please love me

, make me shy?

"Ask knowingly." I paused, and put a large piece of abalone into Luo Sheng's mouth, "Eat a piece of food to expand your little thoughts."

He burst out laughing, I glared at him, and he stopped immediately, continuing to work with a lot of things in his hands.

When paying the bill, Luo Sheng suddenly suggested that we use the AA system.I couldn't figure it out, and finally I was really curious and asked him. He said that this was our first official date, and the man should pay the bill logically, but we are both men, and the AA system would be better.No one will be the woman, so that they respect each other more.But he also said that when we get married in the future, whoever puts the money and whoever goes out has to settle the bill.

"Don't worry, all my money will be yours from now on." Luo Sheng took my hand and smiled at me for a long time. "You don't have to worry that a man will turn bad if he has money. I trust you."

I also laughed, maybe he is the only person who can say such a thing.What an idiot, how did I not notice this before?Maybe he has changed too much.

He was not like this before, he lost his temper every now and then, which made people angry.Thinking of this reminded me of every time he quarreled with me back then, every time he was killed, he lost his temper at me for no reason, saying what was wrong with Jiang Shu.

The grumpy one wanted to punch me a few times at that time.

After lunch, we went for a stroll again, and played around in the fun places around, and it was already evening after we finished playing.

The two of us walked back together again.

It was windy at night, and it was a little cold.The cars speeding on the road don't know what they are busy with, and the feasting and feasting in the city has made many people lose their hearts.

When we walked to the park, we found a place where no one was around and sat down, just sitting quietly like this.Luo Sheng suddenly asked me: "Have you ever imagined our marriage?"

"No."

It's true, I really never imagined us getting married.What should two men marry?I think marriage is just a ceremony, a ceremony that a man must give to a woman.

But Luo Sheng and I don't need this ceremony.

We are both two men, as long as we know that the other party loves us, it is enough to add a pair of rings.

If necessary, you can also go abroad to get a marriage certificate, like sister Chen Xiang and sister Xiaoli.They should be living happily abroad now.

"Then think about it now."

"I don't know how to wear a wedding dress." I was teasing him because I knew he wanted someone he loved to wear a wedding dress for him.I have a shadow on womenswear, but I believe I can still break through that shadow.

I wear it for Luo Sheng, I think I can do it.

After all, love is a very great thing that can give people many things. Courage should be insignificant to love.

Perhaps in the moment we are together, love has given us courage.

For us, this era is not yet an era where we can be together in a fair manner, and people still have a lot of prejudice against it.

I remember one year when it was voted to decide whether homosexuals could marry. I went to check, and the number of votes rejecting far exceeded the number of votes supporting it.Those votes may no longer be just votes, but a deep thorn in the hearts of homosexuals.

"Of course, we have suits."

At that moment, I didn't expect him to say such a thing. Luo Sheng always likes to be submissive.I still remember when he just started high school, he said firmly that he would marry a beautiful wife in his life and put on the whitest wedding dress for him.

"Don't you want to marry a beautiful wife and let her put on a wedding dress for you? Now you don't want to?"

"You are not a woman, I don't need to force you to do what you don't want to do, love is mutual respect."

I looked at him and smiled, "Can I lean on you?" He nodded, opened his hands, and I slowly leaned on him, feeling the heat from his body. Reached out and took me in his arms.At that moment, I felt so safe.

We stayed together quietly like this, looking at the tall buildings in the distance.I closed my eyes and asked Luo Sheng, "Is there light in this world?"

It took about a minute or two for him to reply me with this sentence: "Light is everywhere."

"Really……"

"Ah."

I closed my eyes, stretched out my hand and stroked Luo Sheng's face, I was secretly happy, in this dark world, I finally felt the light.

He has been.

My mother once told me that boys should be relied on when they grow up, not others.But now I think, sometimes relying on the one I love is also a kind of happiness.

We just felt each other's temperature quietly like this, no one came to disturb us.At this moment, Luo Chen suddenly lowered his head and said outside: "Jia Yi, listen to me. The person who loves you is Luo Sheng. He knows that you like daisies. He knows all your habits. He is willing to love you forever. You. He is not a very romantic person, and of course you are not a person who likes romance. But if you like romance now, he can work hard to be romantic. He just wants to love you, please give him this chance, he Will love you forever. Jia Yi, did you hear that?"

