He can play whatever I like

No matter how much love or hatred there was, after confirming the news of Xiao Sa's death, Zou Yun had to admit that he couldn't face the reality that Xiao Sa had completely disappeared from this world.

He chooses to close himself off and only stay in his own world, at least there are memories of him and Xiao Sa in it.

Memories are often the most deceptive things.

Maybe it's gradually understanding Xiao Sa's difficulties, maybe it's sympathy, or it's just because Xiao Sa used to be really, really good to him; what he can think of now, all the memories about Xiao Sa, are mostly beautiful .

Perhaps people just like to paralyze themselves with beautiful things, so he chose to let the silhouette of Xiao Sa appear in his world, which is still the beautiful boy in the oil painting, holding a picture album, leaning against the bay window, sleeping in the sunset.

He used to firmly believe that all wounds will heal one day, just like the toenail that was knocked over by the picture frame when he quarreled with Xiao Sa before, now there is no scar and no pain anymore.

So even if he is deceiving himself and others, he still chooses to live in his own world like this, at least it will make him feel better.

He always lied to himself that it took him longer only because the injury was so severe this time.

Until the little girl at the front desk showed up.

Finally, he had to face up to the fact that even though he was innocent, even though he had done nothing on the surface, every decision he made affected everyone around him all the time.

Because of his evasion, the girl in her early twenties, who had just graduated from college, had no job for several months; he himself was an ordinary wage earner, and he knew the importance of a resume to an ordinary job seeker.

He's innocent, isn't the little girl at the front desk?

And Tang Tang who just came out of the bathroom.

He watched Tang Tang carefully manage his emotions and expressions, opening his mouth to talk to him but hesitant to speak. Every word Tang Tang said to him now had to be carefully and carefully considered, and he was afraid that someone would Accidentally stung him.

For so long, he didn't even notice that Tang Tang's healthy body had lost a lot of weight.

And Shen Du, too.

During these days, when Tang Tang was not around occasionally, he would trouble Shen Du to come to the hospital to look after Zou Yun; although the two of them didn't meet much, Zou Yun hadn't seen Shen Du in a floral shirt, cynical like before for a long time smiled.

He suddenly discovered that although he seemed to just shut himself up, he seemed to be affecting the people around him invisibly.

He feels sorry.

After that day, he began to follow the doctor's advice, forced himself to eat some simple liquid food, and would go to the corridor window to bask in the sun when there were not many people in the hospital.

He began to look through the picture album Tang Tang brought him, and occasionally talked with Tang Tang about a certain painter who had recently risen at home and abroad.

Finally, a week later, the doctor agreed to his discharge application.

Because he had been away from home for too long, when Tang Tang drove him back, the two encountered some accidents at the gate of the community.

High-end residential areas have very strict security measures, and Tang Tang's car was stopped by the access control system at the entrance because it was not registered at the property of the residential area.

The last time Zou Yun left Guanhai Yipin was after he went into a coma on a hunger strike. He was taken to the hospital by an ambulance without anything like a key card with him. Originally, he only needed to notify the security guard in the guard room to open the door, but because he After leaving for too long, the security guard in the guard room has been replaced by someone he doesn't know.

Tang Tang got out of the car and went to the guard room to argue. Zou Yun was in the passenger seat, watching from a distance.

The new security guard wore a mask and looked quite tall. Zou Yun couldn't hear what the two of them said, but saw the security guard bowing again and again, as if apologizing; Tang Tang was not a grumpy person, Zou Yun didn't He was not worried that he would embarrass a security guard, nor did he care about what happened in the guard room.

Soon, another security guard on duty in the guard room came back from the toilet.

These days, Zou Yun has been relying on the nutrient solution in the hospital for a long time to live. He has long lost his appearance, his eyes are empty, and his face is pale;

It was Zou Yun who reported the house number later, and the security guard recognized him, and quickly opened the door to let him go.

Before leaving, he apologized several times and explained nervously——

The company has an agreement with the government, and there is a fixed quota every year to help accommodate some disabled people, and the new security guard is one of them.

He told Zou Yun that the man's face was burned in the fire, so he could only wear a mask for fear of frightening the residents, and his throat was damaged by the thick smoke, so he could no longer speak.

Because the man came to work not long ago, he is not familiar with the environment of the community and the owner, and he is dumb, so before he went to the toilet just now, he didn't dare to leave the card to open the access control, because he was afraid that the newcomer would make a mistake, so he let the idlers wait in. , Unexpectedly, troubles broke out instead.

