Falling in love with straight men

There are dots outside the window, the sky is a broken canopy, the starlight of the universe penetrates in, humble creatures live greedily, this world is nothing but dust called the earth.

Kaneki stretched out his hand hesitantly and retracted it, a little flinching, and finally placed it on the right hand of the person on the bed.

this is mine.

The young man raised the sleeping girl's hand and placed it on the side of her face. Under the shadows, she couldn't see her expression clearly, only her eyes were fierce.

Losing really hurts, and Kaneki, who was only ten years old after her mother died, really felt it.

Hey, Dongzi, I would rather never have it than lose it, so I am always hesitating. When you broke in forcefully, I even flinched like a coward. Dongzi, don’t leave me... because Kaneki Ken at that time really going crazy...

The world will not change because of one person. The sun still rises in a new day, but hunger keeps getting hungrier like a shadow.

Kaneki's cell phone kept ringing, and the young man was brushing his teeth under the ringing, with the bags under his blue eyes drooping.

"Is Kaneki feeling unwell? Please leave a message. By the way, there is a book signing in the bookstore in front of the station. What is it about..."

A hearty male voice came from the mobile phone, Kaneki cut off the phone absently and walked towards the guest room converted into a study, but there was no one there.

The young man was stunned, his hands hanging at his waist clenched into fists, his nails dug into the flesh, and traces of blood came out.

Kaneki couldn't feel the pain, because the heart that had been cut by a knife was already numb, and he staggered back to the living room. The black-haired young man sat on the sofa with a muffled "boom", his head bowed.

Maybe ccg or something will catch him soon?

The young man grinned at himself, and the hunger in his abdomen reminded him that I am already a monster... Whether it is the future... or the dream, these are impossible...

Tears fell, and the room was lonely.

Asakura Minami pushed open the door of the apartment, holding something in his arms, with a look of joy on his face.

The young man on the sofa raised his head suddenly, his eyes one black and one red stared straight at the person coming.

Asakura Minami subconsciously took a few steps back, human instinct made him fearful when facing hostile natural enemies.

Jin Mu said in a low voice, "Dongzi, are you afraid of me? You are also such a monster, how can you not be afraid..."

Asakura Minami hurriedly shook his head, Kaneki, who was immersed in himself, looked in a trance, approaching step by step while talking softly, until he firmly grasped the wrist of the person in front of him before he became quiet.

The young man was awakened by the girl's unknown soft cry, and Kaneki let go of his hands in a panic.

On the girl's wrist, two shocking bruises made Kaneki extremely remorseful, the young man fell backwards and fell to the ground, covering his head helplessly, did I really do this?

You are really hateful...

Asakura Minami rubbed his sore wrist and pursed his lips.

The male god must not be able to accept these things. Changing from a human to a man-eating monster, the transformation of the world, the upside-down of the world, Asakura Minami's heart hurts a little.

What will become of that gentle Kaneki Ken?

Will it choose and devour people like those ghouls?

Minami Asakura shook his head to shake off all kinds of thoughts in his mind, he can't change the reality, all he can do is stay with him as before, until the appointed day comes.

The girl quietly sat next to the young man, leaning on the young man's thin shoulders, waiting for him to calm down.

As time passed, Kaneki gradually calmed down his sense of tyranny, and Dongzi's company made him feel much better.

Holding the girl halfway, Jin Mu looked at Dongzi with a calm face, and said in a voice that had become hoarse after a long time of speaking: "I'm sorry, Dongzi hurt you."

The girl yawned lazily, expressing that she accepted the young man's apology.

After a moment of silence, Jin Mu asked again: "...Where did Dongzi go?"

Asakura Minami jumped up, stomped on his numb feet, took out the hardcover book from his bag, and looked at the male god expectantly.

Kaneki took the book and read it softly. Seeing the signature scribbled on the cover—Izumi Takatsuki—the young man looked up with a look of surprise.

[A gift for Yan-kun. ^_^]

"...I'm sorry, and Dongzi thank you, I like it very much."

[^_^, want to go out for a walk?Yanjun hasn't gone out for a long time, so let's take it as a walk with Dongzi, and wear a blindfold by the way. ]

Minami Asakura pulled out a medical eye mask, put it on for the male god graciously, and shook the male god's hand in satisfaction.

Kaneki nodded in embarrassment, but he regretted it the moment he went out.

"Forget it... Dongzi, I don't want to go out..."

The young man didn't finish his sentence, because the girl blocked the words of refusal with her lips.

The girl smiled brightly in the light kiss that was about to leave.

[With Dongzi by Yan-kun’s side, everything will be fine, and Yan-kun needs to cheer up. ^_^]

Kaneki's face, which had been stiff since the mutation, stretched out, showing a long-lost gentle smile to the girl's dimples.

The sweet time didn't last long.

Jin Mu's saliva flowed out unconsciously as he shuttled through the crowd, and the hunger that had been suppressed gushed out.

Meat!woman!man!Meat!

The young man whose mind was occupied by flesh was quickly noticed by the girl. When Asakura Minami hugged the male god and walked to a place where there were few people, his collar was already covered with uncontrollable saliva.

The fragrance of the wood pulled back Kaneki's rationality, the young man hugged the girl tightly, tears of pain flowed out, on the side that Qian Cangnan couldn't see, the young man's broken face was mixed with crazy possessive desire.

Minami Asakura patted the male god crying like a child helplessly, feeling even more distressed.

