fall in love, pass by

Xia Weiwei was wearing a brown mid-length fur, black leather trousers on her lower body, and a pair of black stiletto boots on her feet, making her taller and taller. Her long chestnut hair was scattered on her shoulders, she had a sweet smile, a quiet expression, and an intimate hug. holding Ke An's arm, and Ke An was holding a large and small shopping bag in his hand. It was obvious that they had just come out of shopping. The moment he saw Jian Yifan, the panic on Ke An's face was clearly visible, and he was a little caught off guard. Looking at Jian Yifan, he even forgot to take out the arm held by Xia Weiwei,

Jian Yifan's mind was almost blank for a moment, he moved his pale lips and asked Ke An, "You, why are you here?"

"I, I..." Ke An was speechless, his eyes flickering as he looked at Jian Yifan.

Xia Weiwei didn't notice the unusual atmosphere between the two, she thought for a while and suddenly said, "Oh, I remember you, you are Ke An's roommate, what is your name Fan? Why are you here? You are still on vacation now So, are you a local student?"

With an ugly face, Jian Yifan turned his eyes to Xia Weiwei, who had a pure and pleasant face, and smiled a little stiffly, "My name is Jian Yifan, I major in computer science, and I'm... Ke An's roommate."

He looked at Ke An who was avoiding his gaze, and asked with a forced smile, "Why are you here? I haven't seen Ke An mention you before, did you just know each other?"

Xia Weiwei smiled generously and sweetly, "Yeah, although we are all in the same school, we didn't know each other last year, but I have heard a little about Ke An. Many girls in our class have a crush on him. Senior, your popularity You are also very tall! There are not a few people in our class who like you."

"Oh...thank you, then..."

Jian Yifan nodded, and wanted to continue to ask the bottom line, but Ke An suddenly said as if he couldn't stand it, "Jian Yifan, let's talk."

Jian Yifan's complexion suddenly darkened, and he pursed his lips, "What are you talking about? You don't tell me that you have a girlfriend. It's fine if you don't. Now that I bump into you, you should introduce me, right? Or Isn't he a good brother?"

"Don't, don't, don't quarrel." Xia Weiwei immediately stood up and explained when she saw that the faces of the two were not good-looking, "Ke An didn't do it on purpose, he didn't treat the senior as brothers, Uncle Ke and my father have business affairs In our relationship, Ke An and I only got to know each other through the introduction of our parents when we went home during the winter vacation. This time, the elders also wanted us to go back to school early. They wanted us to have fun in other places in D City, and then go back to school directly when school starts. I didn’t expect to meet the seniors. Ke An must have wanted to introduce me to the senior in person, but the encounter today was too sudden..."

"Weiwei, go back to the hotel alone, I'll go back later, okay?" Ke An suddenly interrupted Xia Weiwei's explanation, he tried his best to look calm, but his expression was still too stiff.

Xia Weiwei looked at Ke An, then at Jian Yifan who was smiling but not smiling, and nodded, "Then, you two have a good chat, don't be impulsive."

After helping Xia Weiwei to stop the car to send her away, Ke An walked up to a brand new Lamborghini, opened the door and got in the car. Jian Yifan took a deep breath to calm himself down, and then got into the car and sat in the co-pilot position.

Neither of the two people in the car spoke first. Ke An drove the car to a park without saying a word, found a place to park the car, and the two got out of the car together. There was no one in the park, it was empty Yes, Ke An walked to a bench and sat down. Jian Yifan stood aside with his back to him and didn't look at him. After a long time, Ke An finally couldn't help but speak, he said hesitantly, "Me and her In fact, we got together because of family business, I love you, and I have no relationship with her."

Jian Yifan didn't speak, he tried his best to restrain his emotions so as not to look like a fool, Ke An saw that he was silent and tried to hold his hand, but he avoided him, he retracted his hand resentfully and tried to turn away Topic, "Why are you here? Aren't you at home? Why is your face hurt again?"

"What do you think of me?" The dry and hoarse question seemed to be mixed with some choking, Jian Yifan looked at him sadly, feeling that he was really an idiot, he came out here because he wanted to be with Ke An forever and hurt him He lost his parents, but Ke An turned his back to him and was with the woman. He foolishly thought that they could be together forever, but it turned out that he was just deceiving himself.

"I..." Ke An was at a loss for words and didn't know how to answer for a moment.

"Ke An, do you really love me?" Jian Yifan asked again.

"Of course! I only love you!" Ke An answered very firmly this time.

"Then why the hell are you still looking for a woman! Is it because I'm not good enough? Is it more comfortable to hold a woman? Is it because I've made you ashamed? Or is it that I don't have a family background that matches yours? And she does? Ke An, what the hell do you call loving me? Is this called love?" Jian Yifan suddenly roared out with uncontrollable anger, his eyes were reddened as he stared at Ke An.

"Jian Yifan, you bastard! If I don't fucking love you, I can sleep with you and be crushed by you? Do you think I'm born cheap or something? Willing to be fucked by a man? Or I can't find a woman and want to find a man to vent? What the hell is it? The one who was crushed?" Ke An's tears rolled down while talking, he wiped away his tears and said, "Jian Yifan, I love you, I really love you, but so what I can't be with you all the time, do you understand? You can be desperate, you can withstand the pressure of the outside world, and you can stand the cynicism and white eyes of others, but I can't stand it! As long as I think about it, I will always be pointed at by others I’m afraid to live with my white eyes! I can’t do this, my dad will beat me to death, I’m the only son in our family, they can’t allow this kind of thing! By that time, I will have nothing, and a homosexual will be killed Discrimination and ridicule, how do you let me live? Even thinking about it, I feel like I will collapse." By the end, Ke An was sobbing.

Jian Yifan approached him and knelt down, took a deep breath, and said with a wry smile, "I thought you...you were in the same mood as me, so it turned out that all you were thinking about was these things, I was thinking too much , wishful thinking to be with you for a long time, it's me..." He couldn't continue, yes, everything was his wishful thinking.

I thought that if I came out first and dealt with my parents, Ke An would be under less pressure, their obstacles would be less, and their confidence would be more confident. I thought that Ke An agreed to be with him because he had made up his mind. , he really thought it over before deciding to be with him, it turned out that it was just his own wishful thinking.

"No! I want to be with you too, but I really..." Ke An cried and looked at Jian Yifan, his always sunny face was full of pain and struggle.

Jian Yifan reached out and pulled Ke An into his arms, hot tears fell from his eyes, he said hoarsely, "Okay, I see, I respect your choice."

"Then you... want to break up with me?" He raised his teary-eyed face to look at Jian Yifan, cautiously aggrieved like a child.

"Fool." Jian Yifan kissed his forehead, trying to raise a smile, "I won't break up with you, unless you... are getting married, and on that day I will completely break up with you." The words were straightforward and decisive, but no one knew that Jian Yifan's heart was in pain like a knife.

Hearing Jian Yifan's words, Ke An was both happy and sad. He hugged Jian Yifan and said, "Promise me, if one day I disappear, you won't look for me anymore, and then you can also find a woman to marry!"

Jian Yifan understood his voice-over, he nodded heavily, and said, "Okay, I won't look for you, I will also find a woman to marry, live an ordinary life, and then...forget about you." Can you forget?Ke An, will you forget me too?

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