The crematorium is missing one, come quickly

The rain was pattering outside the window, and the forehead of the handsome young man lying on the bed was covered with sweat. He was half asleep and half awake, as if he was being haunted by something, and he couldn't break free no matter what.

"Chen Yu, come with me to meet my parents. I've thought about it for a long time, but I still think we should meet." Between the illusory light and shadow, he seemed to hear himself saying this to someone, with an anxious and expectant tone, with Faint happiness.

It was a noisy place. If I remembered correctly, it was the milk tea shop with a good business in front of their university.

"To meet your parents?" The young man on the opposite side chuckled, his face was unrecognizable, his facial features were almost gone, and the sharpness in his tone easily cut through the sweetness that had lasted for a long time, "But I never planned to do so. "

"He Yanshu, do you still remember Xu Luo who was killed by you? He is my brother." The man's cold voice seemed to come from hell, tearing away all the disguise in an instant.

"He just confessed his love to you, you have to alienate him and avoid him like a scourge."

"He sent you so many messages that day, why didn't you reply!"

"He is in such poor health, in order to save those dozens of boxes of donated books, he soaked in the rain for so long, until he died thinking that you didn't want to see him."

"You are so ruthless. If I didn't know that you are homophobic, I would almost have been deceived by you."

Every word of the man's words pierced He Yanshu's heart like a needle. He was like a fish stranded on the beach that was dying of thirst, struggling in vain to catch his breath.

"Huh-huh-huh-" I don't know how many times the mantra-like words echoed in my ears, He Yanshu finally escaped from the nightmare, sat up and breathed heavily.

After calming down for a while, his eyes focused back on the room in front of him - this is He Xu's room. Yesterday he dragged the box and returned to the original point.

He rubbed his heavy head, and looked sideways at the curtains blown by the breeze.It has been raining from night to dawn, and he may have a slight cold.

Once the past that has been dusty for many years is brought up, it is out of control like a flood that has opened the gate, making people feel extremely depressed.

Xu Luo likes him.Yes, although he had heard about a few people being gay at that time, he never thought it would happen to him.So when Xu Luo mentioned it for the first time, he only thought that Xu Luo mistook appreciation and intimacy for liking, and thought that as long as he was well guided, he could correct it.

But Xu Luo seemed to be very sure of his intentions, and each time he confessed more enthusiastically and directly, he didn't know how to deal with it.Because he was also very sure that he didn't have that kind of affection for Xu Luo.To be honest, they are just members of the same public welfare association. Since they are about the same age, the relationship is a little better than that of other members, and they will make appointments to go to nursing homes and children's welfare homes together.

He had no choice but to express clearly that he didn't like boys, and said that after the last book sale, he would not meet alone again.Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain. If Xu Luo really likes a man, but he can't give Xu Luo what he wants, then don't waste his time.

The day before the charity sale, his parents were arguing at home, and the vases and ornaments were smashed to the ground. He had been suffering from season-changing disease, and had a low-grade fever that lasted for a week.He was overwhelmed by many troubles, and he lay down early after taking the medicine, completely forgetting about the charity sale the next day.

When he woke up and saw the dozens of messages on his phone, he realized that something was wrong. He rushed to the hospital with superficial steps, and he was already dying.

The feeling at that time may be the same as now, the body is under heavy load, but the mind is extremely painful and sober.

He blames himself, blames himself for being young and incompetent, he knows that everything is actually a mistake, and the responsibility is not all on him, but if he is mature now, he may handle it more properly, so as not to cause irreparable regrets .

But people can never live again, and can only try to avoid the recurrence of tragedies in the days to come.After a painful experience, what happened to Xu Luo became an opportunity for him to want to be a doctor.

The reason why I thought of Xu Luo was not because he couldn't let go of the guilt in his heart after so many years, but because of Liang Xi's sentence "I fell in love with Mr. Ji".

Ji Chenyu, him, Xu Luo, Ji Chenyu, him, Liang Xi, the wheels of time overlap again, as if yesterday reappeared.

Whether it was deliberately approaching him for Xu Luo, or snatching Liang Xi away for revenge, it seemed that it was Ji Chenyu's means of revenge—or the kind Ji Chenyu was best at.

