like her

As soon as Lin Duqing returned to the classroom, she saw her roommate winking at her.

She has a question mark on her face, what is that expression?

The roommate walked up to her and asked in a low voice, "The noodles in the school cafeteria, isn't it delicious? I said why I disappeared so early this morning, so I have an appointment."

Lin Duqing: "..."

Nothing travels faster than gossip.

The roommate pretended to be serious, leaned in front of her and said, "I'll just ask you secretly, other people don't know what I'm asking."

"How is it? Have a good time?"

Happy ass.

She was depressed after a breakfast.

For the time being, she didn't care about the issues related to her personal principles. When the cafeteria was filled with people, Ruan Gai reminded her to hurry up and have breakfast.

She asked Ruan if she would mind having breakfast with her and being photographed and discussed by others.

She replied: "How come?"

"I was afraid you wouldn't like it."

Lin Du understood what she meant, but he just wanted to say something deliberately: "Which one don't like?"

Ruan Gai didn't hear her intention, but he was explaining seriously: "It is to become the object of everyone's attention in a crowded place, and to be stared at whatever you do."

"Oh," she picked up the powder with her chopsticks, lowered her head slightly, and hooked the corners of her mouth when she was talking, "That person is already very good-looking, isn't it normal for everyone to pay attention to her?"

Ho!

I haven't seen you in a few years, and I haven't learned any other skills, but the narcissism skill is full marks.

"That is to say, you don't hate this, do you?" During the one week or so since Ruan Gai came here, many students went to the school hospital almost every day for her.If you are more courageous, you will ask her to see a doctor and give you an intravenous drip; if you are less courageous, you can watch it at the window.

To this end, Nguyen Gai also put on a mask.

She didn't really like the feeling of being watched in the crowd.

"Break up." She looked up at Ruan Gai, "For example, with you, I think it's okay."

In this way, Ruan Gai completely understood.

"Then so am I."

As long as that person is you, everything seems to be less unacceptable.

You may even secretly think about——

Ah!

What do those people think when they see the two of us together?

It looks good, but it still feels weird.

Lin Duqing added some adjectives for her, "You mean, you don't hate being watched by others when you're with me, and you even look forward to it?"

The two of them don't know if it's because they haven't seen each other for a long time, or for other reasons. In short, when they get together, there will be a feeling that the two of them are not at the same point occasionally.

How to describe this feeling.

Just sometimes, when Ruan Gai expresses a feeling for her, she is strangely passive.When she tried to express it, people didn't understand it again.

For example, what she wanted to express just now is that maybe you and other people will find this matter very annoying, but you and I will have the feeling of looking forward to meeting each other.

At this time, you only need to answer yes or no.

But some people's answer, what is it, "It's better not to make it in public, it's better to do it in private."

Lin Du was no longer in the mood to eat lightly.

Seeing her put down her chopsticks and leave, Ruan Gai was in a daze.

Is she wrong?

This kind of meeting in public is not worth looking forward to.

Compared with getting along with the crowd, she still prefers to be in an independent and quiet space.

Just like in her small room when she was a child, she was reading and writing on the desk, and she lay on the side listening to songs and sleeping.

Isn't this way of getting along?

Lin Duqing didn't expect this level.

When her roommate asked about the breakfast situation this morning, she complained fiercely: "It's not delicious, and I won't go there again next time."

The roommate teased her: "Yo, I'm quite angry."

"I see in that photo, you're quite happy eating, aren't you?"

Lin Duqing briefly summarized the conversation that happened in the morning, and told her.

After the roommate heard this, she squinted her eyes solemnly. Lin Duqing thought she understood, so she said, "Do you also think that she doesn't understand what I'm saying at all?"

The roommate shook her head after she finished speaking.

"No. On the contrary, I think she estimated and considered a wider level."

Lin Duqing hesitated: "Is there?"

The roommate was very sure: "Of course. However, I just gave me this feeling through what you said. It's just that you are in it and care too much about her words and deeds, so you can't see clearly."

This is probably why, for many things, we can express clearly what our inner thoughts are with ordinary friends.But in front of some people, no matter how they say it, there is no way to make it clear.

Because they care too much about each other.

So even if she clearly knows some of the meaning she expressed, there is no way to be sure subconsciously.

At this time, Lin Duqing didn't quite understand and control what kind of emotion it was.

"Is it like this?"

The roommate put his hands on his lips, and seemed to be talking loudly, but in fact he said very softly, "That's it. You will understand after a while. Don't worry, take your time."

"You will definitely reach the state where the other party will understand without words."

At that time, you don't need to ask the other party to give you any response, so as to try to make yourself feel at ease.Because you know how important she is to you, and she also knows how much you are to her.

It doesn't need words to describe.

All it takes is one action.

You will understand.

school clinic.

There are not many students who come to the hospital to see a doctor during the class, and in her spare time, she reads the medical books for the postgraduate entrance examination.Or memorize some words for the postgraduate entrance examination.

Although it is not the exam this year, it is always more confident to prepare in advance.

