Enlightenment

Earlier, I heard from Yu Yuhong that Jing Xi was dumped by a straight man five years ago, and then became seriously ill and stayed in the hospital.

They were talking about Jing Xi here, while Jing Xi was talking to the camera on the other side of the hospital.

Lying on the hospital bed was a man with a pale face. Due to the torment of the disease, he was very thin, even skinny.

He's a bit scary on camera.

"Chen Kuan, long time no see. Are you happy now? It has been five years, three months and fourteen days since we separated, and it is already 3 o'clock in the afternoon today, so if we count the time we separated in hours, it is probably Forty-six thousand, three hundred and one hours, counting minutes, it is about 310 minutes, counting seconds, it is about one hundred and sixty-six thousand and seventy-eight thousand and six hundred seconds."

"This is not a small amount. I used to always feel that time passed too slowly. When will you fall in love with me. Now think about how fast time flies. We separated before we had time to love."

"I saw the picture you posted when I was browsing Moments. The baby is very cute, and his eyes and nose are also very similar to yours...cough cough cough..."

When the wind blows, Jing Shi subconsciously looks up.

The wind blows, it says, you still love me, but it tells me again, it lied to me.

Jing Xi suddenly covered her mouth and coughed, and when she regained her breath, she looked at the window and smiled weakly, "Whenever you think of me, please look down at the land, I was buried in this land." Facing the camera , He choked up, turned his head to wipe away his tears, and smiled very far-fetchedly, "My body rotted in the ground and became one with the soil. I hope I can be the mud under your feet, and at least I can touch you." .”

"I want to say, I actually had a crush on you when I was in junior high school. At that time, I thought I was perverted, whether I was sick or not. Later, I faced up to my own orientation and started to please you. I was really confused. I actually I fell in love with the brother I grew up with since I was a child."

"Actually, I didn't want to go to Sichuan University back then. I wanted to go to Wuhan University. I wanted to go to Wuhan University to see cherry blossoms. But you said you wanted to go to Sichuan to see changing faces and eat hot pot. You said you yearned for Sichuan. That's why I gave up Wuhan University and chose Sichuan University. Big with you."

"My favorite subject is not chemistry. You know, I have never been good at chemistry. I learned a little by working hard. I... like history. But you like chemistry, I... don't talk about it."

"I... also know that you are straight from the beginning to the end, and being with me is just a temporary novelty. I don't mean to blame you, I just want you to understand that I am not stupid, I just pretend to be stupid in front of you all the time Pretending, pretending, I forgot what I was like before, during the two years I was with you, you should think I was disgusting and ridiculous."

"But I'm really happy. I thank you for the two years you gave me. I've never been that happy in my life. You know, my dad was an alcoholic, and he beat my mom to death when he got drunk. I grew up I have never experienced love and happiness, so after being with you, I am so presumptuous. Thank you for tolerating me."

"Actually, I went there when you got married. In fact, it was too lively and there were too many people. You didn't notice me. I saw that you were smiling happily, so I didn't think of disturbing your interest in the past. What's more... When you exchanged rings with your wife, I thought it would be great if I was the one who exchanged wedding rings with you. I will definitely die happily. "

"Do you remember? You asked me later why I didn't go to your wedding. At that time, I felt very wronged. But when I thought about it, I blamed myself for being too inconspicuous, and I didn't go up to say hello to you. The one who owes you all the time "Happy Newly Married, I'll give it to you now. Happy Newly Married! Sorry for talking so much nonsense."

"Break up with me. You're right."

"My former... lover."

After recording, he broke down and cried.This is not the first time he has recorded it, and what he said is different every time.

But despite recording it several times, he still couldn't help it.This was the last time he recorded, but he didn't want to give this video to Chen Kuan.

Now that we have broken up, why bother with others.

He is straight...

I was with him before but just for a change of taste occasionally...

That's it...

Always been this way……

It's just that I was too stupid, I always thought that he would fall in love with me...

It has been the fifth year since he got married, and this year he happens to be 30 years old.

It was the age of marriage that he had been naively begging him for a long time before agreeing to.

Thinking about it now, how stupid was he back then? With his temper, he couldn't have waited so long before settling down.

From the beginning, it was just a fantasy for myself.

Finally, record a video, which can be considered as a unilateral farewell to him.

He called Yu Yuhong, "Hello? Brother Xihong."

"Huh? Is there something wrong?"

"Can I do you a favor?"

"Of course. You say."

"You come to the hospital tomorrow and help me deliver a box to Chen Kuan, okay?"

