like her

"Gai Gai, you know, I..."

"In fact, I have never experienced such a life. I have to adapt to many things slowly. Then Gai Gai, you also have to adapt."

The little dirty boy complained and complained, and finally took a bath obediently.At the end, she noticed Ruan Gai's silence, and suddenly spoke.

Nguyen Gai was surprised.

Let alone a five-year-old, even a 15-year-old would be surprised to be able to say such words so clearly.

"You don't need to adapt to this kind of life, it's not your life in the first place."

The little dirty boy shook his head: "It's not like that."

Ruan Gai dried her body for her, and asked doubtfully, "What do you mean it's not like this?"

The little dirty boy flicked the water from his hair, "This is your life Gagai, I want to be with you. I can adapt to it, but you can also adapt to my life Gagai with me."

Such words may be very touching, but it doesn't seem to make Ruan Gai very happy.

Because her own life is not a particularly good life, and she doesn't want people around her to adapt to such a life.

"Stop thinking like that again."

The little dirty boy frowned, not very happy.

"Why?"

Ruan Gai said truthfully, "Because I don't like it."

The little dirty boy's eyes flickered.

Her Gage said she didn't like having her life with her.

The little dirty boy choked up:

"But I, I just wanted to tell you..."

"I……"

"I can live your life with you."

"Then I also want you to appear in my life."

The little dirty boy couldn't express himself clearly.

She wants to use actions to show that she can gradually adapt to Ruan Gai's life, and then she can try to participate in her own life.

For example, when the weather is cold, you can go to her house to take a shower; when you want to watch TV, you can go directly there; when Lao Mo cooks delicious food, she can eat it with chopsticks without worrying so much.

Just like your own family.

Only at that time—

Ruan Gai didn't understand.

All she could think about was her miserable life.

Don't drag people down.

The next morning, when Ruan Gai woke up, there was no sign of the little dirty boy.

This made Ruan Gai a little dazed, did she sleep alone last night, or with the little dirty boy?

Ruan Gai didn't realize at this time that her silent answer to what the dirty boy said last night was not what the dirty boy wanted.

It even makes the little dirty boy feel that he is not that important.

Gai Gai was too lazy to deal with her even replying.

But actually, Ruan Gai already had an answer in his heart.

Just didn't speak.

It just so happened that those few days were the school's monthly exams.

Ruan Gai was busy with the exam, so he also thought that the little dirty boy had gone to play with other friends and didn't come to him.

After experiencing the mp3 incident, Nguyen Gai became more silent.

In the class, he almost didn't speak, except he would talk more with He Lele.

But after that incident, He Lele's behavior was also a little different from before. She always felt that there was something weird about her, but when asked what happened, she refused to say anything.

She has always been very nervous, but she often tidies up her desk.

From time to time, I also take a notebook to write down some words.

But it’s not about taking notes, but about how many pens you use frequently, what color they are, where they are placed, and how many notebooks are there.

Ruan Gai remembered that this person would not care about these trivial matters at all.

How come it looks like a different person.

It is obvious that we meet, talk and say hello almost every day, but the turning point in life just comes so suddenly.

But maybe not suddenly.

But in the process of getting along, we all thought that we would not change.

We all thought that we could live on in such a simple and pure way.

So when the transformation comes oncoming, it will feel sudden.

About a month later, at the end of the first semester of the second year of junior high school, He Lele didn't come to school for several days.At first, the classmates in the class thought she was sick and said they would go to see her, but they vaguely felt that it was not as simple as being sick.

After that, some people in the class began to say that He Lele seemed to have transferred another school.

Some people are saying that her family's conditions are so good, she should have moved to the city long ago.

But some people refuted it. I think her sudden departure was due to other reasons.

I heard——

Since He Lele lost that mp3, although he found it back, it seems that he started to lose other things again.

real or fake?

Shh, stop talking.

At this time, someone will look in Ruan Gai's direction.

Although Ruan Gai didn't look back, she couldn't hear exactly what they were saying.However, she could feel that it should be related to her.

In December, Lin Town was already getting cold.

Ruan Gai's hand holding the pen was frozen tight.

She still didn't have the courage to stand up, confront and argue with those people.She didn't even dare to think about the reason why He Lele left.

Obviously, the distance between their homes is not very far. She only needs to ask, and she will know that this matter has nothing to do with her.In other words, if she went to look for Brother Zhou again, she might feel better.

But she has neither.

Instead, close yourself up.

When she finally raised her head and remembered to find the answer, everyone left.

Including the person who said that he always wanted to be by his side.

The world is unpredictable, and being alone probably refers to that period of time.

