please love me

"

I gritted my teeth and said vaguely: "I've never been a pervert!"

After I finished speaking, I collapsed on the ground, and vaguely heard Xuan Jinchen say: "You must be stubborn! Be careful! Next time I will directly find someone to take your turn, you gay."

Such words are really disgusting.

I stared at Xuan Jinchen fiercely, but he didn't take it seriously, and left with his brothers swaggeringly, as if he hadn't hit anyone just now.

Looking at their leaving figures, I can't imagine how many people have seen it.

Is that a group of people?

It was a group of evil demons.

I hate campus bullying, it is the most disgusting existence, and what disgusts me the most is that the group of perpetrators can live peacefully after the violence, as if it never happened.

They plant a terrible seed in the heart of the victim, which will germinate as the victim grows and can never be removed.

They are disgusting to the extreme, but they don't want to feel remorse for their actions.

I thought it was over like this, but I didn't expect to meet him again when I went back to school. I just walked to the bus stop that day and ran into him head-on.

Xuan Jinchen smoked a cigarette with a serious look on his face, followed by a few men, probably his younger brothers.

After seeing me, he didn't hit me like last time, he just looked at my suitcase and smiled very contemptuously.I ignored his smile and got in the car when it came.

After arriving at school, Jiang Shu and the others saw my injury and asked me what was the matter. I was not polite and said that Luo Sheng's brother Xuan Jinchen had hit me.

Luo Sheng was stunned at the time, and Chen Qi was not polite to him, like a cat whose hair has exploded. "Luo Sheng, why did your brother beat Jia Yi?"

"I don't know." Luo Sheng gritted his teeth and said sorry to me.

And what I need is not his sorry, but Xuan Jinchen's.

Chen Qi didn't talk to Luo Sheng for a week, and Jiang Shu didn't talk to Luo Sheng much.Oh, forgot that the two of them didn't talk much in the first place.

On the day of the holiday, Chen Qi angrily took me to find Xuan Jinchen. I wanted to stop him, but I couldn't. I can go with him to avoid any big troubles.I don't know what happened, but Xuan Jinchen didn't take his little brother with him that day, and he didn't ask someone to beat us.

Chen Qi pointed at his nose and cursed for a while, while Xuan Jinchen just stood there listening expressionlessly, without refuting.A lot of Xuan Jinchen's alumni from the same school gave Chen Qi a thumbs up with shocked faces.

I don't know how long he scolded, Xuan Jinchen looked at his watch and raised his eyes and asked Chen Qi if he could leave, Chen Qi's anger came up again.After talking with him for so long, this person has no regrets at all, nor does he have the heart to apologize.

Chen Qi insisted that Xuan Jinchen apologize to me, if Xuan Jinchen didn't apologize to me, he wouldn't let Xuan Jinchen go.At this time, I really admire Chen Qi, he told me before that he should stay away from Xuan Jinchen and not to mess with him.

Seeing that Xuan Jinchen didn't say anything, Chen Qi was about to fight him.Fortunately, Jiang Shu also came at this time, Xuan Jinchen took a look at the three of us, sneered and left.

Chen Qi wanted to catch up but was stopped by Jiang Shu and me. If we don't stop him, something will happen today.Jiang Shu asked Chen Qi to calm down, don't make this matter too big, it won't do any of us any good.

Chen Qi didn't give Jiang Shu a good face either, he kept saying that Jiang Shu didn't have brotherly loyalty, and his brother was calm when he was bullied.Jiang Shu reluctantly acquiesced.

In fact, I can understand Jiang Shu, this matter is too big, it is really not good for us, Jiang Shu is right.

Finally, under our persuasion, Chen Qi went back unhappy.After Chen Qi left, Jiang Shu told me that Luo Sheng would ask Xuan Jinchen to apologize to me.I don't care if Xuan Jinchen apologizes to me or not.

Although I'm not happy about it.

I went back with my things, and after I got back, I received a message from Luo Sheng, who apologized to me on behalf of Xuan Jinchen.

I just replied 'um' and turned off the phone. After eating, I wanted to go out for a walk, but Luo Jidong didn't stop me and let me go.

Not long after I left, I saw Xuan Jinchen drinking alone on a bench in the park. I wanted to leave, but Xuan Jinchen yelled at me: "Get over here and drink with me!"

I didn't want to talk to him at first, but he grabbed me and pressed me on the bench, insisting that I drink with him.I refused to drink, and he did not continue to force me to drink.

It seems that there is nothing wrong with high school students drinking, but I always feel strange that underage drinking is very harmful to the body.

