Sir, I'm not good

Before meeting Gu Yinian, Xu Zhi always thought that Gu Yinian was like those business tycoons in TV dramas.

A business elite with a prominent status, but emotionally frivolous.

Isn't that what they all do?Nurturing, unspoken rules, all kinds of disgusting hobbies.

But when he met Gu Yinian at the pan fried shop, he completely changed his impression of Gu Yinian.

In addition to the shock of appearance, there is also behavior.

Although a little cold, but every move is restrained and polite, which makes people feel very cultivated.

Even when he is not speaking, there is an aura of "I am not an ordinary person" surrounding him.

Only when Shu Xian's name is mentioned, there will be emotional fluctuations in his eyes, either sadness or warmth.

Although these emotions are superficial, they can directly affect Xu Zhi.

Therefore, Xu Zhi felt that Gu Yinian might just be a gentleman frustrated in love.

This impression didn't last long, because Gu Yinian took out the inspection report of the Third Court.

"Shu Xian would be very angry if he knew that you took his examination report from the hospital, let alone..."

What's more, you still want me to secretly drug him?

"I know that with his personality, it is impossible to accept other people's surveillance. Whether it is out of good intentions or maliciousness, he will definitely never end with me after he finds out."

When Gu Yinian was talking, the corners of his mouth were raised slightly, and it looked like he was doting and helpless, like a parent discussing their child with others.

This made Xu Zhi unable to answer the conversation for a while.

Gu Yinian's tone made him suddenly feel that he was far away from Shu Xian, and he didn't know Shu Xian at all, but Gu Yinian knew Shu Xian.

Hanging his head and pursing his lips, Xu Zhi didn't want to show weakness after all.

After leaving home to go to school, he chose to avoid many things because of fear and anxiety.

But Shu Xian is the only thing he wants to fight for.

So he raised his head and looked at Gu Yinian again: "Have you thought about the consequences of doing this? After he finds out, will he resist medication more strongly? It's just insomnia, I don't think it's enough to challenge his bottom line. "

"He will definitely." Gu Yinian looked very calm, "After he knows, he will definitely resist the treatment even more extreme, and even... hurt himself."

Xu Zhi didn't expect Gu Yinian to be so sure, he was stunned for a moment, and then subconsciously raised his voice to question: "Then why are you still looking for me?"

"Because the result of letting it go now will only be worse than the result of extreme resistance to treatment after being discovered by him."

"...What do you mean? His insomnia has become so severe?"

Gu Yinian nodded peacefully, but he had a bigger worry in his heart, he had already concealed part of his illness from Xu Zhi.

He originally thought that the appearance of Xu Zhi would bring hope to Shu Xian, but the result of the examination told him that Shu Xian still didn't want to live.

He didn't know exactly where Xu Zhi was in Shu Xian's heart, but now it seemed that it was far from enough for Shu Xian to be placed in Bai Yu and start a new life.

He hoped that Shu Xian would live, and even messaged Bai Jianguo to force Shu Xian to survive.

But if he could only watch Shu Xian torture himself and live in such pain, wouldn't it be better not to live?

He has been thinking recently, was it wrong for him to force Shu Xian to survive?

"It doesn't matter. If he finds out later, you can put the responsibility on me and tell him that I threatened you, and he will believe you."

Gu Yinian said calmly, no matter what method is used, no matter how much Shu Xian's anger will be borne in the future, it doesn't matter.

Anyway, it was moral kidnapping that kept Shu Xian alive in the first place, and now it doesn't matter if he violates morality one more time.

Xu Zhi was silent, he didn't know how to answer.

He also wants Shu Xian to be well, but is this the only way?

And what kind of emotion did this person in front of him find him?

In order to allow Shu Xian to receive treatment, did he not hesitate to find him?Although he is not Shu Xian's boyfriend, from Gu Yinian's point of view, he must be a rival in love, right?

Come to ask your rival for help?

Xu Zhi couldn't accept it, and couldn't understand it. There was a faint doubt between his brows: "Why did you find me? Besides, is this the only way? Can't..."

In the middle of speaking, Xu Zhi suddenly hesitated.

Seeing him hesitate, Gu Yinian nodded, as if affirming his thoughts: "If he can be persuaded, he won't develop to this level."

If the prediction in the inspection report is correct, Shu Xian should have already experienced symptoms such as amnesia, hallucinations, and auditory hallucinations, which means that he has already suffered from serious neurological problems.

"You should be able to think of it, Xu Zhi, if someone in this world can persuade him, I will definitely not come to you."

Gu Yinian was not hostile when he spoke, but Xu Zhi felt a bit chilly.

Sure enough, he is still regarded as a rival in love!

But after he had this idea, Gu Yinian seemed to be able to read his mind, and then said: "Don't worry, I don't regard you as an enemy."

"...Because with Shu Xian, no one can be your rival in love, not anyone else, and I am even more unworthy."

Feeling a strong sense of powerlessness, Gu Yinian smiled lightly, as if laughing at himself.

But Xu Zhi felt that something was wrong.

Why did Gu Yinian say that no one can be his rival in love?Does he have any unique qualities that attract Xu Zhi?

Afterwards, the two were silent for a long time, Xu Zhi was considering whether to agree to Gu Yinian's proposal of "secretly drugging", and Gu Yinian was also waiting for his result.

Soon, Xu Zhi made up his mind, but he still asked, "What if I don't promise you?"

