recession

Before Xu Yunqing could finish speaking, his hands lost strength.As soon as he let go of his fingers, the medicine bottle fell to the ground and rolled down the steps with a gurgling sound.

Tao Liyang hastily grabbed his hanging hand, and for a moment, he felt that he was going to lose Xu Yunqing.It was also at this time that Tao Liyang had never understood before that even though he had been skeptical, he might have obtained everything Xu Yunqing had long ago.

Xu Yunqing was too tired.If you can't fall asleep normally for a long time, your spirit is stimulated, and you stop taking the medicine suddenly, you can't hold on anymore.He didn't wake up halfway, but he was talking nonsense from time to time, calling him father and mother.

In such a situation, it is impossible to return to N City immediately.After Tao Liyang got in the car, he called Shen Xi. Shen Xi was taken aback when he heard that, but she always handled things neatly.The car drove into the parking garage of the city hospital, and there were already doctors and nurses waiting at the elevator entrance.

"How is the situation?" Every minute of waiting at the door of the emergency room felt tormented, Tao Liyang felt that half a century had passed, and finally saw the doctor come out.

"It's nothing serious. A sedative was given. Let's have an examination after the patient wakes up. It's not a big problem." The doctor took off the mask while saying, "But which of you are family members, and the patient is taking diazepam recently? I have to Just to make sure. Best to contact his old doctor."

Hearing that Tao Liyang and Shen Xi looked at each other subtly.

"I'm his manager, let me tell you." Shen Xi said, looking around again, and people passed by from time to time, "Can we change the place?"

The doctor also understood that this patient was special, "Then go to my office."

Shen Xi nodded, and took another look at Tao Liyang.

"You go." Tao Liyang said, and asked the doctor again, "Can I see him?"

"Yes. It's just that the patient won't wake up for a short time. Five to eight hours."

"It's okay." Tao Liyang shook his head, he just wanted to look at him now.

"Teacher Tao." The assistant in the ward saw Tao Liyang coming in, stood up and greeted in a low voice.

"Go and rest for a while, I'll be fine here." Tao Liyang glanced at Xu Yunqing, and lay quietly on the hospital bed, quietly making him uncomfortable.

"Oh, fine." The assistant hesitated for a moment, "Then Teacher Tao, I'll be at the door, just call me if you need anything."

Tao Liyang nodded, and the assistant took the bag and went out.

Tao Liyang walked to the side of the hospital bed, bent down and pressed the corner of the quilt for Xu Yunqing, and then stuck it on his forehead.

"Go to sleep, you'll be fine when you wake up." Tao Liyang said in a low voice, and he didn't know if Xu Yunqing could hear him in his dream.

He sat down by the hospital bed and saw Xu Yunqing's hand curled up slightly, as if trying to grab something, so he subconsciously reached over to hold his hand.Palms and skin were touching, he could feel his pulse beating gently, and Xu Yunqing's cold fingertips gradually felt a little warm.

Tao Liyang stroked his hand, lowered his eyes to look at the slightly protruding light blue blood vessels on the back of Xu Yunqing's hand, and pieced together various details in his mind.

Some clues have gradually become clear, and he remembered the name on the tombstone that he had seen in a hurry when he left the cemetery with Xu Yunqing.

Xu Qiming.

Tao Liyang had never heard of this person from Xu Yunqing's mouth before, but the kinship between them is not difficult to distinguish.Even with a quick glance, you can still see that Xu Qiming's face on the tombstone photo is quite similar to Xu Yunqing's, especially those identical eyes...

At this time, the door of the ward rang, Tao Liyang withdrew his hand in time, and turned around, it was Shen Xi.

She stepped forward to look at Xu Yunqing, walked to the window, and beckoned to Tao Liyang.

Tao Liyang stood up and felt distressed when he saw Xu Yunqing's hands were empty - even though it was unreasonable.He couldn't find anything else around him for a while, so he took off the cuff buttons and put them in Xu Yunqing's palm.Let him at least have something to hold on to before walking to the side of Shenxi.

