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Qin Yi stared at Gu Xi, since this child came home, he was well-behaved and sensible, not to mention, he considered everything for Lin You.

If it weren't for Gu Xi, let alone being able to enter the rocket class, Lin You might have been wasted forever.

She likes Gu Xi no matter what she looks at.

But this child has a lot of thoughts, Lin You is a straight-hearted person who can hide his thoughts whenever he likes something?

I'm afraid it's because of this incident that Gu Xi wants to go abroad to escape.

Qin Yi thought that it was a good thing for Lin You to have many well-educated and sensible little girlfriends around her. After all, it is difficult for an only child to experience the feeling of having brothers and sisters.

Unexpectedly, my daughter didn't want to find a little girlfriend, but a little daughter-in-law...

pity……

"Auntie is worried about you going abroad alone."

Although Qin Yi has not fully accepted the fact that her daughter likes homosexuality for a while, she has been abroad for a long time and has many gay friends around her, so she is not as disgusted by homosexuality as Lin Peiming.

Gu Xi said with a firm expression: "Ruize has a scholarship and subsidies, plus the compensation given by the perpetrator when my grandfather passed away, I can live and study abroad without any problems. And I am very capable of self-care, auntie can rest assured of."

Seeing Gu Xi's resolute attitude, Qin Yi sighed: "But you said you wanted to hide it from Youyou, and you know her temper. I can stop talking about it for now, but once Ruize announces the list of students studying abroad, I'm afraid that you will You will make trouble with you."

What Qin Yi said was tactful. Based on her understanding of her daughter, Lin You would not only be making trouble, but would definitely be furious, and might hate Gu Xi.

What she is most afraid of is this situation. Of course she is reluctant to part with one of the two children being her own daughter, and she is also reluctant to part with the other being a good child with a poor background.

If there is a quarrel that hurts both sides, she will be even more worried to death.

Gu Xi has already prepared that Lin You will hate her for the rest of her life, but the college entrance examination is the most important exam in her life, and her decision will not change.

She looked at Qin Yi and said calmly: "I asked the class teacher. In order not to affect the mentality of other candidates, the official list is announced after the college entrance examination. As soon as the college entrance examination is over, I will immediately tell Lin You about it, but Now, I still hope to focus on Lin You's studies."

Qin Yi wanted to say something else, but Gu Xi continued, "Auntie, I've thought it through very clearly, so don't worry, no matter what the result is, I'm willing to bear it."

Seeing Gu Xi's firm attitude, Qin Yi nodded in agreement.

She is actually a little selfish.

At Lin You's age, it is easy to confuse liking with dependence. Maybe after two years, she will find out that her dependence on Gu Xi is actually just the dependence of her friends and girlfriends, not love.

If it was just because of a momentary illusion, maybe the two children would be separated for a while, and the foggy feelings would be cleared up.

Right now, all she can do is to give Gu Xi some living expenses, and hire a nanny driver abroad to take care of her daily life.

In addition, I can only comfort my daughter-in-law with a word or two when she is angry and sad.

After persuading Qin Yi, half of the stone in Gu Xi's heart fell, and the remaining half could only wait until after the college entrance examination.

Regarding the exam for studying abroad two weeks later, Ruize announced to the outside world that it was the first private simulation exam of several schools.

Because the number of places to study abroad is Ruize's internal plan, it is carried out in secret every year, and the list of selected students will not be announced until after the college entrance examination, so most of Ruize's students do not know about this exam.

Lin You didn't suspect anything, but just sneered at this kind of examination system: "It's all about doing something and nothing. Do you look down on No.2? I'm not much different from you."

Gu Xi had a faint smile on his face: "It's just a small mock exam. If you're bored, just do a few more papers."

Lin You said obediently: "Okay, go quickly, don't be late."

Seeing Gu Xi's back disappear at the door, Lin You propped his head in a daze.

In the restaurant before, she almost blurted out that she liked Gu Xi. Although several days had passed, she always felt that that incident had brought about some seemingly insignificant changes in the relationship between her and Gu Xi.

Lin You couldn't tell what it was, it was obvious that Gu Xi was still the same as before, but she felt an unreasonable uneasiness in her heart.

