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The alarm went off on time.Repeated twice without hesitation.

Tao Liyang pinched the bridge of his nose. He sat on the carpet, thinking wildly all night, and when he moved, he realized that his legs were numb.Walk slowly back to the bedroom to pick up the phone.

The purpose of setting this alarm was to accompany Xu Anru and Tao Cheng to have breakfast.As a result, it came out like this last night, so I was naturally not in the mood.It's really annoying, the whole person seems to be walking in a cloud of fog, and I can't see anything clearly.

He grabbed his phone and thought for a while, then checked the time and called Shen Xi first.

Shen Xi seemed to be outside, with a very clear voice.I was a little surprised to receive his call: "Li Yang, what's the matter?"

Tao Liyang thought about it, but said directly: "Do you know that Yunqing is eating An Ding?"

"Wait." Shen Xi paused for a moment, apologized to the person on the other end, and walked to the side before answering him: "I know."

Tao Liyang became angry as soon as he heard it: "You know? You know that you also let him go, don't you want to persuade him?"

"Have you taken gunpowder? Why are you yelling at me so early in the morning?" Shen Xi was stunned for a moment, "Why didn't I persuade him? You treat him as a starlet who has just debuted, and his manager can decide everything?"

Tao Liyang also understood that he had lost his composure, so he said sorry in a low voice.

"Did something happen?" Shen Xi didn't mind, and asked him nervously.

Tao Liyang hesitated for a moment: "Nothing happened."

"Then where did you know?" Shen Xi breathed a sigh of relief, and without waiting for his answer, lowered his voice, "Li Yang, I have people from the brand side waiting here, so it's not convenient to talk to you about this now. I'll call you tonight Bar."

Tao Liyang felt very helpless when he heard the busy tone on the other side, but he couldn't dial again.So she sent a message to Shen Xi, saying that Xu Yunqing might not be in a good condition, and told her to go and see when things were over.

Shen Xi was really busy, it took a long time to reply.He also said that if it was convenient for him, he could help to mention the stable matter. They were close, and he said that it might be more useful than himself.

Tao Liyang looked at the message, not knowing how to reply at all.

Mention?It was already mentioned, which caused a disturbance.Concerned about it, he was confused, and he said a lot of angry words... How much of what he said was true in his heart, Tao Liyang couldn't tell.

He shook his head vigorously, and after thinking about it, he felt that he should get off the island first.Stay here, if you are not careful, you may run into it again.Even if he was worried now, he didn't dare to meet Xu Yunqing again.Afraid that something will happen again, I can't think of how they can meet each other after last night.

Tao Liyang pondered for a moment, changed his clothes, and went to the front desk to check out the room.

Many people probably had fun all night last night, and some people came in drunk from the hotel early in the morning.On the sofa on the left side of the lobby, sat a man who looked very young and looked like a student.Keep staring at the elevator entrance.The moment Tao Liyang came out, his eyes lit up.Standing up eagerly, it seemed that he was afraid to come forward again.It wasn't until Tao Liyang walked out that he quickly caught up.

"Ms. Tao, Mr. Tao, wait a minute."

Tao Liyang stopped when he heard the voice, and looked at the people rushing up.A little familiar, seems to have seen it somewhere, but can't remember: "Who are you?"

He was impatient and his face was ugly.The visitor was very nervous, so he almost bowed: "Teacher Tao, hello. My name is Li Ren."

Tao Liyang remembered this name, the screenwriter and director of "Long Summer". When "Long Summer" won the award at the film festival, Li Ren was standing next to Xu Yunqing.

He calmed down a little: "What's the matter?"

A thin layer of sweat broke out on Li Ren's forehead: "That... I am your fan."

"Fan?" Tao Liyang raised his eyebrows, "It's the first time I've seen a screenwriter fan."

Li Ren thought he didn't believe him, and said eagerly: "I really am. I have watched every play you wrote, which is available on the market, many times. If you can find a video of those stage plays and dramas you wrote before, I will I’ve watched them all too. It’s just that some of the picture quality is not clear…” He said with deep regret, “To tell you the truth, "Long Summer" was completely influenced by you... Oh, " "Long Summer" is me..."

"I know, I've seen it." Li Ren looked like he wanted to explain it to him, but Tao Liyang interrupted him, and asked again patiently, "So why are you looking for me now?"

Li Ren looked at him sincerely: "Actually, it's nothing. I heard that you are here, so I just want to meet you. I really like your notebook."

"So you've been waiting in the lobby?" Even though he was in a bad mood, Tao Liyang felt it was funny, "Since you know each other..." He paused, did not say the name, but said, "My contact information should not be It's so hard to get."

Li Ren said in a daze: "I have your number, but I just don't think calling is sincere enough."

