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Before hearing the second half of the sentence, Jin Rong already knew what she meant.

He never dreamed that his own mother would let him die just because he was gay.At that moment, Jin Rong didn't know what was going on in his mind, and his thinking was slow. When his own cell phone rang, he felt as if he had just woken up from a dream.

Jin Rong's note to Jiang Yi was "Teacher Jiang", followed by a smiling face.Jin Shiyuan didn't have to guess, it must be Jiang Yi.

"He called." Jin Shiyuan said, "You break up with him now, and I will let the past go."

"I don't want to break up with him."

Jin Shiyuan was still irritable: "If you don't break up, I'll call Director Jiang! Now we say behind closed doors, when I call Jiang Yi's father, the whole world will know about the trouble, it's not just that! "

Jin Rong stared blankly at his phone, at the dog on Jiang Yi's profile picture.What a fool, sticking out his tongue, his eyebrows were drawn twice by the master with an eyebrow pencil, just as stupid as Jiang Yi.Every time he saw this profile picture, Jin Rong couldn't help laughing, because it was so stupid.

Now he can't laugh, he just wants to cry.

"Can I not break up?"

"I want you to break up with him!"

With tears in his eyes, Jin Rong asked: "You have to drive away all the people who love me around me, right? Once someone likes me, you will force me to break up with you! Why on earth do you want to treat me like this? Don't you deserve to be liked?!"

Jin Shiyuan was questioned. She wanted to defend herself at first, but she didn't bother to defend herself. She just asked him: "Do you want to break up? You don't want to break up, right? Then I'll tell everyone! Anyway, you, Jin Rong, are shameless." , let me see if Jiang Yi wants to be ashamed!"

"Don't!" Jin Rong burst into tears, "Don't...don't force me..."

Jin Shiyuan snatched his mobile phone, and they fought again.Jin Rong cried and asked her: "What am I in your heart? Why do you always force me to do things I don't like? Why do you never listen to my ideas?"

"What can you think? You only know rebellion, fight against me!"

Jin Shiyuan has already snatched Jin Rong's mobile phone, but Jiang Yi's phone was not connected, and the screen is now locked. She tried the password several times, but it was not accurate.

"What is the password?"

Jin Rong didn't tell her, he asked hoarsely: "Are you still my mother? Why are you different from other people? Why are other people's mothers so good? Come bear it!"

Jin Shiyuan cried when she heard it. She didn't think she was wrong, and she didn't want to listen to Jin Rong's questioning.She scolded Jin Rong: "Am I not good enough for you? I provide you with food, clothing, schooling, and piano lessons!"

"I don't want to learn piano at all! I hate piano so much, I hate it so much! I hate everything I have!" Jin Rong became completely hysterical, and the more he talked, the more despair and pain he felt, "Why are you doing this to me! Why do you want me to bear all this, why do you want me to become such a person!"

"I let you be an excellent person, and I will pave the way for you! It's you who don't know what to do! Do you know how many people want to learn the piano but can't learn it? Do you know how expensive a piano lesson is? Without me, where would you be?" Learn art with money? Do you think art is so easy to learn?"

"Is that you? That's Fang Yizhe's money! I hate Fang Yizhe, I hate everything about him!"

Jin Shiyuan sneered: "What don't you hate? You even hate yourself. Is there anything you like in this world?"

Jin Rong burst into tears: "You just want to destroy me, right?"

"You were not a good thing."

Jiang Yi called him again, and the ringing made Jin Rong's brain ache.

This time Jin Shiyuan gave him face and forced him instead of answering the phone directly: "You break up obediently, and I won't force you to do anything in the future."

"I don't want to break up."

"Do you want to break up?! If you don't want to say it, I'll say it for you! At that time, I'll see whether he is embarrassed or you are embarrassed!"

I am embarrassed.Jin Rong thought.

"Hurry up, don't force me to say it a second time."

He took the phone from Jin Shiyuan's hand, and it took him several seconds to react, and he pressed the connect button slowly.The living room is quiet, so quiet that you can hear the sound of water slowly dripping from the tap in the bathroom.