It's like the calm before the storm.

Lin You desperately wanted to confirm something, but there was only half a month left for the college entrance examination, no matter how urgent she was, she could only restrain her impatience.

As long as the college entrance examination is over, all problems will be solved.

Lin You kept comforting herself, not wanting to give Gu Xi too much pressure from her.

She even started to fantasize about what she would say when she confessed her love to Gu Xi again.

She will definitely let Gu Xi see her determination, and tell Gu Xi that no matter what difficulties and twists and turns she will encounter in the future, she will firmly hold Gu Xi's hand and walk with her.

"Will it be too nasty?"

Lin You came back to her senses, and pinched her face with her hands in embarrassment, the beautiful facial features were deformed by herself.

As long as Gu Xi likes it, no matter how nasty it is, it's still sweet, right?

Thinking of this, Lin You couldn't help laughing again.

In the examination room, Gu Xi wrote his name on the filled test paper and handed it in.

This was the first time she had finished the test paper without checking it again, but handed it in directly.

Although I have judgments about my grades in my heart, I still have a trace of despicable luck.

If she loses, does that mean maybe she can be a little selfish and... stay?

However, luck was just a fluke after all. The day when I received the news of the results and the confirmation of the quota, there were only two days left before the college entrance examination.

During this time, Lin You turned her irritability into motivation, and used a lot of questions every day to divert her attention, but as the college entrance examination was getting closer, she would always feel palpitations from time to time.

Is it because you have to take the college entrance examination so you are too nervous?

Lin You rubbed her heart in doubt. She has always been a physique that does not feel nervous about any exams, but this is the first time she feels so anxious.

Probably because she was anxious about whether she could be admitted to the same university as Gu Xi?

Lin You was lying on the table, and there were two days left for the college entrance examination. She didn't have to work hard to study the questions, but had to rest and adjust her state. She flipped through the desk calendar on the table, and asked Gu Xi with a little expectation: "What if, I mean What if. What if I fail the exam and can't apply to the same school as you?"

In fact, she wanted to ask, if she didn't pass the Qingbei exam, would Gu Xi choose the same school as her at the next best thing?

But this kind of question is too selfish, Lin You can't ask it, even if Gu Xi really wants to do it, she can't bear it.

I just hope that everything goes well in the college entrance examination, even if I can't get into Qingbei, I can still choose a school in the same city as Gu Xi.

In short, she must not be separated from Gu Xi.

Gu Xi's spine stiffened when he heard Lin You's words, and he curled up his fingers.

There was no emotion on her face, she just looked at Lin You with a smile, "What's the matter? Didn't you promise to surpass me before? Why are you suddenly not confident now?"

Lin You sighed, "I'm just in case."

She tilted her head and leaned on her arm, looking at Gu Xi with a pair of clear eyes, wanting to know her answer.

Gu Xi knew what Lin You wanted to hear, but she didn't want to lie to Lin You.

He raised his hand a bit jerky, rubbed it lightly on Lin You's head, and said in a gentle but firm tone, "There will be no accidents, you will definitely do well in the exam."

Although it wasn't the answer Lin You wanted to hear, Gu Xi's words and actions still made her smile.

And Gu Xi said that there will be no accidents, does it mean that they will be together no matter what?

The more Lin You thinks about it, the more she feels this way.

It's not that she doesn't know Gu Xi's character, she never speaks directly, so her firm tone is actually a hint, right?

I don't know if it was because of Gu Xi's words that Lin You's anxious feeling of suffering was dispelled.

Ushered in the college entrance examination with the best mental state.

At the end of the college entrance examination, the examinees finally took off the shackles while shedding a layer of skin.

After holding back for so long, I finally finished the exam, and I feel sorry for myself even if I let myself go.

The test papers and textbooks were lost all over the place, and several school uniforms of unknown origin were even hung on the railing.

Lin You was extremely cautious during the entire exam process. He changed his habit of handing in the papers before it was too late, and sat until the last minute like Gu Xi, checking each paper several times.

Every time I leave the examination room, I can't wait to look for Gu Xi in the crowd.

Because the list of students studying abroad was confirmed, Gu Xi could have been exempted from taking the college entrance examination, but she wanted to accompany Lin You to take the exam, so she still followed the rules and carefully completed each test.