The male assistant school doctor who was an intern saw that she had a very full schedule, and couldn't help but sigh with emotion: "Sister Gai, I knew you came here, there must be some other reason."

Ruan Gai thought his real reason for coming here was discovered, and he was taken aback, but he still pretended to be calm and asked, "What did you say?"

The male assistant school doctor explained: "I said you, it must be because this place is not very busy, there is plenty of time, and you can prepare for the postgraduate entrance examination, so you come to work here, right?"

Ruan Gai was stunned for a few seconds.

She can say that the so-called sufficient time is not important to her.Besides, she is an outstanding graduate who the instructor earnestly asked her to guarantee graduate school.It's really not because of this reason that I chose here.

But the real reason cannot be said.

She could only cooperate with him and said, "Yes. You are really smart."

The male assistant school doctor smiled and showed his teeth: "That's natural. If you are a medical student, your eyes will not work well. You can tell it at a glance."

Ruan Gai smiled and didn't answer his words.

Instead, I asked him, "So, you also because of this reason?"

The male assistant school doctor smiled innocently: "I'm not that desperate."

Ruan Gai twirled his pen and asked, "How do you say?"

The male assistant school doctor replied truthfully: "Of course I want to take it easy, and it's still close to home."

Nguyen Gai was in a daze for a few seconds.

Only then replied: "Really?"

The male assistant school doctor sat on the stool next to her and said, "Yeah, I don't have great ambitions. At that time, studying medicine was also a volunteer filled by my family. They said that studying medicine is good. But after studying medicine, I realized that It's so hard and tiring. I probably won't be able to forget the ten-month internship in different departments in the hospital."

"Occasionally there will be some medical accidents, and the doctor will always be held accountable. The patient is slightly dissatisfied, and the doctor's family members will be scolded, beaten, or even stabbed."

"I'm a very timid person, don't look at me as a big boy. But I'm actually very scared. I don't have the courage to become a doctor in a hospital. I feel that I can't admit the feeling of oppression. It will make me Feeling suffocated."

"Although I know that most patients are still very reasonable. But now I just can't bear it. I also know that saving lives and healing the wounded is a particularly sacred thing."

"but I--"

"There's no way to stand at that height."

"I'm even afraid of death."

As he spoke, the male assistant intern quietly blushed.

He didn't expect that he would say these words one day.

He always found it difficult for Terby to talk about.

Many people are talking about him, after five years of medical science, he didn't even have the courage to become a doctor who treats patients.I just stayed in the small school hospital as an intern assistant.Do something that a health school graduate can do.

Excuse me?

But Ruan Gai always has a magical power that makes people speak without knowing it.

Or maybe it's the sobriety that she exudes, positive, calm, and always knows what she's doing.Let a person envy.

After hearing this, Ruan Gai stopped turning the pen.

She could actually understand that feeling.

Doctors are not gods.

Their daily lives are moving forward, and they have to face different patients every day. They may see only those kinds of diseases, but they have very little time for themselves and their families.

She always remembered Lao Mo who had retired from the hospital.

I still read medical books every night and study some special cases.

The white coat she was wearing hanging in the study was the driving force in her deepest memory when she felt tired from studying countless days and nights, and the hard-to-understand professional knowledge was almost fatal.

But even with such motivation and her inner persistence, many times, she would be surrounded by a sense of powerlessness.In the hospital, as a doctor, it is impossible to avoid the so-called irreversible loss of life.

If there is no way to adjust, even become a doctor.

In the end, it will also be suppressed invisible.

Ruan Gai put down his pen and closed the book.

He looked at him and said, "It's okay. Studying medicine is a long road. To go or not to go, the final decision is made by oneself. Although in today's society, most children make decisions that are more or less We will all be influenced by our parents. But we are always an independent individual, aren't we?"

"We also have things we are afraid of and things we don't want to do."

"Then when I have the ability to make my own decisions, go in the direction I think is right. Even if you don't become a doctor, so what. You can still find your own direction in life."

"Of course, I personally think that I still like to study medicine. I also hope that I can become a doctor in the future. Not to mention saving lives and helping the wounded, at least I have a skill that allows me to work hard for it."

"I think it's pretty cool."

"Then you'll also have things that you think are cool."

"Maybe you think you can't become a doctor now, but it doesn't mean that your thoughts will not change in the future. People's thoughts will change with each time period, mentality and people they meet. changed."

"So, it's okay."

"Give yourself enough time to find what you think you want to do. That's it."

The author has something to say: when writing this chapter

eyes are moist

2020 is really a special year

The sudden outbreak of new coronary pneumonia, including the current foreign epidemics, is still particularly serious

In the process of fighting the epidemic, I really saw too many news that made Winton cry

The angel in white tries his best to protect

That kind of bitterness and tiredness is beyond our ordinary people's ability to experience.

can be at the same time

There have also been many disturbing medical incidents

I hope that when my readers read this story

Not only what you see is the companionship of the sweet story

also experience life

After experiencing the vicissitudes of life

we still

believe in something

and believe in something

Thank you guys for your love and companionship in this story

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