please love me

At the end of the small bridge, a middle-aged man was sitting there drinking and waving at me.

I walked up by a strange coincidence, and the middle-aged man seemed to be drunk, sitting on the bridge with his face flushed.He looked at me and asked me: "Young man, you are a scholar. You said, is it worth spending your youth on another person who abandoned you?"

I was stunned, and replied: "Since I am willing to spend my youth on that person, it is still worth it in the end, but it does not mean that what that person did can be forgiven for the rest of my life."

He smiled and said, "It makes sense!"

Then he told me a story.

That summer, my uncle graduated from high school because of the person I liked.

His uncle worked part-time to earn money to support him and support him in his studies. He also worked very hard and was admitted to a very good university. During the four years of university, his uncle only met him a few times, but he would answer the phone calls, and the two could chat. for a long time.

But later, the two talked less and less. He was busy with his studies, and his uncle was busy with work, and each had his own pursuit.Once they had a quarrel, because when they were on the phone, a girl called him husband, the uncle was stunned, and the uncle asked him why there were girls in their male dormitory who called him husband.

He didn't give a positive answer, and there was a gap between the two.Later, after graduating from university, he broke up with his uncle, and even insulted his uncle with disgusting words.

Uncle took a sip of wine: "I don't understand why you have to care about what other people say when you like someone. You said it would be great if I was a woman. I broke up with me at that time, and I asked him why. He said because I'm a man, it's disgusting. Really, when the time comes, I'm thinking how nice it would be if I were a woman." He patted himself on the head fiercely, stood up and left on his own, and said Still muttering: "Why am I talking about this to the young man. It's disgusting, young man, leave me alone."

Looking at the back of the uncle leaving, I felt a little sad.

The love that is denied casually may be maintained by others with all their efforts.

I don't know if that uncle thinks what he's doing is not worth it, but I think it is.

Maybe he never liked his uncle from the beginning to the end, but just wanted to get benefits from him.Otherwise, even though they broke up because of worldly views, how could he be so determined to call his uncle disgusting?

Humans always put their own interests first.

Chapter 24

◎After the holiday, we became the third party of the senior high school, and became a real desperate Saburo. The pressure ratio of the third year of high school was high◎

After the holiday ended, we became the third party of senior high school, and became a real desperate Saburo. The pressure of the third year of senior high school was greater than that of the second year of high school. Many students were in a state of emotional breakdown in the third year of high school. In our class, students often wrote questions, wrote and wrote The thing about breaking down and crying.I also heard that a classmate in the class next door committed suicide by jumping off the building because of too much pressure.

The specific reason seems to be that his family put a lot of pressure on him, and finally, the pressure of facing the high school entrance examination pushed him to a dead end, and he chose extreme ways to solve the matter.

To be honest, the college entrance examination is much more stressful than the senior high school entrance examination. Some students in the third year of senior high school repeated their studies. His pressure was even heavier than ours. Every time I saw him, he was studying, including eating and going to the bathroom.

Every time I see him, I can see this word on his face.I heard from the students in their class that he hasn't said a word to his classmates since he resumed his studies, and they are all studying.

I think this kind of study will only break the body. If the day of the college entrance examination results in abnormal performance due to physical reasons, all previous efforts will be in vain. Is it worth it?Repeat again?

Some people may choose to continue reading, but I think that reading is like a machine, and what you get in the end is only mechanized knowledge, without any "human flavor" to speak of.

Many students regard themselves as machines to learn, thinking that as long as they work hard, they will definitely get the results they want.

We are all looking for what we want, relying on our youthful and reckless pursuit, leaving a lot of things behind.

Yes, what you want is what you lose.

My junior high school teacher once said such a sentence. She said that mechanized learning will only lead people to mechanization, but people are not machines. One day, the body will collapse due to excessive use of the brain.

I don't know when it started, the grades are like chains that lock the hands and feet of the students all the time, and their competition is more like life and death.

Many parents define their children as hopeless in life if they don’t study, and children with poor grades will have no chance to succeed in the future.

I think most of them are for the future of the children, but what about the rest?I think it's a competition between parents, and parents want their children to make up for their regrets.

What has become of that child?Children are children.

Tool man?no.

Are they wrong?no.

"One point is worth tens of thousands of people" is what I heard in high school, and "One point is worth thousands of people" is what I heard when I was in junior high school.

So one point has become a luxury for many people, why?

I have heard that a difference of only one point and a book miss, and I have also heard that a difference of only 0.5 points and a high miss miss.

