love after ten years

◎It's not yet winter, the wind is already so cold. ◎

When Li Yan received Su Ziye's call, it was already the third day after Gu Qiyu's death.

When he took Gu Qiyu's full body photo from Su Ziye's hand, he still hadn't reacted.

The people who were still talking together a few days ago, how can they be gone?

"Please help me bring this photo to Cheng Mingxiao. This is the last thing Qi Yu left for him." Su Ziye said, "Also, please tell him that I took Qi Yu's ashes away and let him Don't come and harass my family."

Li Yan looked at the photo in his hand, the person in the photo was thin and fair, his smiling expression was a little forced, but he was still that gentle and jade-like person, he couldn't help sighing, his nose was a little sour.

"Don't worry, I'll tell him, but...I'm not sure about his attitude."

I'm afraid I'm going crazy.

Li Yan could think of Cheng Mingxiao's temper and his disintegration after finding Gu Qiyu in the past few months, so he was afraid that this matter could not be resolved.

There is no way to be good.

Even though he knew that Gu Qiyu didn't want to see Cheng Mingxiao, but Su Ziye didn't let Cheng Mingxiao see Gu Qiyu for the last time, even Li Yan felt that it was a bit too much.

However, until now, there is no place for him to speak.

Outside Cheng Mingxiao's residence, Li Yan stood at the door for a long time. He usually didn't like to smoke, so he squatted at the door and smoked three cigarettes before making up his mind to ring the doorbell.

It was Shi Fan who came out to open the door. Ever since Cheng Mingxiao's company was acquired by Yan Zimo, Shi Fan had always accompanied Cheng Mingxiao, fearing that Cheng Mingxiao might be overwhelmed.

Cheng Mingxiao really couldn't think about it.

In the beginning, he often went to Su's house alone in the middle of the night, staring at the gate of Su's house for a whole night. Every time he returned home, he was covered in the smell of cigarettes and had dim eyes.

Later, Shi Fan was really worried that he would go out in the middle of the night, so he dragged him to drink in the house.

Alcohol is a good thing, after drinking it, he Shifan got drunk, but Cheng Mingxiao became more and more sober. At the end of the drinking, Cheng Mingxiao didn't go out anymore, just stayed at home holding the wine glass in a daze every day.

Li Yan thought, Su Ziye overestimated Cheng Mingxiao.

When Li Yangang said that Gu Qiyu had passed away, Cheng Mingxiao was already squatting on the ground, unable to stand up, Shi Fan was so frightened that he directly dialed 120 and sent Cheng Mingxiao to the hospital.

With Cheng Mingxiao's illness, he had been ill for more than half a month. He was so ill that he was confused and needed someone to take care of him for eating and drinking.

Not to mention the trouble to find the Su family.

During Cheng Mingxiao's hospitalization, Li Yan visited twice. Every time Cheng Mingxiao sat in the ward with empty eyes, he asked Li Yan over and over again: "Where is Ah Yu, do you know?"

Later, Cheng Mingxiao's parents came from Canada and declined anyone's visits, so Li Yan never went there again.

After Cheng Mingxiao got better, the Su family had already gone to the building, and even Yan Zimo went to the branch office to inspect, not in Qingdao.

But even if the Su family is in Qingdao, what can Cheng Mingxiao do?

Seeing Cheng Mingxiao scurrying around like a headless chicken, Li Yan couldn't stand it anymore, and persuaded him: "Don't look for it, you won't find it. In the past, when your company's wealth and connections were there, no one would dare to look for it." It was not a pleasure to help you find Su Ziye, now you have given the company to the Yan family in order to protect Gu Qiyu, and you have nothing left, let alone someone to help you."

Cheng Mingxiao didn't know that if Su Ziye wanted to avoid him, with Cheng Mingxiao's ability, even if he went to the ends of the earth, he might not be able to find any clues.

But he is not reconciled!

Gu Qiyu, his Ah Yu, he had never seen anyone in his life, he had never seen a corpse in his death, and now he doesn't even know where to bury him!

He hated Su Ziye more than ever now, and at the same time, he hated himself to death!

"One more thing, maybe you didn't pay attention. In the purchase agreement you signed, the part you left for Gu Qiyu, Gu Qiyu didn't want it, but gave it to you again."

Li Yan sighed, and then said: "Sometimes I can't figure it out. How did you two come to such a point where you don't see each other? Many times, I think that I may also be an accomplice. After all, Bai Ke's plane ticket is mine. sure."

Cheng Mingxiao didn't speak, just sat down on a chair in the yard, her eyes were lifeless, sometimes wandering and confused, sometimes staring at a place that didn't change for a long time.

However, he listened to everything Li Yan said, others didn't know why he and Gu Qiyu came to this point, but Cheng Mingxiao knew it himself.

It's all on his own terms.

In the past, he always felt that God made a mistake, and it was Cheng Mingxiao who should be punished, but why was it Gu Qiyu who was tortured in the end?

Only now did he know that God had let him go?It was just to let him live to bear the pain of losing Gu Qiyu, and let him live in boundless torture for the rest of his life.

The sea water in the distance is still beating the coast mercilessly.

The roses in the yard are only broken branches and leaves.

Before you know it, it will be winter again.

I still remember that Gu Qiyu called him last year and asked him to come back to accompany the Chinese New Year. At that time, he still felt that he was superior and that being with Gu Qiyu was like a gift.

But he didn't want to, but he once said to Gu Qiyu, "Unless the loess is a bone, I will protect you for a hundred years without any worries".

What worry-free?What hundred years old?In nine years, he lost his Ayu, and now he doesn't even know where the loess and bones are.

Gu Qiyu gave him a chance, but he didn't cherish it.

Cheng Mingxiao rubbed the photo in his hand over and over again, as if the person in the photo would come out and smile at him if he rubbed it a few times.

"Li Yan, do you think Ah Yu will forgive me when he goes there?"

Li Yan sat on the steps in front of the door, lit a cigarette, took a deep puff, and replied: "Yes."

Why not?Without love, without hate, how can you not forgive?

But Cheng Mingxiao laughed and cried, and said: "No, Ah Yu will never forgive me."

How can you forgive me?

The mother was Gu Qiyu's father-killing enemy, and indirectly killed Gu Qiyu's mother.

Now, Cheng Mingxiao killed Gu Qiyu again.

So, how can you forgive?

When he was awakened by a nightmare in the middle of the night and heard his parents whispering, he didn't know how to describe his mood. There was only one thought in his heart: Ah Yu must hate himself to death!

Why should the facts be so cruel?

No wonder he sincerely repented, even Gu Qiyu wouldn't see him.The person who has always been the most gentle and tolerant to him, finally resolute so far, there is another reason.

Could their meeting in this life be a mistake?

In past and present lives, who owed whom?

Li Yan stayed with Cheng Mingxiao until Sunset West Mountain, declined the kindness of Cheng Mingxiao's parents to leave a meal, and slowly strolled along the beach, thinking that before he left, the words of persuading Cheng Mingxiao were indeed superfluous, but now other than these pale and powerless If so, there's really nothing you can do.

A gust of sea breeze blew by, Li Yan shivered.

It's not winter yet, and the wind is already so cold.

The author says:

Everything is coming to an end.