Treat it as...the last companionship.

The college entrance examination is over, and Gu Xi is ready to confess to Lin You that she is about to leave.

Just after the exam, Lin You was so excited that she didn't want to spill notes and textbooks everywhere as a means of venting. These are all memories between her and Gu Xi, and she couldn't bear it.

"Gu Xi!"

Lin You packed up all the things, the classroom was empty, and almost everyone ran out to play wild.

Seeing Gu Xi who came back from the outside, she jumped straight in front of Gu Xi with long legs.

Looking at the girl in front of her, her happy mood was beyond words, her eyes were shining brightly, and the fundus of her eyes was like a brilliant galaxy.

Gu Xi prepared for a long time to face Lin You, but was a little speechless for a while.

"Why did you go? Waiting for you for a long time."

Lin You's voice was joyful, every pore on his body exuded joy, and he held Gu Xi's hand.

The damn college entrance examination is finally over, and one step closer to the day when she and Gu Xi will confess their love again!

"I... have something to tell you."

Even if it was difficult to speak, Gu Xi didn't want to procrastinate any longer. The college entrance examination was over, and she had no excuses or reason to hide it from Lin You.

Lin You looked at Gu Xi with a nervous and serious expression, and her mood sank involuntarily.

What would Gu Xi want to tell her?

Lin You faintly looked forward to it. Could it be that Gu Xi is also like her, waiting for the college entrance examination to end before confessing to her?

But Gu Xi's expression was so serious, without the slightest bit of shyness and nervousness about to confess, but a bit heavy and sad.

Is it her delusion?

Lin You became nervous uncontrollably, and her heartbeat gradually accelerated, making her unable to swallow to relieve the anxiety caused by the tension.

"What are you trying to say?"

Just as Gu Xi was about to speak, Lin You suddenly stopped.

"Wait a moment!"

Lin You felt her heart was about to jump out of her throat, she took a deep breath, and stepped forward to hold Gu Xi's hand.

"I just want to hear your truth."

The students outside screamed crazily, venting their anguish and tension every day for the past three years, making their silence even more difficult.

Gu Xi said something, just at this time a boy roared "Fuck your mother Ruize! Fuck your mother's college entrance examination!" and passed by the classroom door.

Lin You froze with a begging and expectant smile on his face.

Her lips moved: "What did you say? I didn't hear clearly."

It was strange to say that the noisy boiling just now subsided in an instant, only the occasional sounds of school staff shouting to stop the excessive behavior of the students came from a distance.

So much so that even Lin You noticed the tremor in his voice.

With a calm face, Gu Xi said, "You actually heard clearly. Although I was a little hasty, this opportunity is really rare. I was very excited, so I agreed. I didn't tell you before, because I was afraid of distracting you from the college entrance examination. Didn't mean to lie to you."

Lin You was still holding Gu Xi's hand, feeling cold all over.

"Going abroad?"

Lin You felt his mind was muddled, and he didn't think about what he said: "Do you want to study abroad in order to avoid me and prevent me from having conflicts with my family? For these messy and irrelevant reasons, you want to leave Me? For others, never face up to my liking for you?"

Gu Xi's heart was slowed down by Lin You's words, and her eyes turned black from the pain.

Lin You managed to recover from the shock, and said in a begging tone, "Gu Xi...can you not leave?"

Gu Xi didn't say a word, but bit her lip tightly, enduring the feeling of dizziness.

Lin You sank her emotions hard, adjusted her emotions, and almost flattered Gu Xi, "Yes, is it because of the quarrel between me and Lao Lin that day? Don't worry, I promise you, I will never I will be so impulsive again, really, I promise! Don’t leave, okay? I did well in the exam this time, let’s fill out the volunteer application in Qingbei together, and leave here together! We obviously like each other, why should we do it for some insignificant things? Give up? Or do you think my liking is not sincere enough? How do you need me to prove it? Gu Xi, this is the first time I like someone, I want to see you immediately when I open my eyes every day, close my eyes I was thinking about you before, maybe I was naive, but I believe I can let you rely on me!"

