The crematorium is missing one, come quickly

After Ji Chenyu returned to China, he had a lot of entertainment.

In the first few days, he was able to reject some of the projects on the grounds that the project had just started, and took time to cling to He Yanshu, but later on he really had no choice but to deal with it.

Some of the people who invited him to dinner were people who were in power, and some people who asked him, but most of them were old friends of grandma.

The first two can find any reason to refuse, but the last one has to spend time and energy to maintain friendship - this is his obligation as the heir of the Ji family, and it is also the etiquette he should have as a junior.

When necessary, he will take the initiative to treat guests.

No one can succeed purely on their own.The Ji family relied on many of these people for their fortune back then, even now, the Ji family still needs their help in many areas, Ji Chenyu is very clear.

In fact, he hated these entertainments when he was a child.Except for grandma and the Xu family, he doesn't care about anyone else.

But he was born to be very likable. When he was carried by his elders and walked on the street, everyone who knew him or didn't know him wanted to come over and touch his jade-like and lovely cheeks.

It can be said that he has a natural advantage in interpersonal communication, no matter what the occasion is, he can feel like a fish in water.

After three cups and two cups, and then squinting his eyes and saying a few nice words, Ji Chenyu made those bosses smile, and recognized several of them, including godfathers and godmothers.

"Chen Yu, are you considering settling down in China? The godmother will introduce girls to you. The godmother has several daughters who are still dating!" Before leaving, Mrs. Liu was holding the hand of this handsome young man at the door. Hand, reluctant to let go.

Ji Chenyu staggered a little, but maintained his temper very well, and refused with a bright smile: "Godmother! I have someone I like, save the girls and introduce them to better people!"

After finishing speaking, with Zhang Yi's support, he waved his hand as farewell, and said "Be careful on the road, give me a call when you get home", and then staggered into the car.

"It's a pity." Mrs. Liu looked at the car driving away and sighed with regret, "I don't know who is cheaper than this little diamond king."

"Zhang Yi! Water!" Ji Chenyu got into the car, lay on his back in the back seat, untied his tie and panted.

"Come on, Boss, drink slowly." Zhang handed him some water, "Be careful if you spill it."

Ji Chenyu took it, and drank it in one gulp, the speed of swallowing was far behind the speed of water pouring down his throat.A lot of water flowed down the corner of his mouth, soaking his clothes.

Zhang Yi peeked at the streamlined wet jaw and the tight chest muscles under the transparent material, and quickly turned around—working next to the Boss is really a test of one's endurance!

"Zhang Yi, how is Doctor He doing recently?" Ji Chenyu closed her eyes and asked almost instinctively.

"Very good, I go to the company to attend the meeting on time every day, and the employees like him very much." Zhang Yi told the truth, and there are many people who confess their love to Dr. He - but he dare not tell Ji Chenyu this.

"You tell him, when I am free, I must see him."

"Boss, you should take a good rest. You go back to sleep every day, and you don't wake up until the next afternoon. I feel distressed when I see it." Zhang Yi said in a straight line, "You have already explained everything about the project. Let them Just go ahead, there is no reason for the boss to personally take care of those things..." Before he could finish speaking, he was hit on the back of the head by a disposable cup.

Woohoo, Boss, it's not that you don't know that I have to report to the old lady every day, and you can't let her know that you drink and stay up late every day and hang around men, it's painful!Zhang Yi shut up with hatred.

"I'm going to see him. If he doesn't see me for a few days, he will forget me." Ji Chenyu looked out of the car window with a lonely expression.

"No, you're thinking too much." Zhang Yi spun the car radio, "Let's listen to the radio to relieve boredom, and we'll be home in a while."

A sad emotional song was played slowly, like weeping like complaining, like resentment like admiration, Ji Chenyu listened, silent for a long time without speaking.

Zhang Yi thought it would be good to cut the song, but after playing this one, an older and sadder song came, "I am the one who loves you the most, how can you let me be sad".

Zhang Yi looked in the rearview mirror and felt that his Boss' eye sockets were a little red.

What a broken radio station! Boss is frustrated in love!Which pot is not opened and which pot is lifted!

"Ah, this one doesn't sound good, let's change it." Zhang Yi adjusted the channel while controlling the steering wheel.

