but you never loved me

Like an abstract painting, time stops in an instant, everything around becomes illusory and blurred, only the voice from the phone is the only reality.Ning Yi held the receiver and stood there for a long time.Until Yan Zimu's doubtful voice came from the other end of the phone again: "Hello?"

Yan Zimu was in front of Yan's mother's grave at this time, and he felt very baffled when he received such a call.But he still tried to be polite.He didn't hang up the phone until he fed several times in a row and no one answered.

It was only when the phone in his hand heard a busy tone that Ning Yi came back to his senses.At this moment, he still looked calm, at least he could pass the phone to the front desk with a calm face.

The front desk looked at this strange gentleman and couldn't understand the situation at all.Ning Yi was stunned for another minute in the lobby, then immediately turned around and ran out of the hotel.He didn't care about the call from the front desk behind him: "Sir, your flowers!"

He didn't even have time to go to the parking lot to drive his own car, and directly hailed a taxi.When he spoke, his tone was a little hasty: "Go to Mingyueyuan Cemetery."

The taxi driver glanced at his expression, and immediately ignited the car, and with a "whoosh", the car rushed out.The driver chatted with him while driving: "Young man, what's going on, are you in such a hurry?"

Ning Yi didn't reply to his words, because he didn't hear what he said at all.His current thoughts are still immersed in the phone call just now.He stared blankly at the white knuckles, and his lips pursed unconsciously.

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Yan Zimu hung up the phone and squatted in front of Yanmu's tomb, took out a tissue and wiped the dust on Yanmu's tombstone carefully.Then he knelt on the ground slowly and kowtowed three times to Yan's mother.Yan Yan and Yan Dudu knelt down and kowtowed respectively.When the two children kowtowed, they were extremely rigorous.

Yan Zimu smiled and touched the heads of the two children: "So cute." Then he turned his gaze to the tombstone in front of him, looking at his mother's always kind smile in the photo.There was more sadness and miss in his eyes: "Mom, my son is not filial. I haven't seen you for three years. I hope you don't get angry with me. These are my two children. Yan Yan, you have seen them before, Du beep……"

He paused for a while before speaking: "Dudu, it was born three years ago. Our family of three is very happy now, and you should be well down here, don't worry about me." He looked at the picture of his mother, his eyes became more and more serious Sad, she said silently in her heart: "Mom, my son shouldn't have disobeyed you. I know I was wrong. You must forgive me."

"Ache!" Yan Zimu's thoughts were interrupted by a sudden sneeze.Yan Zimu looked at Yan Dudu, and Yan Dudu noticed his father's gaze.He wrinkled his nose desperately, but still sneezed several times in a row.He looked at Yan Zimu aggrievedly: "Dad, I didn't mean to sneeze in front of grandma. I have an itchy nose and I can't help it."

Although Yan Dudu is usually naughty, he still knows when it's time to be sensible.Yesterday my sister told him to be good in front of grandma, he remembered it.

Yan Zimu frowned worriedly. City B is cold and humid in winter. Although it doesn't snow, it is colder than city A where it snows.When taking a shower last night, Yan Zimu didn't pay attention for a moment, let him play in cold water for a while, and was worried that he would catch a cold.When I woke up in the morning, I saw that he was fine, and I breathed a sigh of relief.

As a result, the cold wind is blowing again on the mountain now, and the child is frozen, probably because of a cold.For the sake of the child, Yan Zimu decided to go down the mountain immediately.

He hugged Yandudu tightly in his arms, and carefully put the hat on his coat on for him.But within a few minutes of going down the mountain, Yan Dudu sneezed dozens of times.

With obvious worry on Yan Zimu's face, he quickly went down the mountain two steps at a time.Yan Yan, who was following behind him, had to trot to keep up with him, but her small face was also wrinkled like salted vegetables.The family is most afraid of Yan Dudu's illness, because he is weak and will be very serious when he gets sick.

After descending the mountain, the driver was waiting at the gate of the cemetery.Yan Zimu got into the car with Yan Dudu in his arms, and touched his forehead, which turned out to be a little hot.After only a while, Dudu lay in his arms listlessly.

Yan Zimu was so anxious that he said to the driver, "Don't go back to the hotel, take us to the hospital first." The driver responded and started the car.

Yan Zimu anxiously called to Dudu: "Be good, baby, don't sleep. If you fall asleep in the car, you will catch a cold later." Seeing that Dudu was in a daze and refused to open his eyes, he was good at it in a hurry. Patted his face.He was so engrossed in Dudu that he naturally didn't notice the taxi speeding past their car when they turned the corner.

As soon as the car stopped at the gate of the cemetery, Ning Yi immediately drove the door and ran up the mountain.He had never run so fast before, as if he was desperate for his life.

However, as he got closer to his destination, his steps slowed down.Because he has clearly seen the bouquet of white daisies in front of Yan's mother's tombstone.

His footsteps finally stopped on the last step, with a blank and disappointed expression on his face.He clenched his fingers unconsciously, but he didn't grab anything.

It's like a traveler lost in the desert, finally seeing a lake TSXDZ.However, after arriving after a long journey, it was discovered that the lake had just been transferred to another place.Just a second earlier, even a second earlier would be fine.

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In the People's Hospital of City B, winter is the season of high incidence of diseases, and the hospital is full of people.Yan Zimu could only sit in the corridor of the hospital with Yan Dudu in his arms for an infusion.

Seeing Dudu's burning red face, he curled up in pain.What worries him even more is that the child will cough from time to time.He was really afraid that if the child coughed too much, it would cause his asthma to recur.

Dudu has been in poor health because he was born prematurely.When he was three months old, he caught a cold once just out of the incubator.

A cold is not a serious disease, but it is not a trivial matter for a child to catch a cold.In addition, his body was really weak, so he burned directly into pneumonia.Later, although my body recovered, I had asthma ever since.This matter is an eternal pain in Yan Zimu's heart.

Every time Yan Zimu thought about it, he felt guilty.He blamed himself for not taking good care of Dudu and making him sick.

But what's wrong with him is that he didn't take good care of Dudu, he guarded the child almost every day, and he couldn't bear to blink his eyes.Children get sick just because they are too weak.As for why the child was weak, Yan Zimu no longer wanted to think about it.

He put his forehead against Dudu's and sang him a lullaby.There was a gentle smile on his face, but many complex emotions flashed in his eyes, and there was a hint of hatred hidden in it, so shallow that he himself hadn't noticed it.