unconfessed love

"The two of us went out to watch a movie, and we didn't come back after the show was too late. We spent the night outside and came back early the next morning. If we want to say who we are with, we are with those moviegoers in the movie theater when we watch the movie. Looking back With Grandpa KFC—oh, ask me which KFC it is, the one closest to the school, the one at the corner of Crystal Plaza; ask why we didn’t take a taxi, because the money we carry is only enough to take the bus , not enough to take a taxi, so I took the first bus back to school the next morning." He Yan said in one breath, not in a hurry, not angry or annoyed.

Liu Yuxian almost doubted her memory, because in her opinion, what He Yan said was too true!I just don't know if the counselor believed it, but I could tell from her expression that she was unwilling to believe it.Liu Yuxian was also a little confused, what exactly should a counselor do?Do you have to hear them confirm that those rumors are true before you give up?Didn't she herself get so angry when she heard those rumors?Wouldn't it comfort her that the rumors were not the truth?They didn't even hesitate to say such hurtful words as "girls should be clean and clean". Isn't this clearly emphasizing that they are not clean and clean?

In the end, Liu Yuxian couldn't remember how she walked out of the counselor's office, and she didn't remember how the matter ended. She only knew that she and He Yan had a long review waiting to be written.

Liu Yuxian walked forward with her head down, peeking at He Yan from time to time, before she even caught a glimpse of her expression, she lowered her head guiltily, like this several times.At the fork in the road, because she was afraid that He Yan would separate from her, Liu Yuxian finally couldn't help but say: "...I'm sorry..."

He Yan glanced at Liu Yuxian: "Why are you apologizing──Hey, I told you more than once, don't always apologize, it's inexplicable, isn't it?"

"I...then...then I'm sorry...ah, no..." I don't know how to say it.Why is my mouth so stupid!Liu Yuxian closed her eyes tightly.

"Hey, look at you!" He Yan chuckled lightly, "Actually, I am the one who should apologize. I couldn't go back because I was with me. Originally, you planned to go back to the dormitory and didn't want to sleep out. As a result, the matter It's getting worse and worse, and people are scolding for no reason..." He Yan curled her lips.

"No, no, I don't blame you. It's my own problem. I decided not to go back. I won't go back and blame others because of bad things that happened later." Liu Yuxian tried to explain, for fear that He Yan would feel guilty.

"Oh, that's true." He Yan nodded lightly, without feeling guilty at all, "I think so too."

Liu Yuxian looked at He Yan in surprise, the two looked at each other and couldn't help laughing.

"How can I say that this incident was caused by me, as a matter of my sincerity, let me write the review." After finishing speaking, He Yan winked at Liu Yuxian.

"Ah, no, how can you write it by yourself..."

"It doesn't matter, the routine is the same for this kind of thing, it's not bad to write one copy and two copies. Besides, when it comes to writing a review, you must be better than me." He Yan smiled ghostly.

"Huh?" Liu Yuxian couldn't understand.She suddenly remembered another thing, "Well, He Yan..."

"Ok?"

"It's just... Now that we have all admitted that we didn't return home at night, why do we still say we went to KFC?"

"No reason, I just don't want to tell her." He Yan said indifferently.Glancing at Liu Yuxian, she smiled and added: "Her aura is not the feeling that people can talk well. Although I don't want to deny it, I don't want to follow her steps honestly. Just explain that it's just the two of us going out together. Su, other things don’t matter, she won’t believe me if I tell her the truth, but it makes me unhappy, so I’ll just talk casually, it’s no big deal for Ah Q.”

"Huh? Is this... okay?"

"There's nothing wrong with it."

"...But, she is a teacher, it's not good to lie to the teacher, she won't trust us in the future..." Liu Yuxian said softly.

"Won't trust us anymore? Huh, you care?"

Liu Yuxian didn't know how to answer.But it would be a lie to say she didn't care.

"Have you never lied since you were a child?" He Yan asked.

"I... I just don't think it's good for the teacher. I don't mean that a lie needs to be covered by a hundred lies..."

He Yan frowned, stopped and looked at Liu Yuxian's face carefully: "Hmph, it is indeed the face of someone who has never told a lie."

Liu Yuxian was extremely embarrassed, and couldn't figure out whether He Yan was mocking her or telling the truth—even if she was telling the truth, it didn't sound like a compliment.

"I...I'm afraid...Mr. Sun, that, the counselor is right, for us..." Liu Yuxian's voice became weaker and weaker.

"Afraid? What are you afraid of? What will happen to us?" He Yan sighed and stood by the side of the road, looking forward.Liu Yuxian also stopped, feeling uneasy.

"What's the matter with you, why are you always worrying? This makes people... Forget it, we have different views on things." After thinking about it, He Yan added: "Since the sense of morality is so strong, review It’s better for you to write it yourself, and you can write everything you need to confess in it.”

After glancing at Liu Yuxian, He Yan turned into the tree-lined path where the leaves were almost gone.Liu Yuxian stood there in a daze until he watched He Yan's back disappear at the end of the path between the two teaching buildings.

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Feeling empty, Liu Yuxian walked into the empty classroom, found a seat at the back, put down the book, and began to daze aimlessly.

It has been more than two weeks since I was called to the office by the counselor for a lecture with He Yan last time. During this period, I hardly had the chance to be with He Yan, and Liu Yuxian more or less felt that she was deliberately alienated by He Yan up.

A timid coward... I probably left such an impression on He Yan.Liu Yuxian thought bitterly.

Recently, He Yan disappeared after class, and Liu Yuxian knew that she must have sneaked away through the back door.

The same is true today.There are only two professional classes in the afternoon, and everyone takes them together.He Yan left as soon as the get out of class bell rang, and Liu Yuxian didn't even see her face.

Is it because Christmas is coming so you want to accompany your boyfriend?maybe.They were originally a couple, even if it wasn't this festival or that festival, they would be together as a matter of course.Speaking of which, what are you?It's nothing, it's just a cowardly girl who has to think about a word for a long time.Liu Yuxian fell into self-loathing again.Since having an unpleasant conversation with He Yan, her self-loathing has awakened more and more frequently.

But, what can I do, she is like this.

The well-behaved and obedient as a child gradually evolved into a cowardly and cowardly adult.

Liu Yuxian was so scared, she couldn't change it, and she didn't know how to change it.Although I have envied cheerful girls before, I have never had such a strong desire to change myself as after meeting He Yan.She also wants to stick to her own position, she also wants to express her opinions and opinions openly, she also wants to laugh at some trivial things that don't matter, and she doesn't want to care about other people's eyes and evaluations... But , she couldn't even speak louder.Such a timid self always follows behind He Yan, and will only be disgusted by her...

……So sad.

Painful feelings slowly grew in her heart like a plague.

She tugged at her hair, the real pain distracting her.

There should be no chance to get close to He Yan in the future.Unlike her weak self, He Yan is a person with a strong heart. She will not find it difficult to make friends like herself, and even if she has no friends, He Yan will not feel lonely—this is the gap between herself and her...