Xiqing as usual GL

In the wind, flowers, snow and moon, I can't sleep at night, and I always look back at the past in the middle of the night.This carved beams and painted buildings, Guqin sandalwood sings and dances gracefully.All remind me.

my identity.Prostitutes in brothels.

"Miss, are you in a daze again?" The little maid beside me handed over the sweat towel, and I waved her away with a slight smile.

Not in a daze, just thinking of someone.What is the connection between you and me?

That day, I ran into your arms unintentionally, and seeing your furrowed brows, a touch of melancholy spread in my heart.

Thinking of the love between Song Rujie and Miss Yin, I was so moved. At that moment, I remembered that it was not those men who wanted to grow old together, but the beautiful, quiet and serious woman.Zhou Tingyun.

"Girl, shopkeeper Zhou is here, do you want to play a song for her today?"

Here she is again, ever since Boss Song practiced Taoism, all the affairs of the Song House have fallen on her, but she comes to me to listen to my music when she has a little spare time.

Looking at the piano in my hand, I moved my fingers away, and the silk thread hurt my fingers. I pressed my hand on purpose, and a bright red slipped from my finger.

"You go first, I will come later."

You know that when I saw you, I didn't want to play the piano for you, but just saw the unresolved worry on your brow, and my heart couldn't be calm.

Stepping out slowly, without holding the piano in her hand, Lu Yun'er happened to come up from the second floor. When she saw me, she smiled and said, "Ting Yun is here to listen to the music again?"

I nodded, Lu Yun'er patted my shoulder and suddenly said in a low voice, "Meng Niang, some people still have to be caught by your own efforts, if you miss it, don't regret it."

As she said that, she drifted away. Does this woman want to express something?Or did she see my feelings?

Lianbu moved slightly and gently pushed the door open, several scents from the room mixed with the smell of wine rushed out.I covered my nose and stepped in.

"Here you come? What's the song today?" She smiled softly, the frown between her brows getting deeper and deeper.It seemed that she had drunk a few glasses of wine, and her face was red.

I went to the table and sat down to pour wine for her, and poured a glass for myself, and said with a slow smile, "I won't play music today."

On the fingers holding the wine cup, the red color has not dissipated, she glanced at it, and curled her mouth, "Is your hand hurt? Well, then I won't play music today."

"What does the shopkeeper want to do that week?" I stood up and toasted her.

"Don't do anything, just like this." She still smiled slightly, the corners of her mouth trembling.Even some wine was spilled.

"It costs a lot of money to come here once. You are wasting it now, you know?" I knew that she and Lu Yuner were not ordinary customers. She, Song Ruband and Lu Yuner were friends, and they could even be called superior. It's sisters.

"Money? Don't you love money the most? Why, are you afraid that I, Zhou Tingyun, won't be able to afford it? I'm giving you money to spend, why aren't you happy?" She retorted me, with a little anger slipping through her eyes.

"I..." With just this one sentence, I was speechless when she refuted it.

Indeed, I know that Song Rubandi got involved in this turmoil just for money, and Song Rubandi promised me to live forever in Fenghuaxueyue.But I did it for money because I thought I would be alone for the rest of my life.Who in the brothel can escape the fate of being abandoned by the benefactor?I can't make a choice.It's better to be lonely all your life.It takes a lot of money to grow old alone, so I work hard to make money, but now this has become the strongest reason for her to refute me.

"Zhou Tingyun, are you humiliating me? If you don't like me, tell me earlier, and I will disappear from your eyes immediately." I slapped the table and stood up.

"Am I wrong? You can't do anything just for money? Why do you need to talk so much because you're just sitting with me now?" She pulled me, her tongue was a little stiff, and she pulled me to sit down.

I'm angry, I don't want her to think of me like that.I want her to understand that in my heart her status has long surpassed that of anyone else in the world.

I have seen so many men, or handsome, or dashing, or romantic.But all of them fell into my eyes.

"What do you want?" I asked her.

