Unreasonable

In front of the art lecture hall, Nan’s bright smile, his cuteness when he closed his eyes and bit the lollipop, his calmness when he told him that flower names are not important in the flowers, his concentration and seriousness when he cut his nails...

Maybe, it's a little over the line.

Then...wouldn't it be nice to keep a little distance?

Do you want to distance yourself?

Do you want......

Zhiling walked forward, raised his eyes, and saw Younan squatting beside Xiao Yuechen from a distance under the streetlight.

He persistently pulled Xiao Yuechen and talked to him non-stop, but Xiao Yuechen didn't move.

At that moment, Zhiling suddenly thought, why do you have to grasp the scale when you are good to a person?

Why do you have to consider what kind of liking you have for a person, and why do you have to think about homosexuality when you like it?

It is illogical and unreasonable!

He walked over quickly, squatted down beside Younan, "Xiao Yuechen, get up."

Xiao Yuechen was stunned for a moment, then subconsciously stood up.Younan was shocked and said, "Why are you so double-standard? You don't even get up when I call you, why do you get up when he calls you?"

Zhiling held him back: "Let's go, Younan."

Xiao Yuechen watched the two go away, smiled slowly, and turned back to her home.

The corners of his mouth are bruised, and the combination of the upturned eye ends makes people intuitively fierce.

Zhiling is really kind to Younan.

After entering the door and standing there for a while, he staggered out of the wine and lay down on the small kitchen bar with his head resting on the crook of his arms, his thumb and index finger holding the wine glass facing each other, and slowly turning in one direction continuously.

Zhiling is not sad because of him.

Li Ziyang didn't beat people for him.

For whom?

It's Yu Liang.

How did he and Yu Liang meet?

Basketball League.

How vulgar, he thought, this kind of script would have been rejected by Zheng Huan without his talking.

But in fact that is the case.

He still remembers the scene when the two of them first met, and he was sent on stage like a star.Li Ziyang, a big brother from the Department of Computer Science, wiped away his sweat, and everyone's beloved little proud Ling of Yucheng handed him water, which was even more dazzling than the sun.

But I'm not bad either.He added a sentence in his heart.

All the girls in our yard came out to cheer for me.

Girls are really the cutest creatures in the world.

He raised his head and drank the wine in the glass, filled it up again, shook his shoulders and cried hoarsely.

Who took the initiative?

It seems to be me.

Everything was going smoothly, just like that idiot Li Ziyang thought it would be the end of the world for us to be together, seeing our fingers intertwined, our faces were pale as if we had terminal cancer.

"Yu Liang, be sober! He's a man! A man! Can he give birth to a son for you!"

Xiao Yuechen sneered in his heart.

What do you think he was in a hurry for?It was as if his son had been cut off from his grandson.

It's different if he doesn't engage in homosexuality. Hasn't anyone given birth to him yet?

However, Li Ziyang was not important anyway.

What matters is Yu Liang and his parents.

"I will not allow my son to be with a man!"

His mother said so.

But she's fine.Because his dad didn't say anything.

His father didn't say anything, just slapped Yu Liang's face with his backhand.Throw it to Yu Liang, and throw it to him, Xiao Yuechen.

Yu Liang didn't speak, but tilted his head against the sun and smiled at him.He saw that the corner of his mouth had a bit of broken skin, oozing dazzling red.

If you ask him, Yu Liang should have given up at that time.

My parents don't agree, and I'm already a bad person, why do you think he's so persistent.

But he just wanted to be stubborn to the end.

His mother pointed at Xiao Yuechen and yelled, "Get out!"

Yu Liang pointed at the door and yelled at his mother: "If he goes out of this door today, then I will never step into this house again!"

It's really unexpected that a person who is usually so gentle and gentle can be so strong for me.I'm so fucking awesome.

but......

Wrong, wrong.

He took a sip of wine.

It shouldn't be.

He deserves to marry a clean and beautiful girl, give birth to a smart child, walk on the sunny road, live a comfortable life, and be sought after by the world.

Not with me, the son of a sinner, born with the hooligans, mean, gay.

But there is no way.

Who made him like me?

Who told him to be so devoted to me that he insisted on being with me even when he went up to the poor and went down to the underworld?

Xiao Yuechen was lying on the bar counter, clasping the wine glass with his hands together, crying so hard.

"You want to disown the family that raised you for him?" his father asked.

Yu Liang nodded more firmly than usual, "Yes."

Xiao Yuechen stood behind Yu Liang, not knowing what to say, nor did he dare to say anything.

They remained in a stalemate for a few minutes, and finally his mother sighed heavily and said, "Forget it, Lao Yu. Let the children do their things."

He looked at Yu Liang who was standing upright and Xiao Yuechen who kept bowing his head:

"Yu Liang, Xiao Xiao, come to eat."