Yanjun, what should I do?

Hey, I really don't want to leave you... If you can accept the real me, will you be able to rely on each other for the rest of your life?

"Moses, is that Aunt Kosaka? I'm Nan..."

……

"That's it, I see...it's nothing, goodbye then."

Minami Asakura, who hung up the phone, sighed and gripped the phone tightly.

Carrying the coffee he bought, Asakura Minami wandered on the road, coffee...

God doesn't like bitter like chocolate...

Bad memories surfaced, the rainy day in that spring was also gloomy, Asakura Minami looked up, the dark sky at dusk was as complex and ghostly as people's hearts.

The unnaturally curved iron knife that fell, the stiff smile, the young man's eyes wandering and he did not dare to look at the girl.

Ah, what the hell is suicide!

[Yan Jun... try this! ]

Minami Asakura changed the topic, and raised the bag in his hand.

[I heard that you can drink. ]

"Dongzi... where did you know that?" The young man took the canned coffee handed by the girl, his eyelids slightly drooping, and an unknown emotion flashed across his face.

Minami Asakura paused, smiled and held up the whiteboard.

[Yan Jun asks what is this for?It was mentioned on TV. ]

Jin Mu gave a small "hmm", Dongzi never watched those shows, so what are you hiding, Dongzi?

It was the first time that the bitter taste of coffee moved Kaneki so much. Speaking of coffee, the gift that has lasted for many years is also the taste of coffee.

It's just that he really can't accept the owner of the gift. I don't know what's going on with that junior, but it will always be better than before, right?

Kaneki didn't have much time to think about the future, because the spasm from his stomach became more irritable.

After drinking the rest of the coffee in one gulp, Kaneki held his stomach impatiently, "Dongzi, I'll go out and buy some more, you go to bed first."

Asakura Minami looked at the empty bottle, and worriedly looked at the male god who was haunted by hunger.

[Is it really all right?Yanjun, you...]

"Don't worry! I'll be back right away. Dongzi needs to rest well. Isn't he going to school tomorrow?"

The young man smiled and bid farewell to the restless girl, and merged with the night.

After drinking several bottles of coffee again, Kaneki finally felt better, and fell asleep contentedly.

It will be fine.

The young man who woke up from starvation sat in the living room with a dazed look in his eyes. He didn't recover a little bit of spirit until the girl's stagnant eyes appeared.

"Don't Dongzi go to school?" Kaneki asked suspiciously the girl sitting next to him.

[I took a day off. ^_^]

"Is that so, won't it affect you? I'm talking about the national exam or something."

[It's okay, I don't want to go to college. ^_^]

The young man scratched his cheek, "What does Dongzi want to do after graduation?"

[I want to open a bookstore, what do you think of Mr. Yan? ^_^]

"It's good..." Jin Mu said.

[Thanks!Yanjun will take care of my bookstore in the future! ]

The young man nodded casually restlessly. In the future... Dongzi, do we really have a future?

I seem to have been pricked on my finger by the cotton of happiness, and timidly want to back away.

"Is Dongzi's purple-haired friend called Kirishima Touka?" Kaneki touched his chin and stared at the cup on the table and asked, "Has Dongzi been in contact with her recently?"

Asakura Minami was stunned for a moment, and looked dryly at Kaneki Ken who looked calm.

The young man turned his head guiltily, not daring to look at the girl's probing eyes.

The long-haired girl bit her lower lip and answered her boyfriend's question.

[I've been busy with my research lately. Dong Xiang and Yizi are preparing for the national exam review, and I have less contact. If you want to find Dong Xiang, you can go to the antique coffee shop where she works. ]

Asakura Minami lowered his head and was a little listless, his hands twitched uneasily, which was a manifestation of his confusion.

The delicate Kaneki naturally noticed Dongzi's uneasiness, and he forcibly retracted the hand he instinctively stretched out. Perhaps it is the best choice to let Dongzi leave him as a monster.

He really is a despicable coward...

The girl grabbed the arm of the young man who stood up, and buried her head in the belly of the male god.

The warm heat came from the soft belly due to lack of exercise, but Asakura Minami only felt the coldness. What was this gentle man hiding, Kaneki Ken seemed to want to retreat again.

A sense of grievance welled up, his nose was sour, and Asakura Minami wept silently.

Everything is wrong!

Whether it's Asakura Minami's deceit or Kaneki Ken's timidity!

Some people say that everyone in front of love is a brave man, but Asakura Minami is a despicable liar, and Kaneki Ken is a hypocritical good person.

One does not hesitate to fabricate love, and the other blindly retreats, attacking and fleeing. When they reach the close point, everything will collapse unless they change.

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry... Dongzi is all my fault!"

So don't cry, my heart seems to flow blood called pain, and it spreads throughout the body, sadness fills the cells.

A bitter cry washed away the confusion of Jin Mu's future, and his obsession continued to deepen, as deep as a quagmire.

In the future, Asakura Minami is doomed to be difficult to escape.

"Hey, Toko waits for me obediently at home. I'll talk to Ms. Kirishima about something. I really have no other opinion about Ms. Kirishima. Toko should cheer up."

The pouting girl stuck out her tongue, made a grimace, and sent the hooded youth away.

Qian Cangnan doesn't know why the male god wants to find Dong Xiang, but he believes that he loves him, so he just needs to wait quietly for this calm young man to come back.

May God bless, the years are quiet and good.

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