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My son Han Qi:

My baby, your birth is the proudest thing for a mother.

Mom loves you more than you love yourself.

I have never done anything bad in my life, just to accumulate virtue and good fortune for my descendants.

But I did something wrong. The biggest mistake I made was to choose the wrong father for you.

At that time, I was in my youth, and I devoted myself to scientific research with enthusiasm.The research work at that time was boring, but the time working with senior brothers Shen Ziqing and Zhong Yan was so fulfilling and beautiful.

They took good care of me everywhere and loved me like a little sister in the family.

I happened to be 22 years old when I fell in love with Senior Brother Shen. I was very happy when we were together.But Senior Brother Shen's family members didn't agree with us after knowing about it. Senior Brother Shen came from a famous family. Think about it too. How could such an excellent family like him like me, a girl from the countryside.

I ran away in anger and lost contact with the two senior brothers. It was an extremely gloomy and unfavorable year when I met your father.

He returned from studying abroad, he is personable and polite, and his appearance of poetry and bookishness makes people want to get close to him.

But I am so naive, how can I know that he is superficial, but in fact he has a disturbed heart and is secretly carrying out drug smuggling.

He deliberately approached, just to steal the research results in my hand.

I got pregnant shortly after we were together, we got married quickly, and welcomed you again.

Six years of marriage, love and concubine, and the life of having a baby son is so comfortable, I always thought that we would live in such an ordinary way.

But until the day I found out that he had an illegitimate child, my world collapsed everywhere.

I confronted him and he no longer pretended to tear off his mask. He forced me to get the research results in my hand. I refused, so he imprisoned me and beat me with domestic violence. fate.

Later, the nanny at home was soft-hearted and let me go quietly while he was out. I escaped with you, a six-year-old boy, and we found Senior Brother Zhong Yan after a lot of hard work. Naturally, she didn't have the face to meet him.

Fortunately, brother Zhong Yan was willing to help me, and he sent our mother and son to live in Myanmar safely.

I thought we were far enough away that he wouldn't find us, but I was wrong, he would do anything for his own sake.

He tracked down our whereabouts, went deep into Burma and even slaughtered the entire Ya village to press for our whereabouts.

The villagers in Ya Village were simple and kind. They hid us, but they were all ruthlessly killed by Shao Wen, who had no conscience.

Several households in Ya Village entrusted their two children to me to guard, but I knew Shao Wen would not give up.

I hid you three children in the cave and went out alone. Shao Wen didn’t care about you, his own son, but took me away. He ordered his subordinates to torture me for the research report on me. I couldn’t stand the pain. Torture finally compromised and handed things over.

My precious son, my mother never regrets giving birth to you, my mother only regrets not being able to accompany you more.

Mom was locked in a dark room by them. Mom misses you very much. I pray to God/Ming not for me, but for you.

You are afraid that you will never see this letter. If Shao Wen really lost his conscience and handed this letter to you after my death, then he is really a beast.

My baby, no matter where you are, my mother will be by your side, even if it turns into dust, a star or a butterfly, I will go to you.

You want to be happy, you witnessed the massacre in Ya village, I only ask God to have mercy, don't let you be blinded by hatred, don't avenge me.

My mother doesn't hate anyone, I only hate myself for seeing the wrong person and believing in the wrong person. This is the karma of my remnants.

Mom misses you very much, wants to see you very much, and also wants to take another look at the green creeper on the wall in the yard of my hometown...

My son, Han Qi, will be safe and happy every year.

Han Yumei