Xiao Yuechen looked at her in disbelief, and she smiled back.

His father let out a heavy "hum", then shook his sleeves and left.

Yu Liang gave him a "victory" gesture and led him to his seat.

Although the process was tortuous, I finally met my parents.

Yu Liang said: "We call it, lovers will eventually get married."

shit.

Xiao Yuechen thought.

We clearly called, but the poor man insisted on hiccupping.

He reached out his hand to pour the wine, but after shaking it for a long time, he didn't get a drop of wine. He was so angry that he threw the empty bottle on the ground.

Dark shards of glass spread out in a flower on the ground, dead in the dim light.

"Why don't you go up? It's too high and too cold." Yu Liang frowned, looking at the snowy road that couldn't see the top of the mountain in the whiteness.

"I've climbed so high, wouldn't it be better to persevere?" Xiao Yuechen felt a little regretful.

Of course Yu Liang agreed.

However, he never refused Xiao Yuechen's request or request.

But......

Who wants him to be so obedient.

Xiao Yuechen got up, already too drunk to stand up.

He staggered a few steps, then plopped down on his knees beside the trash can.

He leaned on the wall, stared at the trash can for a while, and suddenly laughed.

"The muscle tissue of the leg is all frostbitten and necrotic. It needs to be amputated immediately. Are you a family member of the patient?"

Xiao Yuechen froze in place, not even daring to say "I am".

It was Li Ziyang who rushed over, grabbed the doctor's shoulder and asked what's wrong, what happened to my brother, will it affect the future?

It was also Li Ziyang who signed with trembling hands, turned to him with red eyes, and said, "I knew that I was going all out, and even if I made him hate me for the rest of my life, I would tie him up and not allow me to be with you!"

And he stood there the whole time, motionless.

He was obviously in such a terrible state, but the first thing Yu Liang said when he woke up was "Where is Xiao Xiao? How is Xiao Xiao?"

When Xiao Yuechen was crying next to him, he was still gently touching his head.

Xiao Yuechen thought, Yu Liangduo was so proud of being alone, the proud son of heaven became a cripple who couldn't take care of himself overnight, all because of his willful will.

"Xiao Xiao, don't think about it. I don't blame you."

"Don't worry about Li Ziyang."

Xiao Yuechen really wanted to say, but this is a matter of a lifetime.But when the words reached his mouth, he swallowed them back to his stomach.

He is the least qualified to say this sentence.

"Xiao Xiao, buy me some paper and a pen, I want to write some letters."

Then he kept writing and writing until it was dark, and then until late at night.

"Xiao Xiao, peel me an apple."

Xiao Yuechen was very sleepy, he peeled an apple and put the knife on the bedside, looking at him with his chin resting on his hand.

If time could be turned back, he would not have closed his eyes that night.

No, if he could really go back in time, he wouldn't have to climb any snow-breaking mountains at all.

Because the next morning he was woken up by the scream of the female nurse.Looking up, he saw the blood-stained knife in his hand, then the quilt was covered with a large amount of dried blood, and there was a long flat scar on his wrist. He opened his eyes and looked at his bloodless face and the letter on the bedside. .

For a long time, he didn't realize what happened.He only felt a bulging pain in his heart, his brain went blank, and all the sound and images in his ears and eyes were fragmented. He could only stare blankly at the expressionless eyes, forgetting to shed tears.

Then Li Ziyang rushed in like crazy, his eyes were red, and his voice was hoarse: "Who gave him the knife?"

Xiao Yuechen felt that her throat was tight, and it was difficult to speak: "I. I peeled the apple and put it on the bedside..."

Li Ziyang grabbed him by the collar abruptly, and shouted at him with tears in his eyes: "What a random place on the bedside! You know what kind of situation he is, but you still put the knife on the bedside! Xiao Yuechen, you How vicious! If you think Yu Liang’s loss of legs is a drag, why don’t you just talk about breaking up? We raise him, we accompany him, and we support him for the rest of his life, okay! You are a selfish, despicable fucking People! Who is disgusting with such an innocent look?!!"

Xiao Yuechen really wanted to say no, it wasn't like that, I didn't have those despicable thoughts, I didn't think about leaving him.But seeing Yu Liang's stiff body, he suddenly felt that all words were pale.

Or maybe, compared with this person's departure, all the abuse is light and not worth arguing about.

All his energy was spent on recognizing Yu Liang's suicide...

Zhiling, who arrived later, picked up the letter by the bedside with trembling hands.

Xiao Yuechen lost his mind completely, his gaze kept on the scabbed wrist and the dried blood all over the bed.

"I have no idea......"

I don't know why I insist on continuing stubbornly when I know it's dangerous.

I don't know why he didn't think about why he wrote letters when he bought the pen and paper.

I don't even know