"I just said that if he finds out about this, you can put the blame on me and say that I threatened you."

"so what?"

"So I don't mind really threatening you."

Gu Yinian's abrupt words suddenly tensed up the atmosphere.

Only then did Xu Zhi realize that Gu Yinian actually didn't come to negotiate with him, he just came to ask him to implement, ask for opinions, maybe it was just a formality.

For an ordinary person of his status, Gu Yinian could wipe out a group of people by raising his hand.

"Okay, you are very important to Shu Xian, I don't want to confront you, so I won't really threaten you... I beg you, please help me and save him."

Gu Yinian slowed down his tone, but Xu Zhi didn't feel relaxed at all.

Although he was shocked that Gu Yinian could say "please" to him for Shu Xian, he still felt that his life was hanging by a thread!

Gritting his teeth, Xu Zhi finally nodded.

"I promise you, I will try my best, but if he is found out, he resists treatment and even gives up on himself..."

"Didn't you say it? Put the responsibility on me and choose yourself clean."

"and then?"

"Then, if you love him, use his importance to you and try to change him."

"I can do it?"

Gu Yinian raised his eyebrows suddenly, and smiled provocatively: "Then let him go."

He wants to die, or he wants to live.

I can't change his words, so I can only accompany him to make the final choice.

After that meeting, Xu Zhi took the medicine that Gu Yinian brought.

Then there were two more meetings, but at the last time, Shu Xian discovered that Shu Xian was indeed more perceptive than he imagined.

He thought he was going to be exposed.

But Gu Yinian followed Shu Xian's misunderstanding.

When Shu Xian punched Gu Yinian on the face, he was stunned. He saw the pain and sorrow in Gu Yinian's eyes, as if he was sad because of Shu Xian's protection of him.

But he knew it wasn't acting.

He didn't know how much Gu Yinian could love Shu Xian, but he definitely loved him more than him.

He has always been unwilling, he wants to love Shu Xian more than Gu Yinian.

He felt that he could at least be by Shu Xian's side all the time, how could he be defeated by Gu Yinian's past tense?

During that conflict, Gu Yinian's forbearance made him unable to forget.

Until just now, he still firmly wanted to compare Gu Yinian's love.

But now he feels hopeless.

Whether it's Gu Yinian's love for Shu Xian, or Shu Xian's cherishment of him, they are both desperate and suffocating.

Because of his illness, why did Shu Xian go to Gu Yinian?

And why did Gu Yinian agree?

What happened to these two people?Still sane?Are you crazy?

"Eh? Why is the baby crying? Don't worry, the hospital said that the donor is just unwell today, and the operation will be performed in two days..."

Xu Zhi's parents walked in, and the woman saw the child sitting beside the bed and weeping absentmindedly, a little flustered, so she ran over to comfort her.

She felt that the child was afraid because the operation was put on hold.

Xu Zhi's father was walking behind, seeing his son wiping his tears, he was also startled for a moment, and followed.

Seeing his parents coming in, Xu Zhi quickly wiped away his tears.

"How is Brother Shu?" He asked intermittently.

Not knowing what's wrong with the child, the two looked at each other with worries, but finally turned their heads to answer Xu Zhi's question: "The doctor said that it was caused by insomnia and caused insufficient blood supply to the brain, and he fainted briefly. It's not a big problem."

"Where are the others? Are you awake?"

"Wake up, we just went to see him, but his friend seems to be here, we can't stay there for too long, Dr. Sun said it's all right, so we came back."

Xu Zhiwen couldn't help worrying in his heart.

He knew it wasn't like this, how could Shu Xian be fine this time in a coma?

As for that friend, she should have come to stop the operation, and she was also the girl who came to him just now and told him about the gland donor.

The girl looked at him with extremely complicated eyes, which he couldn't understand.

The girl didn't say much, she just told him that the glands were donated by Gu Yinian, and she would not let Shu Xian achieve her goal, so she left after speaking.

He didn't know why the girl stopped Shu Xian from undergoing the operation, but if he knew in advance that the donor was Gu Yinian, he probably wouldn't agree.

Why is it Gu Yinian?

Why did Gu Yinian agree again?

Unable to figure it out, Xu Zhi only felt a little difficult to breathe, his lungs seemed to be full of smoke and dust, extremely dry.

His chest was stuffy, and his eye sockets couldn't help but swell.

What to do, out of control.

"What's the matter, why are you crying again? Is there something wrong? You don't keep talking, you tell mom, mom won't let you have anything to do..."

Seeing that the child started crying again, Xu Zhi's mother asked in a panic.

His father was also full of worry, asking "what's the matter" and "what's the matter".

But Xu Zhi couldn't say anything.

He just felt that he was overwhelmed and out of breath.

Tears were mixed with snot, wiped away by tissues again and again, Xu Zhi didn't cry heartbreakingly, but couldn't stop.

His parents frantically asking, comforting, and guessing next to him made him even more sad.

Why, obviously he is just an ordinary college student, why did Shu Xian find him?What's the point of being so nice to him?

He is so ordinary, why did he have to go through all these people and things...

"Is there anything you can't tell mom and dad, don't cry, we are always here, we won't let you have trouble, and nothing will happen to you, you can study at ease..."

The woman hugged her son and couldn't help comforting her, she also shed tears.

The crying of the person on the bed gradually became weaker. He rubbed against his mother's arms, his voice choked.

He said, "Mom, I don't want to be treated anymore..."