Sir, I'm not good

The smell of cedar, which fills the nasal cavity, is cold and clean, which is a fascinating taste.

But Shu Xian was very afraid of this smell.

Since the time he was tagged by Gu Yinian after the bar last time, Shu Xian couldn't help but tremble every time he was tagged.

Alpha's pheromone already had an undeniable suppressive power against the marked Omega, coupled with the lingering psychological shadow, Shu Xian couldn't resist Gu Yinian no matter what.

So, after stubbornly confronting Gu Yinian for a few seconds, Shu Xian almost burst into tears, and finally gave up.

Forget it, just watch it if you want to.

Resigned to his fate, Shu Xian turned his head away, pulled up his left sleeve, half of his arm wrapped in gauze pierced his sight.

Gu Yinian frowned immediately.

In addition to doubts, there is still a dull pain in my heart.

"What's wrong with you?"

Gu Yinian asked, knowing that Shu Xian would not answer him, so he squatted down, reached out to hold Shu Xian's wrist, and began to remove the gauze.

"...I just tied it up."

Shu Xian was about to withdraw his arm as he spoke, but Gu Yinian grabbed it tightly.

"You tied it up? Didn't that child tie it up for you?"

"No."

"Then show me again how you tied a bow for yourself with one hand."

"...he tied it."

"Then I'll tear it down." Gu Yinian didn't seek Shu Xian's opinion, but simply informed him.

Shu Xian also gave up completely, and leaned back on the sofa with nothing to love.

Although he really wanted to force Xiang Qing to act first by getting close to Gu Yinian, but it didn't mean that he was willing to let Gu Yinian get close to him!

Moreover, the collision of Gu Yinian's pheromones was really too intense for his current body.

With the miscarriage and the injection of inhibitors, he could smell Gu Yinian's pheromone and feel like crying, as if all the blood vessels in his body were trembling.

"Farewell, I hurt..."

The swelling pain in the back of the neck really moved the whole body as if being torn apart, Shu Xian couldn't help it, and cried out in a low voice.

Gu Yinian had just removed half of the gauze, and before he had time to ask Shu Xian about the wound, he heard Shu Xian's trembling voice, and raised his head in a panic to look over.

At this moment, Omega's head was covered with sweat, his brows were furrowed, and uncontrollable pain leaked from his eyes.

"what happened to you?"

Gu Yinian got up quickly, wanting to support Shu Xian, but just as his hand reached the back of Shu Xian's neck, he felt the scalding heat.

Is this entering the estrous period?But this state is not like it?

"Don't look at me, if you mark me again, I'll die." Shu Xian gritted his teeth and said, shaking with pain all over his body.

Generally speaking, it is only Alpha pheromones that can stir up Omega pheromone chaos for no reason, so Gu Yinian hurriedly collected his pheromones.

"air purifier?"

"Over there at the restaurant..."

Gu Yinian hurried over and turned on the air purifier. As the pheromone concentration in the room decreased, Shu Xian gradually calmed down.

Suddenly, Gu Yinian remembered something, ignored Shu Xian's blocking eyes, walked to the trash can and looked inside, and sure enough, he saw the inhibitor box.

"Comfortable."

Gu Yinian cried out in a low voice, with a gloomy expression, as if he wanted to eat people.

Lying on the sofa, Shu Xian took a deep breath, beads of sweat hung on his face, when he heard the voice, he lazily raised his eyes and looked over: "What's wrong?"

"You'd better explain to me why you took inhibitors after the abortion!"

"I have no obligation to explain to you."

"...Your wound, only a fool would think it is domestic violence."

Gu Yinian walked up to Shu Xian quickly, and pulled Shu Xian's arm that was half wrapped in gauze.

The wound is on the inside of the forearm, and with this shape, it is obvious that Shu Xian scratched it with his nails.

He had asked the doctor that inhibitors should not be injected after miscarriage, otherwise it would cause pheromone disorder and lead to infertility, but looking at the kits in the trash can, it was obviously not a day or two.

It's almost self-harm.

Shu Xian looked at him: "So?"

"Go to the hospital."

Seeing Gu Yinian's serious eyes, Shu Xian was suddenly amused.

He propped up his weak body, raised his hand to grab Gu Yinian's tie, and yanked it down, pulling Gu Yinian to his eyes.

The two faces were so close at hand, Gu Yinian was frightened by Shu Xian's sudden movement, a trace of panic flashed in his eyes, and he didn't dare to move at all.

Shu Xian admired Gu Yinian's nervous expression for a few seconds, and then said softly, "Gu Yinian, are you worthy?"

Opening and closing his mouth, all the hot air poured on Gu Yinian's face, so warm, but the words he said were short and sharp, ridiculing and playful, without any concealment.

"I……"

Gu Yinian couldn't answer for a moment.

He realized that what Shu Xian said was right, he might be the most unworthy of caring about Shu Xian in this world, and Shu Xian would not appreciate his concern.

But even so, Shu Xian's state is obviously prone to depression.

He remembered the time when he went to the Second Courtyard to visit Shu Xian, the frail young man melted in the sunlight, facing the wide open window with his arms outstretched, like a bird about to jump into the sky.

Could it be that at that time Shu Xian had already...

"No, I have to go to the hospital!"

Thinking of this, Gu Yinian's original sadness disappeared in an instant, giving people an indisputable deterrent force.

