dear psychiatrist

"Yaoyao, we need to talk. What you wanted to say just now, take this opportunity to say it. Don't hold it in your heart, it's really uncomfortable to hold it in." Quickly caught up with Tao Yaoyao's footsteps, in the chaos The rain took her arm.

"What else can I say? There are only two sentences between us. You blame me for bringing the state of work into life, and I hate you for being entangled with other women!" Under the shackles of Hua, Tao Yaoyao spoke neither deep nor shallow, with an emotion of refusal to be thousands of miles away.Such an expression of indifference is easy for Tao Yaoyao, who has been in contact with the upper class for a long time.

"..." Even if it was a quarrel, Tao Yaoyao was still able to rationally analyze the current situation.A couple of simple sentences clarified the conflict between the two.Zhuo Qihua was at a loss for words for a moment, but he refused to leave, stubbornly standing where he was and looking at the woman in front of him.

Zhuo Qihua didn't have much expression on her face, but she had a sad expression from the beginning to the end. Looking at Tao Yaoyao in front of her, there was deep despair in her eyes.

And her silence deeply hurt Tao Yaoyao.It seems that the person in front of him has a thousand words to say in his heart, and there are too many expectations and struggles in life, tearing Zhuo Qihua's heart, as if she wants to get out of the decadence, but she is always crushed by reality.He opened his mouth and wanted to say a lot, but in the end he could only gather into a soft sigh.

Perhaps one day, Zhuo Qihua can break free from all the shackles of the past and start over with a new attitude, but Tao Yaoyao is not sure how long this Nirvana rebirth will last.

No one said a word, and they looked at each other for a while, Tao Yaoyao finally pushed Zhuo Qihua aside, and rushed into the heavy rain holding an umbrella.

Until Tao Yaoyao completely disappeared from sight, Zhuo Qihua still stood there stubbornly.The rain was still raging, as the wind kept beating on her face, and whistling past her ears.

"Are you going to stand here and be a rain man? Go back to the bar and sit for a while, I have something to tell you!" At some point, Momo appeared beside Zhuo Qihua holding an umbrella, calmly said.

Time Nostalgic Music Bar...

Momo took out a pack of Yves Saint Laurent, took one out of it, and lit it by his mouth, with smooth movements.With smooth movements in one go, it is not difficult to see that Momo is an old smoker.

Zhuo Qihua has done a lot of research on cigarettes, and he naturally recognizes this women's cigarette at Momo's fingertips - this is the only one that will have a clear line of "I love you" printed on each cigarette .

I have always known that Momo is a woman with a personality, but now that she is looking at her carefully with the help of alcohol, Zhuo Qihua's eyes shine even more.A woman with personality, matched with a tobacco with personality, among the smog, people can't help being silent.

Momo held a cigarette in her hand, didn't speak, just sat by the window and looked forward to it.The night outside the window is getting dark, and Momo is staring at a certain corner of the night, as if chasing the footsteps of memories, following every unforgettable trace of memory.

After a long time, I saw her spit a smoke ring on the glass window, and the smell of mint-flavored smoke permeated the air.Stuffed out the cigarette butt that was about to burn out in the ashtray, turned to look at Zhuo Qihua in front of him, and said, "I love Yaoyao!"

"..." Zhuo Qihua didn't expect Momo to speak like this at all, and Zhuo Qihua was taken aback for a moment.

"When I first met her, she was just being tortured by a love affair. In this strange bar, she tore off all the strength and disguise in front of me, and couldn't help crying. I can imagine a rational woman How does a self-proclaimed person fight alone in front of everyone, and how does he hide in a corner alone and lick his wounds... Until she met you, before that, I have never seen such a bright brilliance in her eyes .”

"You like Yaoyao, why don't you tell her?" From Momo's narration, she came back to her senses.The flickering lights in the bar made Zhuo Qihua unable to see the other party's expression clearly.

Momo smiled bitterly, shook her head slightly and said: "If you can't see the confession of hope, why bother to embarrass yourself and her. Even if you say it, you can predict the future. It's nothing more than her gradually alienated, And a more painful me... Between a lover and a confidant, there is always someone who is more suitable to be the latter!"

After falling into their own thoughts for a moment, Momo took out another cigarette from the cigarette case, took a deep breath after lighting it, and said: "Seeing that you are together, I am generous to send blessings, that is deceiving myself. Back then God can't help but think, she was the beauty I saw first, why did you, a latecomer, hug her first?"

"Zhuo Qihua, you really don't deserve to make her cry." Momo looked calm and spoke lightly, but the tears on her face betrayed her sadness deeply, Zhuo Qihua couldn't help but go Guess what Momo's mood is at this time...

Perhaps, these words have been suppressed in her heart for too long.I have waited so far with bitter regret, and the seeds of regret have long been buried in my heart, sprouting and growing, and quietly forming bitter fruits.