Just like Pavlov's dog would salivate when he heard the bell ringing, because of what happened back then, he has also developed a kind of extreme resistance to the triangle relationship since then, which is similar to a conditioned reflex.

They were together, and he was excluded, the deep sense of frustration made He Yanshu's scalp tingle.

That being the case, give them the space, and he's good to go.He Yan thought comfortably.

It took several hours to get up, and there was no news of Liang Xi's retention when I turned on the phone. He Yanshu pressed the screen to turn off the screen expressionlessly.That's okay, he didn't expect anything at all.

He Nianqiu saw He Yanshu get up with a haggard face, and brought him breakfast worriedly: "Yanyan, did you quarrel with Xiaoliang?"

He Yanshu ate calmly, nodded after a while: "I broke up with him."

"Ah, why did we split up?" He Nianqiu muttered to himself, feeling a little pity.A while ago, He Yanshu was always talking about bringing Liang Xi to eat with her, how did it happen in a blink of an eye.

"It's not suitable, it's good to split up." He Yan said calmly.

"Yeah, yes, those who are married and those who are divorced, what's the point of falling in love and breaking up." He Nianqiu knew that even if the responsibility for the breakup was definitely not on her good-natured nephew, she comforted him and said, "Auntie Ming'er will give it to you later." You introduced it well, there are so many young talents in Auntie's company, both white and black."

"No black people." He Xu was eating fried eggs, sticking out his tongue and shaking exaggeratedly.Thinking of his good-looking uncle and the chocolate-colored man sticking together, a kiss is like eating a mouthful of chocolate, heh, heh, I dare not think about it.

"Children, don't be racist!" He Nianqiu hit He Xu's hand with a fork.

"I don't! I just can't get used to it!" He Xu said aggrievedly, and looked at the smiling He Yanshu, "I don't think uncle is sad. Uncle, don't you forget your boyfriend in college, so you and Xiaoxi Uncle broke up?"

"Boyfriend from college? What boyfriend? Yan Yan has been in love in college?" He Nianqiu didn't know about this, and looked at the two with wide eyes.

He Xu looked at his uncle's threatening eyes with a smile, blinked hurriedly, and added, "It's my uncle's secret."

He Yanshu also pursed his lips at He Nianqiu, and revealed the matter.

Resting at home in the afternoon, He Yanshu received a message from a friend saying that it was his birthday and asked him out for a drink.He originally wanted to push it away, but He Nianqiu felt that he really needed to have a good drink, so he tried his best to urge him to go out and relax.He Nianqiu also said that this is called "celebrating being single again".

He Yanshu thought about it and felt that he shouldn't be so decadent, so he agreed and made an appointment to meet at night.

In the evening, I went to the bar that I had an appointment with, and the sky was already dark.The colorful tubes flashed the words "Rainbow", not the "RedWood" they used to go to.I heard that the house has not been peaceful since last night, as if it was being targeted by someone.These two are the busiest ones in the left and right area, so they changed this one.

In fact, for He Yanshu, the bar is just a place for entertainment, what's the difference between here and there?So even though it was an unfamiliar place, he happily found the address to go there.

Before entering, the eyes of all kinds of guests began to be glued to the door.Several people who wanted to strike up a conversation saw the black ring on He Yanshu's right middle finger, and walked away wisely.

If you can have a meat with such an elegant and handsome Asian man.The personal encounter is not in vain tonight.But who would have thought that this person was asexual?If you can only watch but not eat, it is better not to suffer.

He Yanshu didn't care, and nodded and smiled at the people he passed by very comfortably. He put on the ring before going out just to avoid unnecessary trouble, so that he could keep breathing smoothly on this occasion.

Inside, unlike domestic bars, there are no booths. The large area is a dance floor. After all, everyone is here to dance and disco, so you only need one or two sofas for rest.

His friends have almost arrived, except for him, there is another programmer who did not come, saying that he will come right after overtime work.

The birthday star Baicheng was surrounded by people, seeing He Yanshu hurriedly waved, and shouted loudly: "Yan Shu, come here."

He Yanshu nodded to them, walked towards them through the dancing crowd, and was grabbed by another person before he could speak.He was also familiar with that person, a friend he met in the gym with Bai Cheng, named Jiang Feng.

