Prohibited to approach

Xiaoxiao doesn't believe that God is so cruel.

When she went back with the eldest lady, her hands were trembling, and the hottest palms on weekdays were now full of sweat.

She doesn't believe it, she doesn't believe it...

The eldest lady's complexion was not good either, she knew that Su Qiuyun's situation was very dangerous after hearing Qiuqiu's call.

Tomorrow or accident, never know which will happen first.

For them, they were even more caught off guard, without even a little preparation.

An anxious two-hour journey.

Xiaoxiao's tears kept rolling in her eyes, she couldn't believe it, but two days ago, her mother still smiled and said that she would wait for her to go back, and said with a smile that she was not promising, and she hadn't heard the eldest lady call her mother yet.

They said yes.

No, definitely not...

The rain, densely falling, seems to have pierced into people's hearts like needles.When Xiaoxiao and the eldest lady arrived at the Third General Hospital, Xiaoxiao had just entered the inpatient department, and when she saw the row of children squatting at the door sobbing softly, her heart clenched into a ball.

Several children squatted at the door wiping their tears. When they saw Xiaoxiao coming in, they called "Sister" in unison, their voices were full of desolation and sadness.

Song Ke's face was livid, she stood leaning against the wall, her eyes were red and swollen, and she looked at her sister weakly.

Xiaoxiao had no time to talk to them, she hurried to the front of the ward to see her mother.

She was anxious at first, but she really stood in front of the ward. When she was about to push the door, Xiaoxiao bit her lip and stopped.

Her fingertips were trembling, but she didn't dare to push...

No, please, tell her, all this must be a dream.

When she woke up from the dream, her mother would still be standing at the door smiling and calling them, "Go home for dinner."

……

Su Qiuyun has an acute cerebral thrombosis. During her Yuyang examination, the doctor told her that there are already lesions, and she must pay attention to maintenance, not to get angry in a hurry, and take antihypertensive drugs on time for every meal.

She also wants to take good care of herself, but things around her have happened one after another recently. If it's aimed at her, it's okay, but she can't stand it. The children in the family have emptied her remaining energy. She has reached her limit. The body that supported her when she was young has long been tortured by the world. Now, all that is left is her life.

When Xiaoxiao pushed open the door and went in, when she saw Su Qiuyun lying on the bed, covered with pale white sheets, with tubes inserted all over her body, tears rolled down her face.

"Mother……"

Xiaoxiao knelt in front of the hospital bed, calling Su Qiuyun's name loudly.

The doctor knew Su Qiuyun and Xiaoxiao. He also watched Xiaoxiao grow up from a young age. He watched how Su Qiuyun carried this precarious everyone down, but...God does not help people, from a medical point of view Well, Su Qiuyun's situation is hopeless... Her illness was acute and severe, and her intracranial pressure was already more than ten times that of a normal person.

The intracranial hemorrhage could not be stopped, and she had already fallen into a coma when she was sent to the hospital.

Many of the patients in this situation are unable to survive, and some even die on the way without reaching the hospital.

But Su Qiuyun persisted for more than ten hours.

The doctor knew that she was waiting, waiting for something...

Her children, after hearing the news, rushed to the hospital from all over the world.

They never thought that no matter what happened, the mother who could cover everything for them would fall down like this.

Not to mention the director of the hospital, even the leaders at the township and village levels have come. Even though they have experienced the storm, they have never seen such a scene.

A dense crowd of people stood in a corridor, and they all knelt outside, crying, "Mom."

A mother, a mother forever.

Xiaoxiao's tears flowed in a row, and Qin Yi also wept silently beside her.

"Mom...I'm Xiaoxiao...Mom, I'm back, look at me...Didn't you say you were waiting for me to come back?"

Mu Xiaoxiao cried and trembled all over, and her chest let out a suppressed mournful cry. In the past, Su Qiuyun could not bear her like this. She would always protect Xiaoxiao immediately and give her the hug she wanted.Even under the very poor conditions at that time, when she impulsively broke the rapist's legs, and cried and curled up in her arms, Su Qiuyun couldn't bear to criticize her harshly, instead she was furious with Mu Shan and Su Kui who scolded her Fighting back, he scraped together money to compensate her; when Xiaoxiao was crying and suffering countless times, she would hold her in her arms and caress her softly, protecting her from the wind and rain.

