but you never loved me

Ning Yi almost subconsciously pushed Xia Chengchen away, Xia Chengchen was pushed to sit on the sofa, his face turned pale again.Ning Yi also felt a little embarrassed about his overreaction.Reaching out to support Xia Chengchen: "Ayang, I'm not in a good mood today, I'll send you back first, and I'll come to you another day."

Xia Chengchen's eyes dimmed instantly, but there was still a smile on his pale face, and he said to Ning Yi in a considerate tone: "Okay, I'll go back after I bandage the wound for you. "His eyes rested on the wound on Ning Yi's hand.

Seeing Xia Chengchen who is so forbearing, Ning Yi couldn't bear it, and looked at him with complicated eyes.Gu Yang shouldn't be like this, he should be the sunshine wantonly, and shouldn't be so humble.

If what he said before was out of anger, he was really thinking about whether it was right or wrong to choose to be with Gu Yang.After Yan Zimu disappeared again, he had clearly realized that he couldn't do without him.And do I really love Gu Yang as deeply as I thought?If so, why would Gu Yang be completely forgotten as long as Yan Zimu was by his side?

If not, everything is wrong.His previous harm to Yan Zimu has become unforgivable.He felt that he needed time to think clearly about his feelings for Gu Yang and Yan Zimu.

He looked at Gu Yang, his tone was flat: "No, it's just a minor injury, it's already late, I'll take you back first."

Xia Chengchen automatically ignored his words, and still looked at him with a smile: "Brother Yi, where is the medicine box?"

Ning Yi now just wants to be alone and calm down and sort everything out.And Gu Yang being here will only disturb his mood.So he stood there silently without answering him, Xia Chengchen kept looking at him with a smile.

After a long confrontation, Ning Yi was still defeated.He went to the room and took the medicine box to the living room.Xia Chengchen carefully cleaned the wound for him.The way he lowered his head made Ning Yi distracted for a moment.Not long ago, Yan Zimu also treated his wounds so carefully.

At that time, Gu Yang hadn't come back yet, although there was a knot between him and himself.But Yan Zimu still loves herself, even if she is angry, she still cares about herself.But since he came back, he has been extremely indifferent to himself.Now it's gone again.

Just when he was distracted, Xia Chengchen treated the wound for convenience.Unconsciously, he pushed his sleeve up, but saw that Ning Yi also had a wound on his arm.From the dried blood on the gauze, it can be seen that the injury is not serious.

"Brother Yi, let me help you change the medicine for this wound." At this time, Ning Yi was still distracted. Hearing what he said, he subconsciously said "hmm" before he could figure out the meaning of the words.

When he reacted, he quickly wanted to withdraw his hand.But Xia Chengchen had already lifted the gauze from the wound.A circle of elliptical tooth marks, obviously bitten by someone.Xia Chengchen was not stupid enough to ask Ning Yi how he did it.Although it was a wound, it was not a close person. How could Ning Yi allow others to leave such marks on his hands?

But he pretended he didn't know anything, still smiling, took a new gauze, and bandaged Ning Yi's wound.But he didn't know that his smile was so strange now, it was even uglier than crying.

Ning Yi withdrew his hand: "No need to bandage, let's go, I'll take you back." Then he got up and walked to the shoe cabinet, and took the car keys.

Xia Chengchen looked at the gauze that had fallen on the ground, and bit his lip slightly.Finally got up and followed Ning Yi.

The car was speeding on the road, Xia Chengchen looked at Ning Yi's expressionless side face, and wanted to say something to ease the atmosphere, but suddenly he didn't have the courage.

The light was red, and the car just passed by the entrance of a certain shopping mall. Ning Yi looked at the shopping mall in a daze.When the green light came on, he was still staring blankly.He didn't restart the car until the cars behind waited impatiently and honked their horns to urge him.

Xia Chengchen couldn't help turning his head to look at the shopping mall. On the huge billboard was a certain celebrity.Other than that nothing special.

Xia Chengchen didn't go back to the house tonight, but went to the hospital to accompany his mother, so Ning Yi sent him to the hospital.When Xia Chengchen got out of the car, it was snowing outside, Ning Yi grabbed him who was about to get out of the car, took out an umbrella from the trunk and handed it to him.

Xia Chengchen held the umbrella, and a burst of joy spread in his heart.Turning sideways, he pressed a kiss on Ning Yi's lips.Without waiting for Ning Yi to react, he turned and ran into the inpatient department.

Ning Yi touched his lips, feeling suddenly panicked.He took out a cigarette from the cigarette case and lit it for a few puffs, then leaned back on the car seat and looked out the window.

He saw a tree by the lamppost, the trunk of which was so thick with snow that it seemed to break the branches.At this moment, he felt that there was no difference between himself and the tree, but the layers of snow were given to him by himself, and it was only caused by himself.

It's been a long time since I smoked. The smell of tobacco made him feel strange and familiar, but it did relax him a little.In the rising smoke, he was thinking why did he smoke in the first place?

In fact, Ning Yi learned to smoke when he was in junior high school, not after Yan Zimu left as Du Chenfeng and the others thought.He smokes because he has heard people say that smoking can make people forget their troubles.The result disappointed him, after a while, he still thought of Gu Yang often.Later, only once after the college entrance examination.

Why that time again?Unconsciously, he thought of Yan Zimu again.When I sent him home that day, he pulled himself back with a flushed face, and then he heard a whispered "I like you".

My heart seemed to be hit by something, and it kept beating "dong dong dong".It was obviously something in his plan, and he wanted him to fall in love with him from the beginning, but he still couldn't help feeling flustered.

Ning Yi didn't answer him immediately, but ran to the convenience store on the street to buy - you are my obsession - a pack of cigarettes.Then the two stood under the tree, Ning Yi held the cigarette he just lit between his fingers, Yan Zimu didn't say anything, just quietly leaned against the tree trunk, looking at him and smiling.

Ning Yi turned his head, and the light and shadow of the setting sun shone on the clean face of the young man in front of him, giving him a warm and beautiful feeling.At that moment, the brain seemed to be controlled by something, and the whole person was completely out of control.

He threw away the cigarette in his hand, stepped forward to put the boy in his arms, bowed his head and kissed him.After the kiss was over, the boy lowered his head shyly.After a while, he grabbed his collar forcefully, and when he opened his mouth, he said a little arrogantly: "I don't like the smell of cigarettes, you are not allowed to smoke in the future, or else...or I will never kiss you again!"

It was indeed because of him that he smoked again later.No one knew how naive his thoughts were at the time.Since that person chose to leave me, why should I remember his words?

Besides, when I smoke, I feel like I am in another world, even if I think of him, I don't feel uncomfortable.

Thinking about it now, I feel ridiculous at that time.He was clearly escaping, but he dared not admit it at all.

The pain in his fingertips brought him back to his senses.Looking down, it turned out that the smoke had burned to the end, so that it burned the fingertips.

Ning Yi stubbed out his cigarette, took out his cell phone and dialed Du Chenfeng's cell phone: "Come out and have a drink with me."