porcelain doll

◎Gong Qing stood on the chair and was startled by Hu Cong's sudden arrival, almost fell off the chair.Hu Cong looked at the unstable Gong Qing shaking arcs on the chair

Standing on the chair, Gong Qing was startled by Hu Cong's sudden arrival, and almost fell off the chair.Hu Cong saw the unstable Gong Qing swaying on the chair, hurriedly stepped forward to support him, and asked, "What are you looking at, so focused and scared?"

After standing firmly on the ground, Gong Qing rolled up the magazines in her hand and hid them behind her back, forced a smile and said, "Ah, it's nothing, I wanted to see what books are on your bookcase, but I saw a bunch of "Friends" magazines. Thinking of you still reading these so-called 'friends of women' books, I wanted to laugh at you, but you came in."

Hu Cong glanced at his hands behind his back calmly, smiled slightly, and said: "My mother subscribed them before, I just look through them when I have nothing to do, and just look at them."

"Oh, so that's how it is." Gong Qing's heart was pounding like a drum, but she forced herself to calm down, and hurriedly said, "The meal is ready, right? Let's go eat!"

"Well, okay, that's right, I remembered that I haven't smoked my chopsticks yet, so I'm going to the kitchen together, come quickly." After saying that, Hu Cong turned and went out the door.

Gong Qing looked at his leaving back and let out a deep breath. It was so dangerous that she was almost discovered.He quickly climbed up the chair again, stuffed the magazine back into the stack of old books, and came to open the room.

During the meal, Hu Cong didn't ask any questions, but kept adding vegetables to him. He gnawed on the delicious ribs one by one, but he always felt that he couldn't eat them.The pictures in that magazine seemed to be stuck in his mind, and he couldn't get them out no matter what.He was afraid that he would behave differently than usual, and he couldn't tell whether he was afraid that Hu Cong knew that he had accidentally discovered his secret, or that Hu Cong knew that he had read a book that he shouldn't have read.In short, he ate this meal with trepidation, apprehension, and anxiety. He just wanted to finish the meal quickly and leave this place that made him uneasy.

After the two of them ate, he helped Hu Cong clean up the dishes. After everything was cleaned up, he left with the whole set of "Things about the Ming Dynasty" that Hu Cong had put on the desk earlier, and Hu Cong didn't keep much .

On the way home, Gong Qing felt that she couldn't calm down. The visual stimulation was too serious. The more she wanted to quickly throw those two intertwined bodies out of her mind, the clearer her impression would be. The patterns on the towels and quilts covering their bodies are all fucking clearly remembered!It's so annoying!

As soon as he got home, he rushed to wash his head and take a shower, trying to get the stuff out in a different way.After he finished blowing his hair, he really felt that his head seemed to be a lot easier. In order not to give those memories a chance to resurface, he plunged into the test papers and exercise books, making what single curve hyperbola, plane geometry, solid geometry, electric field, etc. Magnetic field to save him.

This study lasted all afternoon, and he didn't feel hungry until his aunt cooked delicious meals.

He was busy all day on Sunday, reading and studying non-stop. He went to school after an early dinner. He looked at the scenery outside the car window along the way and felt pretty good. After arriving at school, he was immediately impressed by the familiar environment and The atmosphere is overwhelmed, and finally I don't think about those messy things anymore.

He arrived in the classroom earlier, and there was no one in the classroom when he came, so he continued to study by himself.But not long after, Hu Cong sat down beside him, and after he raised his eyes and glanced at Hu Cong, the messy thoughts that had been suppressed in his heart came out again uncontrollably.

He immediately had the illusion that there were nails growing on his buttocks, and he couldn't sit still.Now when he sees Hu Cong, he feels guilty.It's not that he dislikes the content of the magazine so much, but it is something beyond the mundane, and things that subvert one's cognition will always shock people's soul.Moreover, this thing appeared in Hu Cong's room. No matter how you think it should belong to Hu Cong, does this mean that Hu Cong is this kind of person?If so, is it true that the names he has called himself and some intimate behaviors that he seems to be a good buddy over the past year are not as simple as they seem?He really doesn't seem to dislike same-sex love, but it doesn't mean that if the person he likes is a man, he won't feel uncomfortable.

