Sir, I'm not good

"So, are you and Gu Yinian not in contact with each other now?"

"Ah."

"I can understand that you don't contact him, but it's really surprising that he doesn't contact you. You don't have a heart, but he does."

Shen Yao showed a very confused look, which made the people sitting across from him a little displeased. How could he be described as so cold and heartless?

Shu Xian gathered his down jacket, shrunk his neck inward, and said in a muffled voice, "I'm also very sad."

"It's not because you love him, it's just because you get used to him. If another person treats you so well, you can also rely on that person, can't you?"

Shen Yao spoke very coldly.

At that time, when she asked Gu Yinian to accompany Shu Xian for treatment, she realized that Shu Xian just lacked a life and emotional support.

As a bipolar patient, it is very necessary to have an emotional receiver.

And it doesn't matter who the receiver is, as long as he is willing to accompany Shu Xian and dispel Shu Xian's negative emotions.

And after her investigation, among the people around Shu Xian, Gu Yinian is undoubtedly the most suitable.

Shu Xian didn't know how to answer Shen Yao's question.

He felt that he didn't treat Gu Yinian as an emotional trash can, because leaving Gu Yinian was painful even now.

But Shen Yao was right.

So, he is really a heartless person?

Seeing that Shu Xian was depressed, Shen Yao realized that she was a doctor, and quickly changed direction: "Don't doubt yourself, there is nothing wrong with being selfish."

"But people can't always be selfish." That's why he left.

"That's why you chose to leave Gu Yinian?"

"Ah."

Seeing Shu Xian nodding, Shen Yao couldn't help frowning.

If Shu Xian explained his departure in this way, it seemed bright and great, it was a kind of self-sacrifice, and it was selfless and generous.

But, "But have you ever thought that your leaving is also a kind of selfishness?"

Shen Yao's words came suddenly, like a boxer's short attack, each word was stuffed in Shu Xian's heart.

Isn't it because of Gu Yinian that he left?

He couldn't return Gu Yinian's love.

Only by leaving can the seat next to Gu Yinian be vacated, and it is possible for Gu Yinian to have a two-way love.

Shouldn't this be a kind of selflessness?Why do you say he is selfish?

Shen Yao stared into Shu Xian's eyes and said: "I feel that your choice to leave is directly related to your troubles."

"Are you trying to say that I was afraid of his parents' opposition and obstruction, so I ran away?"

"This is only on the one hand. On the other hand, this incident made you clearly see how much Gu Yinian loves you. It is a love that you can't repay. You were afraid, so you ran away."

Shen Yao was categorical and confident.

She knew that Shu Xian's character would not be able to do completely altruistic things, at least he would definitely not be like Gu Yinian.

If there is no Jian Wan, Shu Xian should be with Xu Zhi now, and he would know nothing about what Gu Yinian has done.

Even, because Shu Xian once misunderstood Gu Yinian, thinking that he had threatened Xu Zhi, so he may still hold grudges against him.

But as long as Shu Xian himself is happy, Gu Yinian doesn't care whether he is the one who gives him happiness.

Shen Yao frowned, feeling that her words might be inappropriate for a patient, but she said everything.

Since you are rational, you should also be rational when dealing with your own heart.

After a long silence, Shu Xian raised his head to meet Shen Yao's gaze, and no longer dodged: "Maybe yes, Shen Yao, I might really have escaped."

From the entanglement with Gu's family, from the guilt towards Gu Yinian, and from the irresistible pressure, he fled.

The sudden shattering of hope and the uncertainty of the future, he didn't want to face them, didn't want to solve them, so he ran away.

"You really want Gu Yinian to get his beautiful love, but it cannot be denied that in your consideration, you will always have your own interests."

Shen Yao picked up Shu Xian's words, as if she had given Shu Xian a verdict.

And Shu Xian didn't refute it, so he accepted it.

It's just that the verdict doesn't change the reality, and Shen Yao is not a monk who preaches good, and she doesn't seem to force Shu Xian to respond to Gu Yinian's love.

"Okay, let's talk about your life now, have you taken any medicine in the past month?"

Shen Yao changed the topic too quickly, and Shu Xian's emotions have been relatively dull recently, so he couldn't get out of the dullness for a while.

Obviously, he was still talking about feelings with him one second, and he entered a professional state in an instant the next second.

Slowing down a bit, Shu Xian began to talk about his status in the past month: "I took the medicine on time, but my hands are still shaking, and my headache is much better..."

As Shen Yao listened, the phone suddenly vibrated. She glanced at it and was about to turn it off, but when she saw the message prompt box, she paused and picked it up.

Shu Xianxi stopped, waiting for Shen Yao's reply.

Shen Yao subconsciously raised her eyelids halfway through knocking, and met Shu Xian's eyes for the last millisecond.

"Is Grandpa Bai asking about my condition?"

Shu Xian asked the question almost without thinking.

Shen Yao raised her head involuntarily, with some displeasure in being probed, "Why are you so sensitive?"

"It's because your actions are too obvious."

Shen Yao was a little ashamed.

Just relying on tiny movements that I didn't even notice, I can conclude that I'm talking about you with someone, it's a bit frighteningly sensitive.

After a while, Shen Yao finished knocking on the screen, put down the phone, and was ready to continue chatting with Shu about his condition.

Before she could speak, Shu Xian interrupted her first, "You haven't answered my question yet."