But now, she was lying on the hospital bed so cold, without that warm embrace, even her hands became cold.

The doctor said that Su Qiuyun has no feeling now, she can't hear what the people outside say, and can't respond.

But amid Xiaoxiao's heart-piercing shouts, tears slowly fell from the corners of Su Qiuyun's eyes.

That tear was her last response to Xiaoxiao in this life.

……

Su Qiuyun was buried two days later.

That day, I didn't go down any further, but the weather was still gloomy, and tears were flying all over the sky.

When the children were packing up her belongings, they found that apart from a few clean washed and faded clothes, some books, most of which were photo albums, packed in several large boxes.

This time in her life, she left nothing behind, and left behind a lot.

Mu Xiaoxiao stood at the front of the funeral procession. She was dressed in white, holding her mother's portrait, and walked slowly with the procession.

In the past few days, her tears seemed to have dried up, and she no longer felt any sense.

In her mind, all kinds of past events are turning over and over again.

When she was a child, she often asked her mother: "Mom, why do my parents abandon me when I am so healthy?"

At that time, Su Qiuyun would hug her and gently kiss her on the cheek: "Because angels always go through a lot of hardships, they will get the most beautiful things in this world. the happiest person."

It was when she grew up, carried her luggage on her back, walked into the university campus, and was busy with her own life, Su Qiuyun called again and again to chatter.

"Xiaoxiao, how are you? Are you used to it? How is the school food? Don't eat so much salty and junk food all the time. How about your roommate? How are you doing? Don't always look at your phone at night, go to bed early , already very tired during the day..."

While chattering, Xiaoxiao always smiled helplessly: "Oh, Mom, I got it, I got it."

Before hanging up the phone, my mother said reluctantly: "When will you come back? Mom will cook something delicious for you."

……

No more, no more.

Mu Xiaoxiao's heart was desolate and numb.

On that day, not only Su Qiuyun's children scattered all over the world came back to see her off on this last journey, but also the people in the village and the village all went to the streets, and the alleys were empty. Su Qiuyun took this last journey.

Many netizens also came over, and when they reviewed Su Qiuyun's life, they all shed tears.

Su Qiuyun's favorite sentence during his lifetime was - a single spark can start a prairie fire.

She raised every child into a star.

And she burned her whole life.

Xiaoxiao was so painful that she couldn't hear the wind and rain outside. She watched her mother being put into the black and cold coffin, and then she was sent into the cremation furnace. In the end, all she was given was the coldness in her arms. She knelt on the ground, tears streaming down her face.

Su Qiuyun's departure was a fatal blow to Xiaoxiao.

It was like the last straw that broke the camel's back, causing her to completely collapse.

As soon as the funeral was over, she developed a severe fever. The fever persisted for three days and nights, and her whole body was blurred by the fever.

The eldest lady didn't leave, and stayed with her in the orphanage. She wiped the sweat off her forehead with a towel. Xiaoxiao held her hand while weeping, and murmured: "Mom...Mom..."

Why is it?

Why did God tease her again and again like this?

What did she do wrong?

Xiaoxiao didn't know, she wanted to know, but no one could give her the answer.

In her dream, she saw her mother wearing a white shirt, her face was no longer tired from the past, her hair was black, and her youthful vigor was restored. She touched Xiaoxiao's hair with a smile: "Daughter, mother is gone, you Be good."

Xiaoxiao couldn't cry anymore, she grabbed Su Qiuyun's skirt, "Mom, don't go...don't go..."

No matter how much she begged and cried, Su Qiuyun still turned into a ray of light and disappeared into her world.

After the fever subsided, Xiaoxiao hid in Su Qiuyun's room by herself. She hugged her mother's portrait and couldn't get out without eating or drinking. She didn't see anyone, even the eldest lady was pushed out by her.

To Xiaoxiao, Su Qiuyun's death seemed to deprive her of the last light of this world.

