unconfessed love

Even she hates herself like this, how could He Yan like this kind of person!Liu Yuxian suddenly thought of this, and the shame, indignation and anxiety in her heart instantly cooled down, and a feeling of hopelessness surged from the bottom of her heart, sweeping her whole body and mind.

In order to conceal the red circles under her eyes, she turned her head silently, staring at the slightly gray sky outside the balcony without any focus.

"Ring, ring, ring---" the dormitory phone rang again.

Lin Yuanyuan patted her heart as if frightened and let out a sigh. "Whose phone is it?" She looked around, staring at Liu Yuxian who was standing there motionless.Seeing that Liu Yuxian didn't accept her gaze, Lin Yuanyuan had no choice but to clear her throat and said, "Anyone who calls can answer it by himself, I'm a full-time operator and no one pays me a salary, besides, talking too much hurts my throat. "

Yu Zhu chuckled and said, "You're really good at asking this question. You haven't answered the phone yet. Who knows who you're looking for!"

Lin Yuanyuan snorted softly: "Who knows who to ask!"

"As far as your decibels and speech throughput rate without humane care, your own throat will be hurt before others' ears are hurt." He Yan who was tidy up said suddenly, without looking at Lin Yuanyuan when she said it.

Looking at He Yan who was expressionless and didn't know if she was joking, Lin Yuanyuan didn't realize what she meant.When the recollection finally came to an end and anger grew, I saw that He Yan, who was carrying a bag, had already walked to the phone.

"Hey, who are you looking for?" After hearing the other party's answer, He Yan called out "Liu Yuxian", and at the same time looked at Liu Yuxian who quickly raised her head to look over.

"Looking for you. Deng Daping." He Yan said briefly, without any other meaning in the words.

Liu Yuxian, who froze in place for a while, didn't know how to answer.Don't want to answer the phone.But He Yan can't just wait like that.Extremely anxious, she could only shake her head mechanically, and looked at He Yan with her red eyes that had not returned to normal.

After smacking her lips, He Yan said into the microphone: "No way, she doesn't seem to want to answer the phone... Oh, I have to go, tell her what you want to say when you meet. Goodbye."

After finishing speaking, He Yan put down the microphone, shrugged at Liu Yuxian who was staring at her with wide eyes, smiled mischievously, waved her hand, and walked out of the dormitory.

At the same time, Lin Yuanyuan was still wiping her face in shock.With her mouth half open, Lin Yuanyuan rolled her eyes to look at Yu Zhu, pointed to the door He Yan had just walked out, and said, "Can you talk like her? Can you really talk like her? This person..." After a long while Unexpectedly, Lin Yuanyuan could only take a deep breath, which made Yu Zhu giggle.

Looking at the door of the dormitory, thinking about the short words that He Yan said into the microphone, Liu Yuxian's mood suddenly brightened, and there was a cheerful feeling that the small dark room was suddenly brightened by the roof being lifted off.She couldn't help laughing out loud, ignoring the dissatisfied questioning gazes of Lin Yuanyuan and Yu Zhu, grabbed her bag, and ran out in the direction that seemed to still have a shadow of He Yan.

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I don’t know if it’s because the so-called Singles’ Day is coming, but more and more people have confessed to Liu Yuxian in the past few days, not only boys from this department, but also from other departments; not only boys from the same year, but also former seniors .

Could it be that in order not to spend Singles’ Day lonely alone, can one just find someone to confess to indiscriminately?Liu Yuxian, who was constantly troubled by various love letters, phone calls, and face-to-face confessions, couldn't help thinking this way.Regarding the confessions of those people whom she hardly said a few words except for their familiar faces—some of them didn’t even remember their faces—Liu Yuxian couldn’t figure out how they had such an emotion of “like”, she arbitrarily Decide that it's not "like" at all, but more likely curiosity, or fun, or some other emotion that's been mistaken for "like."

As she thought about it, she couldn't help but think of herself again.What about yourself?What is the closer connection between myself and He Yan than others?To her, isn't she the same as other people's image in her eyes?

Alas~~~~ It's really an uncomfortable feeling.

She also discovered that she seemed to be better at letting herself down than making herself happy.It's not that she enjoys this kind of masochistic emotion, but that she doesn't dare to hope casually. She knows that she is timid, and she is afraid of the disappointment after hope.It is better not to have hope from the beginning than to be disappointed in the end.

"Sorry, I don't have the idea of ​​falling in love yet..."

This is Liu Yuxian's basic reasoning for his refusal.Although he knows that it is easier to reject the other party by saying "I already have someone I like", but considering that this kind of words may reach He Yan's ears and cause unnecessary misunderstandings, Liu Yuxian still chooses the relatively more elegant one. Safe and conservative approach.

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November [-]th, the eve of Singles' Day.

Liu Yuxian, who deliberately avoided Deng Daping, took a detour and walked into the cafeteria through the back door.

Since He Yan answered the phone for Liu Yuxian last time, Liu Yuxian has always tried to avoid talking or meeting with Deng Daping, and always embraced his invitations, "Push if you can, hide if you can't, and just go halfway if you can't avoid." escape" principle.

While queuing at the back of the cooking line, Liu Yuxian overheard a sweet soprano voice. After following the reputation, it turned out to be Lin Yuanyuan.The one with her seemed to be a tall and refreshing boy in the same class, whose name Liu Yuxian couldn't remember for a moment.I saw Lin Yuanyuan holding the boy's arm affectionately, choosing food next to the dining window, and the boy willingly swiped his card to pay.

Liu Yuxian chuckled softly, remembering Lin Yuanyuan's declaration about the criteria for choosing a boyfriend in the dormitory -- "If you are nice to me, you must be willing to spend money for me. Only if you are willing to spend money for me is you who really likes me, so dating a boyfriend The first step of a friend is to see how much he is willing to spend for me, and it is not worth dating a boy who wants to get a girl without spending money."

Presumably now is the process of Lin Yuanyuan judging whether it is worth dating, Liu Yuxian thought to herself.Although I felt that the boy was probably taken for a fool, but Liu Yuxian was too lazy to pay attention to her affairs.

Holding the plate with prepared meals, Liu Yuxian chose a corner seat, and ate in silence by herself.Just after taking two bites, I heard that sweet soprano voice ringing in my ears again.Thinking in his heart that it must be such a coincidence, he slightly raised his head and sneaked a look behind him, and he really saw Lin Yuanyuan and the boy sitting two vacant seats away from him.Because Lin Yuanyuan's back was facing this side, she didn't notice that Liu Yuxian was sitting nearby; and the boy seemed to be thinking about other things, so he didn't notice Liu Yuxian's existence.

That's fine, as I don't want to fight with them either.Liu Yuxian secretly rejoiced.Hurry up and eat and leave.