Lin You's tone was quick and anxious, as if he wished he could immediately take out his heart and show it to Gu Xi, it was filled with Gu Xi's name.

Lin You was so anxious that tears fell on the back of Gu Xi's hand, and Gu Xi didn't dare to look up at her.

The person she liked confessed to her time and time again, and not only could she not respond, she had to smash this love again and again with her own hands, and then those pieces cut her all over with bruises.

"Lin You..."

As soon as Gu Xi opened her mouth, she found that her voice was a little hoarse due to the constant tearing at the apex of her heart.

She couldn't help clenching her hands until they hurt, and only then did she relieve the turmoil in her heart.

When she spoke again, her tone was steady, and she looked at Lin You calmly.

"Lin You, I don't doubt whether your liking is sincere, but... you know? It's easy to like someone. You have always been a 3-minute hot person. Your sincerity at this moment may disappear before the end of this year. So, why make things so complicated and embarrassing?"

Gu Xi finally raised his head, and faced the tear-stained Lin You with a playful smile, "I'm just a guest staying at your house, because Grandpa Lin and uncles and aunts are very kind to me, so I will help you. You make up your homework. If you have any misunderstanding or illusion about this, I apologize to you."

Gu Xi watched Lin You's face turn pale little by little.

Watching Lin You's beautiful eyes being swallowed by clear despair.

The corner of Lin You's mouth twitched slightly, she took a step back and let go of Gu Xi's hand.

"So, you are good to me because of my grandpa and my parents? You make me cakes, you play games with me, you give me dolls and all the company...all the intimacy we have had in this period of time It's all to repay our family? So you really don't like me at all?"

Even though he knew that this was all Gu Xi's excuse, when he heard that Gu Xi could really say such unfeeling words, Lin You was still heartbroken.

Gu Xi nodded, with a calm and indifferent face, "I am very grateful to Grandpa Lin and my uncles and aunts, so I don't want to affect your college entrance examination because of my relationship, so I will not be able to forgive myself. Sorry Lin You, I really can't I will continue to play these boring and childish tricks with you."

Gu Xi's words made Lin You's head buzz, and a sharp hum came from his ears.

"A boring and childish little trick?" She asked back in disbelief, her tears were gradually suppressed, but the corners of her mouth were curved in a strange way, her brows were twisted together, and her whole face was distorted in pain.

"You said that our tacit sweetness and tacit understanding during these days, my longing for you is just a boring and naive little trick?"

"Lin You, you are already an adult, you should be more mature and sensible, Grandpa Lin is getting old, uncles and aunts..."

Hearing that Gu Xi said that apart from Grandpa Lin, they were uncles and aunts, every single word had nothing to do with her, whether Gu Xi really thought so, or said it deliberately to make her give up, Lin You didn't want to listen anymore.

"enough!"

She interrupted Gu Xi's words with a yell, and because of the indescribable anger and grievance in her heart, she swept the schoolbag on the table to the ground with a wave of her hand.

Lin You's schoolbag and Gu Xi's schoolbag were entangled with each other. With Lin You's wave of his hand, both schoolbags fell to the ground, and the contents of the schoolbag fell out.

Lin You's eyes fell on the mess, and she saw a small account book thrown out of Gu Xi's schoolbag, and the pages spread out in front of her were written with detailed dates, names and numbers.

In a certain year and a certain month, the amount of clothes that Aunt Qin bought: ...

In a certain month in a certain year, the amount of jade pendant given by Grandpa Lin:...

In a certain month in a certain year, the amount of the necklace that Aunt Qin gave:...

A certain month in a certain year,...

From the first day when Gu Xi came to the Lin family, every time the Lin family spent money for Gu Xi, Gu Xi wrote it down in the notebook.

Lin You's eyes didn't move.

She always thought that Gu Xi liked her, but she refused abruptly because she was worried about the Lin family.

Including the words of Gu Xi just now, even if Lin You was so angry and sad that she lost control, she still felt that those words were not Gu Xi's true words, but just excuses for her to give up.

However, seeing this account book, Lin You instantly felt like a clown.

Gu Xi calculated everything about her in the Lin family so clearly.

Gu Xi didn't lie...

Self-righteous, self-righteous.