The newly tuned one sounds very lively, the host is a man and a woman, and there is a male guest outside.

I was talking about buying a car, but then I talked about marriage and love. The man bought a car and a house, but the woman regretted it when the wedding was approaching, she insisted on not marrying him, and even ran away from the marriage.

"Sometimes when we get married, we don't necessarily value each other's material completely." The hostess concluded.

Zhang Yi heard Ji Chenyu sniff.

"Oh, what is it all about? The quality of the current radio station is too bad, no wonder no one listens to it!" Zhang Yi gritted his teeth and turned it around again, he still couldn't believe it!

Isn't there a normal point that has nothing to do with love!

This tune was blank for the first few seconds, Zhang Yi thought it was a problem with the signal, and was about to change it again, when he heard a gentle male voice say: "I have to think about this listener's problem. "

Zhang Yi turned his head to look at Ji Chenyu almost immediately, and Ji Chenyu also looked at him, obviously recognizing the owner of the voice.

"I didn't expect Dr. He to have a side job at night after work." Zhang Yi was dumbfounded.

"Speak up louder." Ji Chenyu ordered.

"Okay." Zhang turned up the volume until the speakers under the four doors and in front of the trunk filled the car with He Yanshu's gentle tone.

"The content of this listener's question was, 'A good friend was diagnosed with moderate depression, and she spit black mud and poured bitter water on me every day, using me as a trash can. Sometimes she would mention that she wanted to die, and I was impatient. If I even go back to her, I’ll die. On the one hand, I think patients shouldn’t take advantage of their illnesses to commit crimes, and on the other hand, I feel that I shouldn’t be doing this. May I ask the doctor what should I do?’”

"Well, first of all, I express my regret for your friend's situation. I hope she can recover as soon as possible. I also ask her to follow the doctor's advice and take the medicine on time."

"Depression is not terrible. In fact, each of us will experience some depression in our lives. It is inevitable that patients will pass on depression to the listener when they talk."

"But from another point of view, she is still willing to communicate with you, which proves that she still has the consciousness of self-help. In this case, despite the difficulties, I still suggest that everyone be tolerant and considerate of them, because they are just sick. It was not intended to hurt anyone."

"We shouldn't be too harsh on the patients, of course, the premise is that they are indeed patients, not people who abuse others through depression." He Yanshu smiled lightly.

"Regarding death, this listener doesn't need to worry too much. In fact, for patients with moderate depression and below, it is beneficial to discuss the method of death with her."

Having said that, He Yanshu fell silent, and laughed at himself after a few seconds: "Of course, this is just my personal opinion. If you think this relationship is causing you pain, you can terminate it at any time. Maybe it's because I once had After going through this kind of experience, I would also think 'if only someone could give me a hand'. Although I survived by myself, luckily I managed to get out in the end."

"You might as well say it and share it with everyone."

Ji Chenyu's body gradually sat up straight and became stiff, his hands clenched into fists in front of him, his black pupils were bottomless.

"When I was in college, I used to have an unforgettable relationship. My family of origin had a bad relationship, and my ex was innocent and brought me a lot of laughter."

"I thought he could take me out of that nightmare and made up my mind to spend my whole life with him, but he told me that he came with another purpose, and I also found out that he actually likes someone else."

"I chose to go abroad. It should be said that I escaped. When I was sitting on the plane, I was thinking, if an accident happened now and I died in a crash, that would be fine."

"At the saddest time, I needed to take six medicines at the same time. It took me nearly half a year to finally get out." He Yanshu breathed a long sigh of relief after saying all this.

"I hope that everyone can endure the darkness and welcome the dawn like me."

The tone was calm, as if he was talking about other people's affairs, but everyone who listened could feel how much effort he had spent to overcome all this.

Zhang Yi was so angry that he didn't dare to vent his anger, he turned his head to look at Ji Chenyu - the man in the suit looked ashen, his fingers trembling uncontrollably.

How could He Yanshu have such cowardly emotions?Hasn't he always been cold-hearted and ruthless?Even if he held his blood and sincerity, He Yanshu never bothered to take a look.

In the distant time, Ji Chenyu felt that something went wrong.

This feeling was very terrifying, many times more terrifying than when He Yanshu refused him to go back to the country together, it made him feel as if he had fallen into an abyss, and his heart was choked and he couldn't breathe.