"..." The phone fell silent, and after about tens of seconds, Yu Xuan's deep voice rang out again, "Well, it's fine. You should rest in peace and recuperate now, and don't think about unlucky people."

"Brother Yan, he is not."

Yu Xiong sighed, Jing Xi has always been the same and has never changed.Chen Kuan didn't know how to cherish and love, and hurt him time and time again, but he still speaks for Chen Kuan.

"Okay, no. I was wrong."

After hanging up the phone, Yu Yuhong couldn't come back to his senses for a long time. What made him unable to accept was that Chen Kuan had hurt Jing Xi so deeply. He was thinking about Chen Kuan everywhere, and even left things for Chen Kuan.

What the hell is Jing Shi doing all of this?Chen Kuan was originally a straight man, and he was with Jing Xi just for fun, to make something new, besides, he was married now and even had a child.

When will the obsession in Jing Xi's heart dissipate?

The next day Yu Yuhong went to the hospital, and when he heard the sound of glass breaking outside the ward, he rushed into the ward to check.

In the eyes, Jing Cheng was leaning against the bed and coughing, with shards of glass under his feet. Yu Yuhong stepped forward to support him and yelled for the nurse, but Jing Cheng stopped him.

"Brother Huan...cough cough cough...don't call me a nurse, I'm already in this state, there's no way I can save it."

"Don't talk nonsense, as long as we are willing to heal, we will be fine. You sit here, and I will go to the doctor right away."

"Farewell...Brother Xiong." Jing Xi held Yu Yuxuan tightly and refused to let him go, "Living on medicine all day long and enduring the pain caused by illness, I am too tired to live ..."

The moment Jing Xi entered the hospital, he knew that there was no way to cure his disease. It was really hard for him to barely survive this year.

Yu Yuhong looked at him distressedly, but couldn't come out with comforting words.

"Brother Yan, I had a dream last night."

"What dream?"

"I dreamed that I became a girl, and Chen Kuan married me." Jing Xi smiled softly, the smile was extremely bitter, "When he was about to put a ring on me, I woke up from the pain. I desperately I want to go back to sleep and complete the final wedding, but I can't dream of it again..."

"Could it be that God can't see how cheap I am, so he deliberately tortured me. Seeing how sad I am..."

"I used to think that since I can't shine, I should light a candle myself. Anyway, there is always a way to illuminate the road ahead. If I can't illuminate the road ahead, I will go to the end and find the light. .But now that I've reached the end, I still haven't found the light."

"It only appeared once and then disappeared."

"I used to always think..." Jing Shi smiled weakly, "I always thought that others were sorry for me, but I forgot that I gave them the opportunity to be sorry for me."

"I'm so stupid..."

Jing Shi passed away in the sun, and he left cleanly.

After dealing with Jing Xi's matter, Yu Xiong was about to bring the box to Chen Kuan, but accidentally discovered the video recorded by Jing Xi.The fact that the phone was not in the box meant that Jing Xi didn't want Chen Kuan to know about the video.

Yu Yanxuan clicked on the video, and after watching it, his nose was sore. It was his loss that Chen Kuan didn't cherish such a person.

Yu Yuhong put the mobile phone in the box on his own initiative, and took it to Chen Kuan.He asked Chen Kuan to meet at the restaurant, and as soon as Chen Kuan entered the room, he handed the box to Chen Kuan.

Chen Kuan took the box in surprise, and cast a puzzled look at Yu Yuhong, who motioned him to open the box.

He slowly opened the box, and when the contents of the box appeared in front of his eyes, he paused, and reached out to pick up the necklace with trembling hands.

"This is……"

"You don't have eyes to see?"

How could Chen Kuan not recognize this necklace?It was given to Jing Xi by him at the beginning, and the two names were engraved on it.

At that time, he still told Jing Xi affectionately, what a romantic thing this is.

"OK." Yu Yu got up and put on the mask, "I delivered the things, and I will never see you again."

"Wait, what happened to Jing Xi? I got married and he didn't come, so I..."

"He's dead. No one will pester you in this world anymore, are you happy?"

Yu Yuhong left, leaving Chen Kuan sitting alone in the restaurant holding the necklace in a daze.

There are many other things in the box, each of which was given to Jing Xi by Chen Kuan when they first fell in love.He didn't know if all the things he gave Jing Xi back then were here, because he didn't remember what he gave him at all, and the only thing that impressed him the most was this necklace.

He began to reflect on whether he and Jing Shi were together.