The eldest lady is very anxious. On the one hand, she is sad and sad, but on the other hand, she is worried about Xiaoxiao. There are still many things to be busy in the company. Qin Hailong knows that the time is critical now, and he also knows what happened here at Xiaoxiao, so he frequently holds board meetings , doing the last struggle.

Mag flew over from the United States and looked for Qin Yi many times, but Qin Yi refused to leave the orphanage, she was worried about Xiaoxiao.

One was inside the door, the other was outside, and the two of them were in a stalemate.

Xiaoxiao huddled in the room, she flipped through the photo album left by Su Qiuyun night after night.

Su Qiuyun likes to take pictures of children, saying that she wants to capture the moments of their growth. When she was a child, Xiaoxiao would always ask irritably, "Why do you always take pictures?"

But now, she only regrets not keeping more photos.

She looked and looked over and over again, most of the photos her mother took were her photos, but there were only a few photos of her and her mother.

One is that she was sitting behind her mother's car seat when she was a child, with her arms around her waist, sticking to her unhappily.

It was left when Su Qiuyun took Xiaoxiao to the city to see a dentist. When she was a child, Xiaoxiao was greedy for food. She always ate sweets secretly at night, which broke her teeth. After she had her teeth pulled out, the children in the orphanage called her She has a small tooth, and Su Qiuyun smiled happily in front of her, "What's the matter with the small tooth? How cute, talkative."

The second photo is of Xiaoxiao joining the Young Pioneers in elementary school. She is wearing a red scarf and standing under the national flag, while Su Qiuyun in the distance is looking at her with arms folded and smiling, her eyes full of pride and satisfaction.

——My daughter has grown up, and my mother is so happy.

The third picture is when Xiaoxiao was about to leave the orphanage, she was sitting in the car, Su Qiuyun stood under the car and looked at her, her eyes were red, she bit her lip, and swallowed all the reluctance.

——Come back early, Mom will cook something delicious for you.

……

These three photos are Su Qiuyun's life with Xiaoxiao.

On the fifth day.

Grandma leaned on the crutch to knock on the door.

She was older and in poor health. Everyone kept it from her, and they didn't dare to tell her the news of Su Qiuyun's departure so directly.

But Grandma Chu has gone through so many ups and downs in her life, can she really hide it from her?

Because she knocked on the door, Xiaoxiao's last rationality made her wipe away her tears, open the door, and let grandma come in.

The curtains in her room had been drawn for several days, and the door was suddenly opened, and the sunlight outside the door came in through the gap, which made her close her eyes, and tears came out again.

The eldest lady looked at her, eyes full of haggardness and worry, Xiaoxiao lowered her head and closed the door again.

She doesn't know how to face Qin Yi now.

This was the first time Xiaoxiao refused the approach of the eldest lady, which made Qin Yi feel very uncomfortable. She sat in the courtyard of the orphanage with cold hands and feet.

The news about the departure of Su Qiuyun, the mother who adopted Mu Xiaoxiao, has spread on the Internet. Many people feel sorry for her. Her deeds have also been reported by the local government. Everyone has come to pay homage to her in front of the orphanage. Song Ke was taking care of this, she didn't dare to tell her sister at all.

Everyone knows that Xiaoxiao's heart is full of guilt, self-blame and pain.

She always thought that her mother's death had something to do with her.

If it wasn't for her, my mother wouldn't be running around so much, under such great pressure, worrying about her, and overdrawing herself.

She was in pain, she was sad, for a moment, Xiaoxiao even thought, why was she born?Is it to bear all the pain in this world?

Now she doesn't want to bother with everything outside, she's tired of it.

Is this the price of public opinion?

What did she get?she does not know.

But what she lost was her mother who loved her the most.

After grandma came in, she walked around the room. She leaned on crutches and sat on Su Qiuyun's bed. She touched the sheet on which her breath still remained, and her cloudy eyes turned red.

It was just one action, and Xiaoxiao's tears flowed down. She knew, grandma knew, grandma always knew.

In this world, besides mother is grandma.

