but you never loved me

As soon as Yan Zimu woke up, before he could open his eyes, the strong smell of disinfectant flooded his nostrils.So he knew that he was in the hospital.

When I opened my eyes, it was really white.And Ning Yi, who was sitting beside Ning Yi's bed peeling apples, became the only bright color in the white.

When Yan Zimu saw him, he felt a little more at ease.He called out: "Ning Yi." He seemed to be a little distracted while peeling an apple, but suddenly regained his focus when he heard his voice, and accidentally cut his finger.

Yan Zimu hurriedly got up from the bed, pulled out a piece of paper to hold the wound for him.But Ning Yi saw how big his movements were, but hurried over to support him.

Yan Zimu looked at the tissues that were gradually stained red, feeling a little distressed.Seeing his frown, Ning Yi couldn't help comforting him, "It's okay, it doesn't hurt, don't worry."

Yan Zimu couldn't bear to scold him, but pressed the wound tightly until the bleeding stopped before letting go of Ning Yi's hand.Ning Yi took the peeled fruit and handed it to him, Yan Zimu asked while eating, "What's wrong with me?"

Ning Yi lowered his head and remained silent for a long time, Yan Zimu felt something was wrong when he thought of his reaction just now.He first forced himself not to think wildly, and then asked again: "What's wrong with me?"

Ning Yi looked up at him with extremely complicated emotions in his eyes.He hesitated for a long time before saying: "Zi Mu, you are pregnant."

The moment Yan Zimu heard this, he was a little dazed.But then his eyes lit up with stars, he didn't expect that he could have another child.

But Ning Yi was not as excited as him, and the expression on his face was even a little heavy.Yan Zimu suppressed the smile on his face, and asked, "Are you unhappy?" Then, as if he suddenly realized something, he asked with a pale face, "Is there something wrong with the child?"

Ning Yi looked at him, with ups and downs of emotions in his eyes, and finally said: "The child has no problem, but you have a problem." Yan Zimu was a little puzzled, and asked nonchalantly, "I have a problem?"

Ning Yi nodded and said: "Dr. Chen said that your body is too fragile to bear a child. He suggested terminating the pregnancy."

After saying this, Yan Zimu's face turned even paler, but he still said, "Why? I know my body myself, and I can give birth to this child."

He looked up at Ning Yi, with hope in his eyes: "A Yi, what about you? Don't you want this child too?"

Ning Yi was silent, not daring to meet Shangyan Zimu's eyes.He hesitated for a long time and finally said: "Zi Mu, what if I say I don't want this child?"

Suddenly he held Yan Zimu's hand firmly, and said eagerly: "Zimu, your current body is really not suitable for conceiving this child. We already have two children , we don't want this one, okay?"

Yan Zimu was stunned at the moment. After a long time, he slowly pulled out the hand held by Ning Yi, and said lightly: "Ning Yi, this is our child. You can ignore it, but I can't."

Ning Yi felt extremely uncomfortable, why didn't he want this child?But anyone and anything are not as important as Yan Zimulai, for this person he is willing to give up everything.He couldn't watch Yan Zimu take risks and remain indifferent.As for this child, just treat him as having nothing to do with them.

He gently hugged Yan Zimu into his arms, trying to reason with him: "Zimu, I really can't have this child. Dr. Chen said that your endometrium is too fragile and may rupture at any time during pregnancy. possible……"

At this point, he suddenly couldn't continue, he took a deep breath and said in despair: "Once it ruptures, it is very likely that one will die and two will die."

Yan Zimu listened to him quietly, and said calmly, "It's okay, the doctor only said it's possible, right? That means I might give birth to this child safely."

Ning Yi used to like his tenacity the most, but now he hates his stubbornness.He almost trembled and said: "Zi Mu, Doctor Chen said that there is a 50.00% chance of endometrium rupture, I can't let you take risks. I beg you, just listen to me this time, okay?"

He grabbed Yan Zimu's shoulder anxiously, his eyes full of pleading.However, Yan Zimu raised his hand calmly, stroked his face lightly, and said in a gentle but uncompromising tone: "A Yi, may I ask you too? I want this child, I love you, and I want to give it to you." You gave birth to him."

Ning Yi closed his eyes fiercely, but when he opened them, he pushed Yan Zimu away.He stared at Yan Zimu with fear and madness in his eyes: "Why don't you listen to persuasion? You said you love me, so why did you hurt yourself? Have you ever thought about it? What should I do? Ah? What do you think I should do?"

Yan Zimu felt pain in his heart when he saw him hurt.But he can't be soft-hearted, because if even he gives up, no one will be able to protect the child.

He put his hand gently on his belly, and said silently in his heart: "Baby, don't be afraid, Dad will protect you." He looked up at Ning Yi and said, "Ah Yi, if I want this child, even if I want my life to come You can change it."

Ning Yi's eyes were instantly swept by sadness, and he was no longer hysterical.He is like a defeated lion, he is quiet and sad, even Yan Zimu's tender and compassionate eyes can't heal him.When he opened the door and left, he said wearily: "You can do whatever you want, you can do whatever you like."

But after he pushed the door and went out, he turned around and entered the stairwell.He dialed a certain number: "Arrange an abortion for me. I'll send it over today and arrange it as soon as possible."

After he hung up the phone, the green lights in the stairwell were printed into his eyes, making his eyes look extraordinarily cold.He stood in the stairwell for a long time, then went out and took the elevator out of the hospital.

When Ning Yi entered the ward again, he had already regained his composure.He put the meal he bought on the table and sat beside the hospital bed.

He held Yan Zimu's hand, lowered his head and kissed the back of his hand.He said softly: "Zi Mu, I figured it out. Since you want this child, we will. I will take good care of you and keep you both safe."

Yan Zimu looked at him for a long time, and finally showed a gentle smile.He sat up, kissed Ning Yi's lips on Ning Yi's face, and said in a pleasant tone, "Okay, I believe you."

Ning Yi also smiled and kissed him back.After the kiss was over, Ning Yi took the lunch box and opened it, and the food inside exuded a tempting aroma, Ning Yi said: "You must be hungry after tossing for so long, eat something."

Yan Zimu was indeed a little hungry, so he took the lunch box and chopsticks he handed over and ate.Ning Yi also ate the food in his hand, but watched Yan Zimu quietly from the corner of his eye.

After eating, Yan Zimu suddenly felt dizzy.He felt something was wrong, and wanted to ask Ning Yi, but immediately fell asleep.

Ning Yi sat beside the hospital bed for a long time, then got up and hugged Yan Zimu after a while.Just as he was about to push the door to leave, someone pushed open the door of the ward.