"What did you say?"

Shen Xi straightened his temples: "It's nothing else. The doctor said that judging from the current situation, the problem of diazepam addiction can still be controlled. Yun Qing has only been taking medicine for a month, and he will be able to quit slowly. It's just like today Sudden forced withdrawal is not acceptable."

"My fault." Tao Liyang said, he really didn't want to think about Xu Yunqing's smiling expression when he handed him the medicine bottle in front of the grave today.

"Don't argue over whose fault it is. According to this, am I at fault? I didn't catch him in time. Is Yun Qing himself at fault? He is a big man, and he always knows what should and shouldn't be. It's useless to worry about these now." Shen Xi sighed, paused and said: "There is another matter, just now I contacted the doctor at Kang Xing's side. He said that Yun Qing went to his place this morning."

"For quitting drugs?"

"It should be." Shen Xi hesitated, "But he said that Yun Qing had something to do, so he left."

Tao Liyang frowned: "What's the matter? I left temporarily?"

Shen Xi pursed her lips: "I don't know. He didn't mention that Yun Qing had been there at first, but I remembered that the car was in the hospital, and Yun Qing didn't go to see his mother, so he told me after asking. He said yes Yun Qing told him not to say anything."

Tao Liyang glanced back, Xu Yunqing who was on the hospital bed turned his gaze back, pondered for a moment: "I went back to N City and asked the doctor face to face, why do I feel that something is wrong."

Shen Xi hummed: "I think so too, I'll go there again when the time comes."

"Call me before you go, I'll be with you." Tao Liyang said.

Shen Xi hesitated for a moment, but asked him first: "You and Yun Qing..."

Tao Liyang thought for a while, and only said this part of himself: "I love him."

This is not a standard answer, after all, no relationship can be one-sided.

But Shen Xi didn't ask another word.She was silent for a while, and smiled wryly: "It's easier to accept than when Tang Ran and I came out. But I should have seen it earlier, so that I can ask Tang Ran for a raise... I have to now To deal with the crew's affairs, do you want to stay here tonight? Or find a place to sleep, I think you are also very tired."

"I'll stay here." Tao Liyang said, after a pause, "Thank you."

Shen Xi shook his head: "Don't thank me, I just don't have the strength to scold you right now. Then you stay here, Zhang Xin is at the door, and I won't leave the hospital either. Tell me when Yun wakes up."

When Xu Yun woke up, his surroundings were pitch black.His senses were still a little chaotic, but soon he felt the warmth of the palm of his right hand, the unusually tight and familiar touch, and he relaxed.

"Are you awake?" Tao Liyang felt a slight movement of his fingertips.

Xu Yunqing hummed, smelling the faint smell of disinfectant: "Where is this? Kangxing?"

"City Hospital. You fainted, so you came here directly." Tao Liyang said and got up, "I'll call the doctor."

"Don't go." Xu Yunqing grabbed his hand forcefully, and said after a while: "Wait a while before going."

"Then I'll turn on the light first."

"Wait too." Xu Yunqing said in a muffled voice, "I don't want to turn on the light right now."

"Okay, don't open it." Tao Liyang said warmly, and sat back on the chair. The two hands were still holding each other, and there was a little sticky sweat.

After a while, Xu Yunqing said softly, "What time is it?"

"It's almost time."

"What number?"

Tao Liyang told him a date.

"It's been so long..." Xu Yunqing was stunned: "It must have been hard to find me... I didn't mean to..."

"Anything you do is hard work for me." Tao Liyang rubbed his knuckles, "There is just one thing, I probably did something wrong... I went to find my aunt."

Xu Yunqing's hands visibly froze for a moment, but after a while he asked, "Did she make things difficult for you?"

"No."

"Lie." Xu Yunqing patted his palm lightly.