□□Naked numbers are like beasts imprisoned in an ancient castle waiting for people to tame them. If you are not careful, they will become food in the mouth of the beasts. Now all efforts are to get props to tame the beasts.

Gradually, it seems that it has evolved into "living" and working hard.

Maybe it's because I'm too emotional that I have such a mentality.It may be that I had the idea of ​​committing suicide because of these pressures when I was in the middle school entrance examination, so I thought so.

Now I seem to be able to see it. I have done my best. If I miss what I want in the end, although I have regrets, I don’t regret it.

Me, Chen Qi and Jiang Shu agreed to be admitted to the same university, but Luo Sheng didn't like the school we chose, so he chose another one, so be it.

After we graduated from high school, Mr. Jiang also resigned from this job. He went to the place where Wang Ming lives now and became a teacher there. He said that Wang Ming's father was gone, but he still had a father when Wang Ming was still there.He will replace Wang Ming's father and continue to take care of Wang Ming's family.

I had a question in my mind, but I didn't ask him.

He is gone, his wife is gone, what about his wife?This is unfair to his wife.

Later, I learned from Chen Qi that Teacher Jiang had divorced a long time ago.

I admit that for a moment I thought Mr. Jiang was wrong, because he seemed to treat marriage as a child's play, playing with a woman's marriage.

But I have to admit that this is reality.

Mr. Zhang harmed Wang Ming's father for the secular world, and because Wang Ming's father divorced his ex-wife, he hurt two people.

There are many people like Teacher Jiang, but what we know is Teacher Jiang's story.

After we graduated, Zhang Yi and Jiang Xiaoya were admitted to the same school and got together successfully. Although they were hindered by Jiang Xiaoqian when they wanted to be together, fortunately Jiang Xiaoqian finally figured it out.

Qu Liu was admitted to the university that Jiang Xiaoqian was admitted to, but Si Yu and Yan Han were not so lucky. Not only did they not get admitted to the same school, but they were from two different regions.

Yan Han was worried to death because of this matter, but he discussed with Xu Liu not long after that he wanted to confess to Si Yu in front of everyone and told us that the two of them were officially together.

Because Chen Qi's family had something to do, he went back to the city where his parents lived, and didn't know about it, so Jiang Shu, Luo Sheng and I were the only ones to go.The people that day were the same as those who went to the playground last time, only one Chen Qi was missing.

Yan Han bought a large bouquet of roses, and the rest of us watched from the sidelines. When our protagonist Si Yu came on stage, Si Yu came in a hurry. When he saw Yan Han handing him a large bouquet of roses , he was stunned.

We thought he would be very touched, but he said: "Rose... are expensive."

"what?"

"...roses...are expensive..."

"Not expensive. Does it look good?"

"Expensive ones... I heard from others that it costs more than ten yuan a piece..." Si Yu lowered his head, his voice was so low that he could barely hear it.

"You deserve it." Yan Han smiled and stuffed the rose in Si Yu's hand, "Do you like it?"

Si Yu looked at the rose in his hand and shook his head, then returned the rose plug to Yan Han.Suddenly, Yan Han's smile froze.

We all walked aside tacitly to give them space.

"Then what flowers do you like? I'll buy them for you."

Si Yu shook his head, "Yan Han, save your money well, there are many places to use it... There is no need to spend it on me..."

"It's not much. Besides, as long as you're happy, I don't mind spending money."

Si Yu's body froze suddenly, he gritted his teeth and said, "We are not suitable."

As soon as these words came out, we all held our breath and focused our eyes on Yan Han. Yan Han's eyes widened, his face was full of panic, and he was afraid that he would scare Si Yu, so he said in a trembling voice : "Why is it inappropriate!"

At that moment, I seemed to understand what Si Yu meant when he said that it was inappropriate.Si Yu's family is not rich, and people say they are still in debt, but Yan Han's family is different from Si Yu's family, their family can be regarded as a wealthy family in the city.

If you have someone to refer to, you can refer to Luo Sheng. Yan Han's family is a little worse than Luo Sheng's.

The gap between rich and poor is huge.

Si Yu is not a girl, and a man's self-esteem will be stronger. Facing this kind of gap between rich and poor, he must have some low self-esteem.But I think, no matter who puts this kind of thing on, there will be some inferiority complex.Their love is destined to be like this.

It kind of reminds me of Cinderella and the Prince, but with Cinderella turned into a male Cinderella, it's just... special.

Then they were both silent for a while