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The sun is shining brightly.There is ice in the glass in front of you.

He had long heard that He Yanshu's mother, Yan Yan, was a trustee of S University. Seeing her today, Ji Chenyu felt that this woman was even more domineering than the picture of his grandma when she was young.

She said some things that an evil mother-in-law would say in a bitter drama of unknown age, such as "I heard the gossip in the school", "My son's future", "Step by step", "Marry a wife and have children" and so on. , Ji Chenyu listened nonchalantly, with downcast eyes and no words.

She looked at me as if she was looking at a piece of goods, so uncomfortable.he thinks.

She also said that if he couldn't help He Yanshu, he would become a stain on He Yanshu.

That's not the case at all, he can take He Yanshu to see his grandma, they can live together, and no one will think that they are stained.

But this woman is He Yanshu's mother, so he should give her face - from her point of view, He Yanshu is her pride, but why has He Yanshu never heard such a compliment?

"Aunt Yan." Ji Chenyu held the cup and spoke softly, Yan Yan looked into his beautiful eyes, and a feeling of irritability rose in his heart.

Boys have to look like boys, why are you abducting other people's sons like a vixen all day long?

"I won't leave Brother Yan Shu, not at all, so you don't need to continue." Ji Chenyu poked the floating ice cube with his finger.

"Ji Chenyu, your name is Ji Chenyu, why can't you listen to your child? You are 21, and you should be sensible. Logically speaking, if you didn't manage you well, it's your parents' negligence. I don't have to help others to discipline you. Son, but since you are here to provoke our Yan Shu, it is impossible for me to be polite to you."

The ice cube was crushed by fingers, Ji Chenyu stared at the crushed ice in his hand, smiled lightly and said, "Aunt Yan, my parents passed away when I was young, they really didn't care about me."

Yan Yan didn't expect him to say such a thing, he was stunned, and drank his glass of ice water: "I won't tell you any more. I know my son, he is not a deviant person , has always been well-behaved. He is only with you because he can't save face and never knows how to refuse. When he thinks clearly, he will take the initiative to separate from you. "

"It will be ugly to be dumped at that time, why don't you say it yourself." Yan Yan glanced at the cheap clothes on his body, "If you break up with him, maybe I can show kindness and give away for free You study abroad."

After finishing speaking, she picked up her bag and walked out of the coffee shop quickly, as if even looking at him was disgusting.

Wouldn't it be disgusting for a homosexual who ruined his son?

Ji Chenyu was angry, but only a little bit.

Yanyan is Yanyan, and He Yanshu is He Yanshu.In the final analysis, he didn't have any expectations for Yan Yan, even if she belittled him to the dust, he could still pretend that nothing happened.

Ji Chenyu has always told himself that as long as He Yanshu himself is willing to continue, he will not be disturbed by other things.

But within a few days, He Yanshu's friend Yuan Jing also came to his door.

Yuan Jing pulled away a bottle of canned beer in front of him, squeezed it after drinking it, and said with determination: "You and He Yanshu should separate."

"Did Aunt Yan call you here?" Ji Chenyu asked.

"That's just one aspect. As He Yanshu's friend, I also don't think you are suitable." Yuan Jing endured and endured, before swallowing the phrase "not worthy".

"Where is it inappropriate?" Ji Chenyu's long eyelashes were thick and covered his eyes, so he couldn't see his emotions clearly.

Yuan Jing looked at him and said quickly: "Look at you, you are self-willed and troublesome, you can't even take care of yourself, let alone take care of Yan Shu. Yan Shu is busy with her studies and work, and she has to take care of her. You, you are not looking for a boyfriend, you are looking for a son for yourself."

"He, does he miss me that much?" Ji Chenyu took a while to speak.

Yuan Jing was overwhelmed by his depressed expression, and hurriedly said: "Of course. I am his friend, who can understand him better than me?"

"With his personality, he wouldn't tell you directly. But he told me that if it wasn't for the big adventure that night, he would never accept a person like you. If he didn't feel guilty about you, If you want to do your best, and you look pretty good, going out together will at least give him some face, do you think he will choose you instead of a woman?"

"That guy is not born gay, on the contrary, he is a little homophobic. He is so face-saving, he always feels ashamed to speak out." I used to think, but now...it probably hasn't changed!