She parted her lips slightly, and her faint smile made me unable to get angry anymore, "In the whole world, the only people I can complain about are you and Lu Yun'er."

Is it because of the turmoil?In the end all that was left was us.I know she is suffering, and many of Song Rubandi's injuries are caused by Xie Jiwen.

And Xie Jiwen just likes Ting Yun.Indirectly, it means that Ting Yun hurt Song Ru bandit, how could she not be sad? "

"You like Song Ruban, don't you?" I knew that this was a known result, but I wanted to hear her say it again.

"I'll say it again, I only think of her as my younger sister. Why do I think I'm interested in her just personally?" She held her forehead and shook her head vigorously.Although he was drunk, his eyes were still full of helplessness.

She doesn't even know her own feelings, but if she doesn't like Song Ruband, why is she so depressed now?

"Because of the so-called feelings, Xie Jiwen thought I liked Song Rugui, which caused her to almost die. I have worked with her for many years, and I have been moved, confused, uneasy, and afraid. But I understand that it is not love, and my heart is not beating for her... ..." she said, tears streaming down her cheeks.It seemed that all the words were pouring out at this moment.

"If Xie Jiwen hadn't taken advantage of my confusion, Song Ruband would not have been seriously injured. In the final analysis, it was my fault...Zhou Tingyun knew that he had sinned deeply, and I wish I was the one who was hurt. At least I wouldn't feel guilty for the rest of my life... ..." She hammered her chest and slowly slid off the chair.

I quickly caught her and let her lean against my chest.I wonder if she can hear my heartbeat?Accelerated slowly?

A faint aroma of wine emanated from her body.She couldn't drink alcohol, but after drinking such a little, she was a little drunk.

Maybe, drunk can spit out the truth.

Seeing her so sad, my heart is sore, full of distress.Why be so sad?

"It's not your fault, if you put everything on yourself, you will never be happy in this life, Ting Yun, don't be sad, okay?"

"Because I don't understand feelings, I hurt Song Ruban and Xie Jiwen...Mengniang...Mengniang...What is emotion? I don't understand! I really don't understand...I have never loved Extraordinary, I don't understand why Xie Jiwen hates Song Ruband so much...I don't understand love, hate and attachment...I really don't understand..." As she spoke, her tears dripped down my chest.

She is much heavier than me, I can't lift her, she completely presses me down like a pillow, and keeps talking drunk.The smell of alcohol almost got me drunk.

"Mengniang, hehe, you are so beautiful." She looked at me with drunken eyes, and stretched out her hand. I thought she was going to do something, but she just tore off my face lightly, then dropped her hand, and fell asleep. .

What kind of person is this? If you want to sleep, you don't want to go to bed by yourself, so you just lie on the ground.

"Hey, wake up, you have to sleep on the bed." I patted her face, but she didn't respond at all. After a while, she turned around and pressed my chest.I didn't even have a chance to escape.

I don't know if Lu Yun'er did it on purpose, but there was not even a single person who came in that night.Just leave the two of us alone.

Look at Ting Yun, her eyes are dark, it seems that she hasn't slept well for a long time.Maybe these things are too heavy in her heart.It's not bad to vent like this once in a while.

But, why, is it me who is behind it?

"Oh my god, you surnamed Zhou, you died again, you rolled over and slept on the ground."

Are you sleepless again tonight?It was the first time to be so close to her, the first time to hear her heartbeat so fast.

I reached out, took her hand, closed my eyes quietly, took a breath and whispered to her lips, "Zhou Tingyun, do you know? Actually, I like you."

How can she hear me in her sleep.But I think it's okay to just say it.I don't ask for so much. Ting Yun can come to see me and listen to my songs in her spare time in the future.

I don't know how long it took, but I finally fell asleep.He closed his eyes and heard the bell from the temple in the distance, and couldn't help but think of Yin Yunchi, the bandit of Song Rubandon. I don't know if the two of them are okay now?

"Ah!!!" Finally fell asleep, but was woken up by the loud yelling.