"Well, it's coming. Today, Baicheng is generous and opened the ace of spades. It's not for nothing." Jiang Feng said loudly, looking at everyone and laughing.

He Yanshu smiled gently, and patted Baicheng on the shoulder: "Ah Cheng, happy birthday. I came in a hurry and didn't bring any presents. I'll give you another one next time. How about I toast you now?"

Before picking up the cup, Jiang Feng hurriedly came up to stop him: "Wait a minute, wait a moment, I said He Yanshu, you are just like you, you are not good at drinking and you like to rush. What are you doing in such a hurry, you are afraid that you will wait a while The wine is gone? Ah Cheng can say, the wine will be served when the wine is finished, it's enough!"

"Yes, the gift is not important, as long as you guys come, it's better than anything if you have a lot of fun." Baicheng said. "Yan Shu, wait for them to drink a few rounds before starting, otherwise I won't be able to send you back."

"I can drink enough." He Yanshu said, laughing first.

"Who doesn't know that you are a fruit plate killer." Jiang Feng teased, "But we won't force you today, we must focus our firepower on killing the birthday star Baicheng first."

Baicheng didn't know whether to laugh or cry: "Be merciful, be merciful."

There were two other people beside them, both of whom were not Asian. He Yanshu didn't know each other, so Bai Cheng introduced them one by one.

After a group of people had a few rounds of drinking, they started to play a drinking game, which Jiang Feng learned from his friends in China, and it was called "Da Lang".The rules are like this, starting clockwise from the birthday star, everyone will give the birthday star a truth or dare question. If the birthday star completes it successfully, the person who asked the question will have a drink. The birthday star can go to the next person to ask questions. If the birthday star answers If you don't come up or don't want to do it, you will be punished with three cups and start over from the first person.One wave is not flat and another wave rises again, just like the back wave beats the front wave.

He Yanshu is no stranger to this game, he often played it when he was in college, and when he met Ji Chenyu, he couldn't get away from this game.The only thing he felt about the game was horror, and if he didn't answer the truth or someone else asked some tricky big adventure, he might drink it forever.

Fortunately, this time it was targeted at the birthday star Baicheng instead of him. He Yanshu didn't drink a lot and retired smoothly.

After drinking, a group of people ran to the middle of the dance floor to dance.From Thursday to Saturday night, people are crowded, and they don’t know what the bartender is mixing. Most people just hang their necks up and continue to devote themselves to the crazy music after drinking, as if they have endless energy. .

He Yanshu didn't go in and dance, but just leaned against the bar and watched the group of demons dance wildly. From time to time, he chatted with the bartender in English and chatted about wine-related topics.

He has passed the age of unrestrained youth, but he still likes the lively atmosphere.Although there are many people here and the music is very loud, no one will pay too much attention to him, everyone is immersed in their own carnival - to some extent, the air here is freer than anywhere .

Although the bartender was so busy that he was dizzy, he still answered He Yanshu's questions.There are many guests coming and going, with all kinds of tempers and dispositions, but it is rare to see someone as attractive as the person in front of him.

His smile is so casual and amiable, his voice is so deep and magnetic, and his speaking speed is not too fast or slow, which makes people feel comfortable.He is quiet amidst the hustle and bustle, no one can't help but take a few more glances, but they can't bear to rush forward to break the peaceful atmosphere around him.

After drinking several shots in a row, He Yanshu's nerves became a little sluggish. Surrounded by fiery waves, he felt a psychedelic pleasure.

The music was very loud, people came and went, Baicheng and the others were all scattered in a blink of an eye, Jiang Feng touched him after a while, leaned into his ear and said loudly: "Baicheng drank too much, I will go to the toilet with him .”

He Yanshu looked at Jiang Feng's unsteady legs, worried and amused: "You stay here, I'll take him there."

So He Yanshu carried Baicheng to the bathroom. Baicheng was about 1.8 meters tall, he was so heavy, and he was so drunk that he almost went to the women's bathroom.It was almost half an hour after I helped him deal with it and put him on the sofa.

He Yanshu was staring at Baicheng's drunken appearance worryingly, when he heard an exclamation - "Someone opened dozens of bottles of Cristal over there, and said that everyone present can have a few drinks for free!"

The people around laughed and sighed with swear words, damn, the crocodile came from nowhere.

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