Tao Liyang didn't know how to answer, so he could only grab his fingertips again: "Really not."

Xu Yunqing smiled silently: "Did she tell you where I might be? No way."

"No." Tao Liyang's throat was a little tight, so he had to tell him frankly, "It's the nurse."

"Oh, Aunt Wang." In Xu Yunqing's tone, there was a bit of complacency.Soon he fell silent again, and when he spoke again, he intentionally or unintentionally avoided the topic: "I don't know why I came back, and I can't remember clearly what happened in the past two days... So, I still do it." Is something stupid?"

"I don't know how to define."

Tao Liyang thought about it and answered.It had been a long time since they had spoken in such a calm manner.Tao Liyang knew that he had many things to ask Xu Yunqing, and at this moment, Xu Yunqing would probably tell him.But he didn't want to ask anything, he could already see the vague outline of the past, and it was obvious that it would not be a good memory.

It's too painful to expose the scars, he doesn't want Yunqing to suffer like this.

So he just said, "I don't think it's stupid, but I think it's too stupid. Maybe it's the same when you look at me."

Xu Yunqing gave a low laugh, pulled out his hand, and stroked Tao Liyang's face little by little.Finally, the fingers stopped on his lips, like a kiss printed on it: "Well, the same."

After staying in the hospital for two days, Xu Yunqing completed the discharge procedures.

It was afternoon when I got back to N City. As soon as I got off the plane, Shen Xi's cell phone kept ringing. She picked it up, answered twice, frowned and then let go, saying that she still had about an hour to arrive at the company, then hung up the phone .

"What's wrong?" Tao Liyang asked.

"It's on the hot search again, about being hospitalized."

As she spoke, she opened Weibo, and the person who broke the news was probably a nurse from the city hospital, and it didn't look like Xu Yunqing's department.It was just a mention of Xu Yunqing's hospitalization, accompanied by a very blurry candid picture, nothing else.

"It's okay, it's easy to deal with. The doctor said hello. It's just sick, and it's not considered negative news." Shen Xi said, and then said to Zhang Xin: "Find a saved picture that hasn't been posted before, and use the Yunqing account to post it first. Weibo to report safety to fans."

"Thank you, Sister Shen." Xu Yunqing said.

"You think I've worked hard, so you should take care of yourself." Shen Xi shook his head, and during the conversation, he had already arrived at the parking lot.

Both Tao Liyang and Shen Xi's cars were there.She hesitated for a moment, looked at Tao Liyang, and asked Xu Yunqing: "Shall I take you back?"

Xu Yunqing didn't speak, and glanced at Tao Liyang imperceptibly.

"I'll send it off." Tao Liyang noticed his gaze, and said to Shen Xi, "You go to the company first."

Shen Xi looked at Xu Yunqing again, but the latter did not show any objection, so she could only sigh resignedly: "Then you see it off. Pay attention to whether there is anyone following the car on the road."

On the way to Xu Yunqing's apartment, both of them were very quiet.Xu Yunqing seemed to be about to say something a few times, but when the words came to his lips, he fell silent again.

Because it is a working day, not the rush hour for commuting. It was rare in N City that there was no traffic jam, and the road went smoothly. It only took more than half an hour to drive back to the apartment downstairs.

Xu Yunqing unfastened his seat belt, but did not get out of the car for a long time.Tao Liyang didn't urge him.After a long time, I finally heard Xu Yunqing call him: "Tao Liyang."

"Ok?"

"Do you want me to go up?"

"I don't want to." Tao Liyang said simply.

"Oh." Xu Yunqing lowered his eyes: "I don't want to either."

Tao Liyang nodded and discussed with him: "Then we'd better talk to Shen Xi."

Xu Yunqing pursed her lips: "I know."

"Are you calling Shen Xi or me?"

"You hit."

Tao Liyang was about to take his mobile phone, but Xu Yunqing pressed his hand again, with a somewhat uncertain tone: "Why don't I talk to her?"

