over dependent

Jiang Yi said that he wants to eat candy when he is unhappy, so he gave Jin Rong a lot of candy.

Jin Rong didn't like candy, he hesitated for a while and asked, "Is there a lollipop?"

"Yes." Jiang Yi pulled out an orange-flavored lollipop from the depths of the candy, "This is the only flavor left."

Orange-flavored lollipops are actually the same for Jin Rong.He couldn't taste the taste, so maybe all the candy tasted the same?

He and Jiang Yi sat leaning against each other in front of the piano. He stepped on the soft tone pedal with bare feet, and Jiang Yi stepped on the sustain pedal, just put it on it, and didn't step on it deliberately.

Jin Rong ate the candy with his eyes closed, and could faintly feel the sweetness spreading in his throat.Then the sweetness dissipated, leaving only a little stickiness that blocked his throat.He drank water, trying to wash away such a sad feeling, but he couldn't.

"Is it delicious?" Jiang Yi was taller than him, and had to lower his head when he asked him.

Jin Rong bit the candy and nodded, then shook his head, not knowing what he was talking about.But eating candy is really fun, you can forget all your troubles, and you can numb your taste buds.

If only there was a way to be happy without sugar.It can be amnesia pills, or it can be exciting sports, roller coasters and bungee jumping.Jin Rong felt a little lost. He reached out and tapped the keys a few times, and suddenly said, "Debussy."

"what?"

"Impressionism, Debussy. I used to play "Moonlight", "Girl with Flaxen Hair", "Reflection in Water" when I was unhappy." Jin Rong stretched his neck. With the sound of the left hand.

Jiang Yi played the right side for him, obviously two people, but like the same hands, played the piece profoundly and comfortably.

The erratic moonlight, pouring down, pouring down, hazy, ambiguous and endless, from the night slowly falling to the bright moon rising slowly, the moon in the water, the water in the moon, the river surface is rippling with ripples, circle after circle, connected, wrinkled.

Jin Rong's breathing ranges from shallow to deep, spreading, stretching, suffocating, and redeeming along with the music.

"Moonlight" is Jin Rong's favorite piece of music.He likes quiet, impressionism, and the unpredictable.He groped, searched, caught something and wanted to break free while playing the piano.

His left hand matched Jiang Yi's right hand perfectly, but Jiang Yi didn't have his sorrow, and Jin Rong found a glimmer of hope from his piano sound.Along with hope, there is pleasurable, almost addictive hallucination.

"...you are too fast," Jin Rong pulled his wrist, "you have to follow me."

Jiang Yi couldn't slow down anymore, this was the first time he lost his rhythm.

The last few notes fell silent, as if with a reluctant nostalgia, the night was about to end, and the moon was still shining dimly.

Jin Rong saw the shadows of him and Jiang Yi in the piano mirror, and seemed to be erratic.

Jin Rong let out a sigh from his nasal cavity: "I love you so much..."

There is also "Reflection in Water", the water is mottled, swaying, wrinkled and colorful, rolling up the softest part of the heart and pulling it into the water.

Jin Rong tugged at the corner of Jiang Yi's clothes, from far to near, until it was close to his wrist.

"Do you love me?" Because Jiang Yi didn't say "love", he asked anxiously.

Jiang Yi still didn't come back to his senses in a trance: "What?"

"I'm asking if you love me or not." He hugged Jiang Yi, "You say you love me, or you don't."

"Love." Jiang Yi said, "I love you very much, I love you very much."

But Jin Rong thought, love this kind of thing, is it as erratic as moonlight?Will it be an impressionist piece too?Hazy and ambiguous, can't you catch the real shadow?

But he has caught Jiang Yi now.

Jiang Yi also caught him.

"It's so hot." Jin Rong frowned, his chin resting on Jiang Yi's shoulder, "Are you hot?"

"Yeah." Jiang Yi also nodded, "Do you still want to take a shower? Or, to dry?"

Jin Rong was amused by him: "To dry, take a clip and hang it up to dry?"

"Wrap you in the quilt and carry you out to dry."

Jin Rong and Jiang Yi lay on the bed after taking a shower, and they both smelled of shower gel.

It smells so good, Jin Rong can't tell if it's the shower gel or Jiang Yixiang.He put his arms around Jiang Yi and asked, "Do you love me?"

"Why do you keep asking this?" Jiang Yi was a little puzzled, "Are you worried that I don't love you enough?"

"I just want to hear your answer." Jin Rong said softly, "Do you love me?"

"Love." Jiang Yi said tirelessly, "I love you."

That's great, so that Jin Rong can be sure that Jiang Yi loves him.But he couldn't guarantee that Jiang Yi would always love him, so he kept asking.

He hugged Jiang Yi and fell asleep, dreaming that Fang Yizhe divorced for Jin Shiyuan, and they stood in front of Jin Rong, holding a brand new marriage certificate.

Jin Shiyuan said, "I found you a good father."

Fang Yizhe really became his father, and now Jin Rong is no longer a child without a father.But Jin Rong couldn't laugh, he said to Fang Yizhe, "I hate you."

"Why do you hate me?"

"Because you turned me and mom into the most disgusting people in the world."

"It's not me who made you like this, it's what you were originally like."