I can also hear my own heartbeat.

"Hello?" Jin Rong cried once just now, and his voice was still a little hoarse, which made Jiang Yi hear it immediately: "Crying? Where are you? Are you in school?"

"I'm not at school."

Hearing Jiang Yi's voice, Jin Rong felt inexplicably at ease, but when he thought of breaking up with Jiang Yi soon, he found it hard to breathe.

"Where did you go? Don't tell me how you left? Are you unhappy? Where is it? I haven't found you after searching for a long time. Don't run around and don't tell me..."

"Let's break up." Jin Rong bit his lip and said.

"what?"

"let's break up."

"What are you talking about, boy, this joke is not funny."

"I'm not joking." Sitting on the ground, Jin Rong tearfully scratched at the corner of the tea table. The smooth wood made him unable to find any breakthrough.

Jiang Yi stopped talking, and Jin Rong said again: "Let's break up."

"Why?" Jiang Yi didn't understand, "Why did we break up suddenly? We weren't arguing, why did we break up?"

"I don't want to talk anymore." Jin Rong raised his head, trying to hold back those tears.But the opposite happened, those tears broke the embankment, and fell down in a string, and they couldn't stop no matter what.

Jiang Yi still asked: "Did I make you unhappy?"

"You are very good." You are so good, you are so good that I feel ashamed.Jin Rong felt inferior, he thought, would it be a pity and cruelty for such a good person like Jiang Yi to fall into his hands.He will be a stain in Jiang Yi's life, because he is Xiaosan's son, he is a slut, a rotten person.

"Then why do you want to break up? Are you in a bad mood and want to say angry words?" Jiang Yi stammered anxiously, "You, don't say angry words, can't, can't you think about it before talking? You are Where? Baby, I want to see you, can we talk face to face?"

"I don't want to say it face to face." Jin Rong wiped his tears with the back of his hand, his crying voice was already obvious, "Let's break up."

"Give me a reason, Jin Rong, do you want to send me away? I don't care about your family's affairs. What happens to your parents has nothing to do with me! I don't care who you have grudges with, and I don't care about everything. I will stand On your side, I will protect you, can you not..."

"I'm tired." Jin Rong said, "It's too tired to be with you. I don't want others to cling to me, and I don't want others to be nice to me every day."

Jiang Yi fell silent.

While thinking, Jin Rong convinced himself: "Jiang Yi, you know that I am a very insecure person. You are so good, you are so good, I am not worthy of you."

"Why do you say this? I can give you a sense of security. I only like you, and I won't do anything out of line with others. I won't, I won't leave you. I'm not good, and I don't No, I have so many shortcomings, there is no match between us! If I say we are worthy, then we are very worthy! Can you stop talking angry? You are unhappy, you want to calm down, then I will give you time to calm down Okay? Where are you, I'll come to you, don't say such things again!"

"I want to break up." Jin Rong still said, "At first I approached you just for fun. I just like to see you blushing and heart beating. I just want to play a prank."

"I don't want to break up, I'd rather it was a prank, I don't care."

"I never liked you either."

Jiang Yi's voice was soft, and came from the other end of the phone: "Haven't you ever liked me?"

"I never, never liked you. So now I'm tired, and I want to stop the loss in time."

"Stop the loss in time..."

"Ah."

Jiang Yi laughed at himself: "Did you really never like me? I'd rather you were lying to me."

"No." Jin Rong said.

Jin Rong is indeed lying, saying that he has never liked it is a lie, saying that he stops the loss in time is also a lie, and saying that he is tired of it is also a lie.It is obvious that he is the one who relies too much on Jiang Yi. Jiang Yi is not tired yet, but he wants to talk about it.

He wanted to cry again. "Parting" was the cruelest thing he had ever said, it was to cut the thread that tied him to Jiang Yi, and he was reluctant.

"Where are you?"

"I'm at home." Jin Rong thought for a while before adding, "I'm at my mother's house."

"I will look for you."