"what is the problem?"

"Are you chatting with Grandpa Bai?"

"Otherwise, who else can I go with? With the elementary school boy who likes you? Or the roommate of the elementary school boy who also likes you?"

Shen Yao chuckled, as if she also had doubts about Shu Xian's doubts.

Shu Xian didn't answer Shen Yao's question, nor was she agitated by her attitude to give up doubts.

In an instant, countless possibilities appeared in his mind, but they were all dimmed one by one.

"Okay, let's continue talking about the illness."

This kind of official words came out of Shu Xian's mouth, making Shen Yao confused for a moment whether she was a doctor or Shu Xian was a doctor.

Afterwards, the two discussed the progress of the disease and life at school.

Because of Shu Xian's cooperation, the subsequent conversation went smoothly.

Even so, Shen Yao did not let down his vigilance. Although the person he was talking to was clear, he was still a patient.

Now Shu Xian can tell her that the food at school is unpalatable, maybe he will get sick one day, and he just jumped off the stairs because the food is too unpalatable.

It was so hard to have everyone around him watching him.

"The one named Shao Ze, do you want to try to get along with him more..."

"You want him to be my second Gu Yinian?"

Shen Yao was interrupted by Shu Xian before she finished speaking, and even her little unethical thoughts were exposed.

But Shen Yao didn't feel ashamed, instead she said righteously: "I want you to find a good friend, you can't live alone all the time, it's very dangerous."

"Actually, it's just to find an emotional catharsis, to ensure that every time I want to commit suicide, someone will stop me?"

Shu Xian folded his arms on the table, and rested his chin on the soft down jacket, raised his eyelids to look at Shen Yao, and spoke languidly and indifferently.

The doctor actually said that he has no heart?Obviously you have no heart.

Shen Yao smiled, showing some inexplicable kindness, which made Shu Xian look terrified.

"Shu Xian, you also have a little confidence in yourself. You have to believe that eating with that elementary school boy every day is enough for him to cheer and cheer!"

"...Shen Yao, you must be a scumbag."

Doesn't it make it clear that Shao Ze is being used as a licking dog?

Different people have different status and wealth, but they should all be equal emotionally, and everyone's emotions are worthy of respect.

Shu Xian felt that he and Shen Yao might have different ideas, and he didn't want to talk any more, so he urged her to prescribe medicine.

After returning to school, Shu Xian wanted to go to the library to watch online classes, so he went back to the dormitory to get the tablet first.

As a result, he went upstairs, turned into the corridor, and saw a person squatting in front of his dormitory door not far away.

The man was only wearing an orange hoodie, the hood of the hoodie was buttoned on his head, and he was holding two drawstrings in his hand, looking very boring.

Shu Xian approached and stood in front of Shao Ze.

He swears that he didn't mean to regard Shao Ze as a dog licker, but Shao Ze really looks like a big dog!

"Eh? Senior, you're back!"

"Well, you act as a human stone lion for me here?"

Shu Xian took the key out of his pocket and opened the door.

Shao Ze laughed happily, stood up from the ground, waited for Shu Xian to open the door, and got in consciously.

"Why don't you send me a message, and you will wait until I come back?"

"I don't have class today, so I turned around. It's nothing to do. I just squat you casually. It's fine if I can't squat. I didn't think of urging you to come back."

When Shao Ze walked in, he found that Shu Xian's room had been tidied up.

The dormitory has good lighting, and the direct sunlight at noon makes people feel lazy.

Shu Xian didn't mean to reply, but he also didn't mean to drive him away, and helped Shao Ze pull out a pair of slippers, then pulled the chair away, and sat on the bed by himself.

Shao Ze's heart was also hot from the sun, so he quickly changed his shoes and sat down on a chair.

Shu Xian's down jacket was placed on the back of the chair, and Shao Ze leaned on it.

"Brother, your down jacket is so soft, hey, why are there pieces on it?"

Shu Xian sat on the bed with one leg bent and hugged his knee. Hearing Shao Ze's sigh, his eyes moved slightly.

Gu Yinian bought this dress for him. When he bought it, he said that white is easy to get dirty and he didn't want it, but Gu Yinian said that white suits him very well, and he really wants him to wear it.

In fact, white is really dirty. On the day of the car accident, Gu Yinian's blood was all over his body, the contrast of snow white and bright red was very eye-catching.

He went back and sent the down jacket for laundering. The clerk didn't want to accept it, saying it wasn't clean, but he insisted on washing it anyway.

In fact, it's good if you don't wash it clean, at least it can make him realize at all times that he was once covered with Gu Yinian's blood, and his life was given by him. In this way, he may hesitate for a while when he wants to die. For Gu Yinian's sake, live a little longer.

"By the way, brother, I heard from my aunt that you are very good at high mathematics. Well, see if you can..."

"No."

Seeing that Shu Xian refused so decisively, Shao Ze immediately fell down.

Shu Xian seemed to see a big golden retriever that was sticking out its tongue and wagging its tail, but suddenly drooped its ears, with an aggrieved expression on its face.

But it's not that he doesn't want to, he often shakes his hands now, and it's very difficult to write a name, let alone teaching people to write high-level math questions?

Shao Ze should be a happy big golden retriever, he doesn't need to take care of his emotions all the time like Gu Yinian, that would be too tiring.