Those who can live in Guanhai Yipin are not ordinary people. Zou Yun understands that if any owner complains, the security guard will lose his job at any time.

He nodded gently, comforted the security guard a few words, showed that he didn't care, told him not to worry, Tang Tang also restarted the car.

The car drove away slowly, and he glanced at the new dumb security guard again in the rearview mirror.

Although the weather has warmed up in spring, the mute still wears a pair of black leather gloves; in the conversation just now, the security guard said that the other party was seriously injured in the fire, and the gloves were probably used to cover up the scars.

He suddenly discovered that there are too many people in this world who are more difficult than him, but they still have to live with difficulty.

Tang Tang sent him home, and wanted to make an appointment for a cleaner to clean the house, after all, no one lived in it for a long time.

At first, he refused and wanted to do it himself; but his body was still too weak, so he had to compromise in the end.

He nestled on the sofa expressionlessly, looking at the busy figure of Tang Tang leading the cleaning, he was in a daze for a moment.

Most of these things were done by Xiao Sa in the past, but now they have changed people suddenly, but they don’t seem to be as careful as Xiao Sa; it’s just cleaning up the room, he would do it before, but I don’t know when, he actually Being spoiled by Xiao Sa and turned into a waste——

This is probably also Xiao Sa's conspiracy.

Let him never leave Xiao Sa again.

He didn't want to face the scene in front of him again, got up and went back to the rental house that Xiao Sa had perfectly reproduced before, and gently locked the door behind him.

At least in this room, he will not allow others to come in.

He was still lying on the broken bed before, and fell asleep unconsciously.

When he woke up, he heard two cats meowing in a daze, and thought he was hallucinating. When he opened the door and looked downstairs, he really saw that Tang Tang had brought the two cats back.

"Meow meow--"

He stood upstairs and yelled, but the little puppet didn't rush up as intimately as before, and threw himself into his arms.

Cats know best whether the people around them like them or not.

At this moment, he realized that he hadn't seen two cats for a long time, and even the thin little Huang was fed by Tang Tang into a little fat man.

His cats don't kiss him anymore.

He can't go on like this.

"Are you awake?" Tang Tang looked up at Zou Yun upstairs, and smiled, "I brought you porridge, come down to eat."

Zou Yun went downstairs slowly and walked to Tang Tang's side.

He picked up the spoon and mechanically stuffed a mouthful of porridge into his mouth. His taste buds seemed to have not recovered from the long-term fasting. He couldn't taste the porridge, but he still couldn't help feeling that it wasn't as delicious as Xiao Sa's cooking before. .

"Wait a minute—" he swallowed the porridge with difficulty, "you can take them back with you."

"……Um?"

Tang Tang doubted his ears.

From the moment Zou Yun entered the door in the afternoon, he could tell that the other party was not in the right mood. He didn't dare to disturb or leave, so he could only ask Tang Tang to bring the two cats to the hotel where he was staying.

After all, from the time Zou Yun learned of Xiao Sa's death until now, the only time he smiled was when he saw the two little guys in the hospital.

But now Zou Yun actually wants him to take the two cats back?

His heart skipped a beat.

If Zou Yun didn't even want to deal with these two little guys anymore, then would all the signs of improvement before Zou Yun be just a disguise?

During the period when Zou Yun was hospitalized, he stayed in the hospital with nothing to do, Zou Yun didn't make a sound, he didn't even dare to breathe; although Zou Yun was just pretending to sleep, he didn't dare to expose it, he could only do something relative Quiet things like reading a book.

Doctors said that there was nothing wrong with Zou Yun's body, so he deliberately found some books on psychology to read.

According to the book, some people who are prone to depression will suddenly change their temperament before committing suicide, making others think that they seem to have stepped out of the haze; or--

It is like the sudden flashback of a seriously ill person before he dies.

"Zou Yun..."

Tang Tang looked at Zou Yun nervously, but didn't dare to continue.

"I'm fine." Zou Yun looked at Tang Tang and curled the corner of his mouth.

He also wanted to give Tang Tang a smile to make Tang Tang feel at ease; he tried so hard, but in the end the expression on his face was fixed, and it had nothing to do with the smile anyway.

"Can you help me take care of them for a while longer? I may not be able to take care of them recently."

"You..." Tang Tang looked at Zou Yun's weak profile, he hesitated to speak.

"I want to—" Zou Yun put down the spoon, "go on a trip."

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感谢在2021-04-1019:38:25~2021-04-1121:08:55期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who threw mines: 3 for Sanxia;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!