hibiscus past years

Don't listen to the nonsense of children, don't take it to heart. Shen Mujin hugged him, could feel his shoulders trembling, and wanted to say something to divert his attention, "Didn't you say you were going to get a haircut?"let's go, let's go down.The boss has been thinking about your hair for a long time, and has always wanted to cut it for you. "

"Brother, don't let others know about our relationship." Except for a few friends around him, everyone including Master Liu thought that Gu Fengzhu called Brother Shen Mujin, thinking that he was his distant relative.

Gu Fengzhu lay on his brother's shoulder, his voice was crying: "I'm afraid they won't let us be together."

"Don't be afraid, Xiao Zhu." Shen Mujin hugged him and coaxed softly, "There are ten thousand ways of living for ten thousand people, we just chose the one we like, we are not wrong, there is no need to be afraid."

Gu Fengzhu did not speak, and slowly eased his emotions.After a while, he suddenly said, "Brother, I don't want to cut my hair anymore."

Shen Mujin felt that it was necessary to correct his brother's thoughts.He took a deep breath, held his shoulders to let him look at himself, and said seriously: "Xiaozhu, you have to know that love is not defined by gender. How we live and how we live are all decided by ourselves , not by listening to other people's arguments.

When the heart is clear, the rainy day is also sunny; when the heart is raining, the sunny day also has rain.Instead of blindly following other people's judgment and changing direction for wild evaluations, it is better to put gossip behind you.

Moreover, people's perception of happiness is not the same.Life looks glamorous for others, but it might not be for everyone.You can't do it all over again, so why put the worldly shackles around your neck?

Therefore, instead of being manipulated by others, it is better to be yourself, live this life without explaining, and live out your own color.

There are thousands of appearances for all beings in the world, but none of them compare to our faithfulness to our own appearance. "

After listening carefully, Gu Fengzhu shook his head and retorted: "But society is not friendly to homosexuals, and it's not as beautiful as novels."

"I can cut my hair short like yours, but I have to wait until we are truly accepted, when we can hold hands and walk down the street without being looked at coldly and pointed at."

"Before that, even if you force me to cut it, I won't agree."

Shen Mujin was puzzled: "Why do you have to be so persistent?"

"It's not that I'm obsessed, but that we all need to live in this world. If we want to live here, we must integrate." He is very clear that such things as people's words are too daunting, and it is too easy to make people physically and mentally exhausted.He doesn't care, but he doesn't want to see his brother troubled by it.

So let this relationship never be known by the world...

Shen Mujin was helpless, he had always been helpless and conniving towards him.

He said: "I promise you. One day we are accepted by society, I will cut off your long hair with my own hands."

Will there be such a day?Dr. Shen was not sure.

Gu Fengzhu laughed through his tears: "Yes."

One of them is as warm and bright as the sun, and the other is as bright and cool as the moon. If it weren't for the confusion of time and space, it would be impossible for them to meet.

But even if they meet each other, there are still gossip and gossip.They can't hide, they can't escape.

I only hope that after the thousand sails pass, the beloved will still be by my side day and night, so that the sun and the moon will shine together, and the mountains and rivers will enjoy the same.

53. Letter from Mother

◎"Let's see what our future daughter-in-law looks like."◎

Shen Mujin has always wanted to tell her parents about the two of them, and has planned for a long time.But he couldn't tell Gu Fengzhu.There are too many uncertain factors in this matter, and he dare not let him experience it.The boy he likes should be carefree and free from worries. In his world, only good things should happen.

The third day of the seventh lunar month is Shen Mujin's birthday.The day before that, he tried every means to get Gu Fengzhu out.

His parents always come to spend his birthday with him the day before his birthday, and leave early the next morning.In their words: "Give it to your parents the day before your birthday, and give it to your friends and brothers on the day of your birthday, without delay."

As in previous years, when he got off work, his parents had prepared dinner and were waiting for him at home.

His parents have the keys to his house. Since he was employed, every night before his birthday, he can smell the aroma of childhood meals the moment he enters the door.The vegetables are grown by the father himself, and the soup is stewed by the old hen raised at home. The father pinches the watch and starts to stew. The fire simmers slowly for several hours. When he comes back, it is the time when the taste is the best.

A family of three and harmony with each other is what Shen Muzhen looks forward to most in a year.

But this year...

"Why are you standing outside? Come in and wash your hands and eat." Father Shen pulled the immobile man into the room and pushed him in front of the dining chair, "I squeezed some juice, you can't drink at work, but it's rare for our family to be together Son, I’m not used to not having something to drink, so I’ll use this instead.”