Before the evening self-study started, Hu Cong finally couldn't help asking: "What's wrong with you? You went to the toilet four times in half an hour. You must have eaten bad food, right?"

Gong Qing stammered, "Ah? No, no, it's just that I drank too much hot water."

"Oh, then you should drink less. You have to take a physics test in the self-study at night. Don't run to the toilet just because you are taking the test."

"okay."

He really wanted to forget all these things, but Hu Cong who was everywhere was always reminding him that he and Hu Cong were really too close.

If we were friends when we first met, and then became good friends, but the relationship between good friends should be like that with Jiang Sunya, they are brothers but there are boundaries.I can think about you and take you with me when I have good things, but I can never think about you in every detail and remember all your preferences; it is okay to joke, but it will definitely be enough, and it will definitely not be like a plaster Stick on you until you have no temper; I can care about you, but it is absolutely impossible to want to know your movements anytime, anywhere.

Before he discovered Hu Cong's secret, he would only feel that the relationship between the two of them was better than others. Even if someone ridiculed them as a couple, Hu Cong couldn't laugh. It's just that he doesn't care about it and Hu Cong doesn't care, even Hu Cong calls him "Old Gong" over and over again, he thinks it's just a different name from other friends, but now, after discovering Hu Cong's secret If you still adhere to the previous point of view, then you are really too slow!Those naive and naive words in the past are now so ambiguous no matter what they think.

He glanced at Hu Cong quietly, and felt a headache for a while, and really didn't know what to do, how to keep a distance in the future so as not to appear too deliberate.In fact, regardless of the fact that "Hu Cong likes him", Gong Qing is still very willing to make friends with Hu Cong.Hu Cong is handsome, good at studying, dazzling in all aspects, lively and warm, and they have always gotten along very well. He admires him very much, but they can only be friends.

Oh, what to do!He thought, if Hu Cong didn't say anything, he would just pretend he didn't know, but how could he put up with such a thing!If it's a girl, then avoid it on purpose, and if you can't avoid it, just show your attitude directly. At worst, it will be the result of not getting along with each other forever.But this person is not only not a girl, but his good brother, good deskmate, and good roommate. It's really uncomfortable to get along with such feelings and grudges!

Ever since she smoothed her train of thought, Gong Qing had a knot in her heart, which naturally reduced Hu Cong's intentional or unintentional physical contact with him.During this time, he would call Jiang Sunya to go back to the dormitory after evening self-study. When eating at noon and evening, he would specially choose a seat with a lot of people to sit in, so as to reduce the time the two of them spend alone.

In the eyes of others, this is not a big deal, but for Hu Cong, this is already an obvious escape, which makes him very uncomfortable.

The last class on Friday afternoon was physical education class. Gong Qing was playing on the court as before. When the class was about to end, Hu Cong brought two cups of tea over and said to him: "Here, your favorite grapefruit tea, God It's not very hot, so I didn't add ice for you, so as not to make your stomach feel uncomfortable after drinking ice water after exercising." After speaking, he took out a tissue and wiped the sweat on his forehead.

Gong Qing took the grapefruit tea, and wanted to turn her head away from Hu Cong's hand wiping his sweat, but thought about whether this would embarrass everyone, so she bit the bullet and accepted Hu Cong's kindness, he said : "Well, thank you."

"Why are you being so polite to me all of a sudden? We haven't said 'thank you' for a long time."

"Really?" Gong Qing was a little embarrassed. If Hu Cong hadn't mentioned it, he would have forgotten that they didn't say these two words before.At the same time, he also feels a little uncomfortable. As a good friend, he enjoys Hu Cong's seriousness in love. No matter how you look at it, this is an unequal possession. He is not worthy of Hu Cong's affection.His eyes dodged a little: "It's just polite!"