I hurriedly opened my eyes and rubbed them a few times, and saw that Ting Yun was holding on to the clothes and looking at me, and I looked at myself, the clothes all over her body were almost torn by her sleeping.disheveled.

"We... Nothing happened to us, right?" She hurriedly tidied herself up and straightened her clothes.

"Uh..." Should I tell her to sleep indiscriminately after drinking and use me as a pillow for free?

"...I...I will be responsible." She ran out with a flushed face.I blinked, what happened to this man?

Looking at the ground, I don't know why a few drops of blood appeared.Has solidified.This idiot wouldn't take this as the first time, would he?

I quickly got up to see if something was broken, but there was nothing.It turned out that on the ground, a broken cup was stained with blood.

"Hahahaha." I laughed, it was so cute, she must have rowed somewhere without knowing it.I still want to be crooked.

Lu Yun'er walked in from the door, seeing me smiling so happily and seeing the blood on the ground, she couldn't help but asked with a wicked smile, "You won't be like a sheep jumping on a wolf, just swallow her up."

"So what?" I stood up and patted my clothes, feeling very good.Go out and quickly summon a few maidservants.Went shopping and mopping up.

But from that day on, Zhou Tingyun never came again.Only let the boy send a pile of plasters and hand incense.Rumor has it that shopkeeper Zhou asked me to protect my hands.

I'm quite happy, at least the small wound on her hand is also in her eyes, and she remembers it in her heart.

But things started to go wrong, and someone sent a large box of things almost a few days later.Jewelry and jade, silk and satin.Even all the tables, chairs and benches in my house were replaced with rosewood.

Either brocade or money.In the end, a bed that could be called an antique was delivered. That day, Fenghuaxueyue was almost crazy. The sisters saw the bed being hung into my room, and they were all jealous and asked me who was the benefactor so caring?I smiled on the surface, but I was already gnashing my teeth in my heart. I wished I could peel off the surname Zhou and see what was going on in her head!

Could this be her so-called responsibility?Although Song Mansion was built by Song Ru bandits, it is actually controlled by Zhou Tingyun now.She is completely rich and powerful!

The more things that come in, the more I feel annoyed.I don't want her to be responsible, let alone her things, not to mention, nothing happened to us.

"Tell the surname Zhou that I won't take her things anymore, and you all take them back to me." Another group of people came to deliver things.

I scolded her enough in my heart, and then I still pretended to be gentle and drove the sender away.

He strode hard back to his house.Lu Yun'er was standing at the door, watching me come back and laughed a few times, "Look at your angry face, be careful not to burn your brain."

"It's up to you." I pushed her away and opened the door.

"Okay, I don't care, Mengniang, you have to remember, you are a romantic person. I have the right to decide everything about you, right?" Her weird smile made my heart skip a beat.

"What do you want to do? Boss Lu?" He gritted his teeth and called out.

"It's nothing. I just want to say that the time you live for free is a bit too long."

The implication is to drive me away?

That's right, Zhou Tingyun treats me like this, and I have no feelings for this place. If I don't leave now, when will I have to wait?When Zhou Tingyun comes to humiliate me?

"You don't need to say more, I know what you mean, give me half an hour." Stepping into the house, I took a deep breath, Lu Yun'er is right, the place is open to make money, I live here now but live according to my mood act.Naturally, the brothel cannot accept it.

"Forget it, Zhou Tingyun, just pretend that we are not destined." I wandered around the room, but I didn't find anything to take away.These clothes must not be worn again after leaving the brothel.Only scattered silver and bills.Feel free to wrap the silver and banknotes on your shoulders.

I kicked open the door and saw that Lu Yun'er was still there, so I nodded to her, "Thank you Boss Lu for taking care of me for so long, goodbye."

Lu Yun'er waved her hand in a friendly manner, her eyes narrowed into a line with a smile, "Well, goodbye."

When I went out of the gate, I saw a big carriage parked outside. When the coachman saw me coming out, he immediately opened the curtain, "Girl, please get in the carriage."

