limited first love

On the day they first met, Guo Wei only had a rough impression of what he said and what he did.

When he tried to recall the details, the clearest image that emerged in his mind was the way Ruan Yiyun looked at him with his eyebrows bent.

After reminiscing countless times, Guo Wei is still moved by it.

"When you stopped me that day, what were you thinking?" Ruan Yiyun asked.

Guo Wei's memory of this is also vague.

He guessed that at that time, he might not be able to think in a complete and systematic way, and what he had was just dizzy, excited and buoyant.

It must be described in words, and probably it can only be sentences such as "he smiled", "he is so good-looking", "so charming", "how can he be so beautiful", and it would be embarrassing to say it.

He didn't make a sound, Ruan Yiyun said again: "My thoughts at that time should be similar to yours."

Guo Wei immediately said: "How is that possible!"

"Why is it impossible?" Ruan Yiyun asked him back.

"I'm not the type to make people fall in love at first sight," Guo Wei said, "unless your aesthetic is different from ordinary people."

Ruan Yiyun laughed: "It's not a matter of beauty or ugliness. At that moment, you looked very...very special in my eyes."

Guo Wei vaguely understood what he meant.

What is special is not myself, but the most appropriate moment.

"For the first time in my life, I have a sense of fate," Ruan Yiyun laughed again, with sweet joy that could not be concealed in his tone, "It seems that fate is telling me that it is willing to favor me."

Guo Wei raised his hand and pressed it on his left chest.His cheeks were slightly hot, but the words he said were still unusually awkward: "So, if it wasn't me or someone else stopped you that day, would you still be moved?"

Ruan Yiyun was amused and helpless: "How can there be another person who spreads luck by distributing bottle caps on the street?"

"...If I strike up a conversation with you one day earlier or one day later, at a different time and way, will you not talk to me?"

"You see, it is precisely because everything is the best arrangement," Ruan Yiyun said, "that's why at that moment I felt from the bottom of my heart that I was indeed lucky."

What to do, it makes sense, it makes people happy to hear it.

He asked cautiously, "You fell in love with me at first sight?"

Ruan Yiyun thought for a while: "I have developed a strong curiosity about you, and I want to talk to you again, and want to know you better. Every time I see you after that, I have gained more happiness than I expected."

"But tell Chen Zui that I look stupid." Guo Wei said.

"……Have it?"

"Yes!" Guo Wei emphasized, "I don't remember the original words, but it's almost the same meaning anyway, you say I'm easy to lie!"

"Uh, I don't remember, maybe I said that because..." Ruan Yiyun's tone was a little awkward, "I was a little excited after you ran away, and I wanted to talk to someone right away but I was afraid of being laughed at... If I were the last one with Chen The man said, I met a Beta just now, he has white skin and looks so cute, and his smile is so obedient and pure, my heart beats like crazy, he can laugh at me for a year."

"..."

"This guy is very cheap," Ruan Yiyun said, "he later found out that I was serious about you, and made fun of me crazily every day."

Guo Wei thought, my heartbeat is messed up now.

"Forget it," he said generously, "Guess you're talking nonsense. You told him you wanted to tease me, but you didn't do anything. I was chasing you unilaterally."

"Uh..." Ruan Yiyun hesitated to speak, and finally smiled, "Mmm, hehe."

"Fortunately, I am active enough!" Guo Wei said.

Ruan Yiyun's tone softened a bit: "...but you can't doubt my feelings for you."

"Because what you said at that time seemed to be just taking advantage of me..." Guo Wei said.

"How casual is this?" Ruan Yiyun said, "How can liking someone be casual?"

"..."

"Can I still make myself fall in love with you premeditatedly?" Ruan Yiyun asked, "The only thing I can win is your liking for me."

Love is an instinct, it is difficult to shape, it cannot be forced, and no one can decide whether it comes or goes.

Of course Guo Wei understands, he has experienced it and is experiencing it.

"If I didn't like you, I wouldn't be able to complete the split so smoothly," Ruan Yiyun said, "This will never happen."

Guo Wei couldn't help laughing, but soon remembered another key question: "Then you should have told me from the beginning!"

"...How to put it into words, I will soon become an Alpha because I like you so much, you are ready?" Ruan Yiyun said, "What if I scare you away?"

Guo Wei was still thinking about the hurtful words in the chat records, and muttered: "If you run away, Beta is everywhere anyway."

"No, I only have one husband," Ruan Yiyun said, "I'll cry to death if I run away."

Guo Wei touched his nose: "I won't run away."

At the moment when he fell in love with Ruan Yiyun, he never thought about Ruan Yiyun's gender.If he had known in advance, he would probably be coaxed into submission in shock and bewilderment. He was sure that he had no resistance to Ruan Yiyun.

Just like now, he has no temper at all.

For Ruan Yiyun, the initial heartbeat may have been mixed with many other factors.The starting point of this relationship comes from the right time, place and people.

Guo Wei suddenly laughed.

"Do you remember, I told you before," he whispered while holding the phone, "If one day, I find myself living in a huge reality show, everything around me is fake, and you just play my lover Then I will summon up the courage to invite you after I am sad, and ask if you would like to have a real date with me after work."

"I remember," Ruan Yiyun said, "I am willing."