The scene in the dream changed, and Jin Rong was tied up and pushed onto the street.People around him threw vegetable leaves at him and called him "the son of the mistress who ruined other families".Jin Rong was afraid of this identity. He wanted to hide and escape, but with invisible sharp claws holding him down, he had nowhere to escape.

Jiang Yi was standing at the end of the long street, watching all this coldly.Jin Rong didn't dare to look at him, but he couldn't help but look at him again.When the eyes met, Jiang Yi let out a chuckle: "Why didn't you tell me?"

"tell you what?"

"You are Xiaosan's son."

Jin Rong was like being struck by lightning. He wanted to explain to Jiang Yi, but he couldn't get an understanding no matter what.Jiang Yi knew... If he knew, Jin Rong would be finished, and the last person who loved him in this world would be gone.

"I'm not!" Jin Rong cried, "I'm not! I'm not such a person..."

He couldn't tell the difference between dream and reality. When he cried in his dream, he also cried in reality.He was confused in his dream, and shouted inarticulately: "I'm not! Jiang Yi..."

Jiang Yihuang woke him up and saw him shed a pillow of tears.

"Have a nightmare?"

Jin Rong plunged into his arms: "Jiang Yi..."

"Hey, I'm here." Jiang Yi comforted his back and coaxed him, "Stop crying, and I won't be manly when I cry."

Jin Rong was afraid of what he would say in his sleep, so he asked, "What did I say just now?"

"You said 'no'."

"anything else?"

"Still calling my name."

Nothing else.

Jin Rong heaved a sigh of relief, he still hugged Jiang Yi tightly, still frightened on the surface, but secretly swore in his heart: Never let Jiang Yi know everything about him.

If Jiang Yi knew, he wouldn't want him.

Jin Rong felt dizzy and panicked with hunger. He raised his head and looked outside the curtains. The sun was already shining in the sky."What time is it?" he asked.

"12:30."

"12:30?!" Jin Rong sat up in surprise, and almost couldn't sit still, leaning on the bed, "It's so late?"

"Yeah, don't you go to bed at dawn?"

Jin Rong remembered that he and Jiang Yi did not sleep until after dawn.It's just that Jiang Yi slept in the first half of the night and woke up earlier than him.

When Jiang Yi woke up, he supported his head and watched him sleep for a long time.He thinks Jin Rong's sleeping face is really pretty, and the way he frowns slightly is also pretty, everything looks good.The more I look at it, the more I feel embarrassed.

Now he managed to muster up a little courage to stare at Jin Rong: "Are you hungry? Do you want to eat?"

Jin Rong nodded: "I'm hungry." He struggled to get up, looked at the piano, and said resentfully, "I got up late, and I haven't practiced the piano yet. In class yesterday, Teacher Song asked me to practice Liszt more, and arranged a little bit for me. Homework, I hope I can practice it. I still have two homework that I haven't played, what should I do?"

Jiang Yi squeezed his shoulders for him: "I'll be with you, don't worry. There's only one day of class tomorrow, right?"

Jin Rong thought for a while and said, "I hate learning the piano."

But as Jin Shiyuan said, he seems to know nothing but playing the piano.

Jiang Yi cooked a lunch for Jin Rong. His cooking skills were quite satisfactory, not unpalatable, but definitely not delicious, anyway, he made do with it.Jin Rong ate very happily. He ate more than he ate out, so he must be starving.

"Don't worry, I will practice my cooking skills hard." Jiang Yi promised, "I will try to satisfy you."

"You have made me very satisfied." Jin Rong said.

Jin Rong practiced the piano, and Jiang Yi was a partner. The new piece was played from the beginning, the right hand was practiced first, then the left hand, and then both hands were played.Jin Rong stayed up all night, and his mind was a little dull. When the beat was wrong, Jiang Yi pinched his shoulder to remind him.

Jiang Yi's hands were too strong, and Jin Rong's shoulders were red with the touch of a finger.

"pain."

"I'll be lighter next time." Jiang Yi kissed him apologetically, "Practice well!"

Jin Rong thought about going out to rent a house, he couldn't always live in Jiang Yi's house.When going out for a walk after dinner in the evening, Jin Rong accidentally saw an advertisement for renting a house. It was in Jiang Yi's community, but it was a bit small, with one bedroom and one living room, which was enough for him.

"Do you want to rent a house?" Jiang Yi was surprised, "You and your mother are still arguing? Are you so noisy that you have to live separately?"

Jin Rong wrote down the phone number of the rented house. He may have to withdraw some money from his small treasury recently. After all, he really wants to get away from Fang Yizhe and is unwilling to use his money.I don't want to live with Jin Shiyuan anymore, or they will all become lunatics.

"I'll watch first. If we can't reconcile in the future, I will live outside." Jin Rong lied to him.

Jiang Yi respected his thoughts, and said with a thousand words: "If you go out to rent a house, you have to ask me to check it. Don't have a camera in the room to secretly take pictures of you sleeping and taking a shower!"

"What and what! Who would secretly film a man sleeping and taking a shower?"

Jiang Yi muttered: "You are so beautiful, I am very worried!"

The author says:

This chapter is a bit short (the analysis of "Moonlight" refers to Baidu and textbooks (???)