The people who were by her side left one by one, and no one greeted her.

No.

One.

At the beginning of December, the little dirty boy received another call from his mother.

From then on, she began to quarrel with Nguyen Gai frequently.

Most of the time it's because of a little thing, but if something doesn't go her way, she will run away angrily.At that time, Nguyen Gai had started to read some books about medicine.

Obscure professional knowledge gave her a splitting headache every night.

It was also at that time that Ruan Gai’s grandma heard from somewhere that it’s better for girls to go to health school, instead of going to high school, and then go to university for a few years, and they can go to work after just two or three years of study. up.

He began to ramble frantically in her ear all the time.

Including my mother, who rarely calls home, would tell her these words on the phone.

Obviously she can say euphemistically that it is still the second year of junior high school, so she is not in a hurry to think about these distant things.But for some reason, the roots of her ears became very sensitive.

She can't listen to others saying anything that doesn't suit her.

She even asked very radically: "If you don't want to support me in high school, you can just say it in college, and you don't need to beat around the bush like this. It's really unnecessary."

quarrel.

Arguing endlessly.

Children feel that adults are eccentric and patriarchal.

Adults feel that children are unrealistic, rebellious and unreasonable.

Everything seems to be falling apart.

Even when she faced the unreasonable troubles of the little dirty boy, she no longer tolerated and accepted, but felt a little impatient.

Those vows made in the past seemed to vanish into thin air in a moment.

The little dirty boy was stunned.

She never expected that the always gentle Gai Gai would yell at her.

He would tell her, have you had enough trouble, are you annoying?

After saying these words, Ruan Gai was also dumbfounded.

She didn't mean to say that, she couldn't control her emotions at that time.

She wants to make herself better.

Be independent.

Have your own life and protect the people you want to protect.

However, she neglected that now she has no way to get rid of the life in front of her.

The little bit of confidence she had accumulated was completely vulnerable when faced with the vortex of life.

I even think that she is a very bad person.

No qualifications to be loved, no qualifications to love.

This time the little dirty boy didn't cry.

Instead, he left a sentence, "I will never talk to you again!" and ran away.

When Ruan Gai came back to his senses and wanted to find her, he couldn't find her at all.

Not at home either.

Nor did she go to play with her little friends.

Ruan Gai's emotions exploded in an instant.

Tears flowed.

She has always thought that she is a very tolerant person, but at this moment, she feels like an ant, humble, weak and vulnerable.

She looked for her everywhere, and even found Zheng Bo's house.

Ruan Gai didn't even realize that she had searched so many places and it was already dark.

I didn't expect to bump into Zheng Bo either.

She wiped away her tears, ready to escape.

But he was held back by Zheng Bo.

He didn't ask her what's wrong, what happened, but said, it's late, I'll take you home.

For some reason, Ruan Gai couldn't stop crying at that moment.

When approaching the door of the house, Zheng Bo said, I will take you here, can you walk back by yourself?

He always remembered not to get too close to her house.

Ruan Gai's eyes were red, so he kept his head down.

"thank you."

After she said thank you, Zheng Bo did not reply.

She also never raised her head, so she never saw Zheng Bo's expression standing in front of her.His eyes also turned red.

In the end, he gently wrapped her in his arms.

Patted her on the shoulder and said, "Be good."

Before Ruan Gai could react, he immediately turned and left.

Ruan Gai stood still for a long time.

This is the first time she has been so close to the opposite sex.

Can't tell what it feels like.

It seems that there is nothing to feel.

From that day to the end, Ruan Gai did not see the little dirty boy.

But she confirmed with Lao Mo that the little dirty boy had already returned home and was sleeping on the bed.

She should go upstairs to take a look and coax her regardless of whether she is asleep or not.But she didn't.

Her eye circles were still red.

She was worried that she would not be able to coax the little dirty boy in such a state, but she was even more afraid that the little dirty boy didn't want to see her.

"Then I'll go home first and come to her tomorrow."

Lao Mo hesitated to speak.

Finally nodded.

"It's nothing. Children's emotions come and go quickly. It will be fine tomorrow."

"Ah."

Ruan Gai turned and left.

It never occurred to her.

That day, when she went out to look for the little dirty boy, the little dirty boy had been waiting for her on the path directly opposite the door of the two houses.Until, she saw the boy hugging her in his arms.

She turned around without any expression on her face, and said to Lao Mo:

"Grandma, let's go, let's go home. I'm sleepy."

We usually say that children don't understand anything.

But in fact, children know a lot, and sometimes they are even more sensitive.

The author has something to say: #This is probably the kind of distressing feeling when you are young and have nothing. #

also a sudden growth