Unexpectedly, Lu Yun'er was so well prepared.Well, save me spending money to buy it myself.

I climbed into the car without asking the coachman where he was going.Just sit all the way.All I can think of is Zhou Tingyun.So many men didn't like me, why did I fall in love with this woman?

Is it God's punishment for me?In the past, I was the man who played with the man between applause, but now I am played by the woman?

I don't know how long it took to stop and go, and the carriage went faster and faster.I felt something was wrong and hurriedly opened the curtain, and the coachman kept waving his whip.The horse immediately neighed.

"Hey. What are you doing? Stop." I quickly told him to stop.This speed is amazing.

But he still didn't stop, and ran all the way. He turned around and stuffed me into the carriage, "You sit for me. Someone is chasing after me."

I turned my head quickly, and there was really a group of people chasing after me.The leader was a woman, and I quickly squinted my eyes to see her face clearly.

"Dead coachman, where are you taking me? Let me go."

Unexpectedly, she would come.His heart was full of emotion, and he completely forgot what he had just scolded her.

"Boss Lu sold you to me, and you are mine. If you move around again, I will ruin your face." He took out a knife to threaten me.I was so scared that I quickly hid in the carriage.

There was a window behind the carriage, and I quickly leaned on the window and wanted to jump out.But the carriage was running too fast.I dare not jump.

"Zhou Tingyun, you coward. Why don't you come and save me?" I screamed.Unexpectedly, Lu Yun'er betrayed me again.I'm really annoyed.

As soon as she heard my call, she quickly swung the whip a few more times.

"If you keep barking, I'll cut your tongue first." The coachman turned his head and yelled at me.

How can I care so much, I kicked the coachman on the back and kicked him off the car.

"Hmph, don't even look at who I am! Dare to give orders to me!" But I regretted kicking him down.

"My surname Zhou, save me, I don't know how to drive." The horse may have been so hurt by the whip that it couldn't stop at all and continued to run wildly.I'm afraid it will hit something.

"Don't be afraid, I'm here." Her reassuring voice sounded from the side, and I saw her straddling the horse, parallel to the carriage, and reaching out her hand to me.

"Give me your hand," she growled.

It turned out that she would be so fierce.

"Oh." I stretched out my hand quickly, but I haven't touched it yet.The carriage suddenly turned a corner and rushed in another direction.

"Poma, you've eaten too much, why are you running around?" I kicked the horse's ass, and it ended up running even more fiercely.

"Hurry up and jump out of the car." Ting Yun called from behind.

Into a forest. , If you continue running like this, you will hit a tree sooner or later.

"Why don't you dance?" I yelled at her in cold sweat, but I didn't dare to dance.

"Then reach out your hand." She roared again.He was so angry that he almost smashed the whip over.

I had to reach out again, and this time it went smoothly.Without hesitation, she pulled me over with all her might.I fell on the horse.

"Where do you have such great strength?" The carriage ran for a while in the woods, and then ran out of the woods by itself.I was hugged on the horse by her, and finally calmed down.

"Why are you running away?" She stared into my eyes, anger welling up in her eyes.

"I can't go back to the country? What else is running away? Which eye of yours saw me running away?" I poked her chest.

"Didn't I say I would be responsible? You run away because you don't trust me. You look down on me so much." She reined in and the horse stopped.

I was so angry that I jumped off the horse and hurried through the woods alone.

"You are responsible to me, and your responsibility to me is to send me some useless jewelry?" He said while walking.Tears of grievance rolled in the eyes.I don't even remember the fact that I was bought by someone just now.

"I just don't want to do anything to you. Mengniang, when you give me..." She caught up and stood in front of me.

"I didn't work so hard to trap people that night, and nothing happened to us. I don't want you to be responsible, okay? Let me go." I dialed her, but it didn't work.

"You are not allowed to go!" Zhou Tingyun was really anxious and grabbed my hand.