Jin Rong shook his head repeatedly: "Jiang Yi, I've already made my decision."

"What do you decide?"

"I decided to be a good boy."

Jiang Yi changed his gentle appearance in the past, and said angrily: "Good boy?! Do you think we can still be good children now?! Do you think we are playing house? Do you think we are all dolls? !"

"Leave me alone."

If you let me go, if you let me go, I will let you go too, and we will let each other go.

But these words were like a knife stabbing into Jiang Yi's heart.

What else is there to keep?The phrase "let me go" has been used.

"I see." Jiang Yi said coldly, "hang up."

Even if it is a breakup, he will not take the initiative to hang up Jin Rong's phone.Thinking of this, Jin Rong felt very sad, his internal organs were in severe pain, his heart was twisted like a knife, and it was difficult to breathe.

Hang it up, hang it up, Jin Rong looked at the shards of glass on the floor, feeling like he wanted to die.He hung up the phone in desperation, hiding a sharp shard of glass in his pocket.

"You're so good." Jin Shiyuan praised him, "Go take a shower now, Xiao Rong, let's not think about anything, okay? I'll arrange the transfer for you, we leave No. [-] Middle School, and don't think about anything, okay? It's all over Now, you don't have to worry about anything."

She hugged Jin Rong into her arms, but Jin Rong didn't feel any warmth, instead he felt cold.Jin Rong asked, "Are you going to break up with Fang Yizhe?"

Jin Shiyuan didn't answer.

"If Song Nianyuan comes back, will you break up with Fang Yizhe?"

When it comes to Song Nianyuan, Jin Shiyuan seems like a lunatic again.She pressed Jin Rong's shoulder, shaking him dizzily.

"Will he come back? Sure enough, you still have contact with him, right?"

"If he comes back, will you break with him?"

"He won't come back! He's a betrayer!"

A heartless person, Jin Rong is also a heartless person in Jin Shiyuan's heart.But anyone who doesn't come according to her wish is a heartless person.She hoped that Jin Rong would be a puppet doll, who would stay in the same position after posing, and do whatever she wanted, and would never go against it.

What Jiang Yi said is true, doll.But only Jin Rong is a doll, how can a doll have thoughts?How can the doll be disobedient?

As long as Jin Rong still listens to Jin Shiyuan, she can barely continue to love Jin Rong.

Is that love?Jin Rong didn't know.If it is love, it is too heavy.

At night, Jin Shiyuan slept with Jin Rong in his arms. She couldn't sleep, and Jin Rong couldn't sleep either.She was afraid that Jin Rong would run away, so she tied up his feet with Fang Yizhe's tie.She was afraid that Jin Rong would secretly call Jiang Yi, so she tied his hands too.

She lay down with Jin Rong, patted his back lightly, and sang a "Lullaby": "Sleep, sleep, my dear baby."

Jin Rong's insomnia is very serious. As soon as he closes his eyes, he thinks of Jiang Yi. Thinking of Jiang Yi's broken love, will he cry?Did you call him "heartless", and did you call him again to seek reunion?

Jiang Yi should love him very much, Jin Rong thought.But after thinking and thinking, Jin Rong was not sure again.How can a despicable person like Jin Rong get someone's wholehearted love, not to mention that Jiang Yi is still so young, a teenager, does he know what love is?

Although he said "love you" countless times.Although he gave Jin Rong a sense of security.

Jin Rong regretted and was ashamed.He blamed himself very much, because he brought down his good student Jiang Yi, and he was all to blame. If it wasn't for him, Jiang Yi would definitely be better.When Jiang Yi stayed with him, he also became a rotten person. The more he stayed together, the worse he would become.

Jin Shiyuan couldn't sleep in the middle of the night, so he got up in the dark and turned on a small light to look for medicine in the cabinet.Jin Rong's eyes were good, and he saw the bottles of sleeping pills in the cabinet at a glance.

The author says:

Remind again: Rong Rong's depression and death-seeking psychology in this article are purely for plot needs, please do not imitate (emphasis!!