She is sorry for them.

Xiaoxiao walked up to grandma and knelt down straight, "Grandma..."

Grandma Chu lowered her head to look at Xiaoxiao, she put the crutch aside, stretched out her hand and gently touched Xiaoxiao's head: "My child..."

With a cry of "child", Xiaoxiao hugged her grandma's leg, spurting blood from the pain she had suppressed these days, "Mom, mom, she...she..."

She couldn't say the word "death".

Grandma Chu's hands were wrinkled, and her eyes were red: "Grandma knows."

In the darkness of the room, in front of the closest people, the pain in Xiaoxiao's heart spread wantonly.

After an unknown amount of time, grandma gently patted Xiaoxiao on the shoulder, "Xiaoxiao, you have to understand that life and death are human nature, and all of us will experience it."

Xiaoxiao couldn't speak but shed tears. She understood what grandma said, but she couldn't accept it, and couldn't accept her mother leaving like this.

She still thought of her mother holding her hand and watching her and the young lady happily together.

"The day your mother and I took over the orphanage, we put our life and death aside."

"Your mother has lived a hard life in the eyes of outsiders. Everyone says she is a fool who gave everything for a child without blood, but you don't know that when every child calls her mother for the first time, she is excited. who babbled to me non-stop."

"She saved you, and you also made her."

"If Qiuyun was here, I wouldn't want to see you tormenting me with tears and tears."

"Xiaoxiao, the deceased is gone, the important thing is to cherish the people around you, that child has been waiting for you outside for five days without eating or drinking."

……

Grandma touched Xiaoxiao's hair, and after leaving these words and a letter, she staggered out with crutches.

Back then, she made an agreement with Su Qiuyun that no matter which one fell down, the other one would not cry or be sad.

We must go on firmly.

Although their people are gone, their beliefs are still in their hearts. Such a big orphanage with so many children still needs them to support them.They have experienced too much ups and downs in their life, what they saw, what they couldn't see, too much, and they suffered countless white eyes, sarcasm, gossip, insults and frame-ups... They have long been indomitable.

That letter was written by Su Qiuyun on the day Yuyang finished his physical examination. It was strange to talk about worldly things. After her physical examination at that time, although the doctor said that there was no major problem, as long as she took good care of her, she always felt that Feeling uneasy, I wrote this letter.

When Xiaoxiao opened the letter with trembling hands, when she saw the familiar handwriting, tears engulfed her again.

——Xiaoxiao, my daughter.

When you read this letter, your mother may have passed away from this world.

You must be crying, don't cry, I still like that daughter who is always happy and giggling.

Qiuqiu always said that my mother loves you the most and always expects a lot from you. Every time my mother smiles and does not deny it.

Xiaoxiao, do you know?In mother's heart, you are the strongest and most responsible of all children.

My mother took over the orphanage from the old headmaster at the age of 24, and she has the responsibility. After so many years of hard work, she has already seen through life and death;

If she really died at the position she had worked for all her life, it would be a kind of happy consummation for her mother.

The Zangke family once said - some people are alive, he is already dead; some people are dead, he is still alive.

Physical death is not terrible. Mom knows that the spirit I inherited from the old dean has been passed on to you.

Mom will always live in your heart and walk with you.

Su Qiuyun April 2021, 4

Tears blurred the eyes, wet the letter paper, and the handwriting on it was also wet. Xiaoxiao closed her eyes, and her mother's voice and smile were all in her mind.

My mother always said that she was the most obedient child, and she always said that she was the child who worried her the most in the end.

Now, she is gone, and the only letter left is also for her.

……

I don't know how long it took.

The door of the room was pushed open with a "creak".

This is the first time Xiaoxiao has come out in so many days. Her hands and feet are limp and her face is pale, like a ghost.

But when she came out, the eldest lady who had been waiting silently looked at her for the first time, and the frowning children squatting in the yard raised their heads to look at her.

Although she was haggard and unstable, in everyone's eyes, she seemed to come out with the halo and hope.

Xiaoxiao didn't say a word, she dragged her heavy steps, slowly...step by step towards the eldest lady.