The two walked side by side on the way back to the classroom, but they didn't speak a word. The silence along the way made one's skin crawl. In the end, it was Hu Cong who broke the uncomfortable tranquility first.

He said, "Gong Qing, let's chat after school tonight."

Gong Qing was a little surprised that he didn't call him "Old Gong" like before, she nodded and said, "Okay."

After the self-study, Gong Qing was not in a hurry to pack her schoolbag, and Hu Cong sat in his seat without moving.

"Hey, what are you two doing when you don't go home? Are you going to have a competition in 10 minutes to see who can finish the homework for the weekend first?" Jiang Sunya carried her schoolbag and saw that the two masters had left in the class. In most cases, I still maintain the attitude of writing papers, and I am a little puzzled.

Gong Qing raised her head and smiled: "Although we write our homework very fast, we can't finish them in 10 minutes." He raised his right hand and said, "This is a human hand, not a magic hand." ,” he continued pointing to his head, saying, “This is a human brain, not a computer!”

Hu Cong was overjoyed as soon as he heard it, and followed him habitually: "That's right! Although I know you envy and hate our strength, people must recognize the reality!"

Jiang Sunya wanted to roll her eyes to the sky, and turned around and left after saying "screw".

Hu Cong couldn't help laughing when he saw Jiang Sunya's expression when he left, and Gong Qing couldn't help laughing too: "Why are you making fun of him again!"

Hu Cong turned his head and continued to laugh, "It's fun to tease him!"

The two looked at each other and smiled for a while before they felt something different. They looked at each other and stopped at the same time.All the people in the classroom had left, only the two of them were left, and the surroundings fell into silence for a while.

"We haven't laughed like this for a long time." Hu Cong said with his head down.

Gong Qing suddenly felt a little uncomfortable, as if she was avoiding Hu Cong's eyes intentionally or unintentionally after she found out about that incident. The two people who were inseparable before are now separated by a layer of glass, which is really uncomfortable of.He did have the same feeling as Hu Cong, the relaxed and at ease just now should be their normal state, but his intuition told him that after tonight, this kind of beautiful and relaxed way of getting along will be farther away from them.

He suddenly understood what kind of mood his elder brother felt when he rejected Lu Yangyang.

He was silent for a moment and did not respond to this sentence.After a while, he began to pack his things, he said: "Pack up your things first, let's talk as we walk."

"okay."

The tranquilizer seems to be floating in the surrounding air. The more you inhale, the more you will be silent. Apart from the silence, there is nothing but embarrassment.

After Hu Cong locked the door, the two walked side by side in the stairwell. After going down one floor, Hu Cong said, "Why do you always avoid me now?"

"No." Gong Qing retorted subconsciously, but after saying it, he himself felt that it was not convincing, not to mention that there was a feeling of "there is no silver 300 taels here".

Hu Cong smiled and said, "Isn't there? Then why are you going back to the dormitory, eating, playing basketball, and everything you do to bring Jiang Sunya together?"

"You think too much, isn't Jiang Sunya in the same dormitory with us, isn't it normal to do everything together?"

Hu Cong nodded and did not refute. He just continued to ask: "Then why don't you dare to look at me now? We were not like this before."

Yes, we were not like this before!Gong Qing said to herself in her heart.Why did he go to Hu Cong's house to borrow books?Why did he have to flip through those messy magazines?Why let him see that book?Why let him guess what Hu Cong thinks about him?Why did things develop like this?If possible, he would rather never know this secret, so that the two of them can still be as good as before, and they are still an unswerving revolutionary friendship, at least before graduating from high school!Even if Hu Cong will confess his love to him one day in the future, even if he refuses, the two must be separated by thousands of miles, instead of being embarrassed everywhere like they are now.

He sighed suddenly, not knowing what to say.

Hu Cong stopped suddenly. Taking advantage of the dim moonlight outside the building, he fixedly looked at Gong Qing and asked, "Did you see a magazine when you were at my house last time?"