I smiled, with tears streaming down my face, and replied: "Jia Yi said he heard it, and he said he doesn't need romance, as long as you love him forever."

"Of course I will always love Jia Yi." Luo Sheng lowered his head and kissed me, then said: "Luo Sheng will always love Jia Yi."

I have remembered this sentence all my life, but I have not believed it all my life.

Chapter 35

◎My brain is getting worse and worse, and my memory is getting worse. After a long time, I told Jiang Shu and Chen Qi about our love affair.

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My brain is getting worse and worse, and my memory is getting worse and worse. After a long time, I told Jiang Shu and Chen Qi about our love affair.

At that time, Chen Qi asked how long we had been together, and I replied that it had been a month or two, and he was furious at that time, saying that I was really not good enough buddies, and only told them after we had been together for a month or two.

I didn't refute it. Indeed, I forgot a lot of things after being with him. Could it be that the legendary happiness will make people have a bad memory?

Chen Qi was very shocked at first, but later he accepted it. Jiang Shu was very calm. He seemed to have guessed that such a day would come.

The three of us drank some wine, Jiang Shu and Chen Qi rented a house very close to here, they walked back, and I took a taxi back.When I went back, I found that the lights in the house were on, and I felt sick all of a sudden, did Luo Jidong come again?When will you let me go...

I opened the door with a sullen face, looked at the sofa with empty eyes, and found that no one was sitting on the sofa, but there was a sound in the kitchen. Only then did I feel relieved, it must be Luo Sheng.

I went to the kitchen and looked in.Sure enough, it was Luo Sheng who was cooking in the kitchen.Luo Sheng turned to look at me, smiled and asked if he had gone out for a walk, I shook my head and replied that he had gone drinking with Jiang Shu and the others.

As soon as these words came out, Luo Sheng frowned, and his voice lowered unconsciously, saying that I usually don't drink alcohol, it hurts my health, and it's very dangerous to get drunk at such a late hour.

I wasn't talking, just looking at him.Since being with Luo Sheng, as long as he is around, I can always feel the warmth of home.He will cook for me, will consider my feelings, as long as I am happy, he can do anything, I am not happy, he will coax me.

It's like trying to spoil me, a big man, into a little girl.

It would be nice if it could always be like this.

I have never done anything wrong. God insisted on giving me such difficult problems, sending such a father to send me into the abyss, and letting such a pervert to torture me, making me lose myself alive.

During that time, I don't know how I laughed. I tried my best to cover up all my misfortunes, but did I really cover up in the end?

Forget it, it's different now anyway.I will find freedom sooner or later, I want Ro Ji Dong to pay for what he did, I want him to feel guilty for what he did.

I also want to be with Luo Sheng forever.He has no parents, and neither do I.I will not admit that that person is my father, without the grace of nurturing, that trace of blood relationship also disappeared forever when he sold me to Luo Jidong, I think so in my heart.

Both of us are abandoned orphans. I hope we can germinate in the spring, enjoy the shade under the big tree in the summer, survive until the harvest in the autumn, and then hug each other to keep warm in the winter.

I hope we can light each other's lamp. Although life has passed, it will always be hot.

Choosing to die in order to live, death will lead us to find the hope of life and the freedom we belong to.

I am afraid of death, but I yearn for death.I long to be free, but I am trapped in a cage.I don't know what it means to live with hope, I only know that people need to work hard to live.

What am I fighting for?Struggle for freedom?Fighting for hope?Still fighting for love?

When I questioned myself over and over again, Luo Sheng's voice brought me back to reality.He asked me to go to the living room, I went, sat at the dining table, and he brought a lot of delicious food, all of which I liked at a glance.

Finally, he brought a bowl of hangover soup, and he asked me whether I should eat something first or drink the hangover soup first, I chose to eat something first, after all, he should have been doing it for a long time.

His cooking skills are really getting better and better, and he really likes my appetite. Seeing that I like to eat, he scooped up a bowl of rice for me and sat down to eat with me.

While eating by himself,