Tao Liyang couldn't help but smile for a moment, he actually had a preference for the movie "Long Summer".Whether it's because of his strong style in the movie or because of Xu Yunqing.He couldn't even hate Li Ren.Then he smiled kindly again: "You say you are my fan, but I really don't dare to be. You are considered colleagues, and you can communicate anytime you want. If there is a chance to cooperate, I am also very happy. It's just that I have something to do now, and I have to go back to the city I'm afraid I don't have the time to have a deep chat with you today."

"Let's go now?" Li Ren was taken aback, and volunteered again, "Then can I walk with you for a while? I'm fine now."

Although it is not too far from the hotel to the port, it still takes a quarter of an hour.Tao Liyang was afraid of his embarrassment, so the topic revolved around movies, and inevitably, he talked about "Long Summer".

"Actually, "Long Summer" wasn't all written by me." Hearing Tao Liyang's compliments, Li Ren said shyly, "The version I took out at the beginning is far from the one I shot last. Big Part of it was re-edited by Mr. Xu. I wanted to sign his name on the screenwriter, but he definitely disagreed. It was the same when I was filming. It was the first time I officially directed a play. I don’t even know how to deal with it. It all depends on Teacher Xu’s presence.”

"Yunqing?" Tao Liyang knew that Teacher Xu would have no one else, but he couldn't help but ask for confirmation.

Li Ren nodded again and again: ""Long Summer" is really a product of your work because I like it very much. It's just that I wrote some plots, and I can feel something wrong, but I don't know how to deal with it. As soon as Mr. Xu changed it, it would be fine immediately. It’s amazing. I also asked Mr. Xu, and he said that when you were in college, you used to put together a stage play... It’s a pity that you haven’t seen much cooperation in TV dramas and movies. ...I think, Teacher Xu seems to really understand you..."

After Li Ren finished speaking, he probably felt that this sounded weird, scratched his hair, and smiled awkwardly.

He just said this casually, and Tao Liyang didn't know what was going on?By mistake or bystander?With a wry smile in his heart: "How did you find him to take this drama?"

"I didn't find Mr. Xu. I sent the script of "Long Summer" to film and television companies everywhere, but no one paid any attention to me. Later, Mr. Xu accidentally saw this script and gave me a chance." Li Ren Speaking of it, I was still full of gratitude, and suddenly remembered something, "By the way, Teacher Tao. "Long Summer" had a lot of on-site footage, and I roughly cut a behind-the-scenes documentary as a souvenir. Do you want to watch it? ?”

Because of this conversation, Tao Liyang was always restless.Li Ren was so stunned that he didn't look at him when he spoke, but every sentence hit him on the seven inches.

He was a little distracted and drove the wrong way home.It took a while to get back on track.Drive off the overpass, and there is another fork in the road ahead.To the right is the direction to return to the community, to the left... Tao Liyang glanced at the road sign, and after driving two kilometers, it is N University.He hesitated for a moment, sighed, and turned the steering wheel resignedly.

"Liyang." Tao Liyang waited for a quarter of an hour downstairs in the biology college, and heard Liu Lin's voice behind him.

Tao Liyang turned to look at him and smiled.

"What's the matter?" Liu Lin looked at him a little bit, and asked him, "Why are you in a hurry to find me? Isn't the anniversary celebration over yet?"

Tao Liyang was determined: "I have something to tell you."

"What are you doing with such a serious expression?" Liu Lin seemed to have noticed something, smiled unnaturally, and suddenly interrupted Tao Liyang before he could speak, "No matter what it is, can you talk about it after having a meal with me? I have been in the laboratory since I came back, and I have to go back later."

Hearing what he said, Tao Liyang felt a little guilty for delaying his work, and nodded: "Okay, what do you want to eat?"

"Just find a restaurant near the school. I can't go far now." Liu Lin pointed to the white coat on his body, "Wait for me, I'll send the clothes to the front desk of the college and leave."

Near the lunch time, the restaurants near the school are crowded.At the end of the street, I found a Yunnan restaurant with slightly fewer people.During the meal, both of them were abnormally silent. Tao Liyang had something on his mind, and he thought that Liu Lin might have noticed something.He put down his chopsticks after eating less than half a bowl of pineapple rice.Liu Lin seemed to have a good appetite, and even drank two bowls of mint mutton soup.

Tao Liyang's car was still parked downstairs of the college. After eating, he walked back along the boulevard of N University.

"Have you been to N University before?" Liu Lin asked him.

Tao Liyang was a little distracted, and thought for a while: "No, your academy is not easy to find, I just asked for a long time."

"When you were in college?" Liu Lin met a colleague on the road, and after saying hello, he smiled at him, "It's pretty close to the Drama Academy."

"I was in another campus at the time. I didn't have any friends here. I often go to R University, and Tang Ran is there." From time to time, students on bicycles passed by on the road, and Tao Liyang gently pulled him in.