Before Shu Xian could appreciate enough of Gu Yinian's wonderful expression changes, seeing Gu Yinian go back to this matter, he felt a little bored.

"Whatever you say, I won't go."

"Do your parents know about your situation?"

"You can go and tell them, it doesn't matter."

Shu Xian let go of Gu Yinian, and lay down on the sofa again, his eyes were a little tired, obviously he was determined not to move.

"Shu Xian, you can't go on like this, you are torturing yourself, can you cure yourself if you are sick?"

"Sick? It's not that I haven't had a psychological test. You should have checked my medical record, right? Don't you know the result?"

"Shu Xian..."

"Don't bother me."

Gu Yinian looked at the dead body on the sofa, and countless thoughts flashed through his mind.

For example, just pick him up and leave, or call the doctor here for diagnosis and treatment. If it is more brutal, it is not impossible to suppress it with pheromones.

But in the end, he gave up all his thoughts.

He could only lower his eyes and sigh helplessly.

He can't force Shu Xian anymore. If there is really a problem with Shu Xian's mental state, then he must be extremely sensitive and he can't be hard.

"Give up?" Seeing that Gu Yi Nian hadn't spoken or moved for a long time, Shu Xian asked without raising his head.

"……Um."

"Then let's talk about business. You came to me because of Xiang Qing's business?"

"……Yes."

Although the topic of Xiang Qing had been brought up, and this was indeed his purpose of coming to find Shu Xian, he was still thinking about how to persuade Shu Xian to go to the hospital.

Just like that, Gu Yinian sat on the sofa next to him absent-mindedly.

"I didn't expect you to be able to investigate so quickly. You are powerful enough? Yesterday, I said that I would pass on further information to you. Now it seems that I still underestimated you."

Shu Xian spoke lightly, with a relaxed tone, as if he was simply admiring Gu Yinian's investigative ability.

On the other hand, Gu Yinian had a serious face, crossed his hands and propped his chin, looking pensive, as if he wasn't listening to Shu Xian's words.

Because Gu Yinian didn't reply for a long time, Shu Xian finally got up from the sofa and looked over.

Well, I talked for a long time, but Gu Yinian didn't know what he was thinking, and sat there in a daze?

"Say something?"

Gu Yinian was awakened by Shu Xian's voice, and only then did he realize what Shu Xian said just now, and his expression became a little more serious.

"Xiang Qing...has indeed changed a lot over the years."

After pondering for a long time, Gu Yinian only said this sentence.

Although the words are very simple, they contain deep helplessness.

When Shen Xingran told him the results of the investigation, he felt as if he had been struck by lightning for a long time.

Even if he thinks about the unbearable deeds with Xiang Qing as the subject, he still doesn't want to believe it, and he can't believe it.

He was obviously such a clean and free-spirited young man, but now he has changed from the inside out.

If he only talked about the car accident, then he himself had doubts about Xiang Qing, even if it was confirmed, it would be expected.

But... why would a good person do such a thing?

Looking at Gu Yinian's expression, Shu Xian could feel his confusion, pain, and confusion.

Thinking about it, I can understand that my first love on campus, hidden behind a clean appearance, is full of filth.

No one can accept this kind of serious dislocation between ideal and reality.

It's yours too.

"Maybe you are wrong, sir, your love for Xiang Qing may have been misplaced in the first place."

Shu Xian leaned back on the sofa, pressed the button next to it, and the back of the chair automatically began to descend.

With the humming sound of the electric sofa, Shu Xian said: "Maybe what you like is just a memory, and you just attached that memory to a person."

You just gave Xiang Qing all the reckless memories of high school, and let Xiang Qing represent your beautiful student days and your youth.

Your love for him, perhaps to a certain extent, is also a nostalgia for yourself.

"...Maybe so."

Gu Yinian's drooping eyes contained too many emotions, Shu Xian's words seemed to have relieved him a lot, but it was even more difficult to let go.

If this is the case, then what did he lose for Xiang Qing?

He raised his head and looked at Shu Xian who was lying on the sofa, but Shu Xian didn't look at him at all.

He remembered that in the past, as long as Shu Xian felt his gaze, he would immediately look at him, and then smiled at him warmly, gentle and well-behaved.

But now, Shu Xian's gaze will never stay on him again.

Maybe he not only mistook Xiang Qing, but also mistook Shu Xian.

"I'm not here for an emotional counseling room. What's your purpose here?"

"...What is the meaning of what you told me?" Gu Yinian did not answer Shu Xian's question, but asked him instead.

Shu Xian didn't care too much, turned his head slightly, and smiled lightly, but it penetrated into people's hearts.

"I want you to give up on him and fall in love with me."

That's what Shu Xian said, calmly and directly.

[The author has something to say]:

Depression is actually much harder to bear, and the article is not comprehensive and not true.

Here I want to tell everyone that if you have a friend with depression, and if you are willing to help him, please gently and firmly persuade him to go to the hospital for diagnosis and treatment, don't learn from Gu Yinian and Yanyan, if you don't want to go, don't go!

If you, the lovely you, often feel depressed, easily feel pain over little things, have trouble concentrating, or even do stupid things like Yanyan, please go to the hospital for medical treatment. Don’t be afraid, it’s not surprising.

I love you all and live well.