"It's all right." Tao Liyang held his hand instead, "If you don't want to say it, then I will say it."

Xu Yunqing hesitated for a while when he heard the words, Tao Liyang looked at him like this: "It really doesn't matter, I just say it."

"No." Xu Yunqing shook his head, took a deep breath, took Tao Liyang's cell phone, and dialed Shen Xi's number.

"How?" The call ended quickly, less than half a minute.

Xu Yunqing turned to look at him: "She agreed."

"I was asking how are you doing?"

The words were inexplicable, but Xu Yunqing understood, and gently pulled the corner of his lower lip: "I seem to be okay."

Tao Liyang just laughed, leaned over to fasten his seat belt for him, and restarted the car: "Since everything is fine, let's go."

Once home, they ordered takeout from a nearby Cantonese restaurant.

Xu Yunqing's appetite improved slightly, and he put down his chopsticks after drinking a large bowl of raw porridge.Sitting on the opposite side with his head supported on one hand, he looked at Tao Liyang.

"I'll be staying in the guest room for the time being." He said suddenly, and then added: "I have to start quitting drugs, I probably won't be able to sleep well at night. If you want to live with me, I'm afraid you won't even want to sleep. "

Xu Yunqing spoke quickly, not without a bit of shame and uneasiness in his tone, but his expression was frank.

Tao Liyang wanted to say that it didn't matter, but after a second thought, he said, "Then if you live in the master bedroom, you can always sleep better in a familiar place. I'll just live in the guest room."

Xu Yunqing hesitated and agreed.

Shen Xi asked the film crew for half a month's leave on behalf of Xu Yunqing. He is the leading actor, so if he can't be on the set, the progress of the film crew will naturally be delayed.But fortunately, it's a drama invested by Yaoxing, so it's not too difficult.

On the afternoon of the second day after returning home, Tao Liyang received a message from Shen Xi, saying that he was going to Kangxing to see a doctor in the afternoon.Tao Liyang didn't tell Xu Yunqing, but only said that he was going out for a while.

"When will you come back?" Xu Yunqing sat in the study and read the script.

"I'm not sure, do I need to call Zhang Xin over before dinner?"

Xu Yunqing shook his head and paused: "I want to eat the mashed taro from the store in front of the school."

"Okay, I'll go buy it." Tao Liyang stepped forward to give him a hug, "I'll be back as soon as possible."

He went out a little earlier and had to go to Xu Yunqing's apartment to pack some luggage for him.Before leaving, Tao Liyang didn't forget to clear the visitor records of the apartment's access control, but unexpectedly discovered that Li Shuang had visited several times in the past two days.

He frowned, trying to pretend he didn't see it.It's just that when he left the community, he hesitated for a long time, and called Li Shuang—worried that something might happen if she came here so frequently.He did not like her, but he had no habit of embarrassing women.

"Tao Liyang?" Li Shuang was a little surprised.

Tao Liyang was straightforward: "I just checked the visitor records of Yunqing Apartment, and saw that you went to him several times..."

"No." Li Shuang hurriedly explained, "Don't get me wrong..."

"I didn't misunderstand." Tao Liyang said calmly, "I just want to ask you if there is anything that needs help."

"Did Yun Qing tell you everything?" Li Shuang asked him cautiously.

It was not a pleasant thing for Tao Liyang to hear Xu Yunqing's name from Li Shuang's mouth.He parked the car on the side of the road: "He didn't tell me anything about you. If you have something you don't want me to know, don't worry. I contacted you just because I saw the visitor record. It seems that you are in a hurry." He paused for a moment when he said this, and his tone was flat: "You are his ex-wife, if something really happens, I don't think Yun Qing will be happy."

Because of his answer, Li Shuang was strangely silent for a few seconds: "I can't contact him. Is he sick?"