Ashamed to the extreme, Lin You could hardly face the self-satisfied self when she was alone with Gu Xi these days.

It was all her fantasy.

Lin You picked up the account book and turned his back to Gu Xi, "You are really clear about your calculations."

Gu Xi saw the ledger in Lin You's hand clearly, and his shoulders tensed up instantly.

She never thought of letting the Lin family, including Lin You, see this notebook.

Every expense and expenditure recorded above is that she wants to remember the kindness and warmth that the Lin family gave her.

Now it is the evidence in court for every word she just said.

That's okay... Gu Xi is already numb, so save yourself racking your brains to think of more things that can make Lin You sad.

Originally, I also wanted to make Lin You hate her, didn't I?

Gu Xi's shoulders slowly relaxed, and he stretched out his hand towards Lin You and said, "Can you return it to me? If it is broken, it will be troublesome. I will return the money recorded on it to Grandpa Lin and my uncles and aunts one day." .”

Lin You couldn't help shouting: "So, do you only care about my parents and my grandfather? What about me?!"

Gu Xi showed a somewhat puzzled expression, "Haven't I been helping you with tutoring? After the quota for studying abroad is confirmed, I don't need to take the college entrance examination, but in order to let you perform stably, I don't mind taking the exam again. Lin You, we I don't owe you anything."

Speechless.

Facing Gu Xi's unfeeling, Lin You was speechless.

For the first time in her life, she was so powerless.

"Gu Xi, you are really cruel."

Lin You's heart heaved violently, and she felt as if her heart had been pierced through by someone. Countless cold winds rushed in, and the piercing pain quickly covered every bone and flesh in her body along with the blood.

"Lin You!"

Lu Qing's appearance suddenly interrupted the confrontation between the two.

Lin You turned her back to the door of the classroom, so that Lu Qing didn't see that her eyes were red at the moment, and the corners of her lips were tense, which showed that she had endured to the extreme.

"Why are you two squatting in the classroom? Do you know that everyone is crazy? They are all crazy on the playground!"

As Lu Qing spoke, she walked up to Lin You, put her arm on Lin You's shoulder and said, "Have you finished packing? Are you ready to go out? I've made a reservation. Chen Yao said that she wants to treat guests, and Miss Chen treats guests." Eh, it's so... difficult... so..."

In the middle of speaking, Lu Qing found that the atmosphere between the two seemed to be a little wrong, and stopped the rest of the words abruptly and held them in her stomach.

Lin You took a deep breath, turned around and left.

Lu Qing was shaken by her, looking at Gu Xi who was standing there and Lin You who had already walked to the door, Lu Qing, who had no idea what happened, didn't know whether to pull or persuade.

Lin You didn't even look back, and shouted to Lu Qing: "Aren't you going out to have fun? Are you still leaving?"

Lu Qing groaned, took two steps outside, looked at Gu Xi again with some uncertainty, and asked Lin You: "Isn't Gu Xi coming?"

Lin You sneered: "He is a top student and does not need to take the college entrance examination. Gao Fengliang accompanied us naive and boring people to take the exam one more time. Now that the exam is over, why waste his time."

Lu Qing weakly and helplessly pointed to the scattered schoolbags on the ground: "Then...you don't want your schoolbag either?"

Lin You glanced at the schoolbag lying on the ground, and the doll that Gu Xi gave her was facing her.

Lin You's vision suddenly blurred, and he took a last look at Gu Xi who was standing still and not speaking.

"No, no more."

Lin You and Lu Qing left.

Gu Xi suddenly turned around and ran to the trash can at the back of the classroom, and spit it out all at once.

Until the overwhelming feeling of vomiting that made her almost unable to stand subsided, there was no blood on her face, and there were fine beads of sweat on her forehead.

Gu Xi leaned against the wall for a long time before recovering from his weak state.

She silently walked to the schoolbag, packed her and Lin You's schoolbags, and stared at the doll hanging on Lin You's schoolbag.

It can be seen that Lin You cherishes it very much on weekdays, and will take the doll down to clean it every week, and it is always clean.

However, the doll who was thrown to the ground at this moment has a dirty patch on its cheek, which is pitiful.

The author has something to say: heartbroken, woo woo woo