"I understand."

Ji Chenyu said, I understand.

He understood that He Yanshu had never changed for him, and that no one could warm up that cold and ruthless heart—Xu Luo couldn't do it, and he couldn't do it either.

He knew that Yuan Jing didn't lie to him, just like He Yanshu said before that their relationship can only be underground, he is not allowed to tell others that He Yanshu has always been a person who cherishes his reputation.

But He Yanshu is so contradictory. During the day, he is a model student on campus, and at night, he is a frequent visitor to the nightclub.

He Yanshu's smile is fraternity, listening is perfunctory, hugging is coaxing, sharing the same bed is indifferent.

How could he beat He Yanshu?This man who can capture his heart without making a fuss, who can only smile and say "Sorry, I'm sorry" when looking at the shards of glass heart on the ground.

Even when breaking up, you have to maintain your dignity, never bring it up, but let relatives and friends make him talk about it.

It turned out that He Yanshu was waiting for him to finish.

He Yanshu has been waiting for too long, it has been four years, and acting is very tiring, so he should be impatient.

Ji Chenyu recalled the poems he read with Xu Luo when he was a child - passion is always annoyed by ruthlessness.

Xu Luo liked this sentence very much, and he had to read it over and over again every time he read it, but he didn't take it seriously: the other party is ruthless, and I am also ruthless, so it's only fair.

Xu Luo, forgive me for forgetting my original intention.

In the end, he said those words to He Yanshu almost in a vengeful manner—for Xu Luo, for himself who was suffering from the same disease as Xu Luo.

They were all abandoned by He Yanshu.In other words, He Yanshu never wanted them.

"To meet your parents?" Ji Chenyu suppressed the moisture in his eyes, and forced a smile, "But I never planned to do so." His soul hurts like it doesn't belong to him.

He Yanshu's expression was very flat, as if he had gone through a difficult memory: "Oh, Xu Luo, such a long-ago name."

"His death has nothing to do with me, you can go." He Yanshu said, even stingy in giving to keep him.

When Ji Chenyu returned home, he threw all the things on the table to the ground, smashing the debris all over the floor.He knelt on the ground and cried loudly, but no one came to comfort him as usual.

Why is he the only one suffering?Why is he always hysterical like a clown, while He Yanshu is high above the clouds and calm?

He Yanshu really never liked him.

But he wanted love, a love that was turbulent, violent, and wrapped him until he was suffocated, just like He Yanshu's hug that night.

But every day with He Yanshu was like a stolen candy. Knowing that the quantity was limited, she would eat one and lose one, so she had to count and eat.

It felt like he picked up a bird under a tree when he was a child, because it was too young and the bird hadn't developed enough to eat and drink by itself.

He put the bird in a cage and visited it every few hours, seeing the bird getting weaker and weaker, but there was nothing he could do.

He wanted to see if it was all right, but he was afraid that it would be dead when he saw it.

He Yanshu, have you ever tasted the feeling of worrying about gains and losses?

It felt like waiting to die.

I hate it so much.

Ji Chenyu slept in the dark for three days at home, after three days, he cleared everything about Xu Luo, and decided to go to He Yan to comfort him.

So what if he's so low in the dust, he's shameless, and he's going to cling to He Yanshu's side!

However, she learned from Tong Xiaoyao that He Yanshu was going to study abroad.

"I said earlier that Yan Shu has his own rhythm and plan. He will not be faster because of anyone, nor slower because of anyone. He is much more rational than you, and you will not be able to catch up even if you study for another four years. Come on." Yuan Jing said, seeing a face covered with water stains.

"What are you doing? Why the hell are you crying, big man, are you disgusting?" Yuan Jing was frightened by this scene.

"Shut up, don't say a few words." Tong Xiaoyao squatted down and patted Ji Chenyu's back. This optimistic boy acted like the sky was falling. I was afraid that he would be overwhelmed. "Stop crying, Chen Yu. There's no need to cry. People live in this world, and there will always be a time to see each other again."

There is always time to see you again.But when we met again, I didn't know that you had crossed such a deep darkness and treated you like a joke.

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"Boss, Boss, are you okay?"

Seeing the pale face of the person in the back seat, retching uncontrollably, and sweating on his forehead, Zhang Yi said anxiously, "I'll take you to the hospital."

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