Unreasonable

, maybe it's an exquisitely crafted ornament, maybe it's a smile, or maybe it's just the sour and salty taste of plum candy. "

"Many times life can be very confusing, as if we are always rushing to one sorrow after another without stopping. With family and friends, we have expectations in our hearts, and feel that they should be like this, but they are not like this, so we are very happy. Disappointment. Always clinging to, ah, I don’t have this again, I messed up that one again, this person hates me again, that person doesn’t obey me again, and it will make people lose their happiness. Because then we will subconsciously Forget, we have a lot more."

"For example, look at the sky now."

Everyone followed his line of sight.

"You pay attention to the deep orange red hidden behind the overlapping buildings, and the rhyme goes up little by little, and becomes lighter, lighter, and then gradually turns into blue. If the sky is darker, you can still see the different clumps. An even blush. When the night gets darker, when you open the curtains, you can see the stars all over the sky, twinkling and twinkling."

Before he knew it, Younan had already walked in front of the girl.

He handed her the glass box together with the shriveled little SpongeBob SquarePants, the girl was stunned for a moment, and took it.

Younan handed her his student card again, and said with a smile: "If you wake up tomorrow and still feel sad, come to me. The world is still very interesting. There are so many flavors in life, there is always one that can keep you .”

At this moment, Zhiling also came over. He had bought a comb at some time, and there was a blue rope tied around his wrist.

"Well, don't be unhappy. My mother said that a girl with a beautiful hairstyle is very happy. My speech is not as good as Younan's, but I still want to make you happy. If you don't mind, Shall I comb your hair?"

The girl still looked dazed, but Younan was a little surprised.

I thought it was just a simple ponytail, but from the moment Ling's hand touched the girl's hair, Younan was stunned!

I saw Ling skillfully split her hair in half, braided a French three-strand braid into a strand of light blue rope, and then joined the other half at the back of her head. Braided half of the whole braid, gently lifted it with her hands, and pulled it up. , became a flower, blooming in the ear.

Skillfully took out the steel clip from the cuff to pin it in place, and took off a tassel hairpin, embellishing it beside the flowers.

Younan was shocked: "Zhiling, you are so strong!"

Zhiling smiled lightly: "My dad is better than me."

Younan asked the girl, "Shall we take you home?"

The girl nodded slowly, and walked in the front dully alone, looking a little dazed.

The surrounding police wanted to gather around and say something, but they didn't move in the end.

You Nan and Zhiling followed the girl all the way to an old residential building with gray walls and rusty protruding guardrails.

Go straight into the building, up a few steps, to the first floor.

The girl turned around and bowed to the two of them, opened the door and walked in.

On the way back, the two were silent all the way.

Younan is not very familiar with this area, but just followed Zhiling silently, turning left and right, turning east and west.

After walking for a while, Zhiling suddenly said, "You...that scar, can I see it."

Younan smiled: "Have you heard that?" As he spoke, he lifted up the sleeve of his left hand, revealing a smooth and neat scar.

Zhiling took that hand, stared at the scar for a long time without saying a word, and then stopped suddenly.

He turned around, faced You Nan, and gently pulled him into his arms.

"I don't know. You Nan. I don't know anything."

You Nanzhi bent slightly, was taken aback for a moment, and hugged Zhiling back.

"Zhiling. I want to drink."

Zhiling walked with Younan for a while, and entered a bar.As soon as he entered the door, Younan frowned unconsciously at the music and loud noises.

Younan shook his head: "I don't like this place. I don't like bars. I don't like all the places where people gather. Zhiling, I want to go home."

When Li Ziyang stopped the car to go home, he locked himself in the room without knowing what to do, but the God of Wealth came to welcome him eagerly.

Unlike a villa, there is only a small bar next to the restaurant.Zhiling took out a few bottles of preserved wine and poured them for the two.

You Nan seemed to be in a bad mood, drinking hard from cup to cup.

Zhiling looked at him without saying a word, taking a sip of the wine in his glass from time to time.

No matter how good the drinking capacity is, it can't stand Younan's drinking one cup at a time, but after Younan is drunk, he looks the same as usual, but after drinking, it seems to make people feel more lonely.

The God of Wealth and Zhiling hadn't seen each other for several days. Now that he came back, he was eagerly looking at him, rubbing his legs from time to time.

Younan seemed to find it interesting, leaned over and touched the head of the God of Wealth, but was swung away by the God of Wealth's paw.

Younan laughed loudly, sat up and drank another glass of wine, the smile on his lips slowly dissipated.

