but you never loved me

People always become uneasy and cowardly in love, confident like Ning Yi, and also worried because they don't get a response from Gu Yang, tossing and turning in bed in the middle of the night.

People are always deceiving themselves and others because of love, as smart as Yan Zimu, even if he finds the traces of people around him changing their hearts, he still comforts himself that he is just too busy.After the man tossed and turned and finally fell asleep, he tucked up the quilt for him, but he himself suffered from insomnia all night.

Today Ning Yi finally had time to pick up his daughter with him.But on the way home, the warm atmosphere in the car was gone.

Yan Yan was a little angry because Ning Yi missed appointments several times in a row, and deliberately ignored him.If it was normal, Ning Yi would definitely be able to find out.But at this moment, he was still thinking about Gu Yang, and he was absent-minded even when driving, so naturally he didn't notice that his daughter was angry with him.

Yan Zimu looked at the sulking daughter who looked away from the window, and Ning Yi's slightly frowned brow reflected in the rearview mirror.

He decided to say something to adjust the atmosphere: "Yi, tomorrow is my birthday, can you come back early tonight?"

Yes, tomorrow is his birthday, but he guessed Ning Yi forgot.In order not to be disappointed because his hope failed, he decided to tell him himself, so that he could pretend that he actually remembered.

And his tone was cautious and even a little unconsciously humble.This humility stems from the fear of rejection.And the reason why he was afraid of being rejected was probably because he couldn't lie to himself.Ning Yi's change was too obvious.

His words brought back Ning Yi's thoughts. He actually remembered Yan Zimu's birthday. Not long ago, he prepared a gift for him and planned to surprise him.

It's just that Gu Yang suddenly returned to Ning Yi's world like this, disrupting his heart and all plans.Recently, she was so focused on the company and Gu Yang that she forgot about it.

He saw Yan Zimu smiling through the rearview mirror, but there was embarrassment in his eyes, which made the smile too superficial and superficial.

Ning Yi's heart was shrunk by that smile, he remembered that not long ago, Yan Zimu's smile was still so happy and true.

He knew very well that Yan Zimu had become lonely and depressed under his deliberate neglect.But he forced himself to turn a blind eye, even though every time he saw the fragility he unconsciously revealed, he really wanted to hold him in his arms.

But he can't, he can't let Gu Yang down again.In his heart, this kind of torture for the two of them is atonement for the betrayal of Gu Yang.

Ning Yi is not his own person, he also thought about it, why should Yan Zimu atone for his sins with him?In fact, as long as he said to break up, Yan Zimu would be relieved.

He has also made up his mind countless times, but he still can't speak.Looking at this face that always smiles, and this person who is always behind me, who is tolerant and loves me deeply.

Ning Yi's insatiable greed, he admits that he can't bear to part with this person, let alone let him go.

As for his own feelings for this person, he no longer dared to delve into it.For the first time he was so cowardly that he was afraid that the result would shake him.

The biggest contradiction between him and his father since he was a child is that he resents his father's infidelity to his feelings.If it were not for the deliberate deception of the father, the tragedy of mother's suicide would not have been caused.

So the moment he fell in love with Gu Yang, he told himself that he could only love Gu Yang in this life.

Ning Yi was immersed in his own thoughts for too long, and Yan Zimu, who had been waiting for too long, felt a little chilly, and his eyes were full of disappointment.

His loss was so obvious that it infected the little daughter around him.Yan Yan was no longer angry, and comforted Yan Zimu in a sensible manner, but her tone was clearly low: "Daddy is very busy, so he can't accompany us, right? But it's okay, I will accompany Dad, and I will sing to Dad Birthday song, don't be sad, Dad."

It was only at this moment that Ning Yi came back to his senses, and turned his head to look at the one big and one who were downcast in the back seat, and realized that he had inadvertently snubbed his daughter at the same time.He felt a little guilty because he wasn't even a good father.

He pulled the car to the side and stopped, with a very firm tone: "I will go home early tomorrow, I promise."