Xu Yunqing's cell phone ran out of battery early in the morning. He was in a bad mood and didn't want to communicate with the outside world, so he simply didn't charge it.Anyway, whenever there is something at work, Shen Xi is always there.

"If you have anything, just tell me."

"Are you together?" Li Shuang asked after a while.

"Sister, this question has nothing to do with it."

"It's pretty good." Li Shuang said softly with unclear words, "I have nothing to do. Li Yang, thank you."

There was a beep in her ear, and she hung up the phone.

Tao Liyang frowned and looked at the phone, then threw it aside.It's just that the car didn't go far, and Li Shuang dialed back again.

"Can we meet?" she asked.

"I'm afraid not, Yun Qing is now..."

"No. Let's meet."

Tao Liyang looked at the time, and there was still a while before the time he and Shen Xi had agreed to go to the hospital, so he agreed.

The place where Li Shuang asked him to meet was in the coffee shop downstairs of her house.

"It's not convenient for me to go too far now." She said.

But Tao Liyang didn't understand the meaning of this sentence until he saw her.

He walked out of the private room, asked the waiter for another glass of milk, and replaced the coffee he ordered in advance.

Li Shuang took off her sunglasses and mask. She was wearing a very loose coat. Because she was thin, her belly was not too obvious.When she thought of something, she first explained: "The child is not Yun Qing's."

"I don't think so." Tao Liyang took an American drink.

Li Shuang reached out and touched her abdomen, and exhaled: "The last one was not the same."

Tao Liyang's hands froze, but it was strange, he wasn't too surprised.

"It seems that Yunqing really didn't tell you." Li Shuang smiled lightly, "But it's not what you think. Yunqing knew early on that the child was not his, and it was impossible for us to have a child..."

The coffee in his hand was completely cold, and Li Shuang finished speaking.

"I'm going to New York next week. I got my visa two days ago. I went to Yun Qing because I saw the news that he was hospitalized, and I wanted to say goodbye to him. But now that you're back with him, his condition It’s not good, forget it.”

"Xu Qun asked you to go?" Tao Liyang managed to calm down.

Li Shuang did not deny it: "In another month, it will be even harder to hide my stomach. Staying in the country is not good for anyone. You don't have to look at me like this, I know me...but I really can't do without him .”

She covered her mouth and yawned. Being pregnant is always easy to get tired: "I don't know why Yun Qing didn't tell you these things, maybe it was to save me some face, maybe there were other considerations. It doesn't matter so much. Let me tell you, I feel a little more at ease. And I was the one who approached him in the first place, so it might be better for me. Yun Qing helped me a lot, and I kept pushing forward , but I am really grateful to him. I hope that by speaking out, I can make you less estranged."

She drank the milk in front of her: "That's all I have to say. When Yun Qing gets better and has a suitable opportunity, you can tell him about my going to America."

"Are you back?" Tao Liyang asked her with a complicated expression.

Li Shuang shrugged, "Maybe."

Tao Liyang gave her a deep look. He didn't sympathize with her, but after hesitating for a moment, he still sent a number to her mobile phone: "My friend, surnamed Ren, is a doctor in New York. If you have any emergency, you can call him .”

"Thank you." Li Shuang smiled, stood up with her waist supported, and put on the mask and sunglasses again.

"Do you need me to see you off?" Tao Liyang went over to help her.

"No need." Li Shuang shook her head, said goodbye to him, turned and left.

Li Shuang walked away slowly, Tao Liyang sat down and took a sip of water.In fact, he still couldn't get away from what Li Shuang told him, even though Li Shuang spoke very calmly.

He looked at Li Shuang's back and thought of Xu Yunqing's face.

Tao Liyang had a thought in his mind that maybe shouldn't be but he couldn't suppress it at all. He would rather that everything Li Shuang said was false, and he would rather that Xu Yunqing really loved Li Shuang... Then at least, in the past few years, Xu Yunqing A smile can be real.