but you never loved me

Love is a silent penetration, before you realize it, it has wrapped you up.

Fu Juexuan has been lying at home for three days, it seems to be the sequelae of drunkenness, and he feels tired and lazy.It was already nine o'clock in the morning, but the room was still pitch black because of the closed curtains.The alarm clock on the bedside table rang harshly.Fu Juexuan stretched out a hand from under the quilt, touched it carelessly, and pressed the alarm clock to stop.

Then he got up from the bed and went to the bathroom to wash up.He looked in the mirror, he saw the deep dark circles under his eyes, and felt very depressed.In the past few days, he always thought of what Chu Xiaoran said the day he left.Even dreaming was no longer that kind of thing, it was Chu Xiaoran telling him to take care of herself with a pale face.After being angry, he was also reflecting on whether what he said was evil and too hurtful.After all, Chu Xiaoran had never shown such a sad expression to herself.

After all, it's been so long, no matter how angry I was at the time.Thinking about it being Chu Xiaoran, I don't think it's that hard to accept.The reason why he said those words was because he was angry that Chu Xiaoran left without saying goodbye.In the past, Chu Xiaoran always went out to collect folk songs, but the longest was only two months.Fu Juexuan didn't want to admit it, but he couldn't help missing Chu Xiaoran, so he became more and more annoyed.In addition, because I bowed my head first, I felt unwilling, so I wanted to make him feel uncomfortable.

But seeing Chu Xiaoran in so much pain at that time, he didn't feel any better. Instead, he felt depressed. He just held his breath and didn't want to bow his head.It's been three days now, and it's pointless to even get angry.

After hastily washing up, he lay down on the bed in big characters again, but his eyes kept glancing at the mobile phone on the bedside table. "Should I call him?" After debating for a long time, he finally reached for the phone.After clicking on the call log, he hesitated for a long time, then threw the phone on the bedside, turning over and not looking at it.After all, it was me who said that I didn't want to see him again, and now I posted it eagerly, didn't I slap him in the face?

Then he put the quilt over his head again, thinking about sleeping again, Chu Xiaoran might come to the door by himself.I lay down for a while, but couldn't fall asleep.He simply turned over, put on clothes indiscriminately, picked up the car keys and went out.

On the way to Chu Xiaoran's house, Fu Juexuan wanted to turn around several times, but in the end he still stood at the gate of Chu's mansion.But standing at the door, he thought about what if Chu Xiaoran wasn't at home?Forget about treating a dead horse as a living horse doctor. If he is not at home, then he will be in vain.Taking a deep breath, he rang the doorbell.

It was Mother Chu who came to open the door for him, and when she saw him, she happily welcomed him in.As soon as I sat down, I called someone over to bring some snacks, "This is the cookie that Auntie just made this morning, try it quickly and see if it tastes good?" Apart from Chu Xiaoran, only Mother Chu knew that Fu Juexuan liked it. Everything snacks and sweets.

But except in front of Chu Xiaoran, Fu Juexuan was always ashamed of this.But Mrs. Chu was too enthusiastic, so he could only accept it embarrassedly.Mother Chu joked with him: "Xuanxuan hasn't been here for a long time, and when Xiaoran is not at home, you won't come to see Auntie."

Just as Fu Juexuan took a bite of the cookie, he suddenly felt a little tasteless.There was no other meaning to what Chu's mother said, but it made him feel a little guilty for no reason.She didn't know it before, but now it seems that Chu Xiaoran likes men because of herself, and she always feels sorry for her aunt.So she lowered her head and didn't dare to look directly at Chu's mother: "Auntie, I'm too busy these days, so I will definitely spend more time to see you in the future."

Mother Chu smiled and said, "It's okay, Auntie knows you're busy." Then she seemed to react suddenly: "By the way, you came here to look for Xiaoran. He's upstairs right now. For some reason, a He ran away to Tibet for half a year. He just came back, and I don’t know what he was stimulated by. It looks normal, but he is very low-key. And you also know his temper, and he doesn’t want to say anything. Auntie always feels that He has something on his mind, it's just in time for you to come, help Auntie to persuade him."

Hearing this, Fu Juexuan felt even more guilty, because it was he who made Chu Xiaoran feel down. "Auntie, where is he now?" Mother Chu replied, "It's upstairs, and I didn't come down for breakfast today."

Hearing that Chu Xiaoran was at home, Fu Juexuan breathed a sigh of relief.After talking to Mother Chu, she went upstairs.Standing at the door of Chu Xiaoran's room, his heart was beating incessantly, restraining his nervousness, he knocked on the door.

A deep voice came from inside the door: "Come in." He pushed open the door and saw Chu Xiaoran sitting at the desk, holding what seemed to be a photo album in a drawer.Chu Xiaoran thought that the person who came was her mother, and when she turned her head, her tone was a bit helpless: "Mom, I really don't have an appetite..."

But when he saw the person standing at the door, his pupils shrank suddenly.When he spoke, there was unconcealable joy in his tone, but he was cautious, as if he was afraid that this was an illusion: "Xiao Wu?"

It was rare for Fu Juexuan to see him in such a daze, and all of the embarrassment was wiped away, and instead he felt a little elated.He walked to the desk with a relaxed tone: "What were you looking at just now?" He opened the drawer and took out the things Chu Xiaoran put in the drawer before.

Seeing that it was indeed a photo album, his curiosity was aroused even more.He was about to open the photo album, but Chu Xiaoran frowned, and put her hand on it.

But the more he was not allowed to see it, the more he wanted to see it. Fu Juexuan secretly competed with Chu Xiaoran, but Chu Xiaoran didn't let him halfway, and the album was not opened in the end.

Suddenly Fu Juexuan became angry: "If you don't look at it, don't look at it, what's so rare!" After speaking, he turned around and was about to rush out the door.Chu Xiaoran grabbed his hand, Fu Juexuan tried hard to shake off his hand, but couldn't.He stared at Chu Xiaoran: "Let me go."

Chu Xiaoran watched him remain silent, but still did not let go.After a while, he took the photo album on the table, handed it to him, and then let go of the hand that was holding him.He sighed helplessly in his heart: "Forget it, anyway, I am already embarrassing enough in front of him, it's no big deal to add a few more points."

Fu Juexuan found that Chu Xiaoran was very strange and had a very attitude, but finally couldn't help but opened the photo album.

A thick photo album is full of photos of a person from childhood to adulthood, and that person is himself.He flipped through them one by one, and each one took a perfect picture of himself, which shows how hard the person who took the picture put his heart into it.

After flipping through the entire photo album, his mood could no longer be described as shock.