Adult drinking is also harmful.

While drinking, he suddenly asked me if I hated him very, very much, and hated him. I thought about it and shook my head. I didn't hate him, nor did I hate him very, very much, but I just didn't like him.

He suddenly laughed and said that I was the first person who was beaten and bullied by him and still didn't hate him or hate him.I just want to say that I was only bullied by him once, so naturally there is no deep hatred.

"My father is dead, and my mother is still with a woman. How can my tutoring be any better? Who cares about me? My mother and that bitch went abroad to work, and she will give me a monthly salary. Sending money or making a phone call is like wronging her. Because of this, I was bullied by my elementary school classmates for three whole years." Xuan Jinchen smoked a cigarette, "I am a bad person, and I like to do bad things .”

I laughed, this is the first time I have heard someone say that they are a bad person, "No one is born a bad person. It is because of your personal reasons that you are unbalanced in your heart, so you do things like that But I'm just curious, every time you do that kind of thing, you don't feel a little bit guilty? Have you ever felt guilty about that victim? Can you answer me directly?"

Xuan Jinchen glanced at me, I didn't know what that meant, then he took out a cigarette and put it in his mouth, took a puff with a melancholy expression on his face, then slowly lowered his head, as if he was in deep thought.

I also sat there patiently and waited for him to answer my questions after he finished contemplating.I really want to know how a perpetrator like him feels every time he finishes his violence. If he doesn't even have the slightest bit of guilt, then I think this person is really inhuman.

But then I thought again, if there is a trace of guilt, then there will be no second violence if there is the first violence.

Maybe he really has no guilt, and asking these questions is purely my own cleverness.

I just wanted to say that I don’t need to answer my question, so he said: “Sometimes I think about it when I’m alone, but I just don’t want to change. I feel better because I bully others, and that’s why I commit violence. "

"Then have you ever thought about how painful it is for the person you raped?"

"Whether they hurt or not is none of my business!"

"Then you are them." I became very serious, "You can commit violence without restraint now, because you are a rich kid and you have the capital. But what about them? They don't. If your identities are swapped, what will you do? In this situation, the pressure is already great, and the pressure exerted by their family is not ruled out. Now that you are violent against them, have you never thought that your violence may be the last feather to kill them? You A feather is light and frightening, yet heavy and hateful. They are living beings. The blood on their bodies is hotter than the sun, and the ambitions in their hearts are even more hopeful. You killed them, and the sin you bore Won't it really take your breath away?"

"You say that about me, what about you?"

I was suddenly quiet and sat down, "Do you think that flower is beautiful?" Xuan Jinchen pointed to the most beautiful flower among the branches and asked Xuan Jinchen. He's going to wither, or he's already withered."

"Don't answer the question."

I got up and left, and I couldn't explain it all.I am neither a good person nor a bad person, just an ordinary person.

An ordinary man waiting for time to pass, bathed in darkness.

After I went back, I locked the door and started to do my homework and do my homework.I want to be admitted to a school far away from this place, far away from Luojidong, and this is all I need.

The scores in other provinces are generally quite high, and I have to work very hard to pass the exam.The results of the high school entrance examination have brought me sweetness, and I also want the college entrance examination to bring me surprises like the high school entrance examination.

Chapter 23

◎I thought the matter with Xuan Jinchen would end here, but I didn’t expect that during a vacation, because of Jiang Shu and Chen◎

I thought the matter with Xuan Jinchen would end here, but I didn’t expect that during a vacation, Jiang Shu and Chen Qi couldn’t go out because of something, so I had to go to buy study materials with Luo Sheng, and I met one of his former friends. brother.

That person was Yan Se, who once beat me together with Xuan Jinchen.He is not studying now, but working in a bookstore, maybe he is old enough.

I just wanted to buy the learning materials and leave. "Jia Yi." Yan Se stopped me, hesitated for a long time before handing me a letter in the bag, he lowered his head and dared not look at me, "Please hand this letter to Xuan Jinchen, Be sure to hand it over to him. Thank you..." He suddenly raised his head to look at me and bowed, "I apologize to you for what happened before, and it is a sincere apology."

Those things have long been out of my mind, and I can only say that his apology is rekindling my dissatisfaction.Luo Sheng pushed Yan Se with his hands, "Yan Se, don't let me give it to Xuan Jinchen, but Jia Yi, what do you think?"

Yan Se pushed the frame, "You and Jia Yi, I believe in Jia Yi more." Yes, Luo Sheng and Xuan Jinchen are good brothers,