"Great!" Guo Wei said.

To put it another way, he fell in love at the most suitable moment and approached him without hesitation, only in exchange for Ruan Yiyun's heartbeat at that limited moment.

He is random, just, inevitable, and irreplaceable.He is a lucky Beta drawn by fate.

The more Guo Wei thought about it, the more he felt that not long ago he was completely mediocre.

What matters to those who need to foster differentiation is not the love of a Beta, but the possession of a beloved Beta.In the past, Ruan Yiyun couldn't differentiate for a long time, and he was troubled by it, wasn't it because it was something he couldn't force?

This matter that Ruan Yiyun tried to hide for a while, turned out to be the best testimony of Ruan Yiyun's heart.

It proves that before meeting him, Ruan Yiyun had never been attracted to anyone. After meeting him, the long-term distress disappeared with the first love.

Even if everything was just sophistry just now, Ruan Yiyun's division itself is telling him that he loves him.

"You are really lucky to meet me!" Guo Wei told him proudly.

Ruan Yiyun asked cautiously after laughing: "Aren't you angry?"

Guo Wei tried his best to show the last bit of toughness: "I still don't mind that you deliberately hid the fact that I will split up."

"I'm sorry, I was wrong." Ruan Yiyun said quickly.

Guo Wei was not easily fooled this time: "I can't tell there is any sincerity."

"How do you want me to make up for it?" Ruan Yiyun asked.

Guo Wei thought for a while, then said: "Don't hide it from me because of this reason in the future, it won't do anything if you tell me."

"Yes," Ruan Yiyun replied softly, "Okay."

"If I knew it from the beginning, I wouldn't be overwhelmed by preconceived thinking and be so stimulated," Guo Wei continued, "I'm a Beta, so I can accept it."

"Beta is so good, Beta is the most perfect gender in the world," Ruan Yiyun said, "Guo Wei is the cutest Beta in the world, rounded up, he is the most beautiful person in the world."

Guo Wei was ashamed and embarrassed: "Enough is enough."

"Not enough, but if my husband doesn't want to hear it for the time being, then I'll save it for another time." Ruan Yiyun said.

Guo Wei blushed, thinking, those who were treated coldly by Ruan Yiyun must never have imagined that he would have such a side.

It is impossible for anyone to stand up to it.

"You haven't told me yet, how can I make up for it?" Ruan Yiyun asked.

Unexpectedly, he didn't pretend to be stupid when the topic was brought up, and his attitude was quite correct.

Guo Wei couldn't think of any ideas for a while, so he simply asked, "You...you tell me, when did you really realize that you like me?"

Ruan Yiyun thought for a while, then replied: "It seems... the day of our first date, after we separated."

"It's not right!" Guo Wei was alert.

At that time, they had clearly established their relationship, and Ruan Yiyun even took the initiative to kiss him on the cheek.The order was reversed, and Ruan Yiyun's love motives became suspicious again.

"It's not wrong. I was walking towards the dormitory and thinking, why did I start to miss him, why I couldn't help kissing him, and why I was so happy to see him smile. I clearly thought about it, but slowly Come on, don't be too eager, it's easy to scare people, but you can't do it at all," Ruan Yiyun said. Can't help it."

"... Oh." Guo Wei nodded.

"Recalling it now, I feel very happy." Ruan Yiyun said.

"Yeah." Guo Wei nodded vigorously.

"After that, I started to worry again...would you mind my gender?" Ruan Yiyun's tone sank slightly, "I couldn't sleep all night thinking about it."

Guo Wei suddenly regretted it.He shouldn't have called Ruan Yiyun at this moment.

If only I could get up early today to meet Ruan Yiyun and have a face-to-face conversation.That way, he could stretch out his arms to hug him and kiss him when Ruan Yiyun said these words.

It's the most stupid thing in the world to keep the conflict in your heart and make a unilateral quarrel.

People have mouths for expressing, and after expressing, they can also be used for kissing.

"Let's make a video!" Guo Wei said.

If you can't touch it, at least you can still see the other person's appearance, or deceive yourself, he wants to kiss him through the screen.

Ruan Yiyun naturally had no objection.

The video was connected quickly and smoothly. Ruan Yiyun in the screen was still smiling, but Guo Wei keenly caught a trace of abnormality.

"...Do you have dark circles under your eyes?" he asked.

Ruan Yiyun immediately raised his hand to cover his eyes.After a few seconds, the brightness of the screen on the phone suddenly increased, and when he put down his hand, he couldn't see anything anymore.

"Don't deceive yourself!" Guo Wei said, "You really have dark circles!"

Ruan Yiyun sighed helplessly, and smiled wryly: "So, if you have something unhappy in the future, just say it, don't cold me. I really won't be able to sleep."

Guo Wei's heart twitched, and he held the broken phone and kissed the camera very hard: "I promise! Never again!"

Ruan Yiyun nodded with a smile, and said, "Well, let's not talk about this, let's start?"

"Start what?" Guo Wei was puzzled.

"You want to make a video call with me, isn't it because of the appointment?" Ruan Yiyun said.

Guo Wei blinked his eyes dully twice.

Ruan Yiyun was serious: "Are your parents at home? Go and lock the door."