"You have a good relationship with Tang Ran?"

Tao Liyang nodded, "Speaking of hypocrisy, he is probably my best friend?"

"What about Xu Yunqing?" Liu Lin asked without warning.

Tao Liyang didn't know what expression to make, so Liu Lin said to himself: "Is he different?"

"Why did you mention him?" Tao Liyang could only answer this way, jokingly said, "Still thinking about autographed photos? I'll ask Shen Xi to send you a dozen later."

This joke was not sincere enough, but Liu Lin also laughed.At this time, they had reached the side of the artificial lake, and they sat down on the stone bench beside them.

Liu Lin looked at the lake not far away. N University raised swans, swimming around lazily, drawing circles of water waves: "What do you want to tell me?"

Tao Liyang thought for a while: "Actually, I don't think I have the position to say this to you, but I think it's better to tell you clearly... You should focus on others."

Liu Lin was silent for a while, then smiled again, and raised his eyebrows: "I was still thinking about it when I received your call today. This seems to be the first time you took the initiative to find me. Think about it when you go downstairs, or you have figured it out. , decided to give it a try with me, or... now it seems to be the latter."

"It's not your problem." Tao Liyang said.

"Of course not. I know I'm fine." Liu Lin looked calm and asked him after a pause, "Is it because of the reason I thought?"

Tao Liyang looked at the students rushing to class by the lake, and vaguely remembered that when he and Xu Yunqing were studying, there were many times when they overslept and rushed all the way to the classroom.They were young back then, dreaming that every moment in the future would be good...

He was silent for a moment, and did not answer directly: "Ms. Liu, you are a very smart person. But I am not...so we are not suitable."

"Be humble, you are smarter than anyone else in front of me. I can't be the one who makes you stupid all the time." Liu Lin stretched his waist, "You don't have to be sorry, really. Originally You also told me that we are just friends. I understand what you mean. Now we are still friends."

"If you want, of course."

Liu Lin snorted, and joked, "It's not easy, the decision is up to me. Then I'll think about it...can I ask you another question?"

"You said."

Liu Lin tilted his head: "The reason why you came to me to clarify is because, have you got what you want?"

Tao Liyang pursed his lips and told him frankly: "Maybe I won't get it."

"I can lose in this way?" Liu Lin had a smile on his lips.

"It's not that you lost." Tao Liyang said, he wanted to sigh, but felt that it was his own fault, he had no way to sigh, "It's because I never won."

It was still early to leave N University, but it rained halfway, and there was a traffic accident ahead, and when I got home, it was already dark.

Tao Liyang was physically and mentally exhausted, after taking a shower, he rummaged through the refrigerator for a while.I found a box of quick-frozen pizza I bought at some time and threw it into the microwave.After just two bites, I felt full again.

He was thinking about Xu Yunqing's matter, and planned to call Shen Xi, but when he took out his phone, he realized that it was out of battery.No wonder it was so quiet all afternoon.After recharging the battery and contacting again, Shenxi was still on the phone.

Tao Liyang frowned, there was nothing else he could do for a while.Instead of being upset, think about it and go to the study to continue writing the script.After turning on the phone, he habitually checked his mailbox first, and found that Li Ren had sent him an email a few hours ago, and the attachment was a behind-the-scenes documentary.

The editing was very rough, and many scenes were shaken very badly. It can be seen that it is indeed just a commemoration.

Tao Liyang reduced the screen as the background sound, while continuing to write.When he was writing the script, he was not often disturbed. When he heard Xu Yunqing's voice, he stopped to take a look.

There are some behind-the-scenes footage of the shooting. As Li Ren said, the rhythm of the entire shooting is actually mostly controlled by Xu Yunqing.There were also many scenes brought to him, and he sat casually on a chair or even on the ground, discussing with Li Ren how to modify the next scene.

Such a scene is familiar to some extent.

When they were in college, they often did the same thing, finding an empty rehearsal room in a small theater, changing the script and correcting the lines.The two of them stayed for a whole day, and when the moon was in the sky, they went to the back door of the school to have a supper together, and went back to the dormitory side by side.

The script that Xu Yunqing reworked by himself can of course restore his brushstrokes to the greatest extent.During that long period of time, he was his inspiration, his muse, and the one who wrote every word with him.

Tao Liyang pressed his eyebrows, went to the living room and poured a glass of water and came back.The progress bar was halfway through, and the screen suddenly went dark.Tao Liyang was stunned for a moment, thinking that something went wrong, then he heard Xu Yunqing's voice on the screen: "Why don't you turn on the light?"

Immediately afterwards, cheers were heard, the lights turned on instantly, and the ribbons exploded. Li Ren and the actors in the same group pushed the cake out and said in a hurry: "Happy birthday."