"Your father bought you a cake. You young people like to eat this." Shen's mother came out cautiously carrying a candle-lit cake. "The cake shop didn't send enough candles, so he bought some more to make up enough." Count it. Sit down quickly and prepare to make a wish."

The cake wasn't too big, but it was full of candles. There were about twenty candles, which made the original beautiful pattern a bit funny and lost its original appearance.

"Don't be too busy, so many dishes are enough. Sit down, I'll cut the cake."

"Make a wish first, make a wish first." Mother Shen said.

"I'm old enough to still believe this."

Having said that, Shen Mujin still clasped her hands in front of her chest, closed her eyes, and made a pious wish.

"Blow out the candles quickly." Mother Shen reminded him, "Blow out the candles to make your wishes come true."

Shen Mujin blew out the candle.There were too many candles, and he had to blow them out twice.

When dividing the cake, he deliberately kept half of it in the refrigerator.

Gu Fengzhu stayed overnight at Yang Mingjie's house, and he left it for him to eat when he came back.

Then it was time for the family of three to have dinner together.

The two elders came all the way from their hometown, and they were really tired. After eating, they hurriedly took a bath and wanted to rest early.Usually, Shen Mujin would never disturb at this time, but this year there were some exceptions, so he had to knock on the door before the two of them fell asleep, and handed a letter that had already been written to his mother, so that his expression remained normal. back to another room.

There are only two bedrooms in this house, parents sleep in Shen Mujin's room, and Shen Mujin's sleeps in Gu Fengzhu's room.The house is not big, and the two bedrooms are almost facing each other, separated by only three or two steps.It stands to reason that with such a close distance and such a major event, no matter how tightly the door is closed, you can still hear the slightest sound.But Shen Muqin held her breath and listened intently for a long time. Except for the soft voice that could not be heard clearly, she didn't hear any movement. It seemed that his parents didn't come to see their son for a "long talk". Intend.

Like a prisoner about to be sentenced, he waited for a long time.

After a long time, my eyes began to feel sleepy, my vision was blurred, and I felt drowsy.He waited for a while longer, his eyelids became heavier and heavier, and finally couldn't hold on any longer, so he simply closed his eyes and let himself go.

In the middle of the night, he vaguely heard someone crying, but his consciousness at that time was already in a state of chaos, and the voice did not reappear afterwards. He guessed that he might have heard it wrong, but he didn't think about it, and fell into a haze. deep sleep.

He slept well this time, and when he woke up and realized what he was about to experience, the smile that had just been raised fell straight down again, with a bitter expression on his face.

He hesitated in front of the door for a long time, and after making enough mental preparations, he opened the door and waited to accept the reality.

"morning."

He stood anxiously at the door of the room, waiting for the final judgment.

The room was unusually quiet, as if all the creatures hadn't woken up yet, he could even hear the faint ticking of his watch.He stepped on his slippers and walked carefully on the floor of the house, and could vaguely hear the slight sound of the soles of his feet touching the ground.

"Dad, Mom?" He tried to call.

No one answered, and the surroundings were quiet as if time had stood still.

He searched around the room.Except for myself, the house was empty and there was no one else.

Breakfast was set on the dining table, and the milk was still warm, steaming hot.Under the glass, there was a cowhide envelope wrapped and waiting to be opened.

"Dear son," read the first line of the letter.

He seemed to have a premonition of something, and hurriedly continued to look down:

"When I first received the letter, I was very excited.

This is the first time you have written to me in over 20 years and there is no better gift for a mom.

But when I opened it up, I found that it was a letter from you confessing to us that you were gay. It was like being hit in the head and not knowing what to do.

I was puzzled and thought you were joking.But thinking about it carefully, I feel that with your temperament, it is unlikely that you would make such absurd jokes.

I was shocked for a long time, but also thought for a long time.

I think that when you first became aware of your sexual orientation, you may have felt the same way I read this letter, feeling uneasy, uneasy, puzzled, suspicious or even unbelievable.

As parents, it's not that we haven't thought about calling you out, having a good talk, and dispelling your thoughts as soon as possible.But this will not work.

We figured that before you made the decision to tell us, you must have been prepared to spend your life with that person against all odds.

In a person's life, it is not easy to meet someone who we like and who likes us, so even if he is different from what we subconsciously think, we will choose to accept it.

We can guess that this road is not easy to walk, and there may be many doubts, incomprehension or even strange eyes on the road.But no matter what, child, I hope you understand that there is no distinction between different sexual orientations, and homosexuality is a normal relationship.