I couldn't break free, looked at her face and suddenly smiled, and calmly asked her, "Zhou Tingyun, didn't you say that you don't understand feelings? I believe you also disdain feelings? You said that you are responsible for me, just to support me? My Mengniang is young and beautiful, and I don’t want to stay in an empty room alone... Zhou Tingyun, you can’t do it, why do you say you have to be responsible for me? You can take care of my daily necessities, but can you take care of my body? When I need it , when I want a man, will you help me find it?"

Zhou Tingyun's face kept changing, getting darker and darker, she raised her hand violently as if to hit me, and shouted angrily, "You think I, Zhou Tingyun, died? What kind of man do you want! I can't satisfy you?"

"Zhou Tingyun...so you can get angry...you can also be jealous...you said you don't understand...you are like a master here..."

"You...in short...you are not allowed to leave! I agree with anything you want!!...just, don't mention men in front of me..." Zhou Tingyun lost the confidence just now, and spoke softly.

She was originally a taciturn person, and she was not good at expressing herself. Now that she is chasing after me, I know that she has feelings for me.

It's just that I'm still angry that she treats me like this these days!

By the way, how did she know that I was out of town?In a blink of an eye, I saw another beautiful figure outside the forest, and she immediately smiled when she saw me, as if her scheme had succeeded.It turned out to be her fault.That's why I said that Lu Yun'er is too shrewd.

"Then it's okay to mention women! If you don't allow me to associate with men, then women can always do it?" I deliberately stimulated her, and finally knew how to deal with Zhou Tingyun, an idiot.

"Didn't you get scolded all day for being so coquettish all day! Your eyes have grown to the soles of your feet, right? I'm such a big living person talking to you in front of you, and you're deaf? Did I warn you not to mention... ..."

"Just don't mention men!"

I refuted her, knowing that Zhou Tingyun would go crazy after being stimulated by me.

"Mengniang...have I always been too gentle? You are so ignorant! Come here..."

"I won't go, I want to go back to the countryside, from now on, it doesn't matter who you are with, Zhou Tingyun."

Zhou Tingyun didn't move behind me, didn't chase me, and I walked forward without hesitation. No matter which way I choose now, there is no room for regret.

"I like you……"

The sound is very soft, barely audible.I didn't stop, but tears blurred my eyes.

"Mengniang... I like you..."

The sound was right next to my ears, and the moment I stopped in my footsteps, I felt myself falling into a warm embrace.

"You are the only person I, Zhou Tingyun, have felt moved for more than [-] years...you...don't leave...in this life, don't leave..."

She said, I dare not look at her, I feel her face buried in my neck, she is shy, so why not me.

There were tears in the eyes, but the words came out jokingly, "Know that I am important? Do you dare to make me angry?"

Being hugged tightly by her, I understand that she can't say sweet words, she can only express it with actions.

Forget it, forgive her, an indifferent, taciturn, beautiful, earning and dedicated woman said she likes me, but I have already fallen, right?

I followed her back to the Song Mansion, only to realize that it was Lu Yun'er's trick, and Zhou Tingyun and I were both fooled.But it's worth it to get back the chance to be with her.

Does she really care about me?She never said it after that day, and I know she's a big deal person.She was so thin-skinned that she couldn't say anything.

Let her say that she likes me again, no matter how much you force her, how much you stimulate her, she won't say anything.

But I know that every night, she will always hug me and whisper the most precious three words in my ear.

I pretended not to hear, pretended that she didn't care about me, and always quarreled with her, but I knew in my heart that she would never escape my palm in this life.

I want to grow old slowly like this with her.Although we have no heirs, there is still Hengyue, as long as Hengyue is by our side, we will be equally happy.This life is enough.

"You said that I was the person you liked for the first time. After that, will you like someone else?" He asked softly, leaning on her chest.So worried about her answer.

"This question is a bit difficult, I need my whole life to answer you..." She held my hand on her heart, making me feel her heartbeat.

Fate is destined, maybe there is a wrong fate between me and her.

However, I am still grateful to God for giving me this fate, at least in this life, I do not regret it.