Xu Yunqing obviously didn't know in advance, and the makeup hadn't been removed yet, so he was stunned for a while, and said thank you with a smile.

Yes.Tao Liyang thought that Xu Yunqing's 27th birthday happened to be during the filming of "Long Summer".During that time, because of the fact that Xu Yunqing was married, he deliberately distanced himself from her.Mingming always remembered that it was late at night before he sent a sentence of happy birthday, and Xu Yunqing replied the next day with just a simple word "um".

The birthday party on the screen was still going on, and most of the content was cut out halfway.

As soon as the picture changed, Xu Yunqing was sitting on a high stool at one end of the table, obviously drunk and slightly drunk, with his head propped on one hand.The surroundings are still noisy, and Li Ren still holds a wine bottle in his hand: "Mr. Xu, I'm sorry... I only found out that today is your birthday at night, and they prepared everything. I didn't even buy you a present."

Tao Liyang couldn't help but sigh in his heart, this person is really honest enough.

As Li Ren spoke, he stepped forward again, and touched the glass with Xu Yunqing: "...But I still want to thank you again, I really, really appreciate you trusting me and giving me this opportunity to make "Long Summer" Take it out."

Xu Yunqing shook his head: "I'm not giving you a chance, I'm giving myself a chance."

"Why?" Li Ren asked in a daze.

Probably not expecting him to ask more questions, Xu Yunqing tilted his head and remained silent for a while, then took a sip of his wine.When Tao Liyang thought he would not answer this question after being off-screen for a long time, Xu Yunqing suddenly spoke.

"I have a friend." Xu Yunqing said softly, his eyes didn't know where to fall, "the year we graduated, he wanted to make a movie by himself. I have always liked that script. I saw it for the first time. He actually saw the script before...but the plot was very unflattering and the market would not accept it, so he couldn't get enough investment to make the film according to his original idea...I know this, so I really want to Give him the money to help him realize his wish—even though he is not short of money, he is just stubborn and refuses to talk to his family."

Xu Yunqing laughed as he spoke: "Then I went to pick up a particularly stupid idol drama. The plot was really ridiculous. I still don't have the courage to watch it a second time. But the pay is quite high. For me at that time Word."

Tao Liyang was stunned, and the cup in his hand almost fell.

He knew which TV series Xu Yunqing was talking about, it was really bad.But this is not the point of the question at all. The key point is that Xu Yunqing gave up the role of the leading actor in a new film by a certain famous director in order to shoot that idol drama. If you are lucky, you can even make a name for yourself in the film industry in one fell swoop.

The works at the beginning of his debut can almost determine an actor's future career.In fact, because of this, Xu Yunqing was defined by the market as a fast-food idol drama artist when he debuted, and it took many years to successfully transform and barely gain a foothold in the film industry.

Back then, Tao Liyang had been puzzled by Xu Yunqing's almost weird choice, but at that time, their relationship was already a little awkward, so he didn't ask him.And when he knew, Xu Yunqing had already signed the contract and joined the group.

Tao Liyang never knew the reason.

"Actually, I got paid, and I didn't have the courage to tell him. At that time we..." Xu Yunqing was a little drunk, and his mind was not so clear. After thinking about it, he didn't continue. He paused for a while before saying, "In short Yes, when I was planning to give it to him, I already missed the opportunity. Later on, let’s forget about it... I have kept the money on hold. The last time I saw the script of "Long Summer", I thought, why don't I use it to shoot this... It's been so many years, it's my regret."

He took another sip of his wine: "But I know it's different, I just... I've been doing stupid things, I can't go back, so I just lie to myself."

Xu Yunqing drank the remaining wine in the cup, and the people around fell silent because of his narration.After an unknown amount of time, someone cautiously asked, "Mr. Xu, is your friend... gone?"

"Ah?" Xu Yunqing was stunned for a moment, then laughed, with tears streaming down his face, "He's just not by my side anymore, because I'm not good...but he's good, he's always been good, and he will be, every day It will all go well and be happy forever..."

His voice was getting lower and lower, even if Tao Liyang turned the volume to the maximum, he couldn't hear him clearly.Xu Yunqing propped his head on one hand because of drunkenness, his face flushed slightly.He muttered to himself for a while, then seemed to remember something, turned his head to look at the unopened birthday cake, reached out for a candle and lit it, then smiled and closed his eyes and gently blew it out.

Tao Liyang thought that Xu Yunqing was really a fool, how could someone promise his wish to others?How is this possible?So they're both still being stupid, and they're still both still hurting each other.

He stared at him, separated by the screen and two years, the question that had been asked without any result seemed to finally reveal a little blurred trace.

But even so, at this moment, Tao Liyang was not happy because of it, on the contrary, he felt unprecedentedly sad.

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