Momo didn't speak again, maybe for her, what she wanted to say had already been said.Tears kept rolling down Momo's face, Zhuo Qihua's mood darkened with the weather outside the window.The entire city that was wet by the rain also wet the eye sockets, staining the heart with an imperceptible layer of melancholy and sadness.

"Don't worry, I won't forget my original intention... Only if I don't forget my original intention, can I stick to it forever." Under the long silence, Zhuo Qihua opened his mouth like this.

This promise that has nothing to do with the future made Momo's heart bloom.So, at that moment, Zhuo Qihua saw her bright smile after breaking free from tears.Wipe off the wet face, turn to look at the haze outside the window, and suddenly see the end of happiness through the storm.

Zhuo Qihua's lips trembled uncontrollably, but his heart was extremely firm.There has never been such a moment, such a moment, when I want to hold Tao Yaoyao's hand, skip all the hardships and hardships, fly to the other side of the vast sea of ​​happiness, and take a look at the beauty on the other side of the river.

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Ask yourself, Zhuo Qihua wants to go back to the past, to return to Zhao Xiaoqi's happy and laughing years without sadness.Once again, Zhuo Qihua will not hurt her again.

Three weeks later, Zhuo Qihua wore a white floor-to-ceiling bridesmaid dress, and her hair, which was not too long, was pulled up high by a makeup artist.Looking at himself in the mirror with exquisite makeup, Zhuo Qihua tried his best to tell himself that he must be in the best state to face Xiaoqi's wedding.Because, Xiaoqi has always looked forward to the happiness in the ordinary, and cannot tolerate the slightest stain of sadness!

"The weather on the happy day is full of sadness and rain." Zhao Xiaoqi beside her was talking to herself.

"It can't be sorrow! This is the joy bathed in the drizzle of happiness." Zhuo Qihua smiled brightly, and looked at Zhao Xiaoqi beside him through the mirror.

Zhao Xiaoqi looked at the drizzle outside the window in a daze, until she heard Zhuo Qihua say 'Happy Newly Married', she just came back to her senses, and a smile appeared on the corner of her mouth as a response.

Taking a deep look at his side, Zhuo Qihua, whom he has loved for many years, can only stand beside him as a bridesmaid at this moment.Zhao Xiaoqi concealed the loss and loneliness in her eyes, put on a happy appearance, and stood up in a white wedding dress.

But, but... Who said that the wedding day must be happy, as if happiness can be chosen by the heart...

As the wedding team arrived at the hotel, Zhuo Qihua stood behind the bride and groom with the groomsmen, and welcomed the guests who came to share the joy of the wedding with a smile on his face.

Zhuo Qihua finally managed to steal a short break until most of the guests were seated.Because of this unstoppable drizzle, his mood became extremely irritable, and he almost ran away to the hotel door at a fast pace.Zhao Xiaoqi wore a close-fitting bridal white gauze, lifted the floor-length gauze skirt with both hands, and followed Zhuo Qihua's footsteps.

It was raining heavily outside the hotel, dark clouds covered the sun, and the apocalyptic heavy rain poured down from the sky, dampening the desolation of the ground.

The sound of muffled thunder came to my ears. It should have been a very happy day, but Zhao Xiaoqi's eyes were red, and she softly said to Zhuo Qihua beside her: "Qihua, I won't love you anymore, There will be no more points. I have my own life, and he will take me to an isolated island and let me feel the happiness in the ordinary. From then on, I will never love you again. Thank you for appearing in my life In my life, let me fully recognize the falsehood in love."

A thunderbolt interrupted Zhao Xiaoqi's words, Zhuo Qihua turned his head in a daze, looking at the woman beside him.In the midst of the ups and downs, she seemed to have heard Zhao Xiaoqi's hopeless confession, but she couldn't believe it.After a while, Zhuo Qihua had no choice but to shout loudly to the people beside him: "What did you say?"

Zhao Xiaoqi opened her mouth, and looked at Zhuo Qihua beside her with a complicated expression.After hesitating for a while, he finally got close to Zhuo Qihua's ear, and almost exhausted all his strength, shouted in the wind and rain: "Zhuo Qihua, I will never love you again! Did you hear that?" From now on, whether you are good or bad, whether you are happy or sad, has nothing to do with me. Because I...don't love you anymore!"

This time, Zhuo Qihua finally got his wish, and listened to Zhao Xiaoqi's words without leaving a word.He stared at the woman beside him for a long time, as if at that moment, he saw Zhao Xiaoqi's determination to pull away and leave.

There was a warm feeling in the corner of the eyes, a bitter taste seemed to be tasted in the corner of the mouth, and the scenes of childhood laughter kept rolling before his eyes.Zhuo Qihua understood that this time he had finally...completely lost the woman beside him, the only bright light in his bleak childhood.