He lowered his eyes, looked at the look of the God of Wealth, and said in a low voice: "Zhiling, you have a dog, but I don't have a cat."

He gently put down the wine glass, the bottom of the glass collided with the bar and made a crisp sound, and then smiled lightly: "You always have what you want, but I have what I want, and I have nothing."

"18 years can make a person know nothing about society, can't peel eggs or care for quilts, and can also make a person lose the courage to make demands on the world."

"I can feel the changes in myself. From being unreasonable to making troubles, from being persistent and insisting on one thing, from paranoia, from anger, from resentment..."

As Younan talked, his eyes gradually emptied, as if he saw a distant picture through the air in front of him.

In the picture, Younan and Xuyuan Youyi, who are about four years old, are eating at the same table. Because they are still too young, they were always doted on by Lin Xuemei in the past. They have never learned how to eat by themselves. Feed him.

But after making a wish, he went upstairs, and Youyi took away all the empty bowls after the upstairs door was closed.You Nan sat on the dining chair, shaking his frozen red feet, and didn't wait for a question, even if it was "You Nan, why don't you eat?"

Four-year-old Younan still loves to cry very much. When he saw that he was left alone on the table, he was so wronged that tears fell down.

But four-year-old Younan is also very sensible, he thought seriously: It's okay.They didn't take care of me and didn't know it was normal that I couldn't eat.I'll just go find him.

So he jumped off the chair, ran barefoot on the cold floor, ran to the kitchen with the cold meal, looked at Youyi with big eyes, his obsidian-like pupils looked at him obediently, and said obediently: "Youyi Yi, I don't know how to eat, can you feed me?"

Youyi opened the cupboard and put the washed bowl in, without looking back, said softly, "Learn to eat by yourself."

Younan shook his head: "Then can you feed me one last time. I'll learn slowly, okay?"

Youyi squatted on the ground, holding the top of the cupboard door with his fingertips, his eyes lightly fell on the stack of bowls, and said flatly: "Then you don't eat."

Younan was stunned.

37. No.30 Seven unreasonable troubles

◎I have to tell him that he is also loved and pampered. ◎

At first he didn't believe it.

Adults always like to pretend to be cruel to force a child to do something, but they are very soft-hearted and will not let him really starve.

Anyway, Aunt Lin is like this.

So he opened his mouth and cried, and kept crying, crying louder and louder.

Just cry.When you cry, Youyi will feel distressed. As soon as he feels distressed, he will come to feed me.

But until the messy kitchen became spotless, Youyi didn't even look at Younan.

He turned around, untied his apron, and asked, "Do you want to eat by yourself?"

Younan looked up at him, Youyi was still very tall at that time.He stopped crying, and shook his head towards him with tears in his eyes.

Youyi took the rice in his hand, and at the moment when he burst into laughter, he turned around and dumped all the rice into the trash can.

Younan was stunned.

The smile hasn't faded away, and the tears haven't dried yet.

You Yi passed by him, bringing up a breeze.

Time seemed to slow down from that moment on, like a hunchbacked old man struggling to move forward with a large bag of tatters.

Lin Xuemei had just left, and suddenly there seemed to be no human voice in the huge villa.

His feet were swollen and achy from the cold, and a little numb.Turning around in the house, Yunan didn't know what to do.

He returned to the balcony of the living room and sat down in the middle, with his legs straight and slightly apart.

He sat down and looked out the window.

Look at the vegetation in the world, look at the wind and winter.

It was also at that time that he could only vaguely think that in the fairy tales told by Aunt Lin, cats, dogs and rabbits would be happy if they had friends, but he didn't.In the past, he was intoxicated listening to the story, but now that the storyteller had left, he found that the surroundings were empty when he came back to his senses.

No one came to him.

Not a single flower bloomed for him.

Not a star for him to beg for.

Not a single ray of sunlight warmed his fingertips.

He is smaller than a sofa, shorter than a dining table, more fragile than a tea table, and lonely than a floor lamp...

But I had to spend the infinitely long afternoon and dusk together with the dead things in the room, waiting for the dark to fall.

Wait for a compromise, wait for a meal.

I want to give him another chance.Younan thought seriously.

I must have asked him to feed me.Just once.Just one bite.Then I forgive him everything.

But when he stood at the door of the kitchen and saw Youyi throwing away his food again, he suddenly felt panic for no reason.

He suddenly realized that maybe Youyi would really starve him to death.

But he was really sad.

He grabbed Youyi's clothes and asked seriously, "Youyi, do you hate me?"

Youyi looks at him